Morning Lesson May 19, Transcription
Chapter 2 “Explains how the light of Ein Sof....”
23. R. (04:11) We need to think here about our intentions, the intention why am I studying what for what do I want to get out of this study, how through this study can I come closer to the Creator and for this would be my primary concern. That's what he's telling me here about what's happening, the actions of the Creator, the light of Ein Sof, the world of Ein Sof and the ray of light that appears and works the will to receive that was formed in the world of Ein Sof. Those things I might discover but first I have to have the correct relationship with what I am reading so all of that is in order to connect me with the Creator.
24. S. (05:10) If so what is more important to focus on what is written not to focus on what is written but just to try to draw the reforming light?
R. I asked Rabash exactly in this way, when it was 40 years ago, he said, yes it is more important that you think about your attitude to the study and to the Creator then to think about the study itself. It doesn't even matter what is written because either way you don't understand what is written here rather what do you want to get out of this study, how through this study when you are in it then you try to awaken, what do you want to accomplish what do you want to get to acquire, that's the intention because with the intention you achieve results.
S. Nevertheless, I said he is going to ask you this question, what it says here.
R. There's no room for curiosity, there's no place for curiosity.
S. Not with what is written here?
R. Relate to it but I'm not going to investigate those things, rather I expect things to influence me and open my heart. I don't expect those things that I am now hearing or reading to open my head or my brain but to open my heart and the heart understands. Since through the feeling that comes as a result of the correct intention and to the extent I have the right intention, it opens the heart and then I understand in my heart.
S. Please explain to me really when you say that the intention is more important than the reading.
R. Of course the intention is the most important, there's something more important we've been talking about this lately all the time and you still don't want to hear it.
S. I do want to hear it.
R. I know you don't want to hear it because you argue instead of absorbing it, I feel sorry for you.
S. I'm trying really, I'm trying.
R. I don't want to talk about it. Try to read and listen to my words and somehow to implement them and apply them. This is your key to spirituality if not you will remain a beast.
25. S. (08:15) Does the line contain the light of Hochma?
R. The line contains everything. It is the attitude of the Creator to the created beings.
26. S. (08:52) He writes here about the division into two systems, the line and the circle, the intention that we are trying to build. What does this belong to?
R. The attitude of the Creator to all of creation is a circle and later we established it through our attitude to the Creator so he begins to relate to us through a line. We wish to enter and he equally wants to enter with us into such a relationship of 'I to my beloved and my beloved to me' and this is called a line, as much as we open the special attitude toward him, a selective attitude accordingly he influences us.
S. It turns out that through our intention we are changing some general rules?
R. Yes, because through our attitude to the Creator we add conditions of connection between us, between him and us, to the extent there is reflected light from us we begin to discover him, to understand and to feel him. Our reflected light is our correct intention to words how he is and relates to us.
S. He influences us through the general laws and we act against it, we build the reflected light?
R. The Creator influences us in a round way in the form of a circle and I wish to arrange my attitude towards him in the form of a line, because through the line I have a feeling of give-and-take with him, the Creator and the created being. This is how it, through the line we come to an understanding, a dialogue, without it there's no connection with the Creator and the created being, only through the line.
Item 2 “we should not perceive this act in its superficial ....?
27. R. (15:17) The upper light is in absolute rest and the attitude of the Creator towards the created being never changes, this attitude remains constant, always for the benefit of the created beings, to bestow 100% from the Creator to the created beings as He doesn't know any other way, He is only a desire to bestow, to do good, absolute love. If we see certain changes, we see them in our own vessels. How we receive the attitude of the Creator according to equivalence of form you can see his attitude 100% as loving and good and as much as we are despaired from Him we will discover his attitude less than absolute love towards us. It all depends upon our vessels, meaning the Creator does not change. He is always the good that does good, that good ones, the evil ones, there is no change from them, there is also the Creator's attitude towards us doesn't change as well. If He is good that does good everywhere and in every state He is the good that does good so where do we get such bad terrible states from? It is also from that same, 'good who does good' attitude except in our vessels we are in opposite states relative to His attitude, this is how we feel His attitude as opposite. This is called that each one is judging according to his own flaws, according to the level of disparity from the Creator, that is how I receive His influence as different from good.
Reader continues “According to the above, you can thoroughly understand....”
28. R. (19:40) The upper light feels the entire reality and there is no difference between all of the desires that appear in reality, He sees them equally, rather the desires themselves when they receive the light according to their qualities as much as they are in equivalence or disparity with the lights, they feel the changes in the light. Whether or not they may be aware of it or not, but these changes they are doing themselves, not like the upper light is undergoing any changes. The Creator wants to shine his light to everyone, He wants everyone to accept his attitude equally, that He is the good that does, it doesn't matter who is smaller or greater as each one should be filled 100%. Those who are not capable of receiving this fulfillment because their will to receive is not yet aimed toward the qualities of the light. When he gets to a state like the light treating everyone equally he will also feel the Creator's attitude toward everyone equally.
29. S. (21:14) During the restriction Malchut what is it that I am impressed by in the vessel?
R. In the lesson of the restriction in the vessel is when the Creator relates to them with love and wants to bestow to him also to the fourth phase, the fourth discernment in that quality of the vessel feels that it is not relating equally to the light, the way the light relates to her, she feels shame as a result and consequently restricts herself and in this way she seemingly protect herself from being actively opposed to the light in practice. In this way she isolates herself from the light. This is serious, severe action but it is what we will learn about because the light cannot reach equivalence with the vessel as the vessel does not feel that it can reach equivalence with the light the way the Creator relates to it.
30. S. (23:02) What does he mean when he writes here in Item 2 what is the incident, a chance?
R. I don't know how that was translated to you, which word is he referring to?
S. In the beginning of Item 2, it says we should not perceive this act as superficial, meaning as a human act.
R. The Creator does not change, all of the changes come from the vessel, even now we are in the light of Ein Sof that fills the entire space, all of the vessels and everything but the vessels themselves are incapable of feeling it, even though the Creator is in them, they are not capable of feeling it because beyond the attitude of the Creator, there is the law of the equivalence of form. So they are unable to feel a good attitude in love, but only in the way that they relate in return to the Creator. It turns out that by that they corrupt and tarnish the state. Just like in a family when a child behaves badly, the parents love him nevertheless because they don't change their attitude and return to the child. We see in creation is not so to correct the child. You need to relate to him seemingly as if he is relating to them to show him that there cannot be only love, from the other side there is hate and rejection. This is how we have to show children an attitude that is more or less equal to how they relate to us and in this way you are gradually placing them into a line and not in a circle, because if you behave with them in a circle you give a child everything he wants from the bottom of the heart, the child does not feel any boundaries, any restrictions and it corrupts him quickly, for life. It'll be very difficult to get along with other people because they will relate to it as a line. That’s how we have to raise our kids
31. S. (26:19) What Baal HaSulam is telling us about how the vessel becomes a vessel is this the same process that we are living in our awakening in the 10 toward connection.
R. You can say there is something in this, but in 100% we can't take it from the book and then put it into the society or into our life. You need each time to see how much it is because we still don't understand what is happening.
32. S. (27:08) The bad that is created from the point of view of the created being or only of the Creator, it seems like the ego disturbs us from seeing the development of the created being and the purpose of creation?
R. The ego conceals from us the Creator and in this it is the source of all the bad, yes.
33. S. (28:06) To be more precise here when we are talking about the upper light this means his essence, Atzmuto, or the Creator?
R. His essence is something else, this doesn't belong to us, when we say Creator, come and see, see what I reveal.
34. S. (28:73) Does our advancement depend upon how many ins and outs, we have in our intention?
R. Our progress depends only upon building our correct intention to the Creator, just as he relates to us in love, we must also make an effort to return such to him.
35. S. (29:21) How do I become more sensitive to the changes in me from the upper light?
R. By participating with the friends. We cannot reveal the upper light, rather in some connection between us, even minimal, the smallest possible because the light must come to us. Each one of us when it passes through all of the friends, if then comes to this person that wants to reveal the upper light only in such a manner. So the nullification before the friends is the first condition to be a vessel to the upper light.
36. S. (30:25) I am very cautious with my tongue in the language of this question, in the empty spaces where there is no light in the wisdom of Kabbalah when they say that there is no light, that the creature cannot receive there and the Creator is trying to educate the created being, in accordance with what you said earlier that he needs to educate him. In those empty spaces is there light or no lights, how do I relate to those empty spaces?
R. You still don't know how to relate in general, if there is or there isn't light and to what extent is there light, these are still not relevant questions for you but know that the light fills everything, it does not change as it is the first and it is the last. What we reveal is only to the extent of the participation of our vessels with the light. About the light itself we have nothing to talk about, that we are talking only about our vessels and what extent of equivalence of light they are in and then we can speak of the light. Meaning these phenomena within the will to receive that the will to receive is impressed by the will to bestow that it attains that is called light.
37. S. (32:22) How can we free ourselves from the game where we are opposite the Creator?
R. If we free up this game, this is not what we need, we need to reach with our intentions that I operate through the friends to the Creator as much as I desire that my attitude will be on the desire to bestow, in love, connection, a warm heart. Such that if I make an effort to direct myself to the friends and the Creator then ultimately in this attitude that I develop on top of all of the events that the Creator arranges for me then I reach such relations that I begin to tell him through all of these events and the Creator is revealed.
38. S. (33:34) If we say that the quality of the Creator is in absolute rest, why are we expecting, grasping one stage where we bring him ten friends and another stage where we don't succeed to do so?
R. When we don't succeed this is so that we will connect more, receive light, additional forces between the connection between us and be able to bestow to him, if we cannot bestow contentment to him this is called that we don't have a vessel, that the connection between us is not intense enough. So let's connect a bit more and from the connection between us relate to Him and the correct intention, this is called the reflected light and within the reflected light we will reveal him.
S. Is it correct to remember somewhere in the hind part of your brain that it is always contentment in every state of ours?
R. I don't know what you're talking about in the back of the head, what does that have to do with anything? The back of the head is the corporeal form of how we perceive this world, nothing to do with spirituality.
39. S. (35:17) We learned that the light causes the vessel to want to be like it, by what does this take place, through the pleasure that the vessel feels from the giver?
R. Yes, the pleasure in the spiritual vessel and from this he feels that he is giving to the Creator and that the Creator is revealed and accepts this giving.
40. S. (35:57) What can we give the Creator if it comes out of the point of view that he has everything
R. We can't give him anything other than the ability to bestow to you, if you open yourself up to be able to bestow back to the Creator, the pleasure, meaning that you want to enjoy from this that he bestows to you because you are returning the pleasure to him, that you are awakening the pleasure in him from bestowal and in this you are enjoying. Let's say you are an adult and you go to visit your mom you sit with her she gives you something to eat, something that you always liked since you were a child, maybe you're not so drawn to this but that you do a big favor to your mom because she's doing it and you're showing her how much you enjoy it. Then she enjoys what you enjoy from her. This is something that is dependent upon the attitude towards the Creator and this attitude you can't develop without friends because otherwise it will be an egoistic attitude. With the friends it seems to us that maybe we can do it. What is the benefit, there's me, the Creator that you can be in the correct line of mutual attitude with the Creator and with the friends here is the matter, that if we don't reveal our attitude to the Creator through the friend then we still can't relate to him on the intention to bestow. We cannot.
Beginners say, the Creator, no problem, give, receive, feel, but the 10 this is something, what is this burden of something additional that is next to me as they still don't feel that to relate to the Creator on the intention to bestow is specifically through the friends. This is the vessel that stabilizes us on the intention to bestow otherwise it is not an intention to bestow. The 10 is something very dear, why? Because without this I wouldn't be directed to the Creator in a spiritual manner. I try to feel such and such. From the side of our egoistic heart today we are directed to the Creator and in the 10 we don't think so much, but rather must be done by force, that we obligate ourselves but that if we advance more we will begin to feel that the attitude to the Creator cannot be other than through the 10. I am not directed to him as I don't have such a form that my actions could be directed to the Creator other than if not true the 10 and immediately I begin to hold on to the 10, to see its importance, to appreciate it and to advance correctly.
Item 2 Inner Light “Now you can understand what the ARI meant by the words....”
41. S. (43:16) He writes that the vessel that was empty of the light itself causes the extension of the line from Infinity, it's not clear why the vessel that was empty causes the extension of the line?
R. Because when the vessel empties and the desire remains empty. There are Reshimot left in it from the light, that is nature that is part of the fulfillment, a very small portion remains in the desire and the desire yearns to return the fulfillment back and this yearning determines the new desire, that it is not the same desire that was before the fulfillment. After the fulfillment it is a desire that knows what fulfillment is that yearns to return the fulfillment in a direct manner. We see that after the vessel receives wants, besides desire it also has yearning, meaning it knows what it wants, it is directed toward what was in it before, it wants to return it and it doesn't want anything else, I can't imagine anything else. The vessel is very absolute, this is the record left within it from the fulfillment and this fulfillment it wants.
S. The yearning is to fill the three phases that are yet to be empty?
R. Yes, it also has the impression from the restriction that the fourth aspect caused this and thus its yearning is to continue the light that was in it upon the previous three aspects. We will learn this whole process.
42. S. (45:28) I remember that we used to follow with our finger in every single word, to relate very deeply, with a very internal intention. What is the force of a word, in TES and what impression does it have on us?
R. As to pass your finger over every word, do it, we don't need to do this, we need to make an effort to understand the essence of the changes of what they are telling us that is happening in reality. This is what we're talking about, even if you stand upon each and every word for a thousand years you won't be able to get inwards to the essence of the words because the intention is not for this, the intention is what they're talking about is as much as the heart is directed they will be able to perform actions of bestow by connection with everyone and to connect this bestowal to the Creator. It is not in the words itself and here the wise one does not learn, you want to try the intention of the heart with as much as you understand the words and that is not correct. I will say it again, in general yes, you need to more or less know what it is talking about, but not that you're putting your finger upon each and every word that is an entirely incorrect approach. Later on we will reach an understanding of each and every word of Baal HaSulam, of course. But not that our spiritual development is dependent upon this. Our intention is only dependent upon the depth of the heart that you can activate it with the friends towards the Creator.
S. The words themselves have a force even if I don't have the right intention?
R. I don't understand this, this is already spirituality, you need to go to maybe other places and learn what force each word has, this approach I can't stand, it is not by us. We are always with you in two different places.
43. S. (48:17) It is written that they couldn't receive from the light of Ein Sof but a small measure called a line why is it a very small measure?
R. Because it's not capable of understanding, holding on to the feeling, the attitude of the Creator to him, only to the extent that he is capable of directing himself to the Creator. Here the perception is very selective, very limited, only according to his intention, his attitude to the Creator. It comes in a line, the Kli. This is the creature in his desire to be in one direction with the Creator, to bestow to the Creator here he is forming the attitude towards him. Let's say you are with someone who is capable, of wanting to give a whole table full of things and you are only taking one thing off of that table in that you can give the correct attitude to the host. With a manner in an open and revealed heart, that you can only take the small thing from the plate and this is what you're eating to the pleasure of the host and more than that would be for the pleasure of yourself. You begin to feel that if you receive more than that portion that you are already activating different vessels, different pleasure, self-pleasure. So until up until, as much as you can activate the pleasure for the host you work with that according to what is placed before you. This is called Kav Dak, thin line.
44. S. (50:30) The relation of a circle and a line, how is the circular attitude change from the friends has to do to with the attitude to the Creator?
R. The difference between a circle and a line, the line is in a restricted manner, that I'm not capable of giving it all of my desires, but only in a small part portion of them this is called the line. Let’s say that I am receiving forces from above now and I can receive everything in intention to bestow, and give everything with intention to bestow then I will be in a circle.
45. S. (51:30) Baal HaSulam says that the vessels themselves do all the changes because they're not receiving but only to their measure, what is the vessel all together?
R. A vessel, someone has a vessel if they have a desire to bestow, this is it very simply, a desire to receive that can use its desire to receive an order to bestow to the other this is called that he has a vessel. That according to the extent that he can receive with the intention to bestow, he can receive.
S. The question is do we have vessels or not yet?
R. Your neighbors have a vessel, you don't.
S. Okay.
R. Some have and some don’t
S. What is it that someone has a Kli, vessel?
R. A Kli, vessel means that I have a desire such that I can restrict it from self-pleasure and activate it with the intention to bestow that I use it.
S. When you have a vessel what do you receive as a result of this?
R. You receive on the intention to bestow to the friend, to the host, to the Creator from this action that I want from this action that all the pleasure that I now feel. I feel that I received this in order to bestow to the host or to the friend. Otherwise I wouldn't receive it, I very much want to receive it but I wouldn't receive it. Only on the condition that I am awakening pleasure in him, you need to think about it.
46. S. (54:03) This example where first I restrict the desire and see how to bestow to the Creator, how to be in connection for that?
R. You can't make it restriction without a connection with the Creator, where are you taking the forces to make the restriction? You can't. In spirituality you can't just do this, it's not like in corporeality where shame helps you, that you don't know why you're stopping or starting your desires. In spirituality you must be in connection with the host, otherwise how are you restricting yourself?
S. How do I grade the desire where I can only receive in a small matter and no more than that in order to bestow?
R. It is from this that the creature begins to reveal itself that it is divided into four parts, four phases and how it is found to be in connection with others like him in the 10 in such he divides himself and makes an effort through this to become familiar with his connection with the host, to reveal it and to form and stabilize himself towards the host. How can he be connected to him as only by this he receives because we can't give anything to the host, we can only give by this that we receive something from him. It's like a baby towards some other, what can he give the mother? As much as he receives from her, she enjoys.
S. It turns out that there are two pleasures simultaneously from the connection?
R. Correct yes we have yet to speak about this as this is expressed in the screen.
Item 3 Above Inner Light: “The meaning of the picture of the circle is described above....”
47. S. (57:39) When we work in the 10 we're not working with the host, we're working with our friends, once for giving and once we are receiving.
R. Wait a minute without the host at all, then who are you working for in the entire 10? What host, who is he?
S. Meaning that I'm working with a friend I don't feel the Creator.
R. For what are you working with the friend?
S. To eventually reach that.
R. When you have to hold him before you, it doesn't work, it doesn't operate, everything that we do here and now we must also be connected with the Creator, there is no action without tying ourselves to the Creator. Even if I am, it does not matter what relation I have with the ten of the group, and life is fine, but in the 10 was relation to the friend, everything with the Creator together otherwise it's not spirituality.
S. When I work before a friend I am also giving to him I'm not just receiving, I am mostly active and passive, so where here, what can I do, it’s a matter of restrictions, screen and reflected light?
R. I think we are talking about the relations, even with the Creator we are talking about relations, its good you get confused and find something and get confused again as this is how you will understand. It's like a child who doesn't yet understand his relations with others, but gradually by studying actively and practically he can find the correct attitude toward everyone and place himself as an adult.
48. S. (01:00:26) I have a truly ungrateful heart, I find that there are lights that are bestowing to me and how can I change this relative to everyone and the Creator?
R. You just need to sit and quietly learn with us, to give yourself, allow yourself to learn and by your questions you won't reach anything as you need more and more to listen and to appreciate, more over the text as much as you will make an effort.
Item 4 Inner Light “Do not forget that we are not discussing corporeal terms....”
49. S. (01:03:15) The will to receive must develop in four phases, degrees, state that each time it is increasingly more a large desire to receive.
Reader continues: “It therefore turns out that the entire form of the will to receive....”
50. R. (01:03:55) There is the smallest will to receive
Reader continues: “it is more important and more refined....”
51. R. (01:06:22) We speak about the building of the line that each time the desire to receive is different, the intensity is different and accordingly the light clothes in the line is different each time in each and every degree. Some total there are four degrees besides the source which is the 5th.
52. S. (01:06:45) Whatever is not a line is the fourth discernment? Whatever is not a line is the circle? The line is also the fourth discernment?
R. We are talking about the light of Ein Sof that we can begin to speak of it from the moment that we speak of the desire that was impressed in the light of Ein Sof and this desire, this connection with the light that it changes and the light in it that is then revealed in different forms, from the form of Root 1 2 3 and 4. The phase of the route is the most refined, the smallest will to receive and the fourth phase is the most coarse, the most distance from the Emanator. Accordingly, such delight that is in all of these four phases is different, then from the emanated to the Emanator. That if we speak of this that the light is already clothed in all of these desires according to the qualities of the emanated being. It turns out that the largest light will be in the aspect of the root phase 1 2 3 and 4 are lesser and lesser of light that can be revealed because the desire to receive in the emanated being is greater and greater. Like he says here, the fourth phase remains darkness without light and thus the fourth phase is revealed to be lowly and of course, lower. That the three preceding phases are erected on top of her according to her refinement and proximity to the Emanator. Much as closer to the Emanator is refined and farther it is coarser.
53. S. (01:09:32) How can we be connected to the Creator through the friends if we are not connected with the Creator to begin with?
R. We are connected initially to the Creator as he created us but that we need to reach the connection on our part, from us to the Creator, from our desire to connect to him. This is possible only by equivalence with Him, He gives we also give and accordingly there will be contact between us, only in such a manner and this is what we perform, this is the entire wisdom of Kabbalah of how to connect to the Creator in order to receive from him all of the abundance because He wants to give us, to fill us, that we will be ready to receive this from Him to feel Him, to bestow contentment to Him.
54. S. (01:11:54) Does the restriction limit the intention of the complete desire or just part of the desire?
R. The restriction doesn't erase the desire. It only clothes the desire and if the desire will be an intention to bestow then he can operate if it is an intention to receive them the intention dwells upon it this is the entire matter of the restriction as the restriction doesn't allow the creature to activate itself on the intention to receive. If you have a will to bestow, please activate yourself.
55. S. (01:13:00) Before the restriction can we say that the 4 phases are four styles of receiving the pleasure prior to the restriction?
R. Before the restriction, yes. There are four measures of receiving of pleasure it is not style it is measure that the creature doesn't get the pleasure from the light of Hassadim, Mercy or Hochma, wisdom, He enjoys from the will to receive that has pleasure from the fulfillment and the light that expands within this desire to receive is light of pleasure and the creature feels the pleasure with respect to this general pleasure later on he performs the restriction.
S. What happens after the restriction? Why do these phases become degrees of disparity of form from the Emanator?
R. Speak about this in the following lessons.
56. S. (01:14:10) These four discernments are in every person in our world?
R. The 4 phases are in each and every creature. It doesn't matter who he is or what it is, still vegetative, animate or speaking if he exists he must be incorporated of these for phases.
57. S. (01:14:43) Why is it written that the first discernment is more important because there's a question that the Creator needs to be revealed in the nations of the world?
R. I don't understand what one has to do with the other, what is the connection between the first phase and the revelation of the upper light to all the creatures?
S. Is it like that it has to do with the GE is more influential than the AHP and the quality of the light has to be higher up as compared to the fourth discernment?
R. I don't understand what you're asking, that is confusion.
58. S. (01:15:46) During the restriction but light left all four phases at once why did it have to leave the previous three phases?
R. Because there is no little bit in spirituality, it cannot be that if the creature doesn't receive as the fourth phase, that it has reception in the previous three spaces they don't exist without fourth phase, and if the fourth phase doesn't hold and get filled with the upper light it is not present in the previous three phases as well. This condition is called there is no small portion in spirituality. We will grasp all of these things and it will become clear to us.
59. S. (01:16:59) Many times you say that one who has a greater desire, his inclination is greater than his friend and here we see that the first discernment which is more refined is more important can you explain that?
R. The first, second, third and fourth phases are the phases that are in one desire. There is a desire that in spirituality always includes all of the five parts, Root 1 2 3 4 and if we want to compare one person with another then we compare them according to the will to receive that can be used with the intention to bestow. One creature with the other, as much as one creature can use its four phases with the intention to bestow meaning with the screen and the reflected light and how much the other person can use this fourth phase, the desires of the fourth phase with the screen and the reflected light and in this we can measure the vessels.
S. In a Partzuf you have the Rosh, Which is the most important in the Partzuf?
R. Correct. Is there a question here?
S. How can the Rosh be more refined and more important than the Partzuf? Maybe there's no difference between that in the friend?
R. Okay I understand, if we are talking about the Partzuf that there is a Rosh, Toch, Sof and in the Rosh. There is no coarseness at all as the coarseness is not revealed, they're only qualities and in the Guf there is already from the Peh and below this is already Malchut in the desires and there we check the Guf of the Partzuf of how much it is divided into all the parts. We will speak about this as we're learning about the Partzuf as this is the next part.
60. S. (01:20:00) Why did the light do a restriction and leave an empty void?
R. After the restriction that remains the desire, the desire that had fulfillment, now that fulfillment is gone and this is called and empty space, it is felt as such as a space that has no fulfillment because there was once and now there isn't.
61. S. (01:21:00) Throughout this lesson which is not so simple of a lesson, I find myself with great effort to incorporate with the friends and truly help them, do you understand and feel, that the Creator will illuminate in them and awaken their hearts and this is really hard work. I noticed my desire shows no necessity, no worthwhile for me to do this I don't find any benefit in doing so can I turn to the Creator and ask to have some flavor to do these actions towards the friends all the time?
R. Scrutinize it, what does such a lesson right now give you, this that we learn in the hour and a half of TES, is this good, is it too much, maybe we learned more intentions and conditions for the reception of the lights, please whatever you say as we have a lot more to learn, we also still didn't learn about Baal HaSulam articles about creation, maybe you learned it in something but we haven't learned it with you, there is a lot of material. Everyone spoke about TES and we need to learn this of course, but maybe not in such a pace of like 2 hours, that two-thirds of the hours that we should learn this, this all depends upon you as a person learns where his heart desires, are you happy in this that you are learning here or maybe you're happier if we learn an hour and not more and learn other material and the other half an hour. But say maybe we learn 45 minutes intentions or other things and then 45 minutes we learn about creation things written by Baal HaSulam in his articles about the world, Adam, introduction to TES, introduction to the Book of Zohar, many things. This all depends upon you as you have been through with us, through a lot of this material you have been through it and if you want we can add to our study each and everything that you think is that we learn together. Whatever it may be, whatever we went over now in TES you need to read it again and if there are any questions, please bring them to the lesson and gradually we will get into them. In any case the main thing is the intention, without the intention we won't be able to reveal what is truly happening.