Morning Lesson May 27, Transcription
1. Rav’s Introduction: Rabash liked to reiterate how we feed poultry, the chickens, he says we feed them more and more and more for several months and then we check the results. The same goes for children, every 4 hours or so we have to feed the baby and take care of it until we see that it grows and grows and grows. It is with ourselves in the spiritual process, from where does it come from? From having to scrutinize and correct the whole form of the vessel. We don't know where 10 Sefirot begin and end. the particular and inside the particular, inside the particular, so we have to keep going but in truth the light in the vessels and the lights in the vessels we receive them all from the Creator. We just have to digest it correctly, so that the lights in the vessels will connect correctly and in this way we develop. This is how the Creator develops us, lures us, feeds us. This is our whole work to gain patience, to the patient and the Creator will finish for us. The Creator says I am the first, I am the last, there is no other force, no other quality, plan, direction, there is nothing else, everything comes from the Creator. We just have to first of all, agree with what is happening. Then not only agree but also participate in every way we can. The participation consists of complete agreement, it's called restriction in the scientific language, the language of the wisdom of Kabbalah where we don't interfere with the Creator performing all the operations on us. Because with every operation he does we have to initially feel ourselves as babies. I make myself into a baby who allows the Creator to perform the operation on me as He understands it and feels it and prepares for my advancement. Therefore, the Creator will finish for me, this indicates the whole process that we are going through. In the end, we always have to restrict our will to receive and we certainly criticize but we criticize in order to cancel the criticism to go above it. so that even if I discover that all of the operations that are done above me, I disagree with them. Because of my ego, I restrict my ego and I bring myself to a state where I would like, I would do it specifically and I in this way and I equalize myself with the Creator. Until we surrender and come to complete agreement to begin with surrendering, and then come to agreeing. This is the whole process of receiving a new degree and states. We will continue with the excerpt and see what up here and we have a lot before us.
Excerpt 5 (5:29 - 6:05) Twice
2. R. (6:05) We see in many books that it is written the Zivug, the coupling of HaVaYaH, the Lord, God, with God, Elohim. God are the vessels Keter, Hochma, Bina, Zeir Anpin, Malchut, 5 vessels which all together are called Elohim, God. Why is it done with these letters? We learn later, The Zohar also explains them, The Study of the Ten Sefirot also explains them. The lights are called HaVaYah, which fills these vessels. So besides correcting our desire which each time requires a new form of Elohim, God and according to the correction of these vessels of Elohim, the lights of Elohim are filled with light which are called HaVaYaH, the Lord.
Reader (7:17 - 8:53)
R. But in order to receive the light we need vessels, we need to have vessels. So of course, the light comes from the Creator but the vessels, beforehand -- to have desires, intentions, inclinations, passions -- they too come from the Creator. So, we received both the vessels which are called Elohim: Aleph, Lamed Hey, Yud, Mem (?), and the lights which are called HaVaYaH, Yud-Hei-Vav-Hei.
Reader (9:29 - 10:38)
3. S. (10:47) What is it about the agreement with the created being with this process? Why is the creature’s agreement required here? Who is he to agree or disagree with the Creator?
R. It is the building of the vessels. I have to make my vessels such that they will acquire the form of the Creator but from the perspective of the vessels. The Creator is the light of Ein Sof and I have to make the vessel that He created in me, the will to receive, I have to format it, arrange it in me in such a way that it can be similar to the light of Ein Sof, not according to the desire, the desire remains in the light is the desire to bestow but the will to receive need to work in order to bestow and then there will be connection between them face to face.
S. How does the creature agreement help in this process?
R. The Creator in(?) creation gave the created being the freedom to determine the desire. The form and manner of the desire, by this the created being becomes independent, and the Creator wants the created being to come to a state where he sees nothing is more important than bestow. This is why He created the opposite nature, nature of reception, so the created being will rise above his initial nature into the nature of the Creator. Then they will be in equivalence of form between them and the created being will feel the whole nature, stature of the Creator. Elevating the created beings to the level of the Creator seemingly allowing another Creator to exist in reality. That's what the Creator does.
S. This agreement, is it an agreement between us or the agreement of each of us individually or something common?
R. It is the agreeing of each of us and agreeing between all of us and the Creator. That we went to resemble Him. Resembling Him means being above our nature and we want connection to be as one, like the Creator is one, and to bestow upon each other the way the Creator bestows. Then we, according to the equivalence of form, also become connected because we don't run away from our nature to receive. We only use it in the opposite manner, in the manner of bestowal. It turns out that I can be in a coupling, a connection in coupling, nearing to the point of the embrace and kissing and coupling, those three degrees. I can be in that with the Creator precisely because I have the opposite nature, the will to receive, but because I use it in order to bestow, I can be close to the Creator. It turns out that even though I am in the opposite nature, I also come to a similar nature. In this way, we realize the love, we achieve the degree of love.
S. Is it correct to say that the Arvut between us is this common agreement of ours?
R. The Arvut, the mutual guarantee between us, is the beginning of the agreement and afterwards, yes, basically it's a degree of mutual responsibility, mutual guarantee. It's all the degrees of Arvut in connecting and connecting and connecting until we increase the will to receive and each time, we connect above it. By this, we liken ourselves to the Creator more and more so that we can come to contact, from embrace to kissing and to coupling. Those 3 degrees of Ibur, Yenika, Mochin are conception, the suckling and adulthood. That way we come to complete adhesion, complete congruence. The Creator gives us desires for and against each time and raises us from a state of separation to a state of connection. Then throws us from the state of connection we have achieved to a greater state of separation. In this way, through these degrees, by zigzagging, we rise and fall and rise and fall. Each time we come to deeper separation and then higher connection, that's our work.
4. S. (16:44) Why here the quote says, ‘where the vessels are called Elokim’?
R. The vessels are called Elohim because there are five letters in the word ‘Elohim’ - Aleph, Lamed, Kuf, Yud, Mem - which are Keter, Hochma, Chesed, Zeir Anpin, Malchut. This is what we call them by these letters. Meaning Aleph, Lament, Kuf - meaning Hei - Yud, Mem. And the lights that fill those vessels if they are in order to bestow are the lights of NRNHY . That's what we learn. The vessels Aleph, Lamed, Mem, Kuf meaning Hei are vessels of Keter, Hochma and Bina. The vessels of Mem and Yud are Zeir Anpin and Malchut, and we need to connect them. The vessels of Galgalta Enayim (GE), which are Aleph, Lamed, Kuf, and Yud, Mem are Zeir Anpin and Malchut. We have to connect them together so we have a complete name, Elokim. Meaning Keter, Hochma, Bina, Zeir Anpin, Malchut is one vessel, not Galgalta Einayim -- Aleph, Lamed, Kei with the AHP. They all have to be connected, all 10 Sefirot. And in this way, we advance. We build the complete vessel.
5. S. (19:12) What does it mean that we have to bring ourselves to this form of Elokim?
R. By connecting among us by this we draw this action of wanting to connect among us because it's against our desire, it is against our ego so through this operation we draw reforming light and that light it connects us a little bit and we feel a little closer, more united spiritually among us and by this according to this we also draw the lights. They approach us according to our equivalence of form. The more the will to receive is meant to be connected above the ego to that extent we bring the lights closer to us and the lights that influence us do their work, correct us, influence us, they elevate us, they do a lot of things.
S. What happens, the friends in the 10 connect and at some point, become a spiritual vessel?
R. Well we don't see it according to the faces, to what you see in this world with your physical eyes but with spiritual eyes meeting with spiritual internal feeling you gradually discover you have become closer not only in how you agree on the path or on the goal but in all kinds of state you go through, that you are beginning to work with one inclination, one feeling, one operation of internal movements and more and more so.
S. There is an examination here that we are truly advancing in the direction of building this vessel of Elokim, can we check it?
R. Only by feeling ourselves both farther and closer that there are these changes both farther and closer and the difference between far and near this amplitude, the gap between the ascents and descents and the relationships between us becomes more and more palpable. We don't work with it, we work only towards connection, it doesn't matter to us how far we are.
6. S. (23:07) How does the transition happen between the group and agreement with the Creator?
R. When we feel that we receive what happens to us from the Creator and what we do between us, we want to attribute to him and ascend to him helping that we are doing this towards him, to that extent we also connect more both among ourselves and with him.
7. S. (23:52) How can we believe in providence while we are in our will to receive?
R. We can't if we are really immersed in our will to receive without any connection with the desire to bestow and we can't understand anything in bestowal, in the behavior of the Creator with us because we don't have any forces of bestowal, we don't have any connection to bestowal and this is why we can't bestow. To the extent we perform actions of connection between us we also get forces of rejection then here we begin to see ascents and descents of all kinds of states, contradicting states, contradictory. As a result, we begin to understand the Creator more and more because the concept of the Creator, BoReh, come and see, consists of two states. We overcome our will to receive, then we can see the form of the force of bestowal that operates in the will to receive called Boreh, see, we only see the will to receive nothing more because the Creator, didn't we discover him only in the operations in our will to receive. It turns out that the Creator is attained within the created being not outside of the created being, within it. Therefore, one who works on one's own will to receive by this through the changes one sees and detects in the will to receive, in this he identifies the Creator and studies him and, in our will, to receive individually and generally, collectively in the whole system of Adam HaRishon. There we discover the Creator and meet the Creator and there we actually are in mutual work with him.
Excerpt 6 (26:42)
8. R. (27:58) Unless the Creator helps the person, he will always remain in his lowliness will not be able to do anything with it and the words “were it not for the Creator's help” he would not overcome it will not come true in him. Meaning without the help from the Creator above a person cannot change ever, as in the Lord will finish for me beginning that every operation if it happens, it happens because the Creator does the operations and the created being can only raise the need for the Creator to do this act and nothing more. Instead, the whole world will be providing for him for the Creator what does it need to provide for him, giving him work the Creator, asking. It's likewise with every person in the world except they're not aware of it every person, every time one is deficient from something, asks for something, by this he is really asking the Creator to do the work. This is how it is all built. The whole world provides for him, raising the deficiencies for him and then the Creator fills and corrects the deficiencies. That is his pleasure and he will always need people. Conversely, one who walks in the path of the Creator and not the path of the world is rewarded with being favored by the Creator. Meaning of Creator and this is one who needs the help of the Creator meaning those who need the help of the Creator by this they raise a request to the Creator and by this be like the Creator meaning give the Creator pleasure by constantly asking of him as it is written to you comes to purify is aided. One who walks on the path of the Creator not on the path of the world is rewarded with being favored by the Creator. This is specifically one who needs the help of the Creator, meaning a person discovers that without the Creator he cannot understand what is happening, he cannot decide what he has to do, he cannot even ask the Creator and he can't come to a state where it is corrected. That he wants to happen he needs the Creator even in building the question their request the scrutiny as it is written one comes to purify is aided, aided in what? The Zohar interprets with what, with a Holy Soul, in the upper light when the Creator gives him a Holy Soul, the smallest light with this, he can purify himself. This is how it happens meaning we need to constantly request as much as we can to depict the request more and more and this way a person advances towards more action.
9. S. (31:50) What does it mean that the whole world, what does the world feed on?
R. The way the world raises a request every single moment, every person in the world raises deficiencies through the Creator, the world is filled with problems and requests and they are all rising to the Creator. Accordingly, this general upper light that created that situation, it brings the will to receive into all kinds of problems and within the will to receive it elevates request to him to himself, he needs this response because by this the will to receive changes and improves so they upper light created the will to receive and then it creates all kinds of bad unpleasant states to the will to receive as a result the will to receive awakens, wants to change its situation to a better one. The light that awakens to receive and the desire to rise and rise each time, bad or good doesn't matter which scrutinies are made and this is how we advance. We call it evolution from the still, vegetative and animate or spiritual development in the speaking. It doesn't matter what you call it but basically it is all of creation. This is how the light operates on the material on the will to receive which is it created.
S. You say personally that for me for my 10 we need to define can feed on is the deficiency?
R. That too is correct the truth is our deficiency in the 10 is first of all to unite into one heart despite the very many desires we want to bring them all closer together and tie them all together into the extent that we achieved a connection in this connection we begin to discover one opposite the other the source of the upper light, this is called “one receives one”, one vessel, ours will unite as one received one light of the Creator.
10. S. (34:45) Here it says the Creator gives him a Holy Soul and with its force so you can purify himself so what is it that a person purifies himself, what is that thing?
R. The correct description today in the last generation is a person being in the 10 and asking the Creator to be incorporated in the 10 and as Baal HaSulam and Rabash writes to the point where he is willing to dissolve himself there, so it won't be felt that he is there. He will just be willing to diminish himself and serve the desires of the 10 on the lowest level. Then he is already ready for the upper light, the help from above because he becomes like the degree of Nefesh, the soul and he doesn't interfere with the Creator.
S. So a Holy Soul depends on man's ability to incorporate in the ten?
R. Yes.
11. S. (36:21) What does it mean if the Creator doesn't help him, is there such a state where the Creator doesn't help?
R. It is not a condition, it is what we learn that the Creator does everything and if we didn't help in something that a person would not be able to do anything instead of the Creator. Meaning all of the operations come only from the upper light, this is called the Lord will finish for me.
S. Yes, but there's a state where maybe the Creator would not help me, maybe the creature has to do something for the Creator to help and right because he comes to purify, what does he need to do?
R. In fact, if we want the Creator through help, we have to connect among ourselves and check what is still missing in our internal connection for the time in our hearts and cry out to the Creator to finish this connection to complete this connection in our heart so that they will all unite into a single heart.
S. Meaning the effort to connect is required but you need a demand from the Creator to finish it for us.
R. Yes.
S. The first stage is not enough.
R. Meaning that what we want is not enough who will exit, who will do the connection, not even carrying out but who will scrutinize if it exists or not, how we should ask, in what way, we need the Creator for everything, without the upper light we cannot move. Just as when you play with a baby you need to do instead of him, everything, instead of it, you, how do you teach it to walk? We move the baby this way, right, left, this way, that way, it doesn't do anything, it doesn't even know what you want from it. You move all of its organs as if you are inside the baby and as if you are outside the baby. In this way we have to make room for the Creator. I am the first and I am the last is not first and last in some operation but in every single part of every operation, we need both from the perspective of the vessels and from the perspective of the light.
S. Yes, except the baby does it instinctively in the baby we know in this world is crying on the animate level that he wants food or something, should the prayer be instinctive, where is it coming from?
R. No no, we need to be as a person who wants to be similar in form of the Creator, meaning he wants to understand and to feel to absorb and to perceive all the operations that the Creator demands of him and then we will advance. In this way only by not only wanting to be governed by the Creator but by participating, this is called a servant of the Creator. When we want the understanding of what we need to do so that I will take a step and the Creator will take a step, I annul myself and the Creator manages me and so forth until you make your will as his will. There are very gradual processes here to the point of agreement and adhesion.
12. S. (41:13) Our consideration that comes every time?
R. It doesn't really matter to us that there is separation, we respect it, we appreciate it, we bless it, we welcome the separation, because by the separation between us, we can create actions between us that are more and more complex or complicated, more and more advanced. Accordingly, we will discover the upper light between us that has to connect us because if we are in contact with each other without the feeling of the corruption between us, then there is no place where we can correct the corruption and then in the gap between the corruption and the correction, between the fight, the quarrel and the connection there will be no place for the upper light to enter. The vessel has to consist of coarseness, which is connection between us, lack of connection between us when we come to a state where we really are far, hateful of each other and can't agree with one another, we feel remote, distant in short. But if love covers all the crimes and we still want to connect above it then this above doesn't mean instead of it, so we ask the Creator, the upper light to create a connection between us even though we're opposite and the upper light, the Creator connects us. That gap that was there before seemingly disappears and instead of this fight we will be in an embrace and we forget about it and we have to come to a state where we don't forget about it where we have both the fight and the connection. The gap between the quarrels and the connection between the coarseness and the refinement, this will precisely be our vessels and that is where the Creator the light will enter because there will be coarseness and refinement, the purification and that is the form of the spiritual vessel. That is why everything that the Creator created it's not redundant, the will to receive does not disappear but grows and grows outside the desire to bestow and in between them we feel the unification when the will to receive also operates in order to reveal to us the bestowal, the connection. That is why we welcome the bad as we welcome the good and everything is arranged for correction.
13. S. (45:11) What do we need to look for in order to feel the inner movement in the 10?
R. What do I need to look for? Only for the connection between us, nothing else is important to us, only whatever is revealed between us, these negative parameters, the distance between us, the separation, we wish to reach connection with the same parameters, the same information together. We don't forget as if it never happened but together with that, we need to reach connection we gradually begin to understand this, it doesn't come right away. We want to immediately erase everything just like kids, they cry and then they suddenly laugh and then they may cry again and again they laugh again no. We wish to connect these two things, separation and unification as two states of the same vessel. we don't have such a thing where we look down or ignore the separation no, we keep it, we hold it and on top of it we maintain unity.
14. S. (47:00) We know but we don't understand what to ask or how to ask in the Creator does everything, on the other hand you often give the example of that it says if they come to operate on me and I tell the surgeon to take this tool or that tool. We have to be directed enough to receive an answer, so how legitimate is a request, do with us what you understand, we are ready?
R. In a sense this is the most accurate request when a person annuls himself and says to the Creator do what is needed just like a patient on the operation table, do and that's it. I don't want to know anything, even what I know, I don't know because it's not according to my degree. If I were in the correct degree, I would need the medicine or a doctor. Here I need something to help me. We never understand what needs to be done in the state we need to come to, it's always and It will be in your eyes as new.
S. Elokim, HaVaYaH, there is no match between the amount of lights in vessels you have four vessels and four lights.
R. No, you are the tip of the Yud the tip of the Yud; Yud Kei Vav Kei, the tip of the Yud it is the Keter the Yechidah.
15. S. (49:20) What is the state of being favored by the Creator as it's written in the excerpt?
R. When we raised a deficiency precisely according to our state and it is desirable by the Creator, by the upper one. There is an adaptation by the raising of MAN from the lower degree compared to the deficiency in the upper degree that expects and waits for it. let's say a baby in a mother baby is asking exactly for what the mother wants to give him and at that moment they are the giver and the receiver are mutually adaptable, suitable.
16. S. (50:17) If my life in my work is the 10 for the Creator to be without expecting any reward why should I care if we complete or don't see if I have to work in a gauging correction and not expect a result?
R. Results from your work should be that you would not demand any results. but connection. and disappearing inside the connection. Truly dissolving there and that's what you want and by wanting it, this is from the side of the vessel you want to incorporate in it there you discover the upper force. With this work, with this action wanting to incorporate in them you go from the corporeal world to the spiritual world.
17. S. (51:30) We want to be like our root which is at rest but what you are describing sounds like endless work, it sounds like eternal difficult work, is that true?
R. If I work on something that is made up of yearning for what I love and connecting to the object of my love, this work doesn't seem to me like work but like pleasure. When I am next to a plate, there are various dishes on it and I am very hungry. You can say that I am now eating from this plate all those delicacies. Does it mean that I am working, that I am exerting effort or am I receiving pleasure? The fact that I am using my will to receive, to obtain the fulfillment is not considered work. We just need to reach a state where our work will become like pleasure. It all depends on the love of a mother who feeds the baby or gives bottled milk. Is she working hard or is she enjoying it? What she is doing and he is receiving it gladly. They are both enjoying it although one is receiving what one is giving and one is giving.
S. Our work is different. We are dealing with hatred and greater and greater hatred to feel love toward it feels a little more complicated.
R. You're right but against your hatred you wish to present to the Creator the connection between you in order to give him joy. Try to imagine things this way the Creator derives pleasure when we come to him and wish to be together because by that we delight him and give him contentment but we don't want it, okay that's true. The Creator says I deliberately created in you the evil inclination so you would not want to be connected so that you will make this connection in you only for my sake and then it will be clear to you that you are doing it for my sake.
18. S. (54:59) You said in the beginning of the lesson today to come to a state where the Creator completes compliments for me. I have to have a lot of patience. Where do you take such patience in what is?
R. This spirituality demands perseverance and patience and we have to get it from friends. We cannot do anything else but to constantly equip ourselves with patience because this is a work of a lifetime even beyond death. We need to try and prepare ourselves to be in this thing permanently. There is nothing else to do in reality only to correct the will to receive that was created so we can be in order to be compatible with the Creator.
19. S. (56:29) When we assemble and build our prayer, we normally use the name of the Creator, the question is, is it permitted, maybe even there is a benefit in using the name of Adonai and Elokim?
R. We are not yet in these names but those are names of Sefirot, spiritual Partzuf base that has 10 parts that are in a certain state. In a certain state it is called Adonai in a different state called Elokim and there are many such names. In general reality, all the names we have in all of reality and all our languages there are simple questions of the spiritual Partzuf and other different Partzufim and that's how we call them. We think that we call these Partzufim different names but in truth we name the Sefirot this way 10 Sefirot that in general depict a certain state that is in them and that state that is in them is let's say Yaakov, David or that statement have a different name. These names we have a general name for them, Elokim which is from the side of the vessels originally and a general name HaVaYaH which is from the side of the light and that's it. There is nothing special here, all the names in our world are names of vessels and we can take this whole world and write it in the form of Sefirot and light, it's not a problem. The question is why what for, we need to reach higher and not engage so much with what is down below.
20. S. (59:33) Is it to establish the will of the Messiah in order to correct in the 10?
R. The coarseness of the screen is not decided by us, it all depends on our success in connection. The coarseness will keep growing more and more from moment to moment through all the possibilities, the upper light as and continues to light and to shine if he has an opportunity to shine on us. From that we all acquired each according to this nature we acquire additional coarseness. Then we need each and every moment to think about how we connect more and more between us. That is our work. The upper light never stops shining and he's raising the general coarseness and individual coarseness and we need to be alert every moment and turn this coarseness to connection which means to turn it to purity.
21. S. (01:01:06) How do we connect from the ten in order to be 1 and receive from 1?
R. We learned about this, I can't begin to explain again, this is our work, the work in the 10 first of all but unless we are connected to 1, we are not able to reveal the Creator at least to a small degree.
S. There's one aspect when we say it's easy to say it but sometimes, I don't even want to see the faces of my friends. I can’t stand to see them, to be with them. What can I do?
R. Excellent it is very good, it is a sign that you have received additional coarseness and it's always an addition you don't fall, you always rise either on the left side or on the right side. So, if you have now a rejection from the friend repulsion it is a sign that you rose on the right, very good. Now you'll just have to ask for the strength to overcome the separation that you're now feeling. So, you will be able to connect with them together and that's how we work. Walk left right, left right, that's what we need to do.
22. S. (01:02:59) How do I become free from the fear from myself? How do you come to a state where you trust the Creator 100% before you attain Him, He is good that it does good?
R. You should do such exercises more and more and you will see that you yearn to disconnect from yourself. There is nothing worse than being connected to oneself.
S. I feel that it's bad but I don't feel that the Creator is good and does good.
R. Keep going, you want to exchange a cow for a donkey and you'll have that spirituality and then you'll leave for corporeality don't be a smart guy. where will bestowal be, to bestow in the middle.
23. S. (01:04:02) How to dissolve or all yourself totally and to the 10?
R. I can't tell you have to search and find it, annulment, look what Rabash writes, you must each time return to what he is writing about the ten.
24. S. (01:04:40) If the Creator operates according to the deficiency and I feel like I can't create the correct deficiency because I didn't incorporate with the ten what should I do?
R. To pray.
Excerpt 7 (01:05:05) twice
25. R. (01:07:43) Do not be afraid that we are facing some problems, conundrum, some states we are not it unable to overcome rather it is happening like that from above. Since otherwise we would not ask the Creator, we need to break that we are not doing that we are not able to correct, we are not able to do anything, then we cry and call out to the Creator. Then the Creator helps, we need to have a strong desire to receive help. For the time being we don't want to. We don't believe the Creator should help us. We don't demand of Him, we have no need to demand of Him, we are lacking these basic ingredients for the correct connection with the Creator. So gradually this connection and this demand from the Creator will be established.
Reader continues (01:08:50)
R. (01:08:59) Why couldn't you do it in a simple way? There is a deficiency and He helps.
Reader continues (01:09:05) “This is unclear because there is a contradiction here ...”
26. S. (01:09:47) What is purity, what's included in?
R. Purification of the vessels that are above their will to receive that can refrain from using the will to receive this means purification.
S. And what's included in this work to reach the purity of the vessels?
R. There are many states we go through, just imagine, after all you can make calculations, you have a will to receive, how can you reach purification. Purification where you don't demand anything for your will to receive, you wish to work with it first of all in restriction, you demand nothing although it is in you, how will you do that? You have to reach a certain attitude of bestowal towards the Creator and the group and it should be more important to you than yourself. How can you do it? Let's say, I really want to eat but no, there is an opportunity to give this food to someone else. How can I do it? I cannot. If someone will pressure me and beat me up of course he will take it and give it to someone else but, how can I by myself. to beat myself up, take the food from myself, and hand it over to someone whom I don't like, I don't feel and maybe I even hate the person?
In other words, there has to be an addition. I have to love this person more than myself. If I'm in my will to receive, I love him egotistically more than myself. As if I am like a mother who loves her baby, but there has to be something here. So consequently, we need to see here a series of steps that have to pass over us so we will willingly give up the food for the other. Giving up anything for the other and this all has to do with the greatness of the Creator between us. If not for the Creator that has to do and show us His greatness that we are doing it for Him. We will never be able to bestow to the other, never. There is no such force with which I can give from what I am, what I'm feeling but what I have for the other rather there has to be the importance of the other more than my own importance. How is it possible? So, it turns out that I have to work, acquire the importance of the other and I do it by making the Creator important in my eyes and the upper light works on me and I change my values. I changed my values from my importance to let's say the friends' importance.
S. Yes and according to the importance of the friend his efficiency becomes more important than my deficiency and that's the deficiency of the Creator?
R. Yes, it's not a friend, it's already the Creator. I don't make a mistake that I'm saying in place of the friends and what I see is the Creator before me.
27. S. (01:14:29) When we attribute some state to the Creator is it a sign that we filled 10 Sefirot with the reflected light that we are building the Keter?
R. According to our desire, according to our efforts 10 Sefirot of reflected light are built by the Creator, we don't do anything by ourselves, we just reveal the desire, we want it to happen and then it happens by the other one. The corrections always take place by the upper one, by the light.
S. The effort is on us?
R. The deficiency comes up from us, yes. What to do with this deficiency we don't know, it's like a baby, he cries his mom understands what he wants, he doesn't understand it, he just feels the pressures and it is enough. Later as he develops, he adds to the initial desire with that suffering, he adds the additional discernment and then there is connection between the upper one.
S. He comes and disappears, these things come and go?
R. Yes, correct, very beautiful. That is how it works, look at the babies, look how they grow up. There's a certain connection between him and the mother, but I am asking of the mother who understands me. I know what I'm asking from the selection that she can give me and I can say that I want this and I want that and this way we're creating a language between us in a language of give-and-take, a selection of deficiencies and a selection of fulfillment and this is called the language.
S. The baby doesn't make an effort?
R. Yes, correct.
S. Here you try and make an effort and it all disappears seemingly not working out.
R. Rejoice, why aren't you enjoying that you have a connection with the mother and you're asking from her?
S. Do I have a connection with the mother?
R. And the father.
S. I have a connection with the father?
R. Yes of course, that is who you are connected to, everyone is but you are starting to be connected with mutual understanding that “I to my beloved and my beloved to me”.
S. Sometimes we see we don't really care about the father that we don't want to please him, when am I going to get all of the corrections you're talking about?
R. This is the degree of a baby and only demanding for himself, the more he grows up and matures he has to be more involved in the scrutiny and in what way to ask. Later he grows even more. It is not just to ask and get something in return but it is also to say thank you and to help out, to be disciplined somehow.
S. Does he hear?
R. Yes, he does and we need to hear, you are more than okay, I am very happy with you.
28. S. (01:19:23) The I and we in the ten are also from the Creator?
R. Yes, everything comes from the Creator except for the forces of repulsion and rejection.
29. S. (01:19:56) The feeling of guilt that I can't give, how can I work with this in the ten?
R. On that it says go to the craftsman who made me, it is not your fault about any then, I don't get into guilt. This is the thing of the fool sitting idly by and tormenting himself because these feelings, they fixate you, they lock you down. A person is ready to be buried feeling himself unworthy that he has nothing, why is it this way, God forbid. We condemn the Creator for creating the world in this way so the feelings of guilt are not on us but rather this is how reality is built, you have to look at it maturely as we have no choice but to participate in this reality as it falls on us. We have to practically do as everyone else in the world does with their body, but with our soul and our desire we have to try and be as they write to us in the articles.
30. S. (01:22:14) Today I am constantly trying to run away from the ego, to pray against it, shouldn’t I shift the emphasis to the greatness of the Creator instead?
R. This is how it is written, so I have to do this, you don't even need to work with the ego, you need to only come closer to the Creator and come to Him, leave the ego, letting it be, it will find what to do. You have to care about working with yourself, for the Creator and leave your ego, otherwise the ego just gets inflated by it, so don't pay attention to it. It is best if you try and be close to bestowal, to sanctity, to the Creator as it says a man is where his thoughts are so the more that you invest yourselves bestowal and in connection with the Creator it will be better. Don't be so immersed in what am I, who am I, why am I failing, this is not good, be as little as possible in such thoughts.
31. S. (01:24:18) According to the quantity of the efforts that a person makes to annul and the help that comes from the Creator or does He help according to the amount of efforts that we make?
R. The Creator makes all of these calculations don't get into them because it will only confuse us, later there will be a time where we will be able to interpret them, to put numbers next to them, weigh them and evaluate them but for now - no.
32. S. (01:25:17) What is the difference of being needy of people and of the Creator?
R. There is a difference. I need the deficiency of the other people, the ten, the group and also the whole world, we need the whole world because they are my vessels. In general, everything I feel, there's still, vegetative and animal, the people with these galaxies around me, the stars and the planets. All of these distances of the earth and everything that is going on here with all of these external corporeal things and internal things that I discover in the spiritual world and everything that is in that is all me. It all belongs to me; it belongs to my vessel and this is how I need to accept it and eventually I will discover that it is all up to me and it all depends upon me. That I have to connect them to me and fill all of them until I correct all of them and bring all of them until the end of correction and each and every one of us does the same.
33. S. (01:27:09) The constant connection according to the example of the mother and the child the problem is when the friend gets troubled and runs away for various reasons, as the example of a child being sick and not being able to eat that the mother sucker is not being able to feed her baby? That there is no way to help that friend directly, so what do you do, you just need to be patient and pray?
R. Most important is patience as you need to understand the first reaction of our ego in anything is impatience, the ego wishes to cancel certain phenomena and is interpreted as impatience, so we always need to care about having patience.
S. That suffering of the mother who cannot give, what do we do with it because this is our work and we say that you need to pray with gladness and joy.
R. Love, we need to add love, we need to try and reach a stage where we would want bestowal, but for us bestowal will be as a reward not that I will grow tired from working in bestowal but rather that I will feel liberated in it, the freedom, the world of Ein Sof.
S. There's no problem to work, to suffer, to sacrifice something when you feel and see that by this you are bestowing to the Creator. When we don't see this where we give something or not, how can you come out of this state?
R. With bestowal, with love, with connection, Rabash writes with exertion. By the exertion you decide.
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34. R. (01:31:36) This means why He is called the Lord of hosts, because he makes the ups and the downs for the exits and the entrance is in each and every state.
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Excerpt 10 (01:35:09)
35. S. (01:36:47) Can we rise to a higher state only with the coarseness of the screen?
R. Yes of course, only by us demanding to have the force to overcome the coarseness we have received this is how we rise to the next degree. We don't rise to the next degree by the coarseness, but rather by the light that shines over the coarseness turning it into purity, to Zakut.
36. S. (01:37:38) You said to turn to the Creator for correction but if I can't turn to Him because of pride, what can I do?
R. I think it is best if you will be even more connected to your friends, to envy them to what extent they are capable of turning to the Creator, how advanced that they are and then by envy, lust, and honor you will do anything that you need in order to ask for the force to ascend.
37. S. (01:38:44) There is a feeling that there exertion is endless so how do you reach despair it seems very far?
R. So if there is endless exertion so, what you're saying is the work is so big and so long term when I will see that I am not successful at reaching despair, you should be despaired at the moment how do you make more effort in the next 10 years to see that you're not successful. What is the difference between 10 years and now if you want to reach adhesion in the Creator? When He has to do the work for you and you are not demanding, you don't have the right kind of despair you have to reach the stage where even a small job that you are given, you understand that you cannot do it alone, that you can only do it with the friends that all of the work is carried out in the connection with the friends. So, what can I do? So, I need to be connected with the friends so start crying out to Him right now and you will see that your success is not something vague, it is something specific, concrete that you have to be connected to them together so that you can be in one heart or you don't. If you don't, cry out to the Creator otherwise it will be in Ein Sof.
S. So my exertion I should always scrutinize if I reach despair?
R. Yes, and in despair you can already be there now you don't have to wait years for that.
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38. S. (01:44:45) In the previous episode it was written that once he's done with the exertion he comes to the prayer, the question is can someone finish the exertion but not know how to pray?
R. No, one depends upon the other but in general he should pray even before he fills his amount, his cup, how should I know when? Why should I simply make such an effort is the question. Instead of making efforts, can I just pray or can I compliment one with the other, so the prayer is always advised to be in all of the time. Meaning all of the time to make efforts in connections, in the study, in anything and also to accompany it with a prayer, all of the time with the prayer. Then the main thing is if I, by my study, with my work in the group it doesn't matter what I do exactly but that by that I will want to advance my prayer, to promote it, this is the right relation. All I do is reformat my desire, formatting so it would want to take upon itself the right shape to receive the upper light to take upon itself the revelation of the Creator and that is prayer. What am I actually doing to the Creator, I'm telling him from the desire to receive that you created, made such a shape that you can clothe, to be revealed in this way? I don't know who you are exactly so how can I see where to advance towards, for what I need, for what shapes, for what deficiency should I clothe? What is my deficiency and what shape should it take upon itself? What I am asking of you is to organize this shape for me so that you can clothe in it, as besides you no one can do this, this is called the Creator will finish my work. I am doing all kinds of actions and I don't know what to do but then the Creator comes, the upper light and organizes, truly arranges the shape for me and then I feel but now I have the correct deficiency and he clothes in this deficiency.
39. S. (01:48:05) If we can go back to number 9 about the lowness, the true lowliness is when I can't even lift a finger to help my friends in the ten.
R. First of all that is wonderful, because what you feel you feel clearly, it doesn't matter if it's bad or good, it doesn't matter what picture is made, but that you feel something clearly.
S. Let's say I do perform an action but afterwards I feel it was for my own benefit, not really to connect is this also lowliness?
R. Why is that bad? You feel and are certain now that what you are doing will eventually be an egoistic shape and that you are incapable of doing anything spiritual in order to bestow, I don't really understand, do you think you are the Creator or the created being?
S. The created being.
R. I don't know maybe you are the Creator, can you make your will to receive into a will to bestow?
S. You said from the love of the friends to the love of the Creator so if I connect with them to bestow that I will reach bestowing to the Creator?
R. No, that also is something impossible for you, connecting to your friends is also something you cannot do as these actions of connection are things only the Creator knows how to do, we don't have the forces or understanding of how we can be in connection. We don't, it is simply not enough. We are like circles, many such balls, that each one pushes the other one away. To enter into the other and to connect to him, know what it is only that we have.
S. It is very frustrating what you are saying.
R. No actually, it isn't, the Creator gave us to certain special people in this world he only gave us the ability to understand that we are incapable of connecting. So don't go and make revolutions, nothing will help, connection between human beings is impossible to exist unless it is through the upper force. This is the meaning of if the Creator doesn't build the house no one can succeed, house means the connection between two, no one can and all we have to do is to examine these things to such an extent that we feel we can't we really want it and we ask of Him and He will do it. He wants to invite us to the stage, that is it.
40. S. (01:52:04) In referring to everything that is included in calling upon the Creator so is there any other reason to call upon the Creator other than because I have a deficiency?
R. I don't know, people turn to the Creator all the time, religious, secular, everyone is turning to the Creator although they don't want, they don't know, they are not aiming there. But any deficiency that we have, anything in the will to receive projects outside when it feels something of its existence and is all an address to the Creator. It is that we want to do this address in a scrutinized manner which will act upon the Creator and give Him contentment, this is the only difference, everyone is praying to the Creator, everyone is a servant of the Creator. Rabash used to say, the whole world is doing the Creator's work. It's just I don't know and understand it, but everyone is carrying out his desire. It's only that we are especially because we understand if we are doing or not doing it of our own desire or according to his desire. If I do this according to the desire of my ego, I am doing what the Creator forces me to do through the ego. If I want to do this through my desire to bestow then I should turn to the Creator and ask of Him. That is something else, meaning in truth everyone is a servant of the Creator in such a case, meaning that everyone is carrying out the desire and the actions that the Creator inserts into him, awakens in him to do. No one can come out of that from bestowal - vegetative, animal, and speaking, it's only on this speaking level are these human beings like us who want to consciously, understandingly do the actions that the Creator wants. It's not that he forces them but they want to do the actions with their own desire.
41. S. (01:55:08) What is preventing me to activate the Creator for the others from inside?
R. What disturbs me is my ego, there are two forces in us that are acting and between these two forces we have to scrutinize ourselves, whether it is one or the other, these two forces come to us from above and if I want to abstain myself from one force which is called the evil inclination and I want to ascribe myself to the second one, the force of bestowal, the good inclination this is his name, it all depends upon the definition. II should carry out these actions accordingly.
42. S. (01:56:45) In excerpt number 10 there is something I would like to ask about, if I don't feel that the Egyptians, the ten, if we don't feel that we're working for Pharaoh, this is a sign that we don't actually feel that we are in exile? Meaning we have to relate to Pharaoh as if he is the Creator?
R. What is the difference between the Pharaoh and the Creator?
S. The difference is that the Creator teaches us we need to bestow and through the friends we want to bestow to the Creator to acquire his qualities, with Pharaoh what desire will I attain, the will to receive?
R. That is not enough you have to receive the desire to receive from Pharaoh in order to discover how bad it is actually doing to you. When you receive all of the desire to receive from Pharaoh it is only that it is not in the intention in order to receive but rather in order to bestow, something you cannot correct when you are under the control of Pharaoh. Rather you come out of the control of Pharaoh into the control of the Creator and this is why it is called coming out of Egypt and entering the land of Israel. The ten along the way you have to receive the force of light from the Creator which is called the reception of Torah and when you have all of the desire to receive that you have received from Egypt and you are coming out of Egypt, acquiring a connection with the Creator and turning what you have from Egypt, this great desire to receive into a desire to bestow. This is called that you are building the land of Israel by that.
S. So what should be my attitude towards Pharaoh the same as I treat the Creator?
R. Of course as there is Nothing Else Besides Him it is Pharaoh being revealed in this way as a loyal servant of the Creator bringing you the desire to receive which the Creator created, there is a verse that “I have created the evil inclination” and Pharaoh, this symbol is what you need. Because without this how will you grow out of the degree of the animal, in order to raise the degree of the animal to the degree of the speaking you have to be raised. How can you be raised by adding the desire to receive to you from the degree of the Creator of the speaking level. If you correct this speaking level then you become more similar to the Creator. Meaning that Pharaoh is higher than the whole world, the ego in it, his desire to receive is standing against the Creator and if you correct this ego called Pharaoh then you reach the degree of the Creator.
S. So we need to put these two images together to the image of the Creator, Pharaoh and the Creator I have to see as the Creator because there's None Else Besides Him?
R. Suppose this is so.
S. Thank you.
R. Our corrupt will to receive is how we reach the Creator, this is considered that the Pharaoh sacrificed, or brought closer, Pharaoh is actually the one who brought us closer to the Creator. Our ego is something we have to respect, how intelligently it is working in order to bring us closer to spiritual work.
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43. R. (02:02:23) Is that okay? Meaning that the Creator does everything, both the good things and the bad things and the way that they seem to us everything is done by the Creator, all we need to do is to correct ourselves to ascribe everything that we are going through to Him.
44. S. (02:02:47) Sometimes we say that the request has to be simple like on the operating table, just do what you need to do with me, sometimes we say it has to be scrutinized to know exactly what we are asking for and what the Creator should correct so how do we make a balance between this?
R. Only to yearn for connection and in this connection the truth will be revealed to you. I don't want to go into psychology or some wisdom of how much you should do one way or the other, this is all not beneficial as we have to reach a feeling that everything is scrutinized in the emotion not in the intellect.
45. S. (02:03:50) If we turn to the Creator in a weird manner, we want him also?
R. Whatever we want also will be carried out if we are connected to the Creator.