Mar 20, 2025 5:49 AM -
Question: Are you afraid that you might be disconnected from the spiritual system?
Answer: There is fear on my part. I am afraid.
Question: And what if it is meant to be?
Answer: It doesn’t matter. I still don’t want it. Why should it be like this?! If I act correctly, run the program, and operate within it, why should this happen? I want to attain complete unity with the Creator through understanding His ways.
You want to say: “If you are still afraid that you might be disconnected, it means you are not yet fully devoted to the Creator, you have not yet given yourself to Him with all your soul.” That is true. And I do not want this. I do not want disconnection.
In everything else, do with me as You wish! But let me attain this program so that I can justify You; otherwise, I will not be able to do so. That is, this goal—this fear of falling out of attainment—is not an egoistic fixation on myself.
Question: So is it possible to negotiate with the Creator in some way?
Answer: No, not to negotiate, but rather to compel Him to lead you further, to not let go, to hold on, to force Him, just as a small child compels an adult.
Our goal is very serious. Therefore the desired attitude toward the Creator is one where on the one hand you recognize His greatness, and on the other you understand that you can influence Him. And He desires this! Because in doing so you pursue the same goal as He does: to achieve complete mutual understanding and unity.
Question: So is there really a choice between these two things you are talking about?
Answer: The choice lies in your attitude toward what is happening, not in what is happening itself.
Question: But then why are you afraid that you might simply be disconnected? Does it depend on the students or on you personally?
Answer: What it depends on, I do not know. I do not see the entire picture of governance. I only know what I have been able to attain from the beginning of my path until this moment. And what lies ahead, I do not know.
Therefore I cannot say whether it depends on me, on the students, or on something else. I do not know, and I do not need to. It does not matter whether I know or not. What matters is my attitude toward it. I want to justify the Creator in all His ways, and for this reason, I do not want to be disconnected from attaining His program and uniting with it.
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From KabTV’s “I Got A Call. To Exist in Attainment” 6/27/10
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