Morning Lesson August 6, 2021, Transcription
Ibur [Impregnation] and Yenika [Nursing], #36
1.Rav’s Introduction: Yes, we are in a process called Ibur, impregnation, or conception. It is when we reach a state where we can live, we can exist, we can feel ourselves that we are inside of the Creator. The Creator is the force of bestowal which actually fills everything. ‘There is none else besides Him’. Within ourselves, inside of what we depict as our body, our desire, our thoughts, we are the opposite force, the force of reception. When we can feel that we are in the force of bestowal, according to the extent to which we rise above the will to receive. And we wish to resemble the force of bestowal, at least to annul ourselves, not to resemble, but to annul the will to receive within us. So that it will not speak. So, it will not present itself all the time as a will to receive. Gradually, through our yearning and also by determining between us such relations that are closer to the will to bestow, by that we can advance up to a state where we begin to feel that we exist inside of the Creator. That he is filling the whole of reality and we exist within Him as an embryo inside of the womb.
Then, of course, everyone is yearning for it and indeed the whole way until the end of correction, you might say that it is one big process of impregnation that we want to constantly adhere to the Creator. As it says, ‘and to adhere unto Him’. We might say that the process of impregnation never ends. We just give it all kinds of different names. We give it different definitions. Really, we are yearning more and more to that same state of adhesion with the upper force, in which we exist. It truly builds everything and whatever we imagine that we seemingly exist outside of Him, this is how we are. This is how we depict it to ourselves. It was given to us deliberately from above this way so that we, on our own, will achieve the adhesion, the degree of connection with the Creator. We have no other action more than that ahead of us.
This direction is only towards adhesion. As it says, ‘and to adhere unto Him’. This is why this entry into the feeling of Ibur, that we exist in Him and that He is controlling us and we only need to long for Him and to feel ourselves that we exist in Him and to feel ourselves that we want to open up all of our emotions and thoughts up to annulling completely in the Creator so that He will fill us. This actually is our inclination now. It is because we, on our own, are the opposite of Him. Our whole beginning in the contact with the Creator is that we should annul, cancel that egotistic point that exists in us. So, it will not hinder us from being inside of Him. From annulling, from being immersed, from diluting ourselves inside of Him. All kinds of such definitions that each and every one feels throughout all of his moments, this is most important.
Later on, it simply occurs with greater intensity in all kinds of different, various manners. This is how we will discover the Creator. Each time, more and more that we exist in Him. We dilute ourselves in Him. Our will to receive will certainly grow more and more each time. Even though it will grow, we are like an embryo in the waters of its mother, we will feel ourselves that we resemble Him. We become more and more like Him, according to the extent that flesh is added to us. We will know how to use this flesh correctly in order to adhere to the Creator, that we exist inside of Him. Even though our will to receive, which is the flesh of the embryo, is the opposite of the Creator. However, we try to build out of it something that resembles the Creator. Otherwise, it will be a miscarriage. An accident in our birth and we will fall off from the Creator. Therefore, each time we need to be concerned, each and every day, with how much we are incorporated in Him, and exist in Him more and more, and adhere to Him. Even though our ego, each time, is rising and we, like an embryo, grow and grow inside of the Creator. However, we are inside of the womb. We manage to liken ourselves to Him.
Even though each time we discover more and more desires, and all kinds of thoughts which are the opposite of Him. Criticism over him, over ourselves, over the friends. Distancing between us. Despair. That's the most, the primary one. Despair is what is killing. We have to realize that all of these things are specifically what the Creator is awakening inside of us. Everything comes only from Him. These are the organs of the embryo. It's blood vessels, its flesh. Later on, his bones. Afterwards they begin to connect between themselves in a way that is more and more active. The brain and the heart start to work in him. You saw this, right? How the heart also starts to work at a certain week. Week number 36, I think. The embryo, the fetus, throughout its months of pregnancy, goes through different states where it resembles all kinds of forms of animals. The entire evolution that we have gone through, throughout our thousands of years of development on the face of the earth, we can see all this. To the extent that we understand it, we can see it in the development of the embryo. In this way we advance. That is, adapting, adapting and adapting ourselves to adhesion with the upper one. This is through all of the qualities, thoughts, desires, and the connections between us. We will arrange everything in order to be similar to the upper one.
What is the similarity in? It doesn’t matter what I feel. It doesn’t matter what I understand. I want to be adhered, through the friend, to the Creator. Another day, and another day and another day. It is a long process. However, it is entirely in the entrance to spirituality, towards the birth in the spiritual world.
I am very excited to talk about it. We can say that this process that we are now going through, for the first time in history, in the development of the correction of the world, such a large and diversified group, which is actually representing the whole of humanity, is going through the states. It is very exciting because, indeed, on our success already the whole world depends, to the extent that it will connect and advance following us. Therefore, we need to be responsible for it. The whole of humanity is following us. Just like from the little spare drop of semen the embryo begins. We need to realize that we are that same drop of semen from which each correction of the entire broken soul will start. We will reach the end of correction. It is all ahead of us. There is no time here or anything. It is just our connection, the intensity of our connection, and the direction of our connection. This is what determines everything. Let's continue. I'm asking that you, all the time, in all of the groups, throughout the day, not with many words, with few sentences, to awaken the importance of the process that we are going through.
Excerpt 36 (11:14)
2. R. (12:38) What do we see here? That actually in the Ibur there is everything. Whatever develops later on is from that same point of impregnation which is a will to receive that attaches to the will to bestow, to the side of the womb. Then between them begins this reciprocal action. It is called “I to my beloved and my beloved to me”. The will to receive seemingly penetrates the side of the womb. It wants to enter into the Creator, into its mother, into Bina. From there it actually gets thanks to that, nourishment, fulfilment and it begins to grow. It grows in such a way that even during the Ibur, what grows within it is 25 Partzufim. That is NRNHY that includes NRNHY. During the Ibur it actually builds its pattern, its form. There it is already clear to us what and who it is. In corporeality we don't quite understand it yet. However, in spirituality that is how it is. As it says, already you can ‘look at the drop of semen and say it will be a fool or smart, weak or strong.’ We have such words by our sages that even in the impregnation you can see the whole path forward until the end of correction.
We need to realize that we have a way. Now we are determining what is happening. What will happen, in what form, with what speed, in which manner. Therefore, we need to be concerned about the environment and the connection with the environment so that certainly as quickly as possible we would be able to build our connections with the Creator. Connections with the Creator cannot be without connections with the environment. This is still not so clear to us. We don't yet feel it. Actually, the embryo when it develops it develops mainly on the expense that it is through its friends it connects with the Creator and it learns. How does it learn, how does it work with the Creator, how does it connect with the Creator? By performing and creating different forms of relations with the friends because the group becomes that body of his. So that he connects to that body, on his side, then the group becomes as a womb, as his adapter with the Creator, the external side of the external part of the Creator by which the person can then connect. This is how it is with each and every one. So, it turns out that by this, we begin to build something common between us, right? Through our relations to the ten, we build the Creator. As it says, “You have made Me”. We have no other connection to the Creator. Through our relations with the group, trying to achieve the quality of bestowal, the right connection, the right relations between us, we begin to feel this thing that comes out of lack of feeling from above, and it starts to be felt. That it exists between us in the connections between us in the ten.
This is how we begin to develop my feelings towards Him. We begin to feel Him more and more. As we see this with babies, to what extent they don't feel anything and then a bit more and a bit more. Where did they get that from? From the environment. If they would be developing among the animals, they would be like animals. Therefore, as much as we give examples and exercises between us in the ten, accordingly we will discover more inside of us, the image of the Creator. This is how it happens. I don't quite have the words. I know that I am not going to find them. Rather it is an inner sensation that will awaken in each and everyone. This is how we will feel our connection through the ten to the Creator, that we are building Him. “You have made Me.” Through the attitude between us towards connection, we will discover that inside of the connection, on the other side of it, there the Creator awakens the image of the Creator - the bestower, the one who loves, the one who cares, the one who teaches us. This is how we will discover it. Like a child who doesn't know who's taking care of him when he is born. What does it know, he knows that he's being taken care of. He does even know that something is being done with it. He hardly recognizes anything, just like clay in the hands of the potter. That is what it is like. This is how we will advance.
3. S. (19:34) How can we correctly use our thoughts and emotions for the connection in the 10 could we call one another from time to time and express our feelings all just because to share our thoughts for thinking for one another?
R. It's a good question, end on the spot? We don't quite need now to connect to one another and to explain to one another what each one feels and how does he receive his states of development and what does he do, because by this, we might hinder one another. We are in a very foggy form. We don't quite feel where we are, what quiet is our connection and what is it that we should do. It is like a baby when it is born it does know what and where and who's talking to him doesn't know what's being done to him, it's like a piece of flesh even though, bit by bit it starts to perceive. It perceives a lot. However, we cannot distinguish it, but look at the degree to which it responds. It hardly responds, it just keeps on being on our hands as it was inside the womb. However, it changes its environment. Its environment changes, more and more. Later on, we start inviting responses from it that it will smile, that it will do something, that it will hold something in its hand and this way gradually we will see our connection with the Creator. However, for us with the Creator it is out of the fact that we want to respond to the qualities of bestowal of His with our own qualities of bestowal. Therefore, we can come quite quickly, we reach the connection with the 10 because I have no way by which to reach the Creator, nothing to tell the Creator, nothing to express to him except for the extent to which I consider and I tried to get closer to the friend. Because the Creator, Himself, I can only think about Him. But the action which during the Ibur and all the states of the development of our actions are in particular in the 10. You will see that the more we will come closer to the great corrections and to the end of the correction in the last generation we will have more and more possibilities to act until the entire planet and the whole of humanity we will see them as an embryo and they have to connect and they have to turn to the Creator as it says and the Lord shall be the king of the entire earth. This is how it is, but in the meantime, we need to create connections between us and especially in our attitude and our relation to the Creator. Well, each and every one will feel it inside of himself, what is the good that he can do
4. S. (23:55) When I feel that I am investing many forces and the 10 doesn't come to meetings and less and I feel like I'm losing those forces that I'm investing is that what we call a miscarriage?
R. This is not a miscarriage because you're not yet in the embryo that's one thing and second is that even if they don't come to the lesson you shouldn't explain to yourself that they cannot do it, they're not doing it. Maybe this is the Creator who is playing an exercise with you. He makes it so that they don't come and this is because you are not investing enough in them. It could be that it's from a different side that he also wants you to be connected to all of the other 10’s, all of the other groups that they are all together with you in the lesson. There are many things here we will see it later on because all in all, we are all coming as one man with one heart the whole of Bnei Baruch is one ten. Therefore, it's difficult for us to say right now what is the reason that the Creator is not bringing my friends to the lesson. All in all, he is managing it. He is doing it. I can say about them that they're like this and like that but ultimately, I need to turn to him and to complain about him and to pray to Him why is he not doing it and maybe out of that I will understand different reasons.
I saw such things even between the students of Baal HaSulam and Rabash would also say well I always get up in the morning if there's a lesson or not it doesn't matter Baal HaSulam usually gave lessons twice a week, sometimes only once a week. So, he said I got up and according to the questions that accumulated within me I wanted to go to others, not to the teacher to the Rav or anything but to go to him like a father because there's no lesson. For sure Baal HaSulam does not sleep during these early hours just like us but he said I will go to him, so if I go to him, I open the door and I see everybody sitting in there and studying. He didn't tell me anything, that there is a lesson, he said I got so mad about them, I sat down and I kept asking questions all the time I was asking questions he would answer and I would ask, he would answer and I would ask. Baal HaSulam answers to the points so I have to take the whole lesson to myself, you have to understand his determination, right. This is what he told me almost those exact words. What am I trying to say, we don't quite know what is happening and why do we go through it in a certain way and there were students we're not simple, they were not beginners, so I cannot tell you what to do. Let's say you will have to awaken them. But not in this form like Rabash did.
5. S. (27:55) In the process of development of Ibur is it pure throughout the whole stage of preparation?
R. We don't know that we don't understand it. Usually, we get at the entrance to the impregnation many disturbances, each one according to his nature. In one constantly all kinds of questions things his mind about food, sex, family, in others it's about money, honor knowledge all kinds of problems and questions awakened and they don't leave the person. It takes a lot of patience. One needs to see himself like the sperm that is going the hard way the long way and it has to fight in order to enter the womb and inside of the womb until it reaches that place where it can attach to the side of the womb and there it begins to develop. So, for us it is all struggles against the thoughts and desires that do not leave us. We feel them as though simply if earlier sometimes I would be in such an attack from thoughts and desires within me now it is non-stop. Non-stop all the time. This is precisely like that sperm that enters and enters into the womb and it begins there, the struggle on how to connect to the side of the womb and become an embryo. This is how we need to look at it, and the more we will advance, this struggle and the state will become more acute until we will explode from all of this. Precisely suddenly, it starts to become the point of contact between us and the Creator. Then we begin to develop in that we absorb from him the qualities of bestowal and we begin to develop also through struggle but in a different way more internal. We will all go through it and you will see this is the entrance to a new world. Just like we enter our world this is how we need to enter the upper world. and we will get to know that we also have their Abba ve Ima, father and mother, Malchut and Bina, and this is how we develop up to the birth.
6. S. (31:41) How can we be a gateway for humanity in this Ibur condition for humanity in this that we created as a 10?
R. We are not a 10 yet, and therefore it is difficult for us to talk about it. We still need to take care within us until we will be connected as much as possible in a single direction together. By this we also prepare ourselves in the future to be an example for humanity but for the time being it is only with a mere intention, a general intention. We can say that apparently whatever we are doing now we are doing it or should do it for the sake of humanity. We don't yet have such a connection when we will start to connect to humanity, later on with the Creator we will start to see the Creator in all kinds of different forms, in different manners of relations to us through humanity from the outside and from within us, then we will talk about it. it will come. I can't open it up more now.
7. S. (33:54) Yesterday during a discussion a question was born: the 10, the society, will it always be the mother for one?
R. The ten or the whole of humanity will be the thing that one always connects to the Creator, however the more developed the person is the more and more he will feel that he is inside of humanity inside of the souls. Through the general soul he's connected with the Creator and in truth it doesn't matter in which process we are in in the 21st century or in some other period of our development, it doesn't matter, a person always feels this way. We are not connected to the time that we feel here in our world according to our calendar. This is what we will discover that we are connected to the Creator through all of humanity and even through the whole still, vegetative, and animate and through the speaking to the Creator. This is the general structure and it doesn't matter that whether humanity is going through all the despicable states are exalted ones, it doesn't matter. It's with respect to each and every one he will see it as he should. We will see these things, it will be revealed, it will all be revealed, it will be clear to us from the stages of our own development.
8. S. (35:56) How can we grow our devotion to the Creator in each and every state towards Ibur what is the work of the lower one?
R. Ibur means devotion or devotion of the soul there is no more than Nefesh, the soul that develops in us, and soul devotion means I'm willing whatever I had in spirituality to ascribe everything to the Creator and I ascribe also myself to that with no new limit this is our work and this is considered that the sperm wants to cross through all of the barriers in order to attach to the Creator. It is a hard, long way, very uncomfortable. However, look at what we have in the corporeal world as a result of the spiritual world. What struggles, what efforts, what forces are working there by the way it's the greatest force. There is no greater force that appears in our world than that drop of semen that goes and breaks all of the obstacles in order to reach adhesion in the womb. These are the greatest forces that are in our world. In our world there is no greater or more powerful example of how these two forces are operating and getting closer to one another. All of the work, all of the spiritual forces and operations in our world and spiritual world they all come out of the combination of two forces plus and minus, the force of reception and the force of bestowal. The fact that this gives the beginning to life to the extent that it yearns for it, that sperm that exists inside of the mother it goes and reaches a place where it can develop. This is truly the only example, I would say, of the force of bestowal that exists in our world inside of the force of reception in it and it is pushing us to develop. This is how we need to feel that the Creator is also doing the same with us. We just need to assist him in that He is pushing us, pulling us, doing all kinds of things to us but he is also giving us all of the obstacles in order to educate us and this is how we should advance towards him. We should nevertheless accept all of these things with love.
9. S. (39:24) When the conception corrupts and reaches miscarriage should all of the friends in the 10 then corrupt or is it enough that most of them get corrupted for us to reach this point?
R. We're not talking about the miscarriage or the corruption of it because it's not happening to us. Therefore, we talked about how to enter impregnation, how to enter Ibur or that's it. Then we need to work on that meaning only forward; don't think of anything negative. What is to get corrupted, what do you have that can get corrupted you have nothing corrected in you. Therefore, don't think about the corruption, just come to that which will be corrected in me, that's what we need.
10. S. (40:37) In order to understand, to work correctly in our meetings you said that we are talking about unity, yesterday, you said it's more important to talk about unity than reading the article and today you said we don't need too many words so what should we do?
R. I can't give you percentages and how many words and what not but you need to feel that what you're doing draws you towards the goal just like that sperm that wants to reach the uterus wall that's what you need to examine.
11. S. (41:31) In the corporeal process of impregnation there is competition between the cells, finally one of them begins to adhere to the egg and make the mother pregnant. Is there a parallel here to the state where only one sperm cell out of millions succeeds also in Kabbalah and spirituality?
R. It is written that 1000 enter the room and one leaves. To illumination as much as he see that many come to know what's going on what is the soul, who is the upper force and so on and so forth and along the way you already know what happens how many fall off and leave and lose their will for it their strength for it, they weakened and then 1000 enter and one comes out to the light, that's how it is.
S. This thousand that you are mentioning right now are 1000 that are related to Bnei Baruch, or a thousand in general in the world. My question, is there a hidden competition between people in Bnei Baruch who's the first person who will succeed in adhering?
R. No, no, amongst us not at all specifically. Those who enter our studies and continue becomes an embryo, an inseparable part of everyone, and everyone becomes that Ibur, the embryo. We are building now within you the body of Adam HaRishon, it's just not the first man, Adam HaRishon but rather the last one and each of us is a certain cell within that body
S. Those 1000, who are they opposite from?
R. Those that fall off, they come to us and they fall off for all kinds of reasons they didn't think that way about the wisdom of Kabbalah.
12. S. (44:22) You said earlier that the embryo goes through different states of Gadlut, the impregnation, what do you mean that the Ibur goes through Gadlut, different states of Gadlut, during the impregnation?
R. From a drop of semen he needs to develop to a stage in which he can exist and develop outside of his mother meaning he needs to take the qualities of the mother into him in order to exist on the outside. Just like the mother receives filling or nourishment, food, drink from the outside and this is how he exists, he receives the qualities from the mother and exists outside of her. Meaning he truly exists as an independent part outside of the group, meaning that if before those who were developing in the group like one body, that didn't know who or what the birth speaks already of the feeling of each and every one to the extent and which one has a private or a personal role within the 10, later we will talk about that.
S. The thing is that if I have a state of Gadlut, of greatness, just to arrange my thoughts, there's a state of smallness in the embryo?
R. I feel like you're not in our lessons altogether. How are you asking questions like this, that we're talking about all the time periods. Of course, within adulthood there's also the process of smallness, immaturity of the smallness of course, yes.
13. S. (46:39) We don't succeed in building an intention and desire. The example with the billions of sperm cells thousand enter and only one comes out is this related to us trying to build a desire?
R. Yes, it is certainly associated with all of our efforts to connect in prayers between us to the Creator and to bestow to him and to convince him that we are ready for a direct connection with Him.
14. S. (47:41) He goes through different states of ascents and descents in impregnation, is it different in some way or the same?
R. Ascend and all kinds of ways in Ibur ascents and descents in Ibur are already aimed, already to more connections towards the upper, through the group to the Creator and then a person begins to feel the extent to which the group is very important. Just like Rabash writes for us in the letter that there is no distance between me and my friends and the group and there's nothing but the friends and so on. That comes later, that's how he reveals it.
15. S. (48:55) Am I supposed to become the womb for the friends who engulf all of them with love so each one will feel that he doesn't have the importance of the goal then?
R. Each and everyone needs to function towards his friend in a way that he's trying to connect all the friends to the Creator and he himself doesn't need anything else other than to be the one that connects between them. We call it the passage or the transition.
16. S. (49:45) We are talking about the states of conception, annulment, you should do whatever you want with me I just want to be in adhesion with you so I reach a certain state of lack of forces and you still want to make an attack in that state to ask to demand from the Creator to stand your ground so how can I have an attack in such a state of Ibur?
R. Continue, simply continue I have nothing else to do only for you to continue on this path.
S. You also said that somehow, we can accelerate the times in the situation and it depends on how much we can?
R. It has to do to the extent how much we want to adhere to the Creator and there is nothing else here let's try. As much as possible and all of us in that direction and then all of our efforts will lead us very fast to our common Ibur, our common embryo.
17. S. (51:16) In order to advance in the spiritual impregnation, it requires annulment, connection between us prayer between us and connection prayer to the Creator?
R. The main thing along the way is to be connected between us and in an attack over all the things that are obstacles between us and the Creator.
18. S. (51:54) On a daily basis when a person goes through different states, different events, different emotions, how is this manifested that the person feels the Creator more this attitude that he has towards reality?
R. Don't look for that, look for that within you, within your desires and thoughts and not in an external way. That is where you will find where and in what way you can come closer to the Creator. Where all your desires and thoughts begin, that is where you can search how to be closer through that.
19. S. (52:39) In the corporeal process it seems like the sperm cell has energy and great forces like you do describe to it but we feel heaviness, huge heavy weight sitting on us. What is that? Is that our suitcases or the Creator’s?
R. That is what we need. That is a sign that we need to work on the importance of the goal, the importance of the Creator as a goal and the importance of the group as a means to advance. All of that heaviness shows me the extent in which I am still with a weakness in the importance of the goal. Only that is missing.
20. S. (53:43) What is the difference between the womb and the embryo? We are talking about our connection with the friends so we are creating a womb here or an embryo. What is the difference between the two?
R. We are concerned with being adhered to the Creator we can adhere to the Creator only under the condition that we are an embryo or ready to become an embryo therefore we need to see the 10 in the internal feeling that we are together and we feel the goal, understand the goal, we are ready for it. Then in such a way we are drawn, that's it.
S. But my connections, the connections we make with the 10 is this called ‘the embryo’, when we are attached to one another or is that the womb the entire 10 what is its role?
R. She 10 is the embryo.
S. So what is the womb?
R. The womb is the Creator. My work in the 10 is to organize it each time more and more so it will be suitable to be in connection with the Creator in order to receive from Him nourishment, care. This is how we will constantly care for the 10, for the 10 Sefirot, for our soul. Each time more and more and through this, we will have a connection with him who fills the 10 which is the Ohr Pinimi, inner light, the Creator.
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21. R. (58:48) These are very deep matters. We need to try to understand them or even feel them to the extent in which, well, if we want to be an embryo in spirituality, the extent to which we need to nullify ourselves. Meaning there is no state in life in which we don't accept it as a blessing. Because it all comes from none else besides Him.
Rav reads (59:26)
22. R. In Ibur there are 25 Partzufim, 5 times 5, in each part of the Partzuf there are all the parts, a complete incorporation of them all. As in each of them there is also NRNHY. Therefore, there must be a detaining force. Meaning that it knows the boundary to how far it can include himself in the upper and how much not and in what way. meaning that even in Katnut there should be wholeness there. Even in Katnut, meaning he needs to constantly watch over himself, to be in wholeness, to limit himself such that he doesn't want more than that the main thing for him is to be in perfection and wholeness with the upper, in soul devotion where the upper is always right only in such a way he keeps his contact with the upper and changes according to the extent to which the upper grows him, that's why he can grow in the form of Adam in resembling the upper. He receives this through his mother all the nourishment, all these things but only on the condition that he is constantly trying as much as he is capable with all his might to adhere to the upper.
Rav reads again
23. R. (01:02:25) In Ibur there are 25 Partzufim, NRNHY in each of them there is also NRNHY. Therefore, there must be a detaining force so that there won't be a breach, a bursting out so that the structure will remain whole in every state, in every place that it grows constantly. So there needs to be growth from within and a detaining force from without, meaning that even in smallness there should be wholeness there, this is considered that detaining force, that we don't need any more than that he doesn't need it. Whatever he is giving he doesn't want to receive more than that. Not from him not being capable of doing so but rather he is whole. Let's scrutinize what it means, what spirituality is and how could it be, that if I am in wholeness that I still develop. It seems to be in contradiction to one another and it truly is so in spirituality. In contradiction to this world. Where we are in wholeness and with that, we are advancing from a lack. This feeling of wholeness he receives through his mother although the fetus in itself has no vessels in which to receive greatness in order to bestow still how does he exist by annulling before the mother and he can receive to Gadlut, greatness from the vessels of his mother.
This is regarded as the embryo is its mother's thigh, it eats what its mother eats completely nullifies he is willing to receive from the mother all that she gives him without any criticism or question in complete annulment and by that grows. All that we see in the fetus as it is developing within its mother is all in corporeality but in spirituality it is through the balancing of these great forces on the side of the embryo and on the side of the mother and constantly the spiritual embryo needs to nullify itself before the upper. That is the Malchut which is nullifying before Bina. That is since he has no choice of its own but rather what his mother eats, meaning that which mother knows is permitted to be eaten, he eats as well. Completely, completely takes nothing from his intellect, from his feelings, nothing he cancels all of that. He receives on behalf of the upper the way of observing life. That is what he wants to have. Without any criticism to his mother but rather criticism for himself whether he is following what the upper is defining for him constantly, how he needs to annul himself and be in bestowal. It means that he has shifted to see he has no choice on his behalf but rather what his mother eats, yes, what his mother knows is permitted to eat he eats as well and that's it there is no question.
Just like in the embryo he has no question but rather what his mother eats is what he receives from her, that is what he has in a corporeal way. Meaning that he has no choice but rather what his mother eats, meaning that which he knows he’s permitted to eat, he eats as well, meaning that he is in the Ibur. Rather it means that he has shifted the choice that what is good, he doesn't choose but rather to choose what is good or bad for himself he doesn't have that, rather it is all attributed to the mother, this is called the mother's thigh. Meaning that he, himself, does not merit a name he does on his own he absorbs, he has digestion of sorts that which he received from his mother and from that he fattens and grows and does all kinds of movements but all of that at the expense of the upper, he completely nullifies oneself and therefore that is how he grow. Things that are truly, Godly, that take place for us in this world as well and we don't understand the essence of what these things that are happening in our why nature went through so many changes in order to reach this form. of development.
Meaning that what we need as a result of this is to search how to nullify before the upper and whatever the upper gives is right and only through this, we will have choice. My choice is there is no choice but rather whatever comes from the upper I need to come to a state that I bless for this and I receive it and absorb it and live in it. That is, it and then this leads me to a connection with the Creator until he is revealed and I begin to be connected with him in a clear way.
24. S. (01:09:27) What should we agree with or complete, what should we not agree with in whatever the upper one wants, he has thousands of thoughts and things that go through your mind in relation to the 10, what does it mean to accept what the upper one wants as wholeness?
R. Without any inner struggle whether I am receiving what the upper wants, that is a sign that I am not advancing; advancement needs to be upon resistance. Certainly, if I grow then it needs to be against the upper. We're towards the up or the annulment. The restriction on my behalf is the most perfect thing. All the rest I need to add with my will to receive and in a form that is resembling the upper in order to bestow. In all of the rest of my states other than that point, that drop of semen, the sperm, other than that I go with two forces: the force of restriction and the force of bestowal with the intention to bestow and that's how I advance.
S. So is it correct that I should imagine to myself the quality of bestowal this is what the upper one is expecting of me and in spite of whatever comes up in me which is the opposite from the side of nature I should imagine and add to the friends which is like what the upper one would do?
R. The upper expect that you will receive what comes for him as a necessary thing as the best possible thing and you wouldn't change it even if you could without any other results or any bad results or anything like that meaning that you yourself if you were to know, you would establish the same state that you are in. No matter what state you are in when you depict him as the perfect state because it is certain that it comes from the upper to you.
25. S. (01:12:16) In the excerpt he writes that even though he, himself, doesn't have vessels in which to receive Gadlut, to annul himself before the mother, he can receive the Gadlut through her vessel. How does this work?
R. The embryo grows within his mother by nullifying himself more and more and taking on the form that the upper depicts in him. This is called ‘forming a form within a form’. We will go over this again as it is beyond where we are right now, the point of impregnation, of absorption. We will advance by agreeing with all of the actions the upper one does. For us it is, as Rabash writes about group matters, caring for the group and making certain that the group will be as corrected as possible and incorporating in it as much as possible. To the extent we incorporate in it, specifically in such a way it can give us the future form, as much as it doesn't seem to us in our corporeal eyes.
26. S. (01:13:52) What is the matter of the development of the 25 Partzufim?.
R. We will learn. It is not for now. Our problem now is to make ourselves a drop of semen that is adhered to the womb, and how we start to develop from this drop all of the discernments, the Partzuifm, the Sefirot, and so on. Don't worry about it, we will get there later, it will be. That question will arrive.
27. S. (01:14:32) Does the embryo ask for the quality of bestowal or not even that?
R. The embryo doesn't ask for the quality of bestowal but he asks to subjugate. Bestowal is a physical and practical action. An embryo cannot bestow. It can nullify before the upper. Even though that nullification is difficult, and he limits himself, he works, but he is not yet working on the side of the upper one. Rather he works on behalf of his corporeal side where he is limiting himself and therefore it is not yet called a spiritual action but rather a limitation. By restricting myself, I make myself into such a form, let's say a creature that can adhere to spirituality even though it is not spiritual yet. To the extent I annul myself before spirituality with all that is within me in incorporeality I seemingly acquire within the upper one a place where I can be even though I am not an upper one. Even though I am opposite the other one, even though I am still the will to receive, I am annulling myself, coating myself on the outside with a certain covering, a coat, which is the restriction, and then an even greater coat where I can resemble the upper one. This is how we grow.
S. Do I need to accept and agree that I am the will to receive and that the upper one gave this to me?
R. It is certainly correct that you agree that you received it from the upper one and that you need it for your development but you don't agree that you will stay that way. You accepted it as work to do.
S. Am I able to annul or does the Creator give me this ability?
R. Certainly all the corrections come from above as well as all the corruptions come from above. The question is how we relate to what we receive. This depends on us and especially upon our annulment before the group.
S. Can a person annul in the group or must it come from the Creator?
R. Yes and no. There are actions that we can do on our own with our desire to receive and there are actions that are already spiritual actions to some extent, or partially, and we have to ask for them to happen from above.
28. S. (01:18:20) Do I need the detaining force to feel small before the friends and to be whole within myself?
R. I don't think you are right at all, that in order to annul before the friends I need to feel myself as a whole? I need to feel myself as the opposite: lowly, screwed up, however you want to call it, from there I reach a state where I have to connect with the friends. I have no other choice. To a negative, bad state from a good state? No. You usually come to this from a bad state where you have no choice, where I am the lowliest, the worst.
S. How do I get the detaining force and break through it in our work?
R. When I lose connection with the ten, by that I endanger my connection with the Creator. Perhaps I'm not aware of that, but this is what happens. I leave the right connection with the group and the Creator until I am being brought back on track. I feel that our whole problem in all of the tens, is that the Creator is on one hand and the group is on another, and I am on another. This triangle never comes to a single inner point. Just like in a triangle, each one is in their own corner of the triangle, me, the group and the Creator. We don’t think that we need to meet in the center of the circle.
S. For about two weeks our whole ten we disseminated a clip together and we feel that it helped us on the path.
R. Very good.
S. Should have other group actions beyond disseminating?
R. Do you pray to the Creator that He will help you and connect between you in each and every action of dissemination together or if you do it on your own? Are you raising a prayer that it will help you feel that you have to be ‘as one man and one heart’ that the Creator has to fulfill that heart?
S. We pray in the morning.
R. No this needs to be in you throughout the whole day.
29. S. (01:22:58) In the lesson we are given different depictions of the impregnation. Do we or do we not have to research this analogy?
R. If we look at the writings of Baal HaSulam and Rabash we will see how they use different manners of explanation. There is no other choice, we have to relate to it both ways. Sometimes we talk about the group being the upper one but it is the upper one because the Creator is the light of Ein Sof that shines through this template of the ten onto us. The group is not literally the upper one but it is the means through which we connect to the Creator. We don't belong to the upper world, to the light, because we are not in bestowal, meaning in the spiritual quality. We are created beings. In order to create an adapter, an adapter to the Creator, we need the ten. The more that I am incorporated in the 10 the more I build my attitude to the Creator. Of course, there is no limitation on His part but in order to connect to Him I have to absorb His qualities, to receive His qualities and this happens in a Partzuf, in ten parts through which the upper light comes all the way from the will to bestow to the will to receive.
The upper light builds these stages, these levels, until it reaches the lower one. I need to build my attitude to the upper one through these same stages. Therefore, I need to be incorporated in that structure called the ten, the group, because I can connect to something that is not in me by this adapter. I can’t connect to it directly. For instance, how can I connect from some group, let's say in New York? How can I connect? I have to use a device that will then transform my voice to some signals or wavelength and then I send it to them. They then download these wavelengths until it reaches their ears, and from the ears to their brains. Maybe at some point we will look at how the brain processes signals and ultimately reach the desires. Through all of these adapters and devices, our desires are integrated as a single desire called Adam, The single soul. Look at all these transformations. We invest a lot in order to be connected even though it is all regardless of spirituality.
S. Should each one try to depict a convenient example of corporeal impregnation to work with or flow with all kinds of examples?
R. We will talk about it. Let's absorb what we discussed in the lesson and then during the day repeat the lesson and absorb it well, as much as we can, except for reading the articles about the group and other material. We want it to be absorbed in us, that we will have the ability to absorb the lesson a bit more and a bit more because that is the nourishment, the food that the embryo receives in the womb.
30. S. (01:28:49) I thought I heard you say that the process of the sperm to the egg is a cooperative effort where we push up or they push up together not as a competition, is that true?
R. Possibly, yes let's say so. The fact that we have to work together at that is for certain.
31. S. (01:29:29) How can we empower our 10 in faith above reason while we are developing in conception?
R. We enter faith above reason in the whole spiritual path, is in faith above reason but the force of bestowal has to cover the force of reception this is called faith above reason and the embryo the conception is when we begin to format ourselves to this action, to this ability to be in a force of bestowal above the force of reception. We seemingly restrict the force of reception and then begin to open up the force of reception more and more to the point that the force of bestowal will rule over it and this is called faith above reason. The force of bestowal is above the force of reception, but it has to grow by the force of reception because the force of bestowal expands in width, it has no height, the height the intensity for the force of bestowal is taken from the force of reception, understood?
32. S. (01:31:30) You said that the problem of all ten’s is that we separate or are separated, the Creator on one hand, the ten on the other hand, and me on the other side, how to bring these triangle points into one?
R. It is our work, each and every one and to work with all of us together as much as possible so that we don't differentiate between Israel, the light and the Creator, they are as one. We want them to be as one. This means that we want to meet at the center of the triangle.
S. How do we bring it closer? Do we have a way to bring it closer? Is it our development?
R. In all of our actions we are somehow drawn to that, yes.
33. S. (01:32:12) There is the Creator and there is the 10, it is clear that I don't have this adapter, which is the 10, but practically what do I have to think about towards the 10 to aim myself correctly to the Creator?
R. There is no problem with that, you open up with the articles Rabash which are translated to all of the languages. If you are in need of a language that is not translated yet you need to inform us and we will try to translate these articles into a few more languages that they are not in yet. You need to study these articles and you say, I can't and probably you haven't even opened up these articles. If you say I don't know, look at what you are asking, watch the recording of the lesson and see how you asked and you will see what is missing.
Excerpt 38 (01:33:45-01:35:17) Twice
34. R. That is what the Creator does to us
Reader continues: “Meaning the form of the Ubar within its mother….”
35. R. (01:35:18) This is basically, there is not much for us to do with this paragraph for now, it was chosen but it is not really relevant for us now.
Excerpt 39 (01:35:32-01:36:47) Twice
36. R. (01:36:49) Yes, meaning that he exists in the mother and this is his boundary, this is his whole world he acquires then the quality of bestowal and he can come out of these limitations of the mother, of the upper one he begins to grow more, this is after the birth.
Excerpt 40 (01:37:21-01:38:45)
37. R. (01:38:46) If there is some justification for the lack of patience that we are in too, meaning that we are still not completely ripe but that we already want to be born and to emerge to exit, there is such a thing in this spiritual embryo as well as in the corporeal embryo. We see this according to the contractions, sometimes you can see it even on the belly of the woman, how the embryo is moving about wanting to emerge, we will talk about these forces later on, we need to enter the conception and we need to incorporate with each other and with the upper one completely.
Excerpt 41 (01:39:45-01:40:46)
38. R. (01:40:14) This is called embryo, look at how simple the definition is.
39. R. (01:40:45) This is the first state that we need to attain, after that we will talk about farther states, Ubar from the word Over meaning passing, the first state, when he passes from the vessels of reception to the degree of Kedusha/holiness, where he uses only vessels that can be aimed to bestow. Meaning, the will to receive does not change, I only add to it the intention of usage of the will to receive in order to bestow, otherwise the vessels are not used and the vessels themselves, of course, are vessels of reception.
S. So it is not clear in the impregnation, you are using vessels to bestow?
R. I don't understand what you are asking? We are talking about wanting to enter the spiritual world, the spiritual world is complete bestowal, the force of the Creator. Only towards us it’s on different levels but even the slightest degree of entering the spiritual world is that you leave your will to receive and you enter the will to bestow. So, for now according to what appears to you, later, you will encounter more problems and challenges in order to grow but it will always be like that, there will be waste and there will be food; we will learn all those things, how to sort them out and how we can grow. There are many actions in that regard, but basically the entrance to Ibur/conception, is that we connect to the Creator in a way, that I have a point of contact.
S. To prefer the vessels that I can bestow with, is it the connection?
R. Preferring the vessels, I want to be only in those vessels, it is not that I prefer, I don't want to keep anything that doesn't belong to bestowal within me and it is really burning in me. I am only now getting to know what is bestowal, how to bestow and to who? How to be against reception and how to differentiate between the vessels on the smallest levels.
S. Is it important to say exactly what not or what yes, where is the scrutiny?
R. The scrutiny must first be only in my inner spiritual world. I can be among thousands or millions of people and no one needs to know what is happening inside of me, it is my work, my soul and I am going to correct it. Then I am connecting to a few people and together, one will help his friend, we move forward, In what? In this term of quality of bestowal, spirituality, in that respect we disconnect from the external world and connect between us deeper and deeper and gradually bit by bit we come to a stage where, my inner connection with them and my connection with the Creator, I see that these two discernments, these two concepts become intertwined. So, I no longer imagine the group as bodies or people but rather a spiritual inner potential, the desire towards spirituality. This is how I keep connecting to them more and more and in this form of bestowal that I achieved towards them, I begin to discover the attitude to the Creator, the force of the Creator and how much he helps me in this, and so on. This is what each and every one should try to discover. This is the entrance to spirituality, especially as we are now in the last generation. There were times where a single Kabbalist or two existed in a generation and they connected between them. There were people who lived in caves in order to detach from other people and they couldn't find the other Kabbalists in the generation, there were different states. There were other spiritual methods, besides the wisdom of Kabbalah which are kind of lower level but still as it says, ‘there are many paths that lead to the place’, place meaning the Creator. We are following the method of Rabash and Baal HaSulam but if you ask people, then you can hear about a thousand more different routes.
40. S. (01:46:41) Is it possible to say that the Rosh has to expect to receive from the Creator?
R. I don't understand and don’t want to take any examples. Just like Rabash tells us or Baal HaSulam tells us, can you tell us in these words so everyone can understand? Think about it and give us an example closer to Kabbalah.
S. If I am expecting what the Creator is about to give me, it doesn't mean I already received it from Him, that it came from above and right away I scatter my focus, I am expecting the next thing?
R. I don't understand the picture you are describing and you need to learn from this, in what way you need to ask. Use the words that we use and do not give us any depiction of your own world from what you understand in your own life. Give us a correct example that we use, like the embryo, the mother, something of that world. I don't know what you mean or what are the issues that you are speaking about, maybe it's about your own life but it is not something that we can grab a hold of. Besides that, I don't understand. I hear you speak and I hear other things in the background, what is going on there, is there a delay there?
41. S. (01:49:09) Can I ask about the Rabash articles? I don't understand what they give, I read the articles and I see more contradictions against the 10, I don't understand how to use them?
R. Keep reading, I am talking about the articles of Rabash about the ten, the group, keep reading and reading until you will discover what is going on. If you don't understand anything and you feel a rejection, it is a sign that you are on the right track. Because the first stages towards the correction of the soul is that you can't bear, can't stand these spiritual matters, that you are repelled by them, that is the correct form of your attitude toward spirituality. Spirituality should be repulsive to you, it is about bestowing and who are you? Do you understand?
S. It is not so clear how to behave towards the 10?
R. My dear friend I have spoken about this a thousand times, I can't get into it at this time, look at what I have said before and go and learn it from there.
42. S. (01:50:51) In order to not have a miscarriage what should be our focus be during the nine months of impregnation?
R. Only the adhesion through the 10 to the Creator, that is the only correct direction that we have.
43. S. (01:51:23) How is it possible that an embryo can get volume and the name of its own but it is still a passage?
R. The embryo receives the volume at the account of receiving from its mother to the extent that he agrees with his mother and he is already in order to bestow, as if in order to bestow, these forces are also received from the mother by canceling himself and by that he grows. By that not only he grows but he takes on the shape of an embryo.
44. S. (01:52:17) Can we explain the states of the embryo and the womb as the states of first and second restriction?
R. Don't be so smart, you follow exactly what you are told about the embryo, I am not sending you to TES, where you will get totally confused, you just need to try to cling to the group to the Creator that is always correct all the way until the final correction. The first restriction is about the desire to receive, in what manner it isn't right, you can't take the definitions of TES, they can't be instructions for you right now because you don't discover them within. That is why I am not so rushed to study TES consistently, because it's not going to give us instructions, and I'm even afraid you'll get confused.
45. S. (01:53:50) He writes in the article that we only use the vessels that have intentions to bestow and otherwise we don't use them, you said it has to be just me and I wrote this down that I can't stand it, how to reach such a state?
R. I am ready to receive anything that can grow in me the desire to bestow, that is what I desire and I anticipate, and if the desire is to receive awakens in me of different sorts, I try to push them away from myself, to create a boundary. Just understand what the form of the embryo is, why don’t we just take on the shape of a general circle of the whole vessel of infinity, but rather in the woman in that limited form of Bina, we begin to grow in a limited form of an embryo and in this shape we can develop. Both females and males develop, the females in order to continue to give birth to the males and the males perform the correction and the females continue to become impregnated and give birth to the male part. This is how the world keeps advancing towards correction but we advance in under limitations, in a shape that resembles the upper one, we still don't understand why the head, the body, the legs and the hands all of that needs to happen in us. This is called resemblance to the Creator or that we take our desires that are in this relationship, this kind of relationship between them and that becomes the Creator. What does it mean the shape of the Creator within us, a corporeal shape and an internal spiritual shape? Why does there need to be this kind of relationship and connection between the forces of bestowal and reception and these boundaries and limitations that give us the shape of Adam, that is similar to the Creator. So, you see it is a complex matter, it is not so simple. We will have to see why, specifically through these transitions and transformations that we don't exactly understand, this way or that way bestowal or reception, up and down. Ultimately, what is formatted within us and emerges in us, is a shape similar to the Creator. As it develops it seems very much in complete, not beautiful, that there is no creature worse than the human in the world as omnipotent as He is, so he is harmful to everyone.