Morning Lesson April 18, 2023 

Transcription is made from simultaneous translation, which leaves a possibility for differences in the audio. 

Part 1:

On the Verge of Lishma - Selected Excerpts from the Sources. #11

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1. Rav’s Introduction: We are advancing to Lishma even though we don't feel it. In every lesson, in every gathering, in every connection, in every individual effort we are nevertheless advancing. How can we measure this? How do we make a scale to this? What do we do? How do we do it? Only from coming closer between us to the extent in which I feel that I'm devoted to the group, close to the friends, willing to do anything without thinking twice for their benefit. That's already considered that I have a certain spiritual quality, meaning it is not that I am making a calculation in order to advance to the Creator. I need first to come closer to the friends and I'm reminded that there's an obligation to love friends but if I am drawn to it already, somewhat instinctively, that is already considered that I acquired some vessel of bestowal. And accordingly, we can see our advancement. But don't be sorry that we are not truly revealing too many vessels of bestowal since the Creator conceals it in order to give us the opportunity to put forth greater efforts in exertion, and this is how we have to go above our feeling, above our reason and to remember that every day they shall be new in your eyes and this is where we advance. That's it. Where are we?

Reading Excerpt #11 (03:59) “When he sees that he will not obtain vitality…” Twice.

2. S. (08:08) It sounds from the excerpt that we should go along with searching for pleasure and bestowal?

R. Yes, of course otherwise we will never turn to this ever. The point of Change in which we address or turn to bestowal is where we start to feel pleasure in bestowal but when we already feel pleasure in bestowal there we can start to sort out things and arrange them according to the new state.

S. So that means that I am consciously going for the pleasure because I have no other way to go for it?

R. You feel this otherwise you wouldn't be able to advance.

S. And I deliberately kind of inflate, increase the spiritual pleasure?

R. Well, I wouldn't say that here's the point: are you running after the pleasure or are you running after the fact that it is spiritual?

S. Well that's exactly where the conflict is?

R. So, it is not a conflict because these are unequal things. When you run after spirituality while you do so although there is no choice you must have the forces for this which come from reception for the time being.

S. So do I need to be aware of it and use it as fuel? To depict the pleasure so I can take a step forward?

R. Truth and also later and no more, here you start to engage in how much you are bestowing and how much not.

S. Now when I depict this pleasure of bestowal are depicted through my relation to the friends. I have no other way to depict it. When I go through the ten, through the friends with this depiction of the goal, is it supposed to correct my depiction, to make it correct the depiction of the goal of the right pleasure?

R. It is supposed to stabilize you and in stabilizing you it formats you with several things.

S. So the right feedback is that I should feel that within this effort my desire changes slightly, my approach, my attitude towards the goal?

R. Yes, that you feel each time that I would even say a day or even several times a day that something is changing it is like when you are driving and you are constantly turning the steering wheel a little, you are steering it to go straight but you are kind of constantly playing with it, straightening it out by activating it slightly differently. That’s how it is here too.

S. And that fine tuning is through the friends through connection in the ten?

R. Through the connection yes, in the direction towards connection, that’s the path you don't see otherwise the path you see that at any given moment you need to stabilize yourself towards connection.

3. S. (12:15) It seems from the excerpt that there are several stages in reaching Lishma. The first stage is when he sees that through acts of reception he will not obtain vitality so what are acts of reception? Is it on our path that we feel it? What is this first stage?

R. No it doesn't matter when he is starting to understand that through acts of reception he is distancing and through acts of certain bestowing acts he advances. He advances towards connection to the friends and to the Creator.

S. So, these stages change, they don't have to follow a certain order? A person goes through them at every stage of his development, advancement?

R. Whatever opens up for him we should say it that way. Otherwise if I will answer you I am not certain that each here will take on the same form from it. Each will think of something else and then.

4. S. (14:15) When I want to feel pleasure from bestowal you said that I have to start sorting things. What does it mean to sort things and what am I sorting?

R. To attain pleasure from bestowal. So I probably need to carry out acts of bestowal and to learn how to spin them so that I will receive pleasure from them.

S. And what does it mean to sort things out? What do I need to sort in this process?

R. If I love someone so to the extent in which I bestow to them I enjoy it, that is called pleasure from bestowal.

S. That means that I gradually begin to feel more of the power of love, the love of friends?

R. Yes.

5. S. (15:25) I heard you say in the beginning of the lesson that every day we are advancing towards Lishma, in what exactly are we advancing towards Lishma and what does it mean to advance towards Lishma?

R. That every single day we understand that's our goal, it’s accepted, received in vessels of bestowal, in vessels that we don't have but if we emerge out of ourselves and enter the heart of others we will be able to feel in this transition what it means to move to Lishma.

S. What changes in us everyday? What should we pay attention to?

R. We don't exactly know how to define what is changing in us every day but we feel that something is changing, we feel. Each of us needs to really feel that today I am feeling something different than I did yesterday and that is how it is every day after several stages like this a person would already be able to wrap his change with certain words.

S. How does it transition from my heart to the heart of others? How do you begin to live from within the other?

R. This is the tendency that starts in my heart and I start to feel that I'm drawn to be together with the friends. I want to understand them, feel them, I want to cause them good and to see that there's how much of my ego is there and how much I am in my inclination there.

6. S. (18:08) How do you do everything without thinking twice? You said in the preparation that a person when he is dedicated to the group; when he begins to feel dedicated to the group and for the friends is willing to do for the sake of the group, anything without thinking twice?

R. Well that's already the measure of connection, maybe even love. So it gives us the possibility to not think to carry out actions without thought in which love activates it.

S. Is this the tendency that we should have to act with that thinking or to think and then act?

R. We need to come to states in which we think, invest our forces and stabilize them in such a way that it comes to us from the force of thought and overcoming and until this becomes like Rabash writes, like a second nature.

S. I'm asking a moment before a thought comes and tells me what for, why do it and how do you prepare for it?

R. If it doesn't awaken in you how will you ask? I don't understand you. We will scrutinize these things and we will go gradually with them.

7. S. (20:00) What does it mean to come out to ourselves and enter the heart of the other?

R. That my heart will only be as a device that feels the heart of the friend. That's called Dvekut [adhesion.] And also you should understand that the more difficult it is for a person, then it is a sign that his heart is so like stoney heart then that person will have lots of work and he will he is supposed to achieve, attain a strong connection through all of these states with the Creator. 

8. S. (21:22) What makes it when we are in Lo Lishma that we are close to Lishma already?

R. When we are in Lo Lishma we don't understand at first that we are in Lo Lishma then we start to feel then we begin to overcome to resist and this way gradually we come closer to understanding what Lishma is from within Lo Lishma. And the transition takes place by a person having a certain decision coming to him like a small shattering and then he moves to Lishma in all kinds of things small things. He goes through it each time, it's even more and more and more in Lishma as he acquires it until he comes to a state in which he is already willing and is ready for an inner connection with the force of bestowal.

S. You talked about that we are stabilizing our states in helping to do this to come to a more instinctive way of working in Lo Lishma towards Lishma?

R. Yes, we want, we dream of how we will be able to be naturally in Lishma.

S. What is the best way to make our behavior that it turns to an instinctive way of being there for others? That we can really feel this let's say as a measurement, as of scales. I am not thinking anymore it is an automatic habit so what is the best way to do this to come to this behavior?

R. This is through exercises in the group I would say that nevertheless each and everyone of us has imaginations and depictions of how to get to come to it but I think that nevertheless to keep the advice of the Kabbalists from Lo Lishma to Lishma and from the love of created beings to the love of The Creator; these are two rules that we need to observe.

S. This makes it close to come from Lo Lishma to Lishma?

R. Yes.

9. S. (25:33) It sounds from the excerpt that we come to Lishma only because we have no choice because we have no pleasure in reception, so we are forced to begin to bestow in order to receive some vitality.

R. Give me another example in which a person that is born completely in order to receive in the evil inclination and the worst of all the other forms of the will to receive for him to want to be in order to bestow?

S. In that regard I understand and feel that it is like that with regard to myself. The question is when we work in the ten and I want to pray for the friends I want to promote them I can't ask for such a state for them that they will go through a state of absence of pleasure in vessels of reception that they will be forced to get through it I can't ask for this I have to ask for good thing for the friends?

R. Those are called not good things if I am on the way towards resembling the Creator if along the way I go through states of lack of filling in my vessels of reception?

S. If I go through it then I can take it up on myself to go through it for me it will be my reward and that is my calculation but I can't make that calculation for the friends?

R. If you are connected with him then why not both you and him?

S. That's the question how do we go through it together with the friend that say understands that he also needs to go through this process? How can I ask for him in a way that is because if I come and try to tell the Creator what I want him to do for my friend what would be the right words so he can help him reach Lishma?

R. Only connection and speech and acts of bestowal that are mutual. Maybe I don't understand the question.

S. When you look at us, what do you wish for us to reach Lishma, what inclination, what tendency do you have when you think positively about another person so that he will go through such a phase where he has no vitality from what he has. Because it needs to go through a tough stage and I don't know how to help him go through, to come to make him, come to think about the good, the final goal because it is still not in his feelings in his vessels, otherwise he would do it by himself. So how can I push the friend towards Lishma, so he thinks about it and he goes through a state of lack of vitality?

R. He passes his vitality to the vitality amongst the friends, he begins to see life in the group in the connection with the friends and then it's not important to him what he would feel alone in his personal vessels, rather the main thing is for them to all be together. This togetherness that they try to be this is what establishes in them the willingness to begin to feel the force of The Creator, the Upper Force.

S. It sounds like I am not supposed to think about what the friends will go through on the path. I just have to give my love of friends into the group and the Creator will take the friends through whatever phases they need to go through?

R. We nevertheless need to try and yearn to be closer to one another and help one another and the Creator the Lord will finish for me as it is written. But we will go through this. The Creator will open for us a few more.

10. S. (30:55) I think you said to a friend that my heart has to become an instrument that feels the friends?

R. Well, it will be like that.

S. Can you describe how this instrument works? Do I feel like certain friends in order to fill the friend? Do I need to direct this instrument towards the friend?

R. That we will learn along the way, we will be long on the way. I don't have a lot to answer here.

S. Meaning it will happen by itself that is basically what you are saying?

R. Yes.

11. S. (31:35) The will to receive cannot live without pleasure. The question is from what do I enjoy and whom do I delight, the answer is I enjoy bestowal and delight the Giver and everyone and on ourselves is this depiction correct?

R. Correct.

12. S. (32:15) Baal HaSulam writes in the article Arvut (Mutual Grantee) how can we rise above ourselves when we have 600,000 people taking care of each other's corporeality, then you have no problem, you don't even need to think in the direction of concern, for why do we in our situation, even we are not adhered to the goal, it is hard for us to disconnect from the self, the level of the self, we have a way, we have the means, we have the connection but here, too, there are all kinds of difficulties that are here. So what is this disrupting us?

R. What's bothering what?

S. What is disrupting us in the group to disconnect from disconnecting from this concern I don't know?

R. The moment we will be connected to friends we will gradually disconnect from ourselves and we will be able to be in bestowal to a friend more than we are bestowing to our friends for every person.

S. The Creator by disintegrating all of the corporeal values, he helps us. We should see it as help on the outside and in here too. How do we relate to what the Creator is doing correctly and how do we build the right attitude? 

R. Can somebody help him?

13. S. (34:20) I too have the similar question, it is not difficult for me to work for my kids , make them food etc. I put it in the circle called me and there I work. If I add my ten into the circle is called mine, then it won't be difficult for me to work for them. It will be like the conditions of Arvut. But here it seems like we need to do something else. We need to kind of kill my addiction to satisfying myself and stop working in the self and work elsewhere. It is like two different kinds of work on the base of it. It seems like you could add the whole world into the circle called me and then it's not that difficult for me to work for them.

I feel like I'm receiving. them are part of me, this is one work. But on the other hand, it seems like we have to cancel my addiction and my thought that I'm having to work from me, disconnected and go kind of against nature to do something opposite for them as if let me suffer. It's like two different kinds of work and it's not clear how to shift from Lo Lishma to Lishma. Where do I need to place my efforts in this kind of work or in that kind of work?

R. If you did this for your friends, you enjoy for your children you would enjoy the difference in seeing in your friend, your relative or the one that's close to you that's the only thing we need to work on also that is the group work. All of us need to talk and emphasize that each belongs to the heart of each of us until we begin to feel it. 

14. S. (36:20) If I managed to add a friend or another person or all the created beings into the circle that is called me. Then I have the strength to work because it becomes me the friend is asking do we have beyond it a different kind of work where we have to learn to bestow on someone who is not me who is another, who is a stranger to maintain this, the foreignness which is opposite from me to bestow outside of me, outside of my circle is this called Lishma. I think that is what the friend is trying to scrutinize?

R. I didn't hear.

S. Does adding the other into the circle that is called me or should I come out of myself and bestow upon a stranger?

R. No, to put him into my heart to enter into my heart.

15. S. (37:30) What is this common feeling that we need to drive towards that feeling that it's not my personal one, that feeling where we feel the Upper Force who feels it?

R. Everyone feels it.

S. What's everyone?

R. In the common heart.

S. So is this my circle or another circle?

R. Everyone's, mine, yours, his and his.

S. But I enter them into my heart I now feel this common feeling in me kind of. Where is this new feeling that is not individual which is not mine first of all?

R. There is no individual in general. They connect, they connect together, there is no such thing if we come to be as one man with one heart then how do you divide it?

16. S. (38:35) In all the actions and efforts to do and feel in the end it feels like we get stopped in the prayer because efforts are easy to check and also Rabash writes in the end except for the prayer we have nothing else to give and when we come to the prayer even if you stop in the depth of your heart, did I do something did I not do something did something happen here should I continue with this because sometimes you don't believe yourself already. So sometimes you can continue and sometimes you just throw it because I say I'm not really doing anything yet anyway it is best that I will go and clean here something for the friend?

R. In other words your actions don't bring you to a feeling that you bestowed: that you gave.

S. Right and it is more than that because I feel that probably this prayer is the most important thing that I can do and even stop and I do but even I myself don't even believe that I did something?

R. Well, Shi, do you want to say something?

17. S. (39:50) When he sees that through acts of reception he won't attain vitality he begins to perform acts of bestowal so the acts of bestowal will give him pleasure. Sometimes from what Danny said you would try to seemingly do prayers and these processes and you don't get any feedback you don't get any vitality. There could be a state in which you go back to, well I tried bestowal, I didn't succeed so let's go back to reception at least there I receive something, I eat something, I even get some kind of even momentarily pleasure but it is vitality something small and bestowal when you try time after time and you don't receive vitality. You start feeling like I should just let go of it and go back to even muting it or like an opposite effect, what can we do? That is really dangerous?

R. Does anyone have an idea? Who has some advice? In other words what's missing here is the greatness of the Creator. That is the only thing the greatness of the Creator is missing in bestowal upon others to the extent that I am lacking the strength to bestow upon others, from where can I get it if the Creator grows in my eyes. The living God will grow.

18. S. (41:36) But if like in the family, I put the friends in, like my family and it's like I'm bestowing to them in order to receive?

R. Fine. 

S. Where is the exit from that to real bestowal?

R. First you connect to them in one heart, and then we'll see.

19. S. (42:01) The confusion returned, so bestow to others, yes? That's what causes despair to a person where he doesn't feel but again it's the other. I didn't manage to put them inwards so they are still outside and that is why it is difficult for me. Why is it called the love of others if we said that we have to bring the friend inwards and I have to bestow to something that I feel is part of me, that is no longer other?

R. How do you distinguish between this and what you had before?

S. It really sounds like there is no difference after that.

R. There is a difference, there is a difference. Where is the work? Where is the labor?

S. It already began to be a new nature. I never bestow to others if I manage with my efforts although to perceive a state in which the friend became a part of me. So again, I am already not bestowing to others.

R. Yes, but he became closer than before. 

S. Yes.

R. That's it, this is how I distinguish because the more I advance in spirituality, the farther ones become closer.

S. But the other, in the definition of the word is everything except for me.

R. Yes.

S. So the other doesn't remain in the end?

R. Doesn't remain of course, as one man with one heart.

20. S. (43:36) I'm talking specifically about the act of the prayer, I stop during the day to read something to try to feel all the friends in the center of the ten and to exert in that. Because I don't have feedback there, at least not direct at that moment, it is something that you simply feel that it is despair. I know in myself that once I had this reminder once an hour, twice an hour, to stop to do this thing because there's no sort of answer from the result it. And it's not that I'm not doing it. On the contrary, I am going to do acts towards the society because I feel more benefit there. In Passover I worked like non-stop with things that I organized but eventually at the end of the day that to stop and pray is more important, to stop and do the intentions is more important. But the physical actions come at the expense because at least I saw that something happened here?

R. So in a sentence, what's the question?

S. So what do we do with this prayer? Is it best to say give me a certain dose, do 50% this or 50% that or leave for a month the physical stuff and just…?

R. Can someone explain it to me?

S. He is asking how to increase the importance of the prayer, the act of the prayer. He says when he makes an exertion in actions towards the society in that direction of bestowal and I see an action before my eyes. So I have feedback. I understand if I operated positively towards bestowal and there's an action which is internal in the heart, an action called prayer to which I also want to come to. When I work on it time and time again, because it’s internal, there's no expression, no feedback. So I get weakened and I let go of it. How to get stronger in this internal work of the prayer?

R. You have to labor for it, to make efforts. There is nothing else you can do or you will get strength from it from the general prayer of the friends. That is it.

21. S (46:11) If I understand the friend correctly it is also a problem in me that if I don't have some emotional response to what I do, then as far as I am concerned, it is not inscribed. Also in prayer, if I don't feel anything towards the friend and I make some move then it's not prayer as far as I am concerned. I do not feel it. I don't really intend this. The feeling and the intention are the same thing as far as I am concerned. The question is what can you do if you have no emotional response to certain actions to say that I did it? This is the beginning, the middle, the end and I succeeded at it. 

R. In other words you are demanding a payment. Yes.

22. S. (46:57) I'm also in that direction, yesterday there was a situation. I got to think about a friend for a few minutes and here too, I don’t know if I managed to connect to him, I don't know where the Creator entered in that. It is like this certain concern where the friend is, what he's going through, what he is feeling, how I can think about him to be more connected to us. But, like the friend is saying, there's no feedback where you say as a result of this I am feeling that we connected more and as a result of this you are feeling the greatness of the Creator that there is a certain result with the friend not in me. There is like a cloud of thoughts. I'm somehow having concerns about my son or my grandmother. So you care for the friend for it to be good and to be okay. How do you connect it to the Creator, to the center of the group?

R. Who understood what he said?

23. S. (48:07) When you come to the friends, the prayer is very interesting. It's a very strong word that we have to reach the internal intentions and to pray and to really connect with the light and request the reforming light to come. Then you find yourself after a few years, you ask yourself what is that all together? What are we doing here? It's like really in the desire to put your heart, all your life on something like you came to Rabash once you said, I need now to decide if I am putting my life on this. It’s not, I search, I search and now I'm deciding this is where I am putting my life. I want to know that I'm making the right decision. So when you come to that place of the work with the reforming light and those things that are, what can you do? It's a little abstract and foggy. It's not clear, it's here. So you get stuck. I can say and I also hear from the friends we get stuck and we are not clear what it is clear all together. Am I doing it or not, am I succeeding or not and it's life, it's not some small thing on the side. This is truly critical to understand if we don't have feedback but something else, but something to grip onto because everything is on it.

R. What would you want?

S. I don't know. I don't trust myself already. What am I going to ask? Feedback is a desire, yes I want feedback. I want feedback to understand that when I pray it's prayer, it's what you mean, it's what Rabash writes, prayer at least I did that. Even if I didn’t succeed, at least I tried or did it.

R. It is clear to you that you did it, because you did it, you put into it efforts and time.

S. What? By me thinking about a friend during the day?

R. Well for example, yes. What do you want as feedback? That it will be registered in your name of some labor? 

S. Let's say, yes.

R. When you receive it, it will be. It's not bad right? It's beautiful in order to receive.

S. Not that then something else, say as a Kabbalist, how do you do this every day? You probably receive some feedback, you don't do it in a blind way your whole life.

R. Yes.

S. What can we receive and what can we learn from this?

R. I write for myself another zero and another zero and another zero.

S. Another zero that you didn’t succeed?

R. Not that I didn’t succeed or did succeed. I did what I could. Whatever happened to me, however the Creator allowed me to feel, to do. But in truth, I can calculate how much I intended in the morning and in the evening, I can calculate how much I actually did and then what? Again, it all depends on the upper force.

S. When you complete the day, how do you calculate how much you succeeded today?

R. How much I succeeded? It's not with respect to my personal success, it is how much I succeeded in conveying the wisdom of the Creator to the world.

S. It's something on the corporeal boundaries like dissemination etc.

R. Yes.

S. How do you calculate the internal work at the end of the day?

R. It is how much effort I made for it, how much I exerted and how much I did and how much I succeeded. Just like in corporeality.

S. Do you manage to calculate an internal effort like a corporeal action?

R. Yes.

S. If you could be able to teach that to us that would be excellent.

R. Each one will come to it and will learn it in his own personal way. There is no problem here.

24. S. (53:33) What is the sign that I'm praying correctly if I have no feedback?

R. There is no such thing as not having feedback because before you pray you already have the answer to the prayer from above. The Creator is always first and therefore here it all depends on the person, to what extent he is willing to work only so that he has some, even the smallest connection with the Creator.

S. If there is the answer to the prayer even before I pray?

R. Then how can you pray?

S. That is the question, what is my contribution? What is my prayer truly? What am I doing here?

R. I guess we don't understand what is the answer to the prayer and the raising of the prayer. We will learn it. There are articles about it, we will learn it. What is with you today?

25. S. (55:13) What practically is more beneficial to the society? A few days ago, a friend sent me a mail and needed me to do some work for him. It took me an hour, I didn’t enjoy it at all, I didn’t see any feedback. He barely even wrote thank you, right? Everything is fine. What is more beneficial for me to do for an hour, that work for a friend or an hour sitting with an excerpt thinking of the friends and asking for them, for the society. Not for me. I’m not interested for me, I have no feedback from both.

R. From both of them, you will not see the real result.

S. I'm not searching for the result, I'm asking what does the society need from me?

R. What does it have to do with the examples that you gave?

S. A friend asked me to do something for society? What is more beneficial for the world kli? For me to do this action that the friend asked or to sit and pray?

R. To do what your friend told you to do because he's the manager of the society, even if you see it is totally useless, but still, you do it.

26. S. (56:37) If I have no command from my friend and I have no possibility to do either the physical or to pray. How does a person choose where to exert in the most beneficial way?

R. He chooses according to his vessels. 

S. He can do a physical action which maybe has feedback, he can do internal actions with no feedback, he can do dissemination. It is clear that it is the direction, but how does he choose what to do? How does a person choose what to do in the most beneficial way for the society for the correction?

R. How can society come through this action come closer to the Creator? What is not clear?

S. How does he pray, how does he know?

R. He doesn't know then he doesn't know. Instead of sitting for an hour and praying, if he does some physical work for the sake of the society, by this he can say that I'm doing this. But it is best if this society manages him, and not he, himself. 

S. How is a thought for a friend? How does it become a spiritual thought for correction? If I feel that I have friends that are close to me in my heart, we've been together for a long time and we became friends even in a certain, human way. From the concern that I have for a friend, that's in a difficult situation or not, how do I turn it and make it a spiritual action? What do I put into there? How do I know that I turned it into a spiritual action?

R. When you as much as you can, disconnect from yourself each time and connect to the friends, at least to the ten and do something for their sake. 

S. When I'm already in the thoughts for the friend and feel the concern for him, and I'm seemingly in prayer for him, what there do I need to know or do so that I know that this action is correct and whole?

R. Disconnect from yourself and connect to the friend. 

27. S. (59:06) What I take out of this scrutiny right now is that to be in a searching for a prayer all day?

R. Yes. 

S. To adhere to every situation to dissemination and if my friend gives a dissemination assignment and I get difficulty in that, I can adhere to the Creator or that the connection of the friends?

R. Yes. 

S. Everything is actually bringing to a prayer in every moment. Can you say that this is sort of a measurement, that the more I'm praying and adhering every security to the Creator through prayer, to connect the friends more. And even if I don't know this, I can ask before a prayer to help me to be in the thought to be in prayer all day. Is this measurement of the more I'm in this process, I'm more coming to Lishma? Because I'm working only for the benefit of the friends and for the Creator?

R. You are working for everyone's sake. for the general kli (vessel) and if you are constantly concerned about that, it is correct. It is the right direction. The direction is correct. 

S. To begin adhered to the Creator in every situation and if you can't you can always ask him to help in the situation that you're not, that you will get help from the friends also. This is the feedback actually the prayer itself, the quality of what you are asking, to being in this process that's actually your feedback because the Creator is giving you this prayer. Is this the contact that you have in, the adhesion with the Creator?

R. Yes.

S. Interesting.

R. The more you feel that you're dependent on the connection of everyone and the connection with the Creator, because this is the only line, until He becomes the point of connection between you and the Creator together. And you will see that this is the desirable outcome. 

28. S. (01:02:15) What do you answer to the friend, to this place, he feels that he came to a certain wall from which he is not receiving feeling? What does he need to do in order to continue onwards?

R. Turn this wall into a wall of prayer. We learn about how he needs to turn towards the wall and pray. In other words, to make every disturbance you seemingly see before you into a state of litany, prayer. And from this litany, if we relate to it in this way, we will get a great result. A beautiful one. 

29. S. (01:03:29) To relate to this point that you came to now, all that a person is missing at any given moment is to bring everything back to None Else Besides Him that He is actually the one working with me, bringing me this wall and establishing these claims in me?

R. It is true, but he also needs to be incorporated in everyone. 

S. What does that mean?

R. What does it mean that there is None Else Besides Him? So, there's nothing else besides Him? That's fine. But where's the others? The friends and all. 

S. He's bringing me to a state in which I have to pour myself outwards towards the others, to feel that it's Him? Otherwise, I don't feel it's Him, otherwise I am imprisoned inside of myself and remain there?

R. Yes. I understood you.

30. S. (01:04:32) If my goal from the work is to be as much as possible constantly in prayer and thought and yearning and longing for the friend to be in the good or to think about him, the very thing that I'm living from the thought of the one that is dear to me, if that friend is constantly going to be in greater and more difficult things happen to him, I will think about him naturally more. How do I do the opposite? Where I do not need for the things to happen to the friend, for it to be more difficult to think about him, but rather for him to live better from moment to moment and for my yearning and my thoughts will grow?

R. It is all inside of you, as I understood it. And you need to change your root relation to him. There's nothing you can do here and nothing you need to do. Just love him more.

S. If I want to think about one who is dear to me, who is in great danger now than he was a moment ago, I am thinking about him more, how do I invert that? How do I make that even in each moment he is in a better state, more abundance, I will think more about him?

R. I don't know, you are mixing corporeal form with the spiritual form. In the corporeal form, the better he is, the less you think about him. In the spiritual way, you do not measure it in terms of how he feels better or worse. You are rather constantly concerned about how you feel him more. 

S. For me to care for the friend more than the previous moment that I cared for him, right now the friend needs to be in danger and in a greater problem. The bigger problems he enters, I feel I'm more locked on caring for him and being concerned for him. 

R. For example?

S. How do I invert that? How do I make it so, I don't want him to be in good all the time for me to think about him more? How do I cause my friend to see him more good,living with more abundance, more friends and more confidence and I am thinking about him more?

R. I understand. It can happen only in the condition that you are already in spirituality and you see your friend in spirituality. That the more he receives, it will be in order to bestow and then you will always want to add to him vessels in which to receive in order to bestow. And then the more you advance towards receiving more, you feel more that you are giving more and you have more and more of a deficiency. 

31. S. (01:08:27) I wanted to ask a question which is between the source material and discussion that took place the last hour, from what is the pleasure of the light comes from, from the act of the bestowal or from the yearning to bestow?

R. From the yearning to bestow you get a different pleasure, that you want to come closer to the Creator and you hope that he will help you. And from bestowal itself, you get adhesion, when you feel how connected you are to the Creator and that you are working together, acting together. These are two different things.

S. If you yearn to bestow and we feel that we are yearning and we feel that it's real in our eyes but, in actuality, when we're not certain it succeeded that our intention was realized all the way, in action. Do we need to feel a certain deficiency, or should it be sufficient for us to have that pleasure from the yearning itself?

R. We need to see the goal before us and how each day we format it more correctly, we depict it more correctly before us and to calculate how much we are going toward it.

32. R. (01:10:09) We already entered the second hour of our lesson. Do we shift to another topic forcefully? 

S. I have another question, is it possible ever?

R. Everyone has them, alright ask. 

33. S. (01:10:44) There's a transition that takes place from the person making a decision, some small shattering. What decision? What needs to break?

R. That was connected to what we talked about then, I can't get back to it. 

34. S. (01:11:08) I just listened to the friends carefully in the last hour, and I feel that somehow we lack greatness of the Creator. We just don't know how to appreciate every moment that we remember the Creator?

R. Yes. 

S. If the Creator gave me a possibility to turn to Him, this is the feedback. This is the result. So how can we raise the importance in our hearts? How can we remember this? That I will not wait for a response or fulfillment but inside of the clothing of the faith I will be grateful because now he gave me an opportunity to turn to Him.

R. It's a good question, think about it. 

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