Morning Lesson January 24, 2021 Transcription is made from simultaneous translation which leaves possibility for differences from audio
Breaking the Barriers to Spirituality #12
1. Rav’s Introduction: Yes, then I heard that there is no translation to all languages which is a huge issue it is like cutting the physical connection between us, so I thought we could just a sing a few melodies in order to connect and from that we can influence the network and it will correct itself but it has corrected itself. So, we are in the lesson breaking the barriers to spirituality the barriers in the heart of each friend relative to the connection with others in order to connect to the system of Adam HaRishon and then we will discover in it that it is completely full of the upper light with the force of the Creator which is the force of bestowal all the way to love. So, let us try to break through our hearts so we can feel that true force of our connection which is the Creator, so let us read.
Excerpt 12 Reader (02:23 - 03:54)
2. R. That everything that happens in this world is simply a tendency to the place of unification to connect to discover the connection to the general integral system.
Reader continues .... when the dwellers of the clay houses ....” (04:17 - 04:40)
3. R. We need to imagine how we are breaking barriers and going into those states which reject us from one another which resist our connection internally in our hearts and we go through it, what do we discover then?
Reader continues .... “Then they are invented like a printed substance ....” (05:05 - 05:36)
4. R. When we reach connection more and more we see how we are opposite, how much we hate that state, we are that we are above that dark infinite abyss. Nevertheless, if we take one step inside and another step and another, we discover each time that after the want to enter into this black abyss, the ego this fight the ego to form such a connection when we break the barrier meaning we enter inside into rejection and the disconnection and the hatred between us then we discover only after we make the effort, we discover that there is the drop of unification, the connection in that drop there we discover the connection between us and the Creator.
4. S. (07:00) How does this inversion happen when on the one hand a state of darkness on the other hand a state of unity?
R. There is no transition here because what was failed before the hate, rejection, something that is impossible to cross, that remains; all the crimes are covered by love but together with that we have to walk and take the step forward and discover the solid ground he needs to advance. But after we make a step forward there is nothing worse than advancing to connection, this is all of creation. This is creation, the internal repulsion which we discover in the heart against the connection with the friends this is absolute darkness, this is the abyss, the hate, rejection there is nothing worse as much as if we can depict all the terrible things that exist in the world. This reaction to all of that which appears between us is the worst, there is nothing verse it is from the core of creation, from the source, from the source of power and if despite this I am holding the friends and we are taking a step forward with eyes closed because we have to, because it specifically by that we give contentment to the Creator specific specifically by that's where we advance to the purpose of creation.
5. S. (09:13) That fact that the in bringing contentment to the Creator is the point?
R. Yes, otherwise, we are doing it for the desire to receive and that if it was for the Creator, it's a would be that every cannot do it but we do it above our strength, how by nullifying to the friends, by nullifying and by that we receive the forces from the friends and that's the way we advance-forward. Only by the strength of the group, Malchut if connects, it is able to receive all the forces this is how we have to come to the friends, if you have one friend or five friends, it doesn't matter, If you understand that you have to you must pull this forces from the friends and advanced using these forces then it's works. Meaning, subjugating yourself, receiving the strength from them only annulling that this is the only way to advance to the Creator that if you have friends you have to receive the forces from then and then you need to take a step towards the Creator. This is amazing, this is very simple, constantly need to imagine these states before us.
6. S. (11:05) What does it mean that he can give us the drop of unification, where is this state?
R. He can give us the drop of unification between the group which becomes the spiritual vessel that the ten Sefirot and the Creator exist in the middle filling them with the upper light this is the drop of unity. Each time it is another drop and then this drop becomes the spiritual Partzuf the Partzuf of the soul and this is how we are advancing each time.
7. S. (11:48) The Baal HaSulam writes that the goal is the drop of unification and the Creator gives this when he opens this opening in the person's heart, but the heart is not sensitive enough, it does not feel first so that has to be the pride which has to be removed, so how does this opening happen?
R. It happens due to pressure to connection we reveal deficiency and inside that the deficiency we require and we acquire the drop of unity, which is the drop of semen, drop of light and then we begin to develop, the words here do not help us express this we make efforts and then we will be able to feel and then we will speak from the feelings but it is ahead of us we have to do it in practice it as much as possible because the wisdom of Kabbalah only speaks about actions and it is now right in front of us.
S. The Baal HaSulam writes here that we become worthy of this, how can we become worthy for the Creator?
R. Only through the connection between us because the drop of unification can appear in us only to the extent that we unite between us, only to the extent when we unite, this is why it is called the drop of unity. If we want to connect the between us with this tendency then that drop which is missing from the connection between us and we want to come closer then this drop of unification comes and it comes from the Creator himself, the drop of semen from the future state.
8. S. (14:32) It is a like we attain some ray of light from above and we have to go through some very smelly, stinky states and that is the work we do and if you manage to go through some part of the path then the Creator gives a longer at path and we have a feeling we cannot get out of it, where does he give us the drop off unity?
R. In your effort to connect with the friends and when you reach the revelation of the Creator in your connection it is like a drop of glue that you received between you and then you can attach to each other and in that drop the Creator appears. That drop and the boundaries of this drop, the quality, their characteristics of this drop, this is when you connect and then it gives off the character of the connection which is the first spiritual Partzuf between you. When you want this soul to appear between you, don't worry that you don't fit each other, it is difficult, it is hard, it is truthful, the problem is only one to become the correct Nukva for the Creator who is the male. So give him the place he can connect us, everything is done by the white light, by the upper force that comes and builds in as the quality of bestowal. Before this we do not know what it is we simply do not know. It is like in this world when there is a drop of semen man can develop. If there is none then there is nothing to do and the even now through all the generations, it will be the secret of creation we won't be able to create this drop of semen artificially, it has to come from somewhere that is written, that from the brain of the father, from the thought of creation.
9. S. (17:22) If I work in the 10 and with that I don't feel rejection and the place that is unpleasant but I do feel the attraction to be with the friends?
R. This is a sign that you are not applying enough pressure on the connection, if you do not reveal resistance in the connection it is the sign that you are not attracted enough, to the connection, you have to come to a state where you apply all your pressure and you feel the resistance, the rejection, you feel the barrier and there is no way that you can do anything except to break out in prayer to the Creator that's it. Then the Creator breaks the barrier and you feel that it was in your heart and then you are rewarded with the drop of unification in the same place where there was this barrier and the breakthrough, the shattering happens there and comes the force of unification instead.
10. S. (18:52) When we started the preparation for the lesson in the 10 there was a very strong focus like a laser beam to the words in the introduction and now we are listening to the questions of the friends and the answers and their integrating in this, there is a kind of dispersion the question is how to use the quantitative power we have with the whole world Kli, what is exactly our aim for unification as it is different when we are in the 10 aiming for this compared to what we are doing is the whole world Kli.
R. We have to come to the same state where we connect all of us together in the future, hope that in the year we come to a state where we can all connect the whole Bnei Baruch into a single ten, but right now we are doing in smaller scale so we can manage the state to find ourselves oriented properly. I do not think it is such a big problem after all we need only to try to take it, say from our intellect and from the words into the feelings because it is all about the desire to perform actions in the desire in our feelings. There we need to make as many exercises as possible to develop our feelings toward connection, to assembly, to closeness, love or hate all these discernments that explain to us what is happening to our vessel. Each and everybody is prepared for this, there is no person alive today who is the result of the shattering in the general vessel of humanity who wouldn't be capable of this. In the Torah it is written, everybody shall know me from the smallest to the greatest, so little by little, of course it takes time but in our generation it is much shorter, it takes much less time than before.
Excerpt 13 Reader (22:06 - 23:36)
11. R. This means that it all depends on the degree of our feeling and the force applied to connection, the willingness to connect. From the Creator’s perspective on this is all open, that he pressures us to the degree we can tolerate this pressure and work with it correctly, understand it correctly. Understand that through this pressure he is helping us, here we have to work on the understanding of our situation that everything that is happening. It is only happening so that in the connection between is the prepare a place for the Creator's revelation and not to stop, ever.
12. S. (24:32) What does it mean that the Creator answers the prayers?
R. The light is in absolute rest so do the extent we change the desire to the connection, towards the Creator, through the request in various ways then immediately the upper light which is in complete rest, it responds, it does not need to do anything but when we perform an action in our desire by that we allow the light to appear in a new way.
S. It turns out that all the prayers are the shaping of the desires?
R. Absolutely nothing more than that, through the prayer let us say a prayer, we might be confused by the word, prayer. Let’s say when we reveal a new desire, a desire for a new desire and the light that is there against it, corresponding to it works on the desire, so the desire from us and the desire of the Creator and this is how they work mutually in tandem, one against the other but in mutual support until our desire becomes suitable to receive the light. The bestowal from our parts to some extent will resemble the nature of the light which is entirely bestowal.
S. All our requests ultimately come down to the request for connection and each time we ask to connect with the friends in the 10 how does this development happen here?
R. By this we invite the upper light which influences us and connect as brings us back to a single entity because he's one, unique and unified and he is unifying because I don't know how but until we see that he does it, I cannot see how it is possible to do but once the Creator has done it, I can see, yes, we are capable of being one-man with one heart as certain common area appears for us.
13. S. (27:23) You said that we need to raise the pressure, what does this mean in our work?
R. I don't understand your words, saying increasing the pressure who said that? In all our prayer to the Creator we have to ask the one thing, how can we become suitable in our deficiency to what the Creator wants to give us. It is like with the baby, even a grown-up then he turns to someone, when you want to turn to someone you have to examine how to turn to the person so he would answer favorably. To write a request or ask to think the most important is the feeling in the heart, what do I need to feel towards someone whom I wish to receive an answer from. This is the secret of prayer, make your desire like his desire and then if we do this this way then we adapt ourselves to the Creator from the point of deficiency and then the Creator corrects it and fulfills it.
14. S. (29:10) It turns out that in every action we have to bring the Creator with us?
R. You realize this only now, of course how can you do even a single action even if you think about it doing it on your own without the Creator, you cannot do anything. Of course, the Creator has to be in it either in complete concealment when you don't feel who is working or you ask him, demand from him. This is why our entire work is to discover in all our thoughts, all our desires in the brain and the heart, that the Creator is there managing everything. We just need to discover that he is the first and he is the last, he is managing all the actions, fulfills all the actions and when we do this work, we discover that it was already always this in reality, it is just we did not reveal it before. We have to through our entire life to discover the other force, the force of love and giving, fulfilling everything, fulfilling the whole world, this is our work to discover the Creator who fulfills the whole world, the single force.
15. S. (30:55) How to clean the heart?
R. We don't need to think about any other action besides the connection between us and connection with the Creator this is all we need to think about, all the other actions will take place by themselves. It is not your business, don't start correcting the vessels as if you knew how to correct things, we need only one thing, to draw the friends with connection. Pray together with them in order to do the connection with the help of the Creator. All the details are not for you, you would not understand anything, just ask the Creator to perform the actions and from your actions we will know you, inside those actions that transpire over you we will understand what the Creator is doing.
16. S. (32:08) How can we bestow in the 10 if we feel the connection for the sake of bestowal to the other, who can we serve?
R. Right now we care only how to connect between us, how to nullify the rejection, the ego between us, thinking only on this not what we can give to others, we haven't corrected ourselves yet in order to be ready to give to anybody else.
17. S. (33:05) You said that the prayer is that we discover a new desire each time until we become fit for reception of the light, what characterizes the prayer when we discover a new desire?
R. What characterizes the prayer is deficiency, only our deficiency, our lack, the need that comes from the heart and the Creator needs to help us to understand how to ask him what to ask from him.
18. S. (34:05) What to do about the rejection from connection?
R. We have to look more at the friends and try to see that they are in fact working to the connection and that will activate the envy. The examples in front of me that I see make me jealous in such a way, that these are positive examples of connection. The Creator arranges it that we have examples, each friend can see examples from the other each in their own style and their own attitude as drawn to the connection. So, I want to discover they are also working for the connection and they're all more successful than myself and then jealousy will awaken me to advance to this.
S. Ok, I see the examples very prominent, the thing is that it rejects me even more, I don't know why I just suffer from the attempts to connect, it gives me no fulfillment.
R. Ok and then what do you want, to run away?
S. Yes, this desire to run away, also that happens, it feels that it is not in my strength to change it so what can I do?
R. Only keep going that's the only thing you can do is keep going and you need to try to reach a state where the friends will be more and more connected between them and you will be able to see with your own eyes that they are connected and they have such discernments in them higher details, even their spiritual details in them. You are left next to them, you don't understand what to do and you will be even more against them until there is going to be a complete disconnection between you and the group and they might want to get rid of you because you became a disturbing force. I am not speaking about you specifically but this can happen to anybody.
S. Ok, I understand so what happens nevertheless how can one change this state from rejection because I see that I don't run to the connection it does not give any fulfillment?
R. Nobody is running to connection that you have to feel jealousy, the desire to respect, you need to activate jealousy and you have to activate this, you have to be concerned for your respect because you feel lagging behind, compared to the other friends there is no other way. This is good you have to feel these things it is good the Creator is revealing to you all the problems that you feel and that's why you feel the resistance.
S. Okay, so how is it possible to achieve the overcoming? Basically, I see that even the ego does not run toward it, I cannot convince myself egotistically that it is very good.
R. On that day I say that whatever the mind does not do, the time does, so you have to invest into the connection, into the work in the group and simply spend more time on it and put more effort in it and keep going constantly, constantly keep going. Do the exercises even if you do not want it as much as possible to be together with others and participate, you don't want to take part, okay, do it still. You do not run away but you remain part of it as much as you can and by that you make efforts and you give great contentment to the Creator just think how much, as much as you do above your desire, against your desire. The Creator is very delighted by that, I promise you you have a good desire just keep going and give contentment to the Creator.
19. S. (39:23) What does it mean that in extreme states, what does it mean anything but leave, is it not to reduce your framework or just to hold onto the 10?
R. Try to be connected with the 10 as much as possible as much as possible whatever threads or actions you can perform in order to connect to the 10 and those who feel that they are distant they don't know what they are doing, they don't have a reaction in their heart, they don't connect emotionally. The friends in the group, they sing, they cry, they hug each other and they show the desire for connection and I am indifferent, I don't feel it, I don't understand why I need these things although I hear it every day how important it is, how it is purposeful. But together with this I cannot do anything about my heart, what can I do, my heart is heavy, is more of a stony heart compared to the friends. So, what can I do? This is why I say you have to keep going until the jealousy and lust and honor will take you out of this world and you have to feel that you have to perform some actions. You have to activate the prayer, otherwise you are lost even egotistically, you feel that you are lost, what do I have from this life other than the spiritual goal. This life is showing us this physical life, that there is nothing in it, it shows that everything is just a waste, everything is going towards a complete annihilation and then the person acquires various forces to act and that he starts to feel that this is his salvation through the connection as Baal HaSulam writes about in the article of The Arvut, I hope this helps.
20. S. (42:10) I would like to follow the previous question, that the envy is a physical power that can advance us but in spirituality I do not feel this envy, it only rejects me because it shows me that I do not want it at all as it is opposite to me. How to come to the point where the envy to the oppositeness really helps us advance?
R. Only in the perseverance to continue to keep going with actions, even physical actions, to try to participate with everybody, everybody is doing and you are doing something, you take part of something that the others are taking part in. Inside you keep the prayer you want this mechanical action, emotionless actions without the heart that you do some mechanic actions in the society and you want the Creator to help you to feel the importance of connection that there is nothing more important than connection, because this is the correct form of the entire creation and we do not feel it yet, but it is so we have to restore, rehabilitate the broken vessel.
S. Yesterday in the tens meeting we felt like it is about time to make more effort to come to this one point, one moment of connection and in these times keep extending what happens?
R. It is always like that he received some focus in a state and then it becomes concentrated, clear, and later it integrates with all other states and then again there is a focal point in a state and then again it is dispersed, this is how it works but it is good that you are making progress. Some are closer to this, some are less close to this, but in general we are in a single vessel all the tens around the world. So even though some are more advanced and some less, we do not need to calculate things according to this because there is a structure and they may not be close to the center but they're a bit further out relative to the center of connection. When they belong according to Nature to external vessels it does not mean that they are further away from attainment but they have a special coarseness, which means that their attainment will be higher. As we learn that against the coarseness in Malchut there is attainment in the Keter so nobody will be able to later be jealous of the others, they cannot be jealous of each other. On the way, yes, envy, lust, honor, the desire to have glory, this drives us materially, you see that we are all the same.
21. (46:11) You said that we have to keep going even if we can’t do it, so the question is how to close our eyes and continue regardless of everything, because there is a constant pressure to escape the work?
R. There is constant pressure to escape, but you still have to belong to one spiritual connection and it does not belong to life in this world and it is not like in our body that it will die and we only feel the higher world, it does not matter. We are all in the system of Adam HaRishon connected to each other, so it doesn't matter which country you are from and you'll see that according to the different shapes. Just look at the difference there is someone shown on the screen right now, so you'll see it does not matter, we all belong to a single soul, and we are very close to each other, it does not matter how far we are from state to state or physically from each other. So, specifically, by supporting each other by one thing, everybody to be in the surrounding light which surrounds as, from that each will receive once advancement.
22. S. (48:07) How to imagine this, like dreaming, closing our eyes, to imagine how we are connected?
R. We cannot measure it yet, we do not have a common action in connection, so how could we imagine this or measure it formally, seemingly externally we belong to tens and the tens support each other in the lessons and through other activities. We are advancing to the big congress, all the actions happen through mutual support to awaken everybody in their own ten, but for the time being these are only external actions. We do not discover the connection between us yet, not that they don't exist as they do exist, but the Creator arranged it in a way that we think that we are arranging ourselves, but where is our effort in this? We have to think about our efforts, I don't understand where you get so many questions from.
23. S. (49:32) When we want to connect all kinds of states of rejection and hatred appear?
R. I want to connect and together with this I discover that I have this repulsion, rejection so there is rejection on the one hand, this is called the force of coarseness, and together with this I know that there has to be a tendency to connect and this is the force of purity. With these two forces I must not lose them at all, but I have to hold on to them and work with both. Both have to be felt in me, both the force of rejection, coarseness, the ego and then above that when I overcome and I want to be in connection, all these have to be balanced in me. The coarseness and the purity, Aviut and Zakut, and then from these two I will feel the spiritual vessel built-in me, as one cannot exist without the other, the rejection and connection, the hatred and love, this is called love covers all crimes, only this way.
24. S. (51:10) How to measure what to add in the connection to reach connection?
R. Only greater internal connection in the hearts, nothing more, all of us, all the tendencies will be directed to the Creator, to the force of bestowal, which is the single, one force for everybody.
25. S. (51:49) How can we come to a cry so we can feel the revelation of what is hidden?
R. Only according to what Rabash writes, “they helped everyone their friends” through the jealousy, giving good examples to each other, showing how much we are advancing, and then we want to become like them, even more than them, we have to set such examples as if we were already successful and the others will accept it, take it, and they will want to advance and follow it.
26. S. (52:55) When you don't have a prayer, but you seem to be in a neutral state, do we pray from the mind or we need emotions first?
R. You have to think what do I need to pray for, and what desire I have to find here and we have to start from zero as if waking up from a deep slumber each helping each other, when I look at the friends I can wake up, I can turn on the computer, I sit before the screen, and I see my friends. First of all, I want to offer you to perform the actions of the connection before the lesson, at least half an hour before the lesson, we start the lesson at 3am, so from 2:30am perhaps those who want to can, it is not mandatory, but you can begin to connect, to talk, to correspond with each other. Begin to awaken each other, it does not matter if it is half an hour and it is a long time, we don't even know what to tell each other, so you can sing you can bring different writings, so that gives you good impressions and so on.
S. Many groups are doing it today Rav...
R. I know this, but we have to do it on the wider scale. For example, I wake up many hours before the lesson to awaken myself, I look at the news a little bit to get to know the world we live in. I am greatly awakened by the connection you do before the lesson, and I integrate with it, it does not matter what I hear, instead what is important for me is that you have a desire to connect this way. I look at how the Creator arranged these people, how the Creator wants them to connect, and how they connect according to the desires the Creator awakens in them, because if they did not have the desire they would not appear before me on the screen. I can see that it is the Creator who arranges this picture before me and allows me to awaken with the tendency towards the purpose of creation, of connection to the Creator. I am grateful to the Creator placing this before me, and how there are so many people who work very hard so I can awaken the heart to come closer to them, and I thank them and I thank the Creator, and this is how we awaken and arrive to the right feeling.
27. S. (56:41) How can we make a true attack, to discover new desires and strengthen the connection between us?
R. I hope that you are now making preparations to come to the congress and have this attack, and now for the time being you are preparing, you learn what it means to be in attack. To the extent that we attack the ego and help others to have the strength to also attack the ego to rise above it. That we cannot disconnect from it but we have to rise above it with connection to the others, this is the attack, then we step on the ego and want to get to the force of bestowal between us. Where each wants to come out of his ego to bestowal, we don't throw away the ego, we understand it remains with us, but we want to be above it with the force of bestowal connecting us, this is truly the attack.
28. S. (58:10) There is a state in our intensive work where we discover the concern for the friends there is a sensitivity that some of the friends may negatively feel this concern. How do you keep away from the attitude to not harm the friends so the concern will truly be felt as a concern not as blaming or finger pointing that the friend may feel it as negative?
R. First of all, I recommend that one should barely relate to another but only to the group in general. By showing a special attitude toward one of the friends, I obligate him and he will feel that I am dropping something on him to do back to me in those same relationships and actions, this is not good. I don't want to be the one who obligates I want to do good to him. Typically, I reveal these things to the group in a general way and never to a person individually. That is the first thing. The group feels, generally speaking, that I have this attitude towards them, warm, wishing to bring them closer to act warmly in various actions towards them. Not to stand out and be uptight and stressful about it, our path is about giving each and everyone opportunities to be as free as possible in his expression towards the society.
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29. R. Those people who wish to escape the work, flee from the work they don't want to be in a group, they don't want to be in connection, they are rejected from it, those people specifically.
Reader continues ... “those people do not walk out from the work although they have ....” (01:02:27 - 01:03:22)
30. S. A question from the organizers whether we should do a global preparation of all the world Kli with the content for everyone, how do you see the preparation from 2:30?
R. Let's ask everyone, have a workshop about it and everyone can talk and think about it, in what way can we prepare our hearts for the lesson, maybe 30 minutes is too much, maybe 15 minutes that we have now is enough but we have to ensure that it doesn't turn into something formal. For example, if I know that I have to be at 3 a.m. but I have to be extremely prepared, prepped, sensitive, understanding in my mind and my heart that I am ready for an attack. There are many people before me, thousands. I am making certain to be in preparation so does each and everyone feel this way? I feel it as the teacher, the one who gives the lesson but each and everyone needs to feel it because for him it is a time of attack, a time of entry into spirituality where each day he needs to do a tiny bit more in a little bit more until he breaks down the barriers. Everything here is important, we need to consider the tiredness, habits that remove all of the tastes and try to take a new step each time.
31. S. (01:05:47) He said that we shouldn't pressure a specific friend directly but rather to work towards the group.
R. On the one hand, it says he who gives a gift to his friend must inform him, meaning, if you are doing something for a friend you shouldn't do it in concealment. Rather it should be out in the open that we have to show him that you did it because it increases peace in the world, connection. On the other hand, we need to do it in such a way that he won't feel the shame, unpleasantness, it should be from the bottom of your heart. That's how you should arrange it.
S. What is the criteria and how to understand we're doing this action now, to read Rabash, to have a meal, what?
R. Decide together without any pressure upon one another that is the criteria.
32. S. (01:07:15) A question about the connection whether it is basically the means and we have to reach the love of friends by the connection?
R. Connection is the vessel it is that correction that we have to make over the vessel of Adam HaRishon from the perspective of the Kli of Adam HaRishon, we have to connect all of these parts above the separation that exist between them, the separation remains is coarseness and above it we need to we need to stretch the threads of connection between separation and connection where we build the vessel according to the composition between the connection and separation is where the Creator appears.
S. What's the difference between love and connection?
R. Love is a feeling that appears in the connection between us.
S. So the process to reach connection and there we discover love?
R. Love is a result of the intensity, the level of connection I think they should be clear to everyone.
S. Yes, it is that we have learned love covers all crime scenes from love of the created beings to the love of the Creator and now when this concept of connection comes in it looks like it became the goal instead of the means.
R. I spoke about connection from the first lesson, love is a feeling of mutual incorporation which comes later as the pinnacle of connections. The feeling of the complete connection is called love.
33. S. (01:09:55) Why is the entrance to working in bestowal called the exodus from Egypt?
R. It's not like that, first of all we're coming out of Egypt, we are coming out of our ego out of their rejection and separation between us this is the meaning of exodus out of Egypt. Then we cross the boundary between Egypt and the land of Israel. The land of Israel is called desire Eretz, from the word Ratzon, desire, Israel, straight to the Creator and between Egypt and the land of Israel. Between these two desires where Egypt is egoistic desire and the ego, the evil inclination rules over us and in order to pass to a desire that is entirely aimed at the Creator we have to perform various corrections. It doesn't happen at once, this jump from the desire for itself, egoistic, to the desire for the Creator. It has to be a departure, we have to leave through this boundary called the Red Sea and receive the Torah, the upper light that will correct us gradually and to spend 40 years in the Sinai desert which is the time from the exodus from the ego, from Egypt all the way to the entrance to the desire to bestow called the land of Israel. This is the desert, there's nothing from which you derive pleasure, nothing to eat, very dangerous, have to constantly move through it for 40 years. This means that we are going from Malchut to Bina and all of it is by the reforming light called Torah. That's why at the beginning of the entrance to the desert we have Mount Sinai and then we are in a state called the mountain of hate, Sinah, when we discover it we acquire the upper light that begins to correct us called Torah. It is not happening all at once, but rather later we come to such desires that are all in order to bestow. This means that after 40 years in the desert we enter, and hate, we enter connection called the land of Israel. This is our work gradually this is what we have to do now we enter a time. That is right before the exodus from Egypt and we are learning what we have to do to come out of it.
34. S. (01:13:44) If there are friends in the ten who feel the pressure from the friends so they move away, what can we do as a ten to reach a common prayer and create a place where the Creator is revealed?
R. Speak amongst yourself practically and on point, more and more clearly to decide what is before you practically, it is a simple thing here, you talk a lot but the decisions are slightly above your ability. You need to make decisions that are according to your height as much as possible. Try to decide what is the next step forward and to realize it, and another step forward and realize that and that way slice after slice you will advance.
35. S. (01:15:15) We're here today at the lesson, that friends are going through states that are not simple if we can activate the mutual guarantee what can we do?
R. If you will do something in your ten, if you do what you need to do, you will help them do what they need to do, don't intervene with one another, each ten should correct itself with what is before it.
36. S. (01:16:10) You said that in order for the light to influence us we need to show our desire, on the other hand in the ten we reveal a state where I don't demand from others even if I feel that here I miss someone's efforts, only I don’t feel the demand from them back?
R. Who said we shouldn't demand from one another? The fact that I am showing my friends how I want to advance and bestow to this society, to care about the society, by that I obligate them to do the same. I want to influence them in this way but not directly, rather through my example this is the meaning of each shall help his friend. I don't need to help a friend by extracting him from an unpleasant state, that is clear, rather by constantly setting an example, by showing concern about the connection of the ten as one body by that I awaken the friends. I am certain that this is something that we have to do constantly. The main thing that I have to do is I don't have a desire for spirituality, but I have to show the friends as if I have a desire for spirituality. How do I do this? I show them my attitude towards the ten and in there I show them that I want spirituality, I want to bestow, I want to be connected with everyone and I want everyone to be connected. Why do I need to show them this? So that they will do the same towards me, that they will show me and I will see, indeed it is influencing me and awakening me. That is how it works.
37. S. (01:20:10) How is it possible to cling to the Creator when we try to connect but we don't really want to, we don't have the lack for the Creator?
R. I look at others and I see how they awaken, how much they want, or maybe they don't want it that much but they have an awakening as I feel it. I get such an impression from them and then I also want it, this is called envy, lust and honor take a person out of this world and I don't want to be less than them. I envy them and I want to be respected like them. through the environment, with the help of the environment I advance. Although I advance towards things that I don't want according to my nature, to bestow, to love, to give, I don't want it but I look at others and they do it and I also want it. In that case because this is the influence of the environment on a person as all of us are from the vessels of Adam HaRishon, this integral vessel. Therefore, if I see that it is happening in the integral vessel then like it or not I am impressed by it and eventually I will want it also, this is how it works.
S. How does the change from not wanting to joy because bestowal is supposed to be with joy towards the Creator?
R. I first want to be impressed by the environment, if the group doesn't influence me or if I am not influenced by the environment, by the group I cannot advance. I won't have the fuel, the direction, the courage, I have to be impressed by the environment and this is why the concern for the influence of the environment of each and every friend is the first primary concern without it I won't be able to move forward. I am impressed by the environment and I want to advance in bestowal. What kind of bestowal? What kind of influence, through the environment to the Creator to the extent that we will be unified and connected, to that extent we need to locate inside of us the Creator. This compression where we lock everything between us has to be so tight that we will discover a common area between us and this common area is the upper force, one for all this is called the Creator.
38. S. (01:23:48) What does it mean that the ten needs to be beyond its opportunities?
R. The goal should always be higher than what we can attain and it will always be this way if it is a true goal, meaning bestowal, this is not in us, it is higher than us. It gives us the space to turn to the Creator because only with his help can we attain it, so if we feel that there is a demand ahead of us to reach bestowal a higher degree then we turn to the Creator and we get the power to rise to that degree. That is a spiritual ascent first a spiritual deficiency before us and with this deficiency to mutual bestowal we see we are incapable of fulfilling it and we turn to the Creator and we've receive the forces from the Creator to rise to a higher degree. In this we feel ourselves in a new soul, a new force of connection between us.
39. S. (01:25:24) We tried to move all of our imaginary businesses aside and do a preparation for the congress to reach a common prayer. What we found is that all the disturbances come to harmony if a person can open his eyes and his ears to the Rav to listen to what he tells them this is where everything is solved. How do you not come out of this state and hold on to it more than just a day?
R. This is the ongoing work where we have to constantly work on the greatness of the goal, the greatness of the goal, no problem, only think about that and the connection between us and with the Creator who is the most important thing in there is nothing more. All of the rest will work out from that point, we are moving towards a state where the world will feel itself in a complete descent. Such a state that has nothing and can have nothing, there is no future, nothing, only to destroy the world and I am better off dead. I understand the danger of this state that will appear in our world with all of these weapons and arms and all of our desires. From that we will discover that only in the connection between us can we rise to a completely different level of life, a different world. Soon, this year we will scrutinize a great deal for us.
S. It feels like there is an opportunity that we see how the movement of the Creator is not in some abstract space but that there is insight that every action is aimed at connection. How to not leave these words?
R. I don't have the words to explain it to you, we simply have to work on it, we want to be connected and the deficiency for the growing connection has to be constantly awakened to awaken the Creator to maintain that growing connection, to sustain it. So we constantly have to wake in the deficiency, the desire, to awaken the Creator to hold to take care of that desire. At the end of the day both of the forces, the desire and the connection and the revelation of the Creator and the desire all depends on the upper force. It won't happen unless we ask for it, pray for it, beg for It, demand it, cry, yell, everything and anything, you can't attain anything except through the power of prayer.
S. How does it happen that half the ten expects the lesson from 2 a.m. and the other half of the ten don’t even reach the lesson?
R. Great, they're showing you how much you need to work on the connection between you so everyone feels the same. Do it without pressure, you can't, so you can, maybe throughout the day we talked about it too much and we pressed on everybody too much and they can't stand it anymore, according to his degree. There are people that can be in it 24 hours a day and some can’t more than half an hour a day so take into account that you have some of these and some of those, not everybody is the same. You should do something intermediate that will be convenient for everybody. Also you should divide these things, there are people who like studying a few hours straight, there are some that can't go more than half an hour, they have a weak head, what can you do? So let them do it instead of those.
S. Is it possible that those who can gather hold the others?
R. Yes it can be worth it to do it like that but try as much as you can to also bring them closer, even with part of the group working there already praying for the others.
40. S. (01:31:08) To come out of Egypt according to the description of the exodus it describes terrible plagues bringing into terrible situations. In our work we understand that these plagues are inevitable and we shouldn't fear them and we should cover them with love?
R. Yes, we are already in the process of coming out of Egypt and with you we are going through blows, we are going through blows in this exodus. Which is blood, frogs, lice, and so on what is written there, those blows are absorbed by everyone, I mean by all of our ego. Egypt is our ego so the blows are on the Egyptians meaning the egoistic desires that we have in order for us to see that we can get rid of them easier. If I see my egoistic desires, my thoughts that I suffer, that they get those plagues, so I want to come out of them, I want to get rid of them. Meaning these plagues, these blows they speed me up, advancing me towards the exit from my will to receive. I start discovering that my suffering is from being immersed in my will to receive and from this, from these blows, from these plagues I want to leave my will to receive because I am suffering. That is it. Try to depict this to yourself that you have some kind of egoistic habit and in this habit when you use it, you are going to start getting blows on it. So that is it, it's like you tame the animal which is you and it disconnects from this desire because for the animal to use the desire where you used to enjoy and now you are suffering, so we just let go. We understand pleasure or pain so that is it and by that way advance we don't understand otherwise, we are animals.
S. These blows, are they called the recognition of evil?
R. By me feeling, that in my egoistic desire I feel blows, I learn how to use my ego, that this isn't good, that this is bad, I am hurting but that is on the degree of a beast. Then I have to raise it to the degree of man, Adam, not because I am suffering and running from it but because it disconnects me from the Creator. So I raise these blows to the degree of Adam, man, but first I just feel bad.
S. When we feel that everyone is suffering the only thing that we can do is to somehow support each other is this all we can do?
R. No, even more, the whole world is going through blows, you will see more and more how the whole world now is going to suffer increasingly more. People are losing money, honor, knowledge, health, everything they had in their corporeal life is gradually becoming worthless. What will they have? They are going to start feeling these blows on a corporeal level, we need to raise the awareness of these blows to a spiritual level, that it is a disconnection from the Creator and this is why the blows are coming. We need to be in this suffering that we have no Creator among us as we say, that we are not in contact with the Creator and that is why the upper light can't through us, reach our world, to bestow the good to all of humanity. Meaning they are suffering corporeally and we need to depict the suffering in a spiritual form that we have no connection to the Creator and if we can't bestow to Him that is why we feel the spiritual blows and all of humanity is also suffering from that in corporeal blows. That is how we need to depict the state and by this we are connecting ourselves, through us and the whole world to the Creator. The world is lacking nothing but for us to pass a bit of the upper light to them, to all of humanity and by this we are doing a favor to all of humanity and giving contentment to the Creator.
41. S. (01:37:28) You said love is a feeling of complete connection, can you explain what is that feeling and what is the difference between the feeling of the state?
R. A state is the connection between us and love is what we feel in the connection, love is the feeling.
42. S. (01:38:13) I'm going back to excerpt 14 about the children of Israel crying out from the work they cried and their cry went up to God because they could not advance in serving the Creator. What should we do in the ten so these demands will become the main thing for us that we not only connect and cry out to the Creator, but that we connect for the sake of the Creator and this is why we cry out?
R. That you have to talk about and to aim yourself in such a way then you will discover that you don't have that same direction, intention and then you ask the Creator to correct the direction of your thought, that your intention will be to give him contentment and not that you will feel good.
43. S. (01:39:36) Concerning the demand, how can I give importance because I feel under pressure to bestow upon the Creator to get closer to the friends and with everything that's happening in the world I think about it all day. When I'm with the friends I only want to connect
R. I don't want to hear about the state, I want to hear a clear question.