Morning Lesson October 23, 2021, Transcription
Part 1:
Baal HaSulam - A Lot Is an Awakening from Above
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1.Rav’s Introduction: Yes, the lot is truly an awakening from above, we need to understand this, to feel this, to accept this and to know how to work with this. That whatever we feel, we think, meaning what we have in our hearts as we feel and, in the brain, where the person thinks, all that comes from above to us and according to the plan. This is how we need to progress until each grows in the connection between us all of us together to the system of Adam that is suitable for the revelation of the Creator, to bestow to him as he bestows it to us. Reaching this state is our final correction. This is why all this awakening that we get, both the awakening for the good seemingly the pleasant ones, and also that not so pleasant ones that seemingly are not so good. The unpleasant one it all depends on how we decode this, how we determine this. Everything certainly comes only from none else besides him and we have to notice it the moment we wake up, get up both from our sleep and from some work we do, when we suddenly recall that we have a new thought, a new desire and suddenly we catch ourselves in a certain case or mood, or the way we look at things. We should try to bring ourselves to a state that comes to us from above in our feelings. That we have to have a feeling that it comes from above, that we get this is not ours.
This is how the Creator arranged this for us and when the Creator arrange is it for us, what we need to do by our participation we should bring ourselves from a state which is usually very far from the Creator, from the group, from the path, from the goal, it may be a very, very low state truly like a beast. We need to perform all kinds of actions as fast as possible to wake up, to recuperate. First of all, in our thoughts looking for ways of binding ourselves to the goal, where does it come to us, these states when we feel ourselves only as a beast or as a machine or a part of a machine. Until by this we bind ourselves, we connect ourselves to the upper force, the Creator, to the plan of creation. This is where we have to go through all our scrutinous this way; where do we get this big desire to receive from? The upper Providence gives us, by small portions like giving to a baby small teaspoon to eat, one more spoon, one more spoon and then more and more. This is how we get from the Creator from what we are getting we have to swallow, we have to digest and by that we have to understand why the Creator gave this to us and what it should do to us.
This is why when we feel ourselves that we seemingly go back to some thoughts about spirituality, certainly the point of return to spirituality is the point where we feel ourselves disconnected, opposite, not in it, in a blurry state. And bit by bit, usually it is by reading articles, hearing articles like the Shamati articles which are the most important articles, this is the most important material for this, we wake up. For what need does the Creator give us this initial part, that we don’t want, that we are disconnected, that we are not part of it? Why don't we get it like ordinary human beings without waking up, without recuperating back to a certain relation towards spirituality? But if within this beastly feeling we have in the animate level, he nonetheless give us a certain ..., a certain notion, that we are part of the process of correction so still we wake up towards this and the feeling in the beginning is certainly not that pleasant. We also understand how far we are from each other thinking about how far it is to think about physical life and thinking about spirituality but from these falls there is a verse I called you from the deep so from the descents we start feeling how far we are from the Creator how far from Lishma, for her sake, from giving, bestowing and out of this we already start to try to do something.
And as much as we try to recuperate, to wake up and to rise, we can also immediately get other thoughts; why do I need this, what is this for, I cannot do this, you are already there so it's better to let go and so on. And out of these states of in favor or against, if we nevertheless continue, again the most beneficial is to hear this is what I heard from Rabash as well that's when he wakes up in the morning the best is to take a cup of coffee and sit before the Shamati articles and to simply read bit by bit, a few lines, maybe half a line, maybe half a line is enough for you. You already start by this if you have a good confusion when you are really confused and then you are in a truly hazy, blurry state and you do not know in your thoughts and in your desires where you are, you are completely lost in direction. Then you start with the force of Baal HaSulam and Rabash and you start to relate to them, to connect to them.
Even if you lied, it brings you back to the state where you already understand that all this blurriness you are in, this whole state, you find yourself in with the doubts when you are completely helpless not knowing what to do, willing to leave this all, you start understanding where it comes from, it comes from the Creator, this is what he is doing to you so that you become stronger on the path, more. And today you acquire stronger discernments, details, more scrutinized ones that our whole path is from darkness to light, from darkness to light. This is how it is, by small portions. You cannot finish the entire creation and close it down to complete darkness and to open it up to the light of Ein Sof, no! These scrutinies we need because we are incorporated in them, we examine them one by one and they live in us. These scrutinies are, this is how they should be scrutinized and from this we build ourselves each and everything that reaches correction comes gradually. This is basically what we need is to see that in all our states first of all that it is a lot. What is a lot? It is an awakening from above coming from the Creator himself as there is none else besides him and the Creator for each and everybody and for all of us together. Although we do not feel it, we depend on all of these states together, in all of humanity, in all the souls, he is the one awakening all. Let's read this article, article 32 from the book Shamati and let’s see what we can add to it.
Reading Shamati 32 (12:08 - 14:40)
2. R. This is the most important that ultimately, we discover that the Creator is the scrutinizer; what lot, what force works on us and he brings us ultimately to the right goal. As we say that the king brings to death and gives us lives and he brings salvation. In the beginning he kills but ultimately what he kills is the desire to receive in what he revives is the desire to bestow and buy this he brings us salvation when we know how to connect these two forces together, reception and giving. Let's go to the questions and later we read it again.
3. S. (15:46) According to the article, I get the impression that Lishma comes as a result of actions and not some systemic work?
R. Look, the lot is as if you really threw a dice or a coin, you threw a dice and this is how it is for us this is how it seems to us and we do not understand because we do not know what is about to happen in a moment. This is because we do not have the knowledge but the moment, we come to Lishma, for her sake, and to the extent that we are attached to the upper, to that extent it does not matter what a lot is. And then we start to see and feel a lot and it is no longer a secret for us. Because we cannot think about ourselves anymore but we become loyal as the verse goes that my whole household is loyal. Loyal is a concept here, that trust is a concept where the person trusts the Creator so much that for him there is no time, past, present or future. He can go through all the different states and desires and only do everything as a servitude to the Creator.
S. (18:15) And then we can become above the lot?
R. Yes, for us this lot is not saying anything. It is just in respect to us to examine what state we are in, what intensity, what percentage. We are above the lot or below the lot. All it comes to show is our extent of adhesion with the Creator.
S. (18:58) Does this mean you do not pay attention to anything that happens?
R. I have to respect the lot because it shows me where I am and how dedicated I am to the king. The lot helps me to be above reason. Then I can be above my lot which is in itself not important. It does not indicate to me anything except the limit. Up to here I am in faith and above reason and beyond that I cannot be yet. This is why I limit myself.
4. S. (19:56) How does the depth of self-nullification influence the depth of attainment?
R. They’re connected to each other as much as the person annuls himself, to the same extent and the fact that he nullifies to bestow to the Creator. And then instead of receiving for himself he wants to pass these things to the group and through the group to the Creator and this is how the person realizes himself and accordingly he has attainment.
5. S. (20:58) We read articles from our teachers. Is it important to discuss what we are reading and if so, what is the benefit of our discussions?
R. We may talk among ourselves, in the group, in the ten but we should be careful about this not to disturb, that we do not disturb each other. Maybe a certain friend does not yet understand what the other friend already understands and then time should be given to him to come closer in his own way, in his own state and this is how the friend should progressive, we should guard this, we should be careful about this.
S. How do you suggest discussing? Should I give my impression from the article meaning I don’t interpret the article?
R. Don’t interpret the article too much because by that you open yourself and that’s not advised. Rather interpret the words that are written so that everyone can understand the words as much as possible. It’s not a matter of translation, it’s a matter of understanding the words, the meaning of the words. All the rest it’s passed on by reading it together, it’s through the air. You shouldn’t explain to each other how much one feels it and how exactly it happens to him. Don’t go into another, into your friend. That’s what I recommend. We are learning together and we are learning such things that are...usually people should read this on their own, but we can read it together and help each other emotionally, meaning we’re supporting, but even without words we’re supporting each other.
6. S. (23:57) Concerning the lot, the awakening when we should examine the awakening, so what is the meaning that the Creator is examining it for us? What is the meaning?
R. These things are examined by the Creator of course. We do not understand we feel confused and then we do something, let's say we read articles or we meet the friends and this scrutinizes the situation for us bit by bit, what we started feeling in the beginning, and this way we are revived. I wake up at night, I am very blurry, I do not know where I am and why and what's going on with me - suppose. And I open Shamati, I take a cup of coffee, I recuperate, I wake up. I do not know what for and why and what I will get out of all these questions that a person gets when he wakes up. In the beginning when a person wakes up, he is like a beast and then bit by bit out of this beast he reaches the degree of Adam. This is how we start from opposite states. In this degree of beast, I see where I am and I examine my situation. I do not feel like doing anything that is part of the degree of Adam, for Lishma, for the Creator, for the connection with the friends, I don’t feel any interest in it. I hear it, I remember that it is important, but it is really far away from me as if it’s not about me at all, but later as I read more and more, I cause myself to come back, to recuperate. Then I start to feel the changes that are happening in me, all kinds of changes and I scrutinize this. Even though it’s still not for me, nevertheless there is this goal and maybe I am part of it, until I come and incorporate with the friends. Today it usually happens through my computer. I start to feel more and more that we are all in one desire under one goal and we are all coming from all sorts of the different situations but far from bestowal. We are reaching the goal more and more and in order to reach the goal we have to be in connection in mutual support and this is how bit by bit we scrutinize this again, a part of the broken vessel when we connect above it. And we reach connection and correction to a certain extent and on the way, we have many examinations each and every one, and later on all of us together when we start incorporating with each other. After that we start talking, examining, speaking about what Lishma means. It is not about us, it is about the Creator, how to resemble Him. Resembling Him means we don’t think about ourselves our own state instead only about how to bestow to Him and this is basically spirituality. This is how we discover advanced states more and more and this should happen every day.
7. S. (29:13) “The sinner prepares and the righteous wears”, is it connected to the prayer of many and reception of the reforming light, is this a result? Can you say this this way?
R. I do not think this is the way it is. You’re talking in an intellectual way - this is how this is, this is how that is, and I speak from emotion. So the prayer of many is when we try to connect together without all these definitions and nice and wise words of what is written, but we should try to connect emotionally as much as we can, when we can feel that our desires a little bit from each and every one, can connect to the desires of the other friends, and then in these desires that have united and become one, because they have one cause and one goal. So, in these desires when we feel ourselves, that this is where we are as one in these desires, we need to also feel and try to feel the upper force, the Creator that He made this distance between us, the distance between each and every one and how through this distance we aim ourselves towards Him, we’re incorporated in Him, we’re part of Him. Our whole work is to incorporate in Him together and all these definitions you are telling us, that I have to learn these definitions, I have to feel them and understand them and later I start making of these definitions some kind of a story, we shouldn't do it this way. It is best if you read the least as a possible about the definitions but instead talk about your thoughts and desires.
8. S. (32:15) I wanted to ask about the definition of faith and how we help each other?
R. A lot is each and every state that a person feels that is awakened in him. You can call that a lot.
9. S. (32:40) In the morning we get ready for the lesson and then there is a special duty for the friends on duty. They awaken us and try to raise our spirits. What should a person on duty think when he assembles these soldiers and awakens them?
R. He should think that he is awakening the parts of his soul, that is what he should think, that he really has the work of the correction of the Soul.
10. S. (33:31) It is written in the article that all their thoughts and goals are only about things that that concern their own needs called Lo Lisma, not for her sake. What thoughts in regard to the friend is it talking about, where is Lo Lishma expressed in regard to the 10?
R. In each and every one, in each and every one, all-in-all.
11. S. (34:09) It is written that Yom Kippur is an awakening from below so what is our work in the awakening from below?
R. When we need to try from everything that comes to us to give an account, and to awaken to that. Our awakening is when we unite all the desires of everyone and the desires between us in the 10, in order to bring them to the Creator. And in this way, we can discover our lot, which is an awakening from above, awakening that comes from the Creator.
S. So Yom Kippur is it restriction, so our work is mainly about restriction?
R. I don't want to talk about restriction and the work in restriction. I am talking about awakening and why we have an awakening, and not the day of atonement, Yom Kippurim, that’s not important for us. We wake up in the morning like an animal. How in waking up this way, how from that we can come to the beginning of the day.
12. S. (35:48) In the preparation you said that each should Shamati or maybe all of us together, is that better?
R. No, even on your own, even if you’re on your own, you do not have to read it together. Together is later when we talk about the connection, but in the meantime each and every one when he wakes up and by this, he feels that he's like a beast, without any goals, and nothing to do, and not thinking, and barely connected to the reason he woke up. Then he himself should recuperate and out of that he will get a desire to come to the 10, and from the 10 to the general corrections, from the light to the heavy. This is how a person can rise.
13. S. (36:51) I often hear from you that as much as we try during our readings, we do not actually reach connection and the question is what does it mean to reach connection? What should we feel when we manage, when we succeed in connecting, what is that feeling?
R. Feeling in what? That we are beginning to scrutinize connection when we yearn for connection and when we achieve connection? I do not know exactly what he's asking about.
S. What is the feeling we feel when we are really connected?
R. Well you have to feel it. A feeling you don’t scrutinize. How can I convey a feeling to you about something? A feeling is a flavor, if you haven't tasted something can I explain to you what is that flavor? Until you taste it, you won’t feel it. A feeling of connection is the feeling of the upper force that we scrutinize within the connection. The connection is only an action or operation in our desires, and intentions are a result. The result of this connection is the feeling of the Creator. This is why He is called come and see, the Creator. So, when we come to the state of connection, and in that connection, we discover the essence, that essence is already a part of the concept of the Creator, and this is what we have to come to. The more clearly and powerfully we attain the concept of the Creator, according to our vessel, according to our deficiency, the more adhesion with Him we have him in the attainment itself.
14. S. (39:27) Can you explain what the Baal HaSulam means in the last sentence of this article?
R. I don’t know. “The meaning of Purim being like Yom Kippurim, the day of atonement. Purim is an awakening from above and Yom Kippurim is awakening from below meaning through repentance. However, there was an awakening from above there, corresponding to the lots that were there, one lot for the Lord, one lot for Azazel, the Sitra Achra, and the Creator was the scrutinizer.” I do not think it is important for us right now. It is unrelated to our current work. Right now, we need to only concentrate on how every time desires awaken in us, which separate us, divide us from the Creator, from the connection, from the group, we have to understand that it comes to us as the right and good basis so as to above it yearn for connection. And by this we scrutinize the separation that we had in the beginning of every action, and the connection we have obtained in the end. And in this way between separation and connection, separation and connection, we assemble, we gather more and more such discernments until we start to understand what the concept of Lishma is, Lo Lishma, and all those other spiritual discernments.
15. S. (41:32) If a person studies, goes to sleep and reads an article for preparation for sleep, so he goes to sleep pretty clean. Why does he wake up as a beast not knowing where he is and what is required?
R. Why aren't you thinking that it is a result of you reading Shamati before you went to sleep?
S. I feel this is the opposite. If I read Shamati I feel that I am comfortable, I feel good, I feel clean in my soul. I go to sleep relatively calm. I should wake up in a good state and not like being in the dark. But this is what happens so I’m asking why.
R. How can it be that you rise in a good state if you went to sleep in a good state? So, what kind of a day will you have? The day begins from the night, you haven't felt a night yet. In the evening too when you read Shamati you felt that you were in the middle of the day. Where is the night?
S. Forgive me but the night is not a bad thing, the night is the preparation for the morning.
R. In what?
S. Preparation in the feeling in being ready to do. In sleep the night gives us the force for the next day, for our strength, so should I feel so bad in the morning?
R. What do you expect to receive at night and what they expect to receive in the morning? At night you read Shamati, you felt good, you had a good feeling, you felt yourself close to the Creator. You went to sleep as if you are baby and your mother is coddling you in a blanket, she tucks you in and you felt that the Creator is tucking you in, and you went to sleep like an angel. Then what happens?
S. For instance yesterday I read 43 from Shamati, it’s very long but it’s an amazing article. I went to sleep with a good feeling and I woke up in the in the morning not knowing where I am, in the dark, why?
R. Why aren’t you thinking that it is the result of your good work?
S. So if I work well, I should feel bad?
R. Why not?
S. Forgive me for asking but why?
R. Because you are still an egoistic will to receive and you have to understand where you are. You have to discover where you are. So, because you did a good preparation before going to sleep and you wanted to get closer and closer to the Creator, to really feel yourself that you are under the wings of the Shechina, of divinity, that it covers you, and you are like a baby in his mother’s bosom, what could good be better? But when you get up, you get up in a totally different state. Why do you think that the other state you are getting up in, when you are disconnected from the Creator and you have no goal, even worse you don't feel that there is a goal and there is a Creator or anything. You are just a complete beast except for one point that gives you a feeling that you have nothing in spirituality, because otherwise you would be a beast, completely. But you have this one point that says you have nothing, you don’t need it, and it’s far, and it is all blurry and you are not in it. Why is that state when you get up in this way, why can it not be a result of you yesterday? Before going to sleep, you were immersed in the articles of Shamati, so why not?
S. I don’t know why not, it is hard for me to answer. I just think that the efforts a person puts into it during the day, during his study are also a kind of a preparation all in all.
R. Of course, and as a preparation, as a result of all these things you feel yourself in the morning as a beast instead of feeling that you are already in the upper world as an angel. This is a desirable, correct result. It is a result of a worker of the Creator, so that instead of leaving with a good feeling as he had before, to think that everything is ok, it’s fine, he is given a descent from which he can rise even more. Likewise, every time he is a brought down -1, he is raised up +1, and then he is brought down -2 and then elevated to +2. This is the only way, it cannot be any other way. Think about it, there are many articles about it. We have to find such an article if possible. It’s as it’s written in the poem there was a righteous man who felt completely empty because he did great spiritual work. Because then he comes to the beginning of a new degree which begins with and there was evening and there was morning. One day begins from the evening, from a state of darkness, and then the person begins to rise.
S. Can I ask a short question about the Rabash? You told us he had very heavy physical work like paving roads and other works, so how could he wake up this way and go to work?
R. Not only would he wake up, but he would also get up at night before everyone, 2 hours before everyone. They were paving the road from Jerusalem to Hebron, there was no other work in those years, so everybody was working. In those days there was no such thing as studying and receiving money for it, so they all worked. And Rabash was working, paving roads, doing road works as a regular worker who builds roads. So, he was working and this is how everyone was working and he said that they had doctors and physicians working with them. There was no other work and nobody drove them home each day, so they would work there the whole week and only go home on the weekends. They slept in a tent and returned home only on the weekend. So, he had an agreement with the manager that he would prepare tea for everybody, he would be on constant duty in the morning, and they worked from sunrise to sunset as long as there was light, they worked, when there was no light, they could not work. In those days there were no projectors or electrical lights. So, he would get up in the middle of the night and he would fight the fire, the gas to prepare tea for everyone and there was a light in the kitchen, so there he would study. At least 2 hours before everyone got up or even more, he would sit there and study. So, what are you asking about that?
S. I am just asking first of all this is a wonderous man not an ordinary person. I just asked for this reason, how could he do it? How can a person be working all day paving the road, this is very hard work, this is a wonder, that’s why I’m asking.
R. It is truly a wonder, it is truly a wonder. I was a young man next to him and I wanted to do things like him and I couldn’t. It’s really a wonder, but we have to try what each of us is capable of. We are weak, not as strong as they were, what can I say. We will do what we can.
16. (53:35) What is the meaning of the righteous wears it, is it the intention to bestow?
R. The righteous and the wicked refer to one body, one person. In each person there are both righteous and wicked. If the wicked prepares the things correctly, then he becomes righteous and the righteous receives the clothing, which is the screen and reflected light, and he can come into contact with the Creator.
17. (54:23) When I see all my friends are part of my soul what happens, because I am a building my soul, so there is no matter of the mingling of the will to receive?
R. No, if I do all my work based on connection with the friends and I want to work with them, that I work only for them, by this I feel how I totally disconnect from myself, I totally disconnect from myself. And this is how we advance. If I really want to maintain the connection and have it directed at the Creator, I see that this connection helps me a lot to disconnect from myself and adhere to the Creator. The connection is like a transition, like a flying carpet that takes me from myself and shifts me toward the 10, to my first new Partzuf, to my first system of the Soul.
18. (56:17) How to correctly use the force of thought in the work?
R. I cannot tell you. Just use it correctly. Why do you need the thought, what for, why do I activate it, what do I scrutinize in the thought? We have to think about it, we have many hours that are pretty empty. Start thinking about all those discernments, you will have answers. I haven’t any, I can’t tell you, just use these forces.
19. S. (57:10) This subject is fascinating. For years, we've been preparing for sleep reading a preparation for sleep to keep us in the intention. Still, it’s as if the Creator gives us some process at night that is different than the intention we went to sleep with. Are we being educated during the night, during our sleep?
R. the fact that we are going through a process is obvious. The Creator elevates us from the desire where we were yesterday, which was small, and we scrutinized it and we achieved some connection with the Creator. He elevates us to a new more difficult desire, deeper and more egoistic. In this way we advance.
S. Is this one of the reasons we have the night, that we are supposed to connect to night and day?
R. Let's say that it is so for the time being.
S. How do we increase this process in the 10?
R. Only through the thought, everything is scrutinized in the thought. Talk about it more, deeper, and also each one separately, and together, and start accelerating time.
20. S. (58:51) The lot is a calculation that the upper does to the created being. Can you explain the meaning of the word “lot''?
R. Lot is that force that begins the new entry. I am trying to give it some clearer definition so it won't be taken to a mystical, esoteric form.
21. S. (59:59) If we are in a perfect system the lot cannot be incidental, so what is the meaning of the fact that ‘the Creator will cast a lot’ and can we use this moment as a point where we can turn Nature round?
R. He is giving us an opportunity to be able to use every single moment to change our lot, our fate, our way. To examine it as we always have deflections, and the deflections are all in our desires, in our minds, and we need to give ourselves some account; and it can happen only if we are connected because otherwise we cannot solve this lot because this is what happened to us on Purim when everyone unites, first of all, through a disaster that they feel is approaching and that they are truly about to be annihilated, totally which was what Haman showed them. This is what the Creator wants to happen for fear of them losing their way and becoming slaves in this world like everyone else, like all of humanity. Only by this can He shake these people, the ‘chosen ones’ to be connected to the sublime goal.
22. S. (01:02:23) Should we agree with every lot we get from the Creator? Can the Creator give us a state that we should refuse to receive – how can we respond properly?
R. Only through connection between us – this is what Esther said: “go unite and pray.” This is really the solution to the worst thing.
23. S. (01:02:54) According to the article, it seems there is no free choice, everything is a lot?
R. Our free choice is only to connect in every single state that is far from connection, and out of that, ask the Creator to help us rise to a higher spiritual level above the disturbances. Not in order to get rid of the disturbances but in order to use the disturbances for greater spiritual ascension, for more connection.
24. S. (01:03:38) Is casting a lot for one person or a 10; and, how to pass on this lot from the 10?
R. The truth is that fate has we learn from Purim and also about the Day of Atonement, Yom Kippur, they correspond to one another as they stand one opposite to the other. So that lot corresponds to humanity who want to connect, it brings them to a state where they seemingly have no choice and they are aware of it; they are grateful for it and they say grace, they bless the situation of having no choice because only out of great pressure and great stress, great threat they can achieve connection. This is really a lot the Creator is a scrutinizer – how does He scrutinize the lot? By giving them a desperate state where there is no chance to come out of it, and then they have no choice but to cry out and to pray to the upper Force, but not for the Creator to save them as we might hear. But save us but from the evil inclination not from the situation. We need to understand by this that I prefer to die than to live, meaning in such states, I prefer to die but not return to the intention to receive but only lead myself and others to the intention to bestow. This is what I asked for and if not, then I am willing to die right here. This is called ‘fate’ or ‘lot'.
25. S. (01:06:21) Is there a common lot for the whole group of Bnei Baruch?
R. And for the whole world, for all created beings, yes. We are approaching that – these states.
26. S. (01:06:41) When I connect to a 10, does my lot change?
R. When I connect to the 10, I begin to be connected to my lot because if I’m not connected to the 10, I have no lot. The lot means I have to connect to the soul – to the 10 to build my soul, and this is my lot. If I don't have this direction then I am not in my lot. We have to understand that if we are just sitting and listening and then we part ways and don't feel that we are coming to connect all of us together in our hearts and our souls, then in the meantime it is very far from the lot. The Creator awakens us but He awakens us for the time being in states that are very, very – for beginners – initial states. In the end, we have to see, are we on a way where the whole world should shift and become one soul, are we becoming the soul of Adam HaRishon?
27. S. (01:08:20) Today we know our lot in corporeality is connected to each other and we have no choice. At what point do we feel that our spiritual lot is connected and depends on each other?
R. It all depends on us as much as we try to achieve it to that extent, we will feel that in this we truly have a place. We have to try, especially women. I understand it is very far according to the nature of a woman, it's very difficult for her to picture it but I highly recommend, and I am asking that you at least feel it in your intellect. There's a feeling in the heart and a feeling in the mind, so in your minds – in your intellect – to feel how much this connection is necessary for all the people in the world, anyone who is in the world. Everyone must feel that they have no choice but to connect into one desire with everyone who is in the world, everyone, red, white, black, yellow, you name it. Above all of the differences, we have to, in our desires, unite together and then we will bring the world to correction. If we think in this direction, even a little bit, you will feel how much we really are advancing.
28. S. (01:10:40) What does the lot that the Creator gives us depend upon?
R. We don't know that – we don’t know that because, I’ll tell you, the lot is the opening of a new degree. That I am still not there. It is the coarseness of a new degree but it’s very special, it is as they say, it’s when we shift from the first restriction to the second restriction – from bestowing in order to bestow receiving in order to bestow – very characteristic degrees, stages, there aren't very many of them along the way. So, this is why we can't understand and feel, and somehow establish the form of the lot in advance. It always seems to us like a monster, something that we can't understand and ride or digest. But if we go with faith above reason, we see specifically in this way it is arranged for us so that specifically in this way, we will be able to jump to this degree, to these new conditions.
29. S. (01:12:23) It is written that ‘the wicked will prepare and the righteous will wear”. Does it mean that before working in bestowal we have to work in reception?
R. We can't work in reception because we don't have the vessels to do intentions in order to bestow but we will have to come to, first of all, bestowing in order to bestow. Meaning begin with operations of bestowing above our ego, above our connection, and giving ourselves up to acts of bestowal as if we have no desires of our own and we are only willing to contribute, that’s on the one hand. On the other hand, it is that afterwards we come to understand these things – they are not only above our wills receive but also in the desires to bestow, to receive in order to bestow – and then we are already beginning to scrutinize them within our vessels, in the will to receive.
30. S. (01:14:06) In the beginning of the article it says the Haman accuses: who does he accuse or slander and why does this person not work according to the rules?
R. The whole system that is opposite from the Creator exists with a purpose of seemingly disrupting, interfering with the Creator. And a person is between those two systems: the system of Holiness, which is the Creator and the system of the Klipa, the shells, which is the Sitra Achra. And we need these two systems in order to scrutinize good from bad, darkness from light, etc. If we didn't have the possibility to see things that are opposite from Holiness, we would not be able to discover the Holiness, the force of bestowal, and this is why we need to understand the role of Haman, Mordechai and all of those protagonists that the Torah speaks about. Each and every one of them, it doesn't matter to what he belongs, these are higher forces, forces of nature that we, in this way, can scrutinize and specifically through them scrutinize the Creator – only through something and it's opposite in the contrast between the darkness and the light, and in color and in feelings and flavors – in all of our feelings we can position the form of Holiness opposite of the form of the shell.
S. Why in the awakening from below on Yom Kippur, the evil Haman was the one who did a lot?
R. Because if the shell, the egoistic will to receive – our forces – if they did not awaken against the Creator then we wouldn't even be able to identify that shell, itself. And we wouldn't be able to see anything. We need to understand that it is the advantage of a light from within the darkness, there is no choice. This is why when we get up in the morning, we are against, opposite from the Light, not knowing where we are and how we recover – we just spoke about for a whole hour – this is how it works in everything and the more we advance to the goal, our falls will be greater, deeper that’s why we have to strengthen ourselves, reinforce ourselves by helping each other. It is like the waves that sea and we are in a tiny boat and we have no choice. for the time Bein, g we are only gripping onto the boat but afterwards we discover that the boat is not the problem. If we are in this boat, and we are holding each other by the hands then the more we think about this, about this single goal, then the boat becomes steady; the storm subsides and the boat begins to sail in the right direction as if out of all of nature the connection between us determines the direction, the speed and where we are advancing and what we will do, what we will reach. It is all the connection between us. On the outside it can be a stormy sea and everything can be with sharks that come that jump out of the water, but we are not afraid because we know our salvation is only in the connection between us. This is the only way and the Creator arranges for us the water, the high waves, a boat that begins to break up, etc., until we understand “where are everyone's hands and how do we connect each other, to the others.” And let's think in this way: that you want to be connected and connected to the Creator, then we reach the goal.
S. What is the boat?
R. The boat is the organization itself, it exists but essentially it maintains itself so within it we will discover the connection of the hearts.
31. S. (01:20:12) Why do we need to start each day as new without the efforts accumulating?
The first man, Adam HaRishon, is the system that the Creator created, complete 10 Sefirot. That system wants to receive in order to bestow meaning to connect with the Creator in a holistic manner - meaning that all of these desires come together and essentially, they are connected to begin with, right, and they received the light that stands before them, the Creator, in order to bestow to Him. How can we bestow to the Creator? By revealing Him within us. That these desires to bestow will live within us and we will be with our will to receive, the desires to receive are connected between us. It turns out that this way we unite with the Creator. So, they wanted to do that and could not succeed and we learn that their failure was deliberate on the part of the Creator. There is what is called ‘the appearance of the serpent’ and all of that – it doesn’t matter all these stories, they are just confusing. But they wanted to receive the light in the connection between them and they discover that their connection is not ideal. It is insufficient, it is not good enough, they don't have the proper connection. Let's say that they were connected in order to receive $100 and they came together and wanted to receive in order to give to the Creator this $100; and, then they discover that what they are going to get is actually a billion dollars. And then each and every one went crazy not knowing what to do with all of that. It is so great that each part was not intended to be connected with the others with that kind of sum total as the light is greater than the Kli, than the power of connection of the vessels, then they shattered. They scattered, each to his own part, wanting to get everything but at least just it's part, more or less, and then went away from that connection. Because each part wants that – where does it come from? Because a great will to receive has appeared in them. First when the light comes, they didn't feel that they have such a great will to receive, they thought that they are going to work with some light that comes to them. Let's say a couple of thousand dollars that arrived, then when billions arrive, they go crazy, can't do anything with that, don’t know what to do with that. Then they each separate from the other and when they separate this is called ‘the shattering of the vessel,’ and so all of the lights depart and that’s that. So, what should we do now? Now, we should increase the Kli meaning from the separation that happened to us by the shattering, we now have to connect ourselves even though the great lights are not in front of us, but at least the egoistic desires that were formed, appeared between us, we have to try to connect to each other despite them, try to connect to each other. That is our work that we are ultimately ready to receive the great light, even several times greater that will be received and that is the work.
32. S. (01:25:51) When we don't want to hide anything from the friends anymore, does this mean that we are connected?
R. No, if I don't want to hide anything from the friend it just means that I open myself wide – maybe it is my nature – today you can see this on TV and other places that the people do this. That they don't have anything to hide from each other. There’s nothing to hide from each other, we are either completely corrected or we are completely not corrected. We’re beasts, animals. I was once overseas and saw that people completely naked where dancing on the square. Ad it was both younger people and elderly people, doesn’t matter, that's what it was. I'm not criticizing them or saying good or bad, I'm just saying that it indicates our relationship on an animalistic level because we are like animals on this level and they’re right. They don't feel shame about that and besides that, they add some dance to it, some art to it but you don't need to be spiritual for this, you just go down to the animal level. The human wants to cover and hide himself, and instead of his corporeality to come to his internality and gradually connect with others but these things can't be shown to others. I can't come to the same square, I can’t go there and show my soul, I can't. If we were able to see each and everyone's soul – first of all, it's good that we don't because it is in such a way that it is dark and distorted that it would completely repel us – but gradually if we would correct ourselves, we can feel that our desires are specific intentions begin to come closer to each other and then we rise above the bodies and then there's no difference between the bodies, also, because the body doesn't even come up with its name, what does the body have? The soul is the main thing and this becomes what is important, and so I want us to connect to such discernment that we call as ‘souls.’ This is how it should be in the connection of the souls which is the forces of bestowal from each and every one, we will be able to receive those billions of dollars that the Creator wants to give to us and we will have no problem with that because it will only give us the awareness of how connected we are, meaning we weigh how connected we can be – this is what we call ‘the stones with which we weigh our degrees’ – well, the word ‘stone’ Eben, comes from the word Havana, understanding, and this is how we need to be. In short, connect between us through forces of bestowal above ourselves leaving our corporeal body, our egoistic desires aside and expressing only our desire to bestow which is called the spiritual body and in it, we will each connect his part to all the others and from these individual souls, which is our desire to connect with others, we’ll be able to connect to a single body. This is called ‘as one man in one heart.’ Then according to these efforts to connect we will feel the Creator fulfilling us all.
34. S. (01:31:40) How important is it during the lesson to describe or imagine our connection?
R. The whole time, all the time. From the beginning of the lesson onward, we want to try to connect ourselves more and more in our desires to bestow and not pay attention to the bodies, only those desires that extend and escape from our hearts from each of us to all the others. And the more exercises that we do with that regard we will feel that such desires of ours exist in that they can connect, and as such desires connect, we can feel the Creator and this is essentially His essence and is also His desire to give and to connect with us, this is what we need. And later we’ll learn how to do this more and more. These desires that we raise from ourselves in order to connect to others, this happens through Tzimtzum, Masach and Ohr Hozer light, through the force of bestowal that emerges from us. Then how much do we connect with others and to what extent of coarseness, and so on.
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36. S. (01:33:48) Is there another way to relate to your explanation more than listening and studying? Is there another way for it to clothe in us?
R. A way to connect to what I'm saying is to connect between you, among the friends, and then as a result to also connect with the Creator, that is the desired result and the path through connection between you and the Creator. So, make an effort not in my direction but in the Creator's direction, I am just a guide. I am just explaining and consulting, advising you what to do in order to connect to reveal the Creator as soon as possible.
37. (01:35:17) Rav reads article again: Faith is the Awakening from above, a person does not assist this in anything as it comes from the Creator, this is the meaning of cast a lot, that the Creator cast this lot on us and Haman was complaining and said that neither do they keep the king's laws. They don't follow the will of the Creator so why do they deserve this? Meaning that the Creator governs them in this direct way which means that the enslavement begins for the worker in the state of Lo Lishma, meaning the person doesn't know exactly what he's doing or what for. It is like a little child who is doing all kinds of actions but he doesn't know what they are, he's just doing them. This is how the same force governs us when we are little babies, just throwing our hands and legs around, putting things in our mouth, that's how it is. Afterward they are granted Lishma, meaning from all these actions just like actions that we did as children, and we don't remember what we were doing, we call this like being dumb teenagers, like silly little children, and we understand that as parents we supervise them until they grow. This is how it happens with us. From Lo Lishma where we do such actions that make no sense, we then come to Lishma and then they are given lights and upper attainments. That is the path. Then comes the complainant and asks why they are given these sublime things for which they did not work or hope, but their every thought and goal were only over matters that concern their own needs, called Lo Lishma. So why out of these people working and using their will to receive and all the forces of nature like this, why do they suddenly reach a state where they grow spiritually? They weren't thinking about that, they weren’t aiming for that. This is what the evil inclination is asking. This is the meaning of the wicked will prepare and the righteous will wear. Like we know with children, they grow. They don't grow based on what we give them. We think that by adding to kids all kinds of smart things and teaching them that this is how that they grow, no. If we go deep into this, we will see that this is not correct, that children evolve by the upper governance that directs their development. This is why we see many such examples in the world where of course we should invest in the development of children, but the truth is their fate does not depend on that so much. He says this, then comes the complainant and asks why are they given these sublime things, meaning Lishma, in order to bestow, spiritual qualities, for which they did not work or hope? What does it mean they did not hope for it? Because they can't imagine to themselves what spirituality is as long as they are in corporality. We only feel this world, and our qualities are only corporeal, all to receive and even if we give to each other, it is also to receive. But their every thought and goal were only over matters that concern their own needs called Lo Lishma. Why then are they given Lishma? This is the meaning of the wicked will prepare and the righteous will wear, and this is the same person. He was just wicked at first, doing all kinds of actions, and then comes to a state where he becomes righteous and thus receives all of the clothing and fulfillment, all of the reward, as if he was a righteous, but he wasn't a righteous, he was a wicked. So how come it happens? This means that previously he was working in a state of wicked meaning all for himself, in his mind and his heart, meaning Lo Lishma, for himself, for the receiver. Afterward he was rewarded with Lishma meaning that all the servitude enters the domain of Kedusha, that he wants to be connected to others and through them to the Creator and all to bestow outwardly, outside of himself. And this is what it says that the meaning of the righteous will wear, meaning what he wears is only the desire to bestow, the desire to give. This is what happens to us on the path. So, we have two states, the king that puts to death when we are in a state of a will to receive, and the king who brings to life, meaning corrects us and brings us to in order to bestow, and grows fourth salvation. Three states, puts to death, brings to life, brings salvation. This is what we go through.
38. S. (01:43:10) What are ‘the lights ‘for its sake’ and ‘for attainment’?
R. It is the fulfillment that a person received through the intention of bestowal that he developed above his will to receive.
S. What do the workers of the Creator need it for: why do they make these lights and attainment?
R. Because it is the forces of bestowal that they developed by which they fulfill the Creator, the Shechina, Divinity, with their reflected light as they have the Aviut, Masach and Ohr Hozer, and through the reflected light they fulfill the general will to receive that the Creator formed to all the created beings. So, by that they actually bring the Creator into the Shechina, into the will to receive that exist between them, so ass it says ‘the Creator says you have made Me, meaning that through our situation, through our situation, our state, we fulfill this network of connection between us which is all in order to be stowed to each other.
39. S. (01:44:58) Can I get the awakening from above only if I acknowledge that I am in the state of evil? If so, does his help me go to a state of faith?
R. You can't reach a certain state without its opposite state, that is why I'm saying that I wake up in the morning and I feel as an animal – let's say, I wake up in the morning, but it could be in the middle of the day in any states, where I just feel myself as an animal that I don't care or want anything else. That is the kind of thoughts that I have, what I want or don't want, I am just confused with that – then I begin to rearrange myself which I usually begin to do by reading the Shamati articles, this is what I get used to since the time of Rabash. That is how we start from the degree of the beast and each time it could be more complicated to do, more difficult to wake up, and that is how we awaken. And then I begin to slowly think thoughts about myself and then I start to come from that to thoughts about the friends and about the Creator, and bit by bit, this way I awakened. I'll tell you, if I come to the lesson without such preparation, I can't be in the lesson and I'm not here. You'll be seeing me like you're seeing me right now but it's not me. It is just a body that does something but you are not going to receive answers from me also as perhaps you feel that you are getting answers only as a corporeal phenomenon, the sound waves that reach you, but my goal is to awaken deeper waves, spiritual ones. And so, I want you to awaken and that will come from having connection between you and a leap to spirituality, this is how it works.
40. S. (01:48:27) What is the lot for a 10?
R. That is what we need to attain, we can't understand this before. it is like you are asking something about a baby before the baby is born. So first, you should connect yourself to some sort of brave and constant connection, you need to feel that it is born. In that body that is born the Creator will give you the spirit of life, the soul. As a result, you will discover what and who you are in spirituality.
41. S. (01:49:27) The work that you said how Rabash used to open Shamati and read a few lines and work with it. How do you work in such a way?
R. I don't know. You will discover and see.
42. S. (01:50:04) You described how when you wake up as a beast and you see that you are confused. Sometimes the confusion is such that you don't even understand that you are confused. Is there a way to help, some advice, how a person can see that he is confused?
R. We only have one thing, like Rabash writes, connection between the friends. By that, we bring ourselves back to the system of the soul. That certainly means corporal actions and spiritual actions that we can somehow do and accordingly we will feel how much we are advancing.
43. S. (01:51:09) About the home, the boat and there are the sharks around in the stormy sea. So according to the article, it turns out that we don't pay attention to the sharks and we don't turn to the Creator for them to disappear. So, for what? That we can rise above them even higher to faith above reason?
R. Yes, of course. Ultimately, this struggle over the corporeal life leads us to thoughts about eternal life. That means that we relate that to the Creator, and the connection to the Creator leads us to a state where we no longer think about the corporeal or spiritual life but about Lishma (for Her sake), how to bestow and leave all of our efforts there.
S. The sharks and the boat are in order to overcome?
R. Right. Why do we need all this world, this whole life, and what we go through? It is all in order to have the right discernment to connect to the Creator.
44. S. (01:52:35) The Creator once pushes away, once brings us closer to the ten. When He moves me away, I start praying, I start asking, I feel bad. But when He brings me closer, it is as if I relaxed, everything is good. So, I'm searching and I don't understand where is the freedom, is there any or not?
R. Our freedom of choice is only in the connection between us. If all of the ascents and descents, closer and further away, if you relate them all to the connection between you and the friends, you will see as much as you by this can bestow to them, and eventually also to you in a true spiritual way, not in a personal way. In a personal way you are a beast even if you do things as good as you think you can, but as much as you are connected to the friends, then you will be called Adam, man. Because one who resembles the Creator through that net of connections between you and the friends, only in such a way you start becoming Adam, a man. Then, you can realize those actions, the spiritual actions.
S. It is the first thing we were taught, that the only free choice we had is exactly that, to relate to the Creator or the ten. Still, I don't understand. It depends on whether I am receiving more desire, or I am taking. Where do I choose in this whole process?
R. You don't have to choose anything except for your connection with the ten. That is, you have nothing else because you can't hold on to the Creator. You have nothing to grasp on, you don't have a vessel. Through the ten, when you grasp on the Creator, then you have all the information. As much as you are connected to them, and as much as together you are connected to the Creator, just grab on to it with your teeth, like a child adhered to the mother. You saw a child’s hands, legs, everything, he wants to stick to her. That is how we need to grab between us and the Creator, that’s it. In this, to be all the time as much as we can. Depict the state to yourself and don't let go of it for a while, let's say for a day or two, as much as you can, above all the disturbances each one gets. Let's meet today in a few hours, we'll have another lesson and there we can talk about how we tried to keep that connection between us, that we are all in connection between us and adhered to the Creator that is between us, that we are all adhered to our mother as babies. Let us try, like speaking about flies on honey, you know? Like speaking about flies on honey – I'm not certain what picture to give you but let's try to be in it and for the second half of the day where we have another lesson, we will ask ourselves: did we try to hold on to this and as much as we did? We will speak about the disturbances and as much as we can be connected to it because it's not about the quantity of the material that we are going through, it is how we are implementing these actions of connection between us and the Creator.
45. S. (01:57:45) If you can explain what you said, “the King puts to death and gives life and brings salvation”?
R. Yes, what are you asking about?
S. The king puts to death meaning that he adds more will to receive and then revives and puts forth salvation – what does this mean?
R. That means the Creator is working on us and that He is doing all the actions on us, He determines from above that He will bring us to death, meaning that we had some spirit of bestowal, love, connection, spirituality – somewhat we feel something – and it disappeared. Then after a while we feel like animals, that we don't want it or we do want, He starts bringing us back to life, giving us opportunities here or there with all kinds of thoughts and actions to start doing it and this is called ‘that after He brings us to death,’ now He brings us to life, He resurrects us as an action of awakening. And from all of these states that He brings to death and then brings to life, ‘death’ means that the evening comes and ‘life’ means that the morning comes in our work; and from that we start feeling that He brings salvation. That there is already a direction where to develop to and to reach it, to reach salvation. That eventually after such actions more and more, we will come out of our will to receive and we will, through the connection, we will reach in order to bestow.
46. S. (02:00:24) Why does the Creator play with us like a chess game?
R. In order for us to learn all of the actions for or against, and from that, we can attain Him.
47. S. (02:00:48) Yesterday we had an exercise in the 10 of opening up the disputes and gently covering it with love. How should we feel after such an exercise? What is the desired result so that we can say we were successful?
R. It depends as much on as you overcome that exercise and want to see yourself, that he brought you closer to the goal in something, in some way. And you don't remain in the exercise but from what you get from it – is the main thing, what is the summary?
S. How to clarify this, that each one checks what he feels or how do you come to the result?
R. How did you understand more what you needed to reveal in your work through the connection? The advancement – as much as you understood – that in the connection you have salvation. Because you can't jump to the revelation of the Creator, to the connection in the Creator, on the way you have to fix the vessel that He broke, the vessel of Adam HaRishon, the shattered one, you need to do that. That is why there is no choice here, but to understand that all of the connections between us are destined for correction and we have to learn how to correct them. That from their correction we gather the pieces and from connecting those shattered pieces in that system, we start to understand the system, feeling the system, that we learn the Creator from connecting all of the parts that He created. From connecting all of those parts we can start understanding how this mechanism works called ‘a soul,’ and what is in that soul as much as it is complex and has mutual discernments between everybody, what is the mutual bestow on each other. And from us starting to learn these things, how they are connected together, the parts of the soul, we, from this, begin to understand the thought of creation: why the Creator did this in such a way, why did he break it, why do we from the shattering have to know this machine that from it we know the thought of creation that is there in the beginning and in the end, the end of the action begins with a thought, this is what He thought in advance that we would reach the shattered state than from it we will start attaining Him gradually, by starting building blocks and more complex things and then we will understand why they are connected in such a way. That as much as we have problems, meaning questions, that we will want to solve them, and then we will see what this part is connected to that part and why, and which come first and which come later. In such a way, we will start understanding the Creator – why He did this to us and what did He want by this? Then we will start feeling in these connections, in this creation, the mind that is working – the mind that is working, that it is Him. And then, more and more, we’ll come closer to Him and be in His feelings, in His mind, His process, in His purpose of creation, this is what brings the work. This is why I don't disregard the connection. In the connection from within, we start knowing Him, we can’t otherwise, only from the work that He did; that He broke on purpose for us, that we start acting like a child with blocks and start playing. Then we start understanding the mind that is working inside.
S. There is a feeling, I'm not certain if everybody feels it, but that maybe we have a bitter taste from this exercise, not necessarily a sense of elation and connection, what is this indication?
R. I don't know, I guess you didn't understand the essence of the article. What did he tell us? That there are two forms that manage us, that conduct us, and we reach the goal when these two forms, the evil and the good inclination, come to peace, the angels of the peace. There are two angels that bring man to his goal: the good angel and the evil angel. And there really isn't good and evil, they are both revealing themselves to us in such a way, and if I come out of some article or some lesson in a bad mood, it means that I am not connected to everybody – not connected to the teacher and not to the article and not to the writer of the article. Because from there the light comes out. And I am inside me in darkness and that is too bad. I think it is because you can't get rid of your criticism towards everything.
S. How to help each other in that state?
R. Think how to rise above the criticism of everything and everybody.
48. S. (02:08:17) What part of the created being does Haman represent?
R. Haman represents the will to receive in order to receive in the worst possible way, the final complete way. Or it is better to say the intention in order to receive, not the desire because the desire isn't good or bad, it depends what intention rides upon it. So, Haman is entirely in order to receive.
49. S. (02:09:44) Does the wicked remain in us after we correct to the righteous, what happens after the correction?
R. Nice question, look how the women ask. What happens to the wicked after we correct him? That wicked becomes righteous, and even more righteous then all the other righteous ones we had before. Every time we correct some kind of wicked in us, between us, then first of all it is a deeper will to receive, bigger, more corrupted that wasn't revealed in us, but when we correct it, it becomes a greater righteous one that we never had. That's why he who is greater than his friend has acquired a greater degree, it is because his inclination is greater. That before he was in a lower evil inclination.
50. S. (02:10:48) Are the others lots in my hand and my lot is in theirs?
R. Correct, wow, women, way to go, I’m proud of you. Yes, that has one word, Arvut, mutual guarantee. It’s a term, it’s a concept, it’s the inner content of Arvut. That me alone I don't do anything, I depend on the environment and the environment determines my destiny, my future.
51. S. (02:11:44) That is why prayer for the others is the prayer of many?
R. That is why the prayer for the others is the prayer of the many. Praying for the others is the only correct prayer that I can activate, and it is the only prayer that truly helps me, that gets to the Creator and He answers it. Nobody who prays for himself is awarded with an answer from the Creator, only if he prays for others. That is why he who prays for the friends is rewarded first. Why? Because in such a way he starts uplifting to a spiritual degree.
52. S. (02:12:40) If I'm full of gratitude for the past and I bless my lot, does that mean that I use the lot I was given from above according to the Creator's will?
R. Yes, it is also written in the prayers in such a way that first we give gratitude for everything that we have, everything that You created, everything that You did, why? Because by that we are thanking Him for it, we are showing that we understand that the purpose of creation is right and good, and for the benefit of they created beings, and he is opening it. Because for Himself, He is the absolute bestower, the complete bestower, and for us receiving Him in such a way that for certain He has no will to receive, we turn to Him in such a way. And then I turn to him. He has no calculations for himself like people, but only to bestow, and only for the benefit of every person and everybody together. That for Him in His complete system, everything equalizes just as one, and to everybody.
53. S. (02:14:28) We are doing many actions in our 10. How can we add the quality to these efforts so they don’t...
R. In order to add quality to actions, you have two actions. One is that between you, you scrutinize
how you can raise the quality of your connection. And second, except for these scrutinies you turn to the Creator together. Even more together, more and more, and nobody turns to the Creator alone, only together. And even write it between you, what you are turning to the Creator with. We are asking for something concrete, not things that are up there somewhere. And with these concrete things you turn to Him, and you see as much as you can feel, that your state according to those changes.
54. S. (02:15:55) What is the connection that isn’t in dissemination, what is the connection in between?
R. The fact that I am in a meeting or all kinds of actions, that I am connected to them and I see and hear them and I am thinking what we are all thinking, it's not my actions, it is our actions. When I am alone, so I am speaking about our state, our degree, that when I am alone it is as if I'm alone. Here specifically I have an opportunity to be more connected to my connection with the 10. When I am between them, I am under their influence physically, I hear them, we do something so I am under their influence, that is why I am not really going through scrutinies or my actions to the 10 here. But when I'm alone, so now according to my degree, that I am not in spirituality, yet I feel that I am supposedly disconnected from them. And then I have an ability and opportunity to connect to them, to be drawn to them, and as much as I can to be devoted to them. That is my great reward. That I am coming close to them. I want to help, I want to do something and nobody disturbs me in that, it is me alone. I am not blurring it out that I see faces but I imagine to myself the essence of each and every friend, the desires to the purpose of creation. That as much as I can use their desires, to push them towards the Creator, that from me and onward it depends as much on as me and all of them together will come close to the Creator and then I imagine such actions that I can do. It is very good if we each one does such actions before the lesson, I come to the lesson in order to push ahead all of our friends and all of humanity to the Creator.
55. S. (02:19:20) So if once in a while there's no connection between the friends in the 10. Is it my fault that I didn't ask enough?
R. I think that is something that we have to see how the Creator gives us this opportunity to connect, and shows us all kinds of malfunctions between us, and no one can think that he is not part of that problem. Let's think one friend or a second friend are in some distance between them. I can't be relaxed, that it's not a part of me, and we can't wait until it something will change. We still need to at least think without speaking, but to constantly think about it like a disease, a difficult disease, that can bring you to death and bring us to death in the 10 and won't give us an ability to advance. On the contrary from day to day that we postpone the opportunity to bring them closer and we don't do what we should, we are all losing. Look what happens in your body if there's a problem. We can see in the body with x-rays and all kinds of examinations how the body starts doing something against it. All kinds of blood and fluids start coming around it and first of all make some kind of a pocket that closes that area off, the sick part inside, that this is what they do. We need to isolate that problem that it won't work on the other ones because it could be that some fault between two friends influences the whole group, and you have to take care of that problem until it becomes good. And that's how you have to take care of it, that by that problem they won't both feel that they're in some argument, but that the Creator wants to give us an example on how we by their argument, how we can all use it to connect. All of us reach a greater wisdom, a wisdom of connection. Not to forget that the wisdom of Kabbalah is the wisdom of connection, that in the wisdom of connection we attain the Creator.
56. S. () If the friends that are separate or not interested in getting closer the 10 should not think about them?
R. the 10 needs to bestow and explain to them to obligate them to be closer, it can't be that they remain in such a way and if they still don't agree so we give them a certain time, let's say a week that they should understand that our purpose is to connect above all disturbances and we are obligating them to prepare materials about how they need to be connection above these disturbances. Specifically, above these disturbances is the successful connection that lives and they should tell us about it afterwards. They don't have to speak to one another but that each one has to give a speech, like a half an hour before the 10 as much as you need to connect above the disturbances. Let's see if that won't convince them. Then I will give you a few more tips.
57. S. (02:24:17) When the 10 prays for me I feel worse, why?
R. Because you have shame, but don't look at it in such a way. Look at it as the Creator giving you a problem, that the 10 can connect around that problem, and then instead of bringing a problem to the environment you are bringing them an opportunity for more connection. That is why instead of a disturbance you become a great asset, a good reason for the 10.
58. S. (02:25:05) You said before as a teacher you want to awaken internal waves of connection in your students how can I awaken these waves of connection in my 10?
R. Example, there is nothing else but example. That is the main thing. There are people that are more external, very expressive and there are some that are more internal, so that depends on your nature. But if you don’t pay attention to the nature, or take it into account, we still need to give an example to the friends, as much as we can. Some can do it by speaking, some in silence with all kinds of deeds, and more and more. I told you how I get really inspired by the women and also the men that come to our center and perform all kinds of duties here, in cleaning and fixing things and all kinds of things like that. I really respect them. So that is how we need to see things that we can do, each one for the other. I'm very happy from your questions, they are very deep, very important, much more than what the men are asking. Even though the men have more opportunities to be in connection, maybe their questions seem simpler, but they are more practical. So, I hope that from our questions and answers you can also connect more between you. I really recommend it, you can really jump to a spiritual degree in a very important way. You have the knowledge, you have the mind, you have the energy, you have a good attitude and a warm heart, you have everything. Just concentrate it a bit more together. Good luck, I hug you and let's hope we meet in the afternoon lesson.