Morning Lesson August 2, 2021, Transcription
Ibur [Impregnation] and Yenika [Nursing], #15
1. Rav’s Introduction: We want to discover and find ourselves on the level of impregnation. The Creator is ruling and arranging all of our emotions and thoughts and He begins to portray the spiritual form within us and this is how we advance. On one hand, we exist in the upper force and we want to ascribe ourselves to it, to annul before it as an Ubar, an embryo in the womb of its mother, that it feels that there is some environment that is entirely intended and designed for it in order to develop it, cultivate, and guard it. There is no safer, closer or better state for the beginning of life, the corporeal life and also the spiritual life, than the Ibur, the spiritual impregnation. On the other hand, we need to try to understand, and even to feel to some extent, the matters of the embryo itself, how it should constantly annul itself more and more so it will advance through the months of pregnancy and the following nine months, which are the first nine Sefirot that are revealed, and what it acquires during that time until it reaches the point where it is born. Even though it annuls itself towards the upper one more and more and receives more forces, it needs to ascribe all of these forces to the upper one and wants to grow in greater and more advanced annulment until it reaches the birth.
It annuls itself more and more, and its desire grows more during the month of impregnation, conception, and takes on more and more of the form of the upper one. He gets the initial form, with all the upper one’s qualities from the smallest that he needs, and after nine months he is born.
Then it inverts from having his head up to having his head down, meaning that whatever it required is no longer important. It wants a new degree and then it emerges with its head down from the upper one into the new world. In conception, all of its work is only in annulment. The upper one advances and grows it through all the different forms of annulment.
We need to understand what our work is, each one within himself, toward the ten, towards the whole world in general, and towards the Creator. We will see the state of the upper one, in which we exist, until we are born. We will feel a new attitude toward ourselves, the upper one, and in the relations between us
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Excerpt 16 (07:48)
2. R. (08:31) Everything comes from the Ibur, the impregnation. A person cannot jump to a more advanced state, but only out of the impregnation and onward can he develop. These fundamental points of the Ibur should be clear then we will grow onward.
3. S. (09:13) In conception the embryo becomes annulled, right?
R. Yes.
S. So what desire of the embryo is annulled?
R. The desire to be in bestowal and to do whatever the upper wants.
S. Can you be in both annulment and bestowal?
R. This is considered to be bestowal. What did he do before and how do he want to turn to the upper one? He wants to do whatever the upper one wants. This is considered that he annuls himself. He had all kinds of desires, calculations, thoughts, he had all kinds of plans and dreams and he annuls all of that in order to take upon himself the form of the upper one, which for the time being he is capable of taking on. This is called Ibur.
S. Is Ibur a kind of bestowal?
R. Yes. Not like bestowal, but true bestowal because he is doing this because he wants to bestow and adhere to the upper one and searches for the forms that can be adhered to the upper one. The forms, for the time being, will be in Ibur, impregnation, because he has no more than that. When the desire to receive appears in him, in all different forms, he wants to annul it all the time and adhere to the upper one.
4. S. (11:18) Rabash writes several times about the depicting force and the detaining force. What are these exactly?
R. We are going to study this. Like children create forms out of playdoh or sand, you have a force that creates the form and this shaped form needs to seemingly grow within this matter, and you always have this matter from the outside to shape so it will take on a certain shape. These two forces need to operate in harmony, mutually upon each other. The more that you add the force from within, with the coarseness, you need to add force from the outside, in limitation. Out of that, the form of the newborn will emerge. This is on the different degrees of the still, vegetative, and animate that exists within this form and also in the thoughts and desires. A person needs to feel the extent he wants to grow in everything, and on the other hand, he needs to grow in the form of the upper one. So, you have the force that seemingly inflates from within and the force that seemingly stops and blocks this inflation; the swelling from within and gives him a form from without, a limitation.
S. What is the difference from working in order to bestow and wanting to work in order to bestow?
R. It is a simple difference: if he is already working in bestowal or if he just wants to reach bestowal.
5. S. (13:45) Is the depicting force a small or great force when entering the Ibur?
R. When entering Ibur, there is no depicting force at all.
S. That is what I understood, so why is he saying as if it is a part of the process of the conception?
R. Let us read a few more excerpts and then maybe we will go back to them. Maybe we will understand what he says even though the understanding really comes out of the action, the practice.
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Excerpt 18 (17:35) Twice
6. S. (21:43) How can a person increase his annulment and grow as an Ubar?
R. He has nothing else to do, only by annulling himself towards the ten and the Creator in it. He doesn't need anything else. You might say that it comes by him coming to the lessons each time and other forms of connection with his ten that this is actually what we have and we don't need more.
7. S. (22:44) It seems egoistic that it is written that no one else has been rewarded with it and it seems that the whole world envies him.
R. Even though he doesn't have anything yet, he merited a special attitude from above and he understands and feels that.
8. S. (23:34) If I understand correctly all of our work is to grow stronger in the detaining force is that correct?
R. Yes, you are right, this is the most important thing.
9. S. (23:56) Does the depicting force bring suffering to the embryo?
R. It could be that he is very happy depending on how he accepts all of the forces. Let's say an athlete is given more and more new exercises. Is he happy or does he regret it? It all depends upon his goal, upon his intention.
S. The athlete sees it as a new challenge?
R. Yes, even though they are giving him new limitations and pressures he doesn't move from his direction.
S. Why is it called a detaining force? Why doesn't it say that the person thinks that this is how we overcome? Why isn’t it an external force?
R. A person doesn't have such forces so according to his annulment he gets them from above, from the outside.
10. S. (25:34) He writes that he was awarded with the depicting force, and then that the detaining force is where he sees these deficiencies?
R. To the extent that he is getting them from above and to the extent that he is willing to bow down before these forces from below, he is constantly working in this mutual form in partnership with the Creator. For the time being he has nothing with which to resist and to the extent he can justify everything that is happening to him, even the unpleasant, the very lowly things, even if it seems to him that he is not advancing, along with the great desire to receive, the desire to advance and to succeed, and to be rewarded with something, accordingly he advances. One who shuts his mouth at the time of quarrel, as it says, is very important during the smallness because the little one has a lot of grievances and criticisms over the upper one. He doesn’t agree with the fact that he is small and he doesn't have a more advanced form. What is going on? Why did they forget about him? Why are they not taking care of him? Look how the little one’s cry and yell and are not satisfied and constantly demanding attention. If he engages with himself and he doesn't need anything from you he doesn’t even relate to you, and you are just bothering him. We need to study all of these forms. This is how we are.
S. How should we keep our mouths shut correctly during the quarrel?
R. I want to receive from the society, and from the Creator through the society, a force that will give me justification for all of the Creator's actions over me. This is the force of faith. It doesn't matter to me what will happen. I shut my mouth during the time of the quarrel, even though the contact that I have with the Creator doesn't seem as good, correct, true or justified to me. It doesn't matter to me, maybe even the opposite, that I think that if I can bless the Creator over all of the bad as well as over all of the good, I would relate to Him in a different way. If I were in the force of bestowal, then how would I accept His attitude to me? We need to think about this.
11. S. (29:28) As I heard it, the detaining force is the right line and the depicting force is the middle line?
R. Where did we read that?
S. He writes that the detaining force is the right line. It doesn't say anything about the left line but afterwards it says right and left, so where is the middle?
R. It is too early for us to talk about it. We should wait a little bit longer.
12. S. (30:19) What is the difference between the detaining force in Ibur, and pride in the work?
R. Pride in the work means that I am proud, as it says that his heart should be high, elevated in the ways of the Creator, that I am proud that I am going to annul before the upper force. This should actually be my pride. I do not envy or bow before any other force which could only be the Sitra Achra, the other side. What else can it be besides the Creator as it is the opposite form of Himself which He created on purpose so that we can distinguish between this and that? We are proud that we have the opportunity to scrutinize our relationship specifically toward the Creator, upon the upper force, upon the Sitra Achra.
13. S. (31:53) Can we say. ? (No translation)
R. Impregnation is a state, a form of my attitude to the Creator because we check everything with respect to Him. So Ibur means that I am totally annulled toward the upper force, upon all of the forces, states, and qualities that take place and seemingly cancel the upper force. They are all opposed to the upper force, they seemingly say that all kinds of forces, thoughts, and other calculations are actually in control. Specifically, because they exist, I can establish myself and belong to the upper force and thanks to them I can establish myself as belonging to the upper force and by this I become Ubar.
S. Do we get the screen as a result of the restriction?
R. Yes.
S. Do we want to connect those three stages every time? I am having trouble phrasing the question.
R. You should just listen more. It's not simple. We all are coming to the middle ground because the entry to Ibur is equal for everyone, even though each one starts with his personal conditions. This is actually establishing all of us together and therefore everyone will reach it. There are those who will come faster and those who will come not so fast, but in the end, it will influence everyone as we are all connected. All of Bnei Baruch, all of us together are one Ibur.
14. S. (34:44) When we talk about work in the ten, are we usually helping each other with the detaining force?
R. No, we are incorporated in all of our forces and help each other with the detaining force and also with the depicting force.
S. Is faith a detaining force?
R. The force of faith is the force of bestowal and to the extent a person has the force of faith, he is capable of being in order to bestow. We will talk more about this. There are a few subtle points here.
15. S. (36:05) Do I need to have a screen to come to Ibur?
R. No, not before that. As written in his Social Articles, if you want to restrict yourself, to annul before the friends, you get the forces of restriction. You become formed, depicted as an Ubar, according to the forces of restriction.
S. So do we need a screen first?
R. I said ‘restriction’ not ‘screen’. You restrict yourself, your “I” and you are willing to annul before the upper one, which is the ten. You begin to create this Masach, this screen, when you annul before the ten, and accept the detaining force from above over all of your desires.
16. S. (37:34) If there is complete annulment before the ten, before the Creator, why do we need the detaining force?
R. The detaining force is specifically so it doesn't fall from its state. The creating force is depicted in a new form and that new form has a detaining force so it doesn't fall.
S. The detaining force that the created being invites and draws, does he lack it?
R. That has to do with the mutual work between the upper and the lower one. When a person is in fear and anxiety and is afraid of falling from the form of bestowing toward the friends and to the Creator, he gets the quality of detaining which ties him to the group. That's the meaning of the Arvut, the mutual responsibility, and he begins to feel responsible for the whole ten and this is mainly his detaining force.
We will chew on this and process this more. Even though it seems like it's new and unclear, and we haven't talked about this yet, we have. This will all fall into place. We have to understand this is a process. You can't make any leaps here as the entry into the Ibur, as he writes and as we read, is the most difficult, complicated operation in the created being. It is the transition from one world to the other. Even though it is only called ‘Ibur’, you ask why it is a big deal to annul myself. Because you have to scrutinize with respect to what and why. What does it mean to annul? This is an entry into a higher world that we don't live in. Here we are beginning to live in it but in a way that we are annulled, my ego is annulled. I feel everything else is happening in the higher state. The embryo in the mother's womb sees everything from one end of the world to the other but it is annulled. It can only annul itself. It can't grip, hold it, or taste something. This is why we need to be ready specifically for this operation otherwise we fall and come to a miscarriage.
S. The concern of miscarriage or that the conception will not succeed is the concern of the entire system? Meaning the concern of the damage to the entire system is not just himself?
R. Yes, we will talk about it.
17. S. (41:24) Can we say the detaining force comes to help us to become worthy, become qualified?
R. We are going to move forward and then we will see how and to what extent you are correct.
18. S. (42:11) Can you explain the circles of Ibur? An individual person enters Ibur? A ten or all of Bnei Baruch enters Ibur? How does it all fit together?
R. In the state of Ibur, I have to accept that everyone besides me is corrected. The whole world is corrected and only I find flaws in all of reality and in everyone. I restrict myself, annul myself, and I say that they have eyes and they do not see. Only in this way can I be incorporated with all of reality which is actually corrected.
S. When a person enters Ibur does he discover that the ten is in Ibur, or that all of Bnei Baruch is in Ibur?
R. Everyone
S. So everyone is in Ibur?
R. And now he is too.
19. S. (43:30) You said that the entrance to conception is equal for everyone so how does this person's work form the connections in the group out of love?
R. I don't understand the question, we are not equal, no one is equal as everyone exerts according to his own strength, everyone is connected to others according to his own strengths all stemming from his original records.
S. You said the entrance to conception is equal for everyone, so how does this work when there are people who invest more and less?
R. We see that even in corporeal entities at the entry into the impregnation, conception, when the sperm enters the womb and begins to develop, see how different it is for each and every one, how long it takes and all kinds of treatments in order to get pregnant. It is not equal although basically the operation is the same, but besides the operation what do you need to do, each one out of his own records he has a problem with becoming pregnant, with conceiving. He and I, you, each of us have our own qualities and accordingly we have a difficulty in attaching ourselves to the other one. It is very personal and it stems actually from our final role at the end of correction and this is why to this day it is difficult for us, that we have so many questions. Even in medicine, on the animate level.
20. S. (46:07) In which manner can we enter internal limitations so we don't enter the external potential limitations?
R. It is written that everything is scrutinized in the thoughts or clarified in the thought and we need to work only in the desire and thought, called the mind and heart, nothing else. Everything else is physical operations that have no connection, no influence on spirituality except for one thing. Except that, habit becomes second nature, if you accustom yourself to get up for the lesson then you get up and you don't need to fight it every time. The same goes for everything that has to do with corporeality and then habit works, the body gets used to it just like animals you see how they get used to any situation. In spirituality this doesn't work, there the better habit is in corporeality, in spirituality, habit does not exist, each time you have to make a new effort as it says each time will be new in your eyes.
21. S. (47:47) Is the detaining force what we call faith above reason?
R. Not yet, the detaining force is the detaining force, faith above reason is a depicting, creating force that elevates, the detaining force is only to fixate, it is a powerful force consisting of many discernments.
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22. S. (51:50) The impression is everything it says is contradictory to everything we said before as if Katnut, smallness is not a complete state that it is a deficient state and the importance is actually about the Gadlut, greatness so what is he saying here?
R. First of all smallness or infancy, the fact that it is an incomplete state is clear this is why it's called Katnut, smallness, you could say that smallness is worse than the Ibur, impregnation because in smallness and infancy feels that it is an infant that it is small, it wants to be a grown up that it is missing, it doesn't feel. Where in Ibur, conception, it cancels itself so it has completeness. This is why it is in the upper one and feels itself as complete. The form of completeness of the upper one, the mother and the forms of completeness in the fetus are different, the upper one is complete because it has everything. No translation... The lower one is complete because he doesn't use any of his desires, he puts them aside and in that sense he is complete. So, you can say that you have a palace and in it lives some very rich person and he doesn't have any problems, any limitations. But next to the palace, there is a mansion where they, with another person who has nothing, and here he also feels that he has no limitations but that he has everything and doesn't need anything. You can look at it from this side of the restriction and you can look at it from the side of the fulfillment and therefore, the entrance to conception it's not simple.
We need to restrict our desires and we cannot restrict them as we restrict them in this world but rather that we need to explain to ourselves how much we don't need them from the perspective of the completeness, from the perspective of me being ready to be in the restriction created for me, this is complete. You can say this is the whole world, is that I am lying on this bench in this park and that I have no problem, I don't need anything, I have no concerns or problems. You know all of these stories about such poor people and how much they don't feel any limitations, so they don't feel they are poor. On the contrary, everything is fine and if he finds some piece of fruit, or something else then he gets pleasure out of it. The pleasure that he has from this piece of bread that he found is more than the rich person living in the palace nearby gets when they bring him dishes from all over the world. He doesn't feel the same deficiency as a poor person to the extent that he has hunger and appetite, the rich person may have no appetite so he doesn't feel any taste in life from whatever he is engaged in. Whereas, before a person has pleasure in life because he found a piece of bread. This is where we are and therefore conception is not simple.
S. The question is in order for it not to remain just as an abstract depiction how can we understand the greatness and smallness in this excerpt?
R. Of course, try anything that you think is suited for the state of conception, try to measure it on the conception to see if it is suitable or not. In this way we will advance and I can't explain everything to you otherwise you will have no experience, you will not acquire it yourself.
S. So in the ten we should scrutinize and it is possible to scrutinize the state, their smallness and greatness and conception?
R. As much as you want.
23. S. (57:48) What is the state of a miscarriage?
R. Falling means that there is a group to the outer ones, meaning to the desire to receive that awakened in a person for all kinds of reasons and the person can't stay with them in both the desire to receive and in spirituality. Spirituality is entirely the intention to bestow and he falls from the desire to bestow into reception and this is called falling from the Ibur, conception. It is when the whole process of the upper one stops.
S. If in corporeal life, is this the same?
R. For that degree it is called death, it disappears. There is no death in spirituality, in general it seems to us, in our world as a loss of connection between the upper one and the lower one, the initial connection between the upper and the lower is where we annul in the ten and with the 10, we come into the Creator, called Israel, Torah and the Creator are one.
24. S. (59:30) It is felt that annulment cancels the feeling of the boundary or the limitation, and when you depict the embryo, you can feel how the annulment helps it develop, so how does this help you grow?
R. Because you are annulling your ego and by this you expand, you are a spiritual circle and you can be in greater contact with the upper one.
S. What is the place which becomes small?
R. That is the womb, that is the upper one when a person comes to a state where he is entirely in bestowing and all of the months of pregnancy, he switches to Keter and has nothing more to do on that degree. There comes an awakening on a higher level for which he is completely unsuitable and it operates on him. Then the created being is inverted with its head upside down and it wants to come out, this is called labor pains there are doors there that open in the womb and there are pangs which push the embryo until it comes out. All of these spiritual operations will start in him.
25. S. (01:01:38) Klipa, seemingly, is the detaining force but in the excerpt, it says that it is some kind of a temptation or something that tempts the desire to receive, what is the shell in the 10? How to become impregnated as an embryo in the ten with honor?
R. When we work in the 10, we try to constantly sort out what is good for us for our spirituality and what is that, where we connect among us and in the end, this becomes where it is good and where we can't we sort it out and we don't use it and it comes out as a Klipa.
26. S. (01:02:48) Why everywhere there a deficiency of Holiness, there is a place for Klipot? Where do they come from and what is their reason?
R. The Klipot, the shells, are our desires that come spoiled and corrupted to begin with from the sin of the tree of knowledge from the breaking of the vessel even before us. In which we can't correct those desires right now so they are still in all kinds of forms around us. The closest ones to us that want to come into close relationships with us, they either enter into Holiness or remain in the shells. So, the shells are the desires of ours which we have not corrected
27. S. (01:04:11) What is the importance of the work of the lower one toward the upper one that he is happy with his share?
R. Happy with your share means it is a state that the state of the lower one is a corrected state.
28. S. (01:04:47) In the ten we need to keep and develop the force of mutual guarantee and connection to the point it will detain us through annulment so we will grow?
R. Yes.