Morning Lesson March 26, 2021
is made from simultaneous translation which leaves possibility for differences from audio.
1. Rav’s Introduction: Yes, we have many more good excerpts from Baal HaSulam and Rabash about our state in exile, and I think that it is worthwhile for us not to run forward but to be in it more and more in order to feel what is the essence of the exile. How can we understand it, feel it and also the necessity for it? How much we have to feel it to its depth, because specifically from it, the exile, the redemption springs. The lack for the upper force, for the help of the Creator, that he will pull us and save us from it, but for us to want it completely.
Therefore, we have to understand that the more we come closer to the Exodus from Egypt we start to feel ourselves worse and worse. It seems to us that our ego is stronger and stronger and it's not going to allow us to come out of it. Pharaoh is burdening us, and we truly have to feel a prison within ourselves. The hardening of the heart, the egoistic heart of each and every one of us, this is what we have to discover. As much as the person seems relative to his heart, which in the meantime is Pharaoh as much as he feels himself as weak, incapable of working against himself, against his own ego, these are already signs of coming closer to the exodus from Egypt. More importantly, how much one understands and feels that the most important thing for him, all of the force with which he can run away from Egypt is the force of unity in the 10, in his group.
The group has to be opposite his inner ego, and if the group will pull him out of his ego as Baal HaSulam writes that they throw him a rope when he is drowning in the river then, only thanks to that, the group is bringing him out, thanks to that, he is saved. We need to feel that our whole spirituality that we wish to achieve is specifically thanks to us being rewarded with such support from the 10. I, by myself, am not capable of anything, except to feel more and more how much I am drowning in this evil waters. I'm not capable of coming out of them. Out of the desire to receive, thoughts about myself, planning for myself. Where will I be? Me, me, me. What will happen to me? I feel from one day to the next that I am worse and the society is less important for me, and along with that I also realize how much I need to be more connected to the society, and how much this united group is important for me, not in order for me to run out of Egypt, but in order for me to help them, help them come out of Egypt. In this way, when we replace our values from me to us, and later on to the Creator, the whole complaint or argument of Moses towards Pharaoh is that we want to come out of Egypt, because in Egypt it is impossible to perform any act of bestowal towards the Creator.
Mutual bestowal between us, that we can do to some extent, towards the Creator is impossible inside of Egypt, in Egypt the king is Pharaoh. Therefore, we need to check, to count our exits bit by bit, as we come closer to the Exodus, on the condition that we realize that connection in the group depends on the mutual Arvut between us. Only if I give myself with my eyes shut to that force of the society, and it rules me, that force of the society, so that otherwise I will drown in my ego. Only the friends can save me, so my annulment towards the 10, is actually the beginning of the exodus from Egypt. Then I will discover that there is a force for the Exodus, a force of connection that the Creator is arranging for us. None of us is capable of it. In that way, we establish our connection, our 10, the group, in such a way that it becomes the spiritual Kli in which we begin to discover the stages of the Exodus, and we start counting this process of the Exodus to the extent that we are discovering the connection between us. We are coming closer to the Exodus, we go through the Exodus from Egypt, we come out and we move away from it, etc., and it is all through forms of our connection in the10 only. Just like beforehand each one, was thinking about himself and feeling himself, that he exists inside of himself now in the same form. Even more than that, he feels, and understands, and ascribes his life to the life of the 10.
This is why this work must be directed, it must be aimed in that direction. Each time we are thrown away from depicting the spiritual life specifically in the 10, out of the connection between us, and once again through efforts, I would say alternative peripheral efforts, we have to get back to it. The Creator is arranging these things for us, returning once again to the center of the 10. This is how more and more, time and again, more and more do we build ourselves out of the efforts to feel, against our ego, to feel the 10 as the spiritual Kli, and then we feel how much we need the help of the Creator, so that he will keep it, sustain it, that he will hold us. This is what we are asking of him, that he will give us help. When he does give us help and we feel ourselves exist inside of this Kli, then already the Exodus truly begins. Coming closer to receiving the light we will correct this Kli. We will start to detect it, locate it correctly, to establish it correctly, which is already the work with the force of the Torah, the upper light. Before the Exodus from Egypt, which is what we want to study now, how do we come closer to the Exodus? The Exodus is entirely learned through connection in the group, in the 10. There are many things here that are not so clear, that we don't understand in the story of Egypt itself, which is quite long. It talks about it in length, but it is clearer and more understood actually in the exodus itself. Baal HaSulam writes that the secret of the Ibur, the conception, is Ledah, birth. What does that mean? That specifically, in the birth, when we are born, as we advanced to some sort of spiritual awareness, there we begin to understand what happened to us earlier. Well, I’m just asking you to ask questions according to what we are studying, and according to that, we will advance.
2. S. (11:31) We have lived and been through many Passovers. The feeling is that this is the decisive moment in order to really exit Egypt. What is the step that is missing to do now, so that we can exit now?
R. To determine, once and for all, that in our connection in the 10, we need to get the force of bestowal, which is the revelation of the Creator--and only him, that force, can deliver us from in order to receive to in order to bestow. Which is considered the transition from the force of the exile, from spirituality to redemption.
3. S. (12:40) You said that we ask each time above the disturbances, we reject the Creator, wanting to come to adhesion in the center of the 10. What does it mean to come to the center of the ten?
R. The fact that I now feel that I am in the center of the ten, it means that I am concerned about the place, the state, where I exist in connection with everyone, with my entire group. And I want to keep the connection between us truly in this inner center of the desires, the yearnings, our yearnings. This is considered that I am in my 10 and I am concerned about the Kli. All in all, there is nothing more than this Kli, the 10. In it, I will feel the entire process. And therefore, we need to be concerned about these states. If I am depicting some state, no matter which one--from the state prior to the shattering and after the shattering, and the corrections and the end of correction--all in all, I am depicting states that need to exist, all of them, in the connection between us, in the 10. There is no other place but the 10. In general, there is nothing besides the 10. This is the desire that the Creator has established and he said take that. That's it. Therefore, I must not depict anything outside of that, if I want to be aimed, at least to some extent, to come out of the exile, out of the will to receive.
S. What does it mean that I'm concerned with those general desires?
R. I'm concerned, as Rabash writes in The Social Articles, that I'm concerned that we will be connected according to his advice. He knows what it means to be connected together and he wrote for us, more or less, a few rules about that, and we need to try to keep them. That is all. And in that, each shall help his friend, give examples, give support, a prayer for the group or also the whole group together. Everything that Rabash is telling us, each one subjugates himself towards the friends, each one feels himself, that he must also hold the entire group, and he is special in that. But also subjugate himself towards the group, and in that the whole group is above him and he wants to serve them and do everything that they need in order to reach spirituality. Everything that Rabash writes, these are necessary things. He wrote it, truly, in the beginning of our organization.
S. That's where we start our work each time and really care to support this. What does it mean to be freed from that point that we are talking about?
R. That we already received such forces, so that together with the Creator, we can hold the 10 together, this structure that is already becoming established. And with it, we advance more and more, constantly establishing it more and more, and accordingly, we feel how much we are becoming freed of our individual ego and our common ego. This is how, with a prayer to the Creator, we force our Kli to go up in the degrees of bestowal.
4. S. (17:11) Lately I'm noticing that I have a big desire to come to the morning lesson and incorporate with the friends. With that, I noticed that I am not succeeding. What is that rope that you talked about, that Arvut?
R. This is how it always is. You always get one opposite the other. And the person is the one who decides, determines. If you have the Adam in you, who wants to resemble the Creator, then he has to decide. And the fact that it will be harder for you, that's for sure. Even more difficult and more difficult. This is actually called that the children of Israel sighed from the work; that those who yearn for the Creator--Yashar Kel-- they...the more they are in Egypt, meaning that they are discovering that they exist inside of the will to receive, more and more do they feel that it is burdening them, each and every one of them and all of them together, and there is no choice but only to connect in between them and to cry out to the Creator. No one can save himself from his own ego. No one wants to reach spirituality in any other way, but only to rise above his ego. No one can rise above it, but only by throwing a rope to him and pulling him, the entire 10, from his will to receive, his egoistic will to receive. And he is truly like on a stretcher with respect to the friends, who are carrying him. This is how we carry each and every one or throw a rope to the river where everyone is drowning, and in such a way, Kabbalists describe to us how we come out. It is with that kind of feeling. Also, how can we come out? Only on the condition that we truly need it. Need it meaning I feel that if I now will not get hold of this rope, if I will not annul myself towards the 10, and if the 10 does not care for me, I will drown. I will be done with my life, my spiritual life. That’s it.
S. What does it mean that I now hold on to that rope of the ten?
R. That I do everything, as much as I understand and am capable of, according to the advice of Rabash, regarding the person towards the group, the 10.
5. S. (20:22) Lately I am experiencing heaviness just from the thought about the 10. What do we need to do in such moments occur?
R. We need to accept them as very good moments. These are signs that we are advancing towards the exodus from the exile. We have no other exodus but rather when we do run out of Egypt, when we feel that this is Egypt and that we are incapable of staying there, why can't we? Because in Egypt we cannot love one another. In Egypt, we are not capable of being connected and dependent on each other. I want to be connected to the ten. I want to be dependent on the 10. Specifically, in that I feel myself free. My whole correct progress towards exodus from Egypt is to the extent that I depend on them, on my 10. How I myself am weak and incapable of anything. How much I am happy when I discover that this is how it is truly happening. That is the exodus from Egypt. It is truly an escape in the dark as it says. It is like a herd that is leaving Egypt having no confidence in themselves., Having no feeling of any forces of their own but rather truly with the force of the night, the force of their weakness actually, by that they are running out of Egypt.
S. Can we feel ourselves weak, without any forces, is that okay?
R. Yes but it's not enough to be weak -- weak with respect to what? Weak with respect to our ego that we're not capable of overcoming it. Weak towards the force of love that we have to discover between us, connection, and we're not capable of being connected in any way. But regardless of that we so much want it that I don't care, I'm better off dead. I'm willing to give up everything only in order to reach connection, unity and love in the 10. And then I am rewarded and I merit exiting this state that is separating between us. Instead of the ego, I want the Creator to rule who is the force of connection and adhesion between us. To that extent that we become adhere to one another we also become adhered to the Creator.
6. S. (24:17) Sometimes you lead moves. How do you combine it with annulment to the 10?
R. If I don't annul myself towards the 10 then I am not connected at all to the source of bestow. The force of bestowal starts after the annulment.
S. Yes but we're leading in the 10 let's say I'm leading the greatness of the Creator and I'm pressing certain states. How do I take a step back? The thought is the 10 and the state of perfection and all that. Am I combining the two things? Is leading them and nullifying towards them the same as being greater than me, is that what you mean?
R. I mean that all of our states already exist, ahead of us. And everything depends only on how much we want to try. if we want to be at the end of correction, go ahead, connect between you in a state called the end of the correction of your ego so that it, too, will help connect. The Angel of Death becomes the Holy Angel and then it will be the end of correction. If you want to bestow and go towards that, go ahead. You have 125 degrees. Everything depends on us and everything is in the 10. There's nothing new here. And he also says about it, that there is nothing new under the sun and you shall eat the bread of old.
S. I didn't understand. you said that we skip 125 degrees, if we want it all to be in the end of correction that's possible?
R. It's impossible because you won't feel the end of correction, right here and now, it's happening but you don't feel it because you don't have the vessels for it. You will discover the desires, deficiencies for it, this is what you have to do, then you will feel it that this is where you truly are. From the side of the Creator, we are all at the end of correction but from our side, nope.
7. S. (26:45) You once explained that when a child is born in our world because of the stress of the birth all kinds of hormonal systems are built in it which enables him to grow and develop in real life. What specifically is now built between us spiritually about this process which enables us to grow spiritually?
R. Indeed the exodus from Egypt is called a birth. In this process we are truly born spiritually, we begin to feel ourselves. To see the world, to feel reality and appreciate it with new vessels but this is still ahead of us. I would not get all confused about it. Theoretically, you can travel through all kinds of different states, all the way from here to the end of correction. But for the time being, we are in a state where we cannot even fix where we are. So, it is better for us to be in that. We are not yet in the spiritual birth. The spiritual birth is when I'm not capable of staying in the present state which for me, becomes prison, an intolerable state and I am willing to pay with everything, to give up everything just so long as I reach being outside of the present state. In the present state everything is organized and arranged by the force of the ego and I wish to come out of it and into a state where only the force of connection and love exists. Let's think about this transition. How is this done? What forces do we need for it? Then it will be more realistic about where we are and where spirituality is.
8. S. (29:28) When a person enters the process, he feels himself worse and worse. How the society is less important to him and he's not dependent on it, and the first instinct is that demand inside that is built is that he has to run away from Egypt. And you said there should be no running away but that I want to help them?
R. You're not depict incorrectly what it means to escape from Egypt. Escaping from Egypt means to escape your ego. The fact that you want to run away from the group means that you are running exactly not from Egypt but instead into it.
S. But also, entering inside, I want to run from the Egypt that I feel?
R. I'm telling you, that's not Egypt. What you are depicting to yourself is not Egypt. You want to succeed with your egoistic desires and that's not Egypt. By that you want to be the servant of Pharaoh more and more.
9. S. (31:42) About what you said to a student, what is Egypt? Where did the student not define Egypt correct?
R. Egypt means working in the will to receive. Now, when I am now in the will to receive, I am in it -- now what is my direction? What is my vector, which way am I drawn? Do I want to rise above my will to receive or do I want to stay in it? This is what matters, that it. If I'm working with the will to receive without connection in the group, without discovering how much I’m surrendering towards my will to receive, how much it’s ruling me, then I am in Egypt. This is called the work of Egypt, so I am an Egyptian, truly. A servant of Pharaoh. Now if I already detect that I want to come out of it then coming out of it means the opposite direction meaning towards connection in the 10. I have no other discernments that are clearer but only connection in the 10. Whether I want to or not, this is my indication, my safest measurement.
S. Yes, but like he said there's the Egypt that I feel. I want to go to connection in the group and I feel in that, Egypt. I feel I am not capable of exiting this resistance. I need to ask or to want for me to exit or is there something where the 10 the group would leave Egypt.
R. Both.
S. So that's not considered to be an Egyptian, like you said where I want to exit, for me, to immerse myself in this?
R. Well, you cannot do it without this prayer, where you're asking for yourself and then you ascribe yourself to the 10 and then you're asking for the 10. A person always has to start from himself -- otherwise who is asking?
10. S. (34:08) We are on the topic of Pesach for a long time, and we analyze the lesson in the 10 but I feel I am far away from the exit, what is missing?
R. What is missing? Well talk to the friends and scrutinize it, scrutinize it. What am I lacking in order to come out of the exile? The exile means that I am inside of my will to receive. And I can be satisfied with that state, That I am in the will to receive, I’m successful, I’m profiting and it's good for me. That's not called exile. Or that I am no longer satisfied with life, but I'm not satisfied with my corporeal life, so that too is called exile. But corporeal exile, it's not that I want to run away, I just want to improve my situation. The exile starts when I feel that I want a different life. I want to attain the essence of life, the Creator. From that the exile starts/ Later on, I begin to feel that my exile is because I am inside of my ego. That takes a long time already from the previous stage to that stage. From just wanting spirituality or relating myself, tying myself to the will to bestow. That is spirituality. When I give myself a clear definition that there are two worlds, two kinds of control, the control of the will to receive and the control of the will to bestow. When the will to receive is ruling me, that is this world? It is an artificial construct that the Creator created on purpose so that we will be able to reach His world, His state in order to bestow in a way that is independent of Him, seemingly by ourselves. We will prefer that state of bestowal and love which are His qualities. This is how we need to see ourselves. This is how we advance. Later, we start to see exactly what these states are, where we rise above our own situation and we start to be concerned about how much I am concerned about myself exiting my situation to spirituality. There I detect and I realize that that's not quite spirituality. I wish to stay within my will to receive but I want to take on a different form. And then I see that this is an even more egoistic form. This is considered that the people of Israel are entering Egypt. How are they entering Egypt? They think that this is spirituality but actually they are entering even a greater corporeality. We want to attain the Creator, to attain the upper force, to conquer it, to use it, to take advantage of it. This for us is called for us spirituality. That is, it's not conceding ourselves completely. Then it turns out that, here, we truly need to make an inner change and inner revolution in our definitions, in our values so that spirituality truly means outside of my own quality, my nature, outside in order to receive. That is a problem, how do I do it?
Until I attain this, until I feel and I succeed thinking in that direction it takes a lot of time, many years and all of this is through the group. Through our efforts even mechanically and the efforts we make in the 10. If we don't perform these actions in the 10, we don't draw the reforming light and we don't get new spiritual discernment. This is why all of our work in Egypt is specifically to understand what and who is ruling me and what precisely is the exodus. Because no one is blocking me in Egypt but only I, myself. I value, appreciate the force of my ego, who is the king, who is ruling me and I myself cannot get rid of it. I, myself, cannot run away from Egypt. There are no borders, there's nobody standing at the border except I, myself and I am blocking, closing myself inside of Egypt. Here is this whole diagnosis, this bitter and subtle diagnosis that we have to discover. That indeed Egypt, for us, is our whole life. Our approach to our life is called Egypt. Our ego, our egoistic approach.
11. S. (40:42) I heard, Moses took his nation out of Egypt and he himself remained in Egypt. If we can come to such an intention where my exit won't be important for me but the main thing is my 10 will exit, my soul?
R. First of all Moses did not stay in Egypt not only according to the story but according to the true reality, Moses is the force that is pulling all those who wish to come out of their ego. He's pulling them to come out of their ego and helping them. He is the faithful shepherd. The shepherd is a person who is going ahead of the herd or at least after or around them. He is managing them for their progress and it's not that he's staying behind, no. He is taking them through the entire path all the way to Mount Sinai and later on to within 40 years of the entrance to the land of Israel. He does not enter the land of Israel. He climbs Mount Nebo which is on the other side of the river. He looks at Israel, makes special corrections and there he stays, there he passes away. We will talk about it later.
12. S. (42:46) We know that Moses is a pulling force but also, we all heard Moshiach is the pulling force what is the difference between these two pulling forces?
R. Moshiach, the Messiah, is a force of nature, the general force that comes to us from the Creator. From the Creator comes a force, this force is split into many forces. The force that is pulling us to the spiritual advancement until the end of correction is divided according to its actions into a few forces. Certainly, it is the force of the Messiah, Moshech. Messiah because it is pulling us, Moshech, pulling us from the will to receive to the will to bestow. Usually, we speak about the Messiah in the final period in the corrections when we begin to correct out of all the discernments, Keter, Hochma, Bina, HGTNHY when will you start correcting the Malchut. Before we were only correcting the Malchut in its incorporation in the first nine but when we correct the Malchut, itself it is considered we are correcting it through the force of the Messiah that is finally pulling the whole of creation to in order to bestow, with the previous corrections, we're not saying that this is the Messiah. This is why we say the Messiah, son of David. David depicts to us the general Malchut and the Messiah is called Messiah son of David that he is taking care of the Malchut in its final form bringing us to in order to bestow.
13. S. (45:13) Is it worthwhile for us to agree in the 10 that we are going to come out of Egypt only as a ten together, not as individuals?
R. You cannot exit from an order to receive if you do it only partially or establish yourself in such a way that -- let’s say you have a 10 and say six seven people of the 10 agree to all the conditions to advance to in order to bestow and two or three or four don't agree. You divide the 10 into two parts and advance with that part that wants to advance in the right way. Let's say they come to the lesson every day which is the first condition, whoever does not come to the lesson every day I don't even take into consideration. It's not that I don't want to take them into consideration but he himself is erasing themselves from those who are advancing. Then you will see who is really in the 10 or not. These are necessary, we are all under equal conditions everyone that is sitting in their houses somewhere through the computer, there is no Israel group or other groups that are in some kind of connection in certain cities in the world and Toronto, New York or something, no. Just names but they are all sitting in the same identical conditions therefore it's easy for us today to actually see who is with us and who is not. if I disconnect from the lesson, I don't belong to the part that is advancing, I don't belong to the 10 and that is how we have to see it. God forbid, I don't want them to be with us these friends but the 10 is something else. the 10 is considered that I don't leave them ever from the group action.
14. S. (48:07) We, after more than a year had a physical meeting in our ten, we had a Kabbalist meal, we had a very important discussion and in it created a very serious progress for us in the 10, is this positive or by this are we actually regressing?
R. You can check whether it is positive or negative according to who is present in the morning lessons. This is not important for me. Regular presence in the morning lesson is considered a friend in the group a member of the 10, whoever is not in regular presence, permanent, resistant he is not a friend, Chaver, from the word Ibur, connection and in spirituality there is no somewhat either all or nothing.
S. I'm sorry, but a friend who's one who is 7 days a week only, 6 and a half is Ok>
R. Yes, Wonderful, let him be healthy.
15. S. (49:30) Why is a friend who is making efforts in the friends, why does he reach a state where the whole 10 is bothering in they're all liars, idiots, lazy so much so that he actually ends up leaving?
R. That’s what the Creator is letting him feel he probably needs to do some introspection and ask the Creator why he is doing such a thing to him where he wants to love them and instead the Creator is giving him the feeling of hatred towards them and then he will receive the answer from the Creator. The Creator will tell him do you know why you feel this way it's from me? Do you know why I'm giving you such a feeling? That you will feel what controls you. What controls you? Exactly that same big cruel will to receive where you hate everyone, where you're above everyone that's what I wanted to show you. Is it good or not good that I'm revealing this force of evil that is controlling you? Then, he understands what the Creator is doing to him. It's a great favor as he is disclosing to him a great big evil inclination and then he will fall down on his knees and bow before the Creator and raised his gratitude, his prayer, is his gratitude towards the Creator as much as he is taking care of him. it is showing him that the evil inclination is controlling him.
16.S. (51:34) How do we bring our friends out of Egypt those who are capable, are not capable of supporting the 10 because they are very sick?
R. Wait, they really want to be in the 10 but they are sick?
S. Yes.
R. That's true they are truly sick so they you need to take into account that they are with you heart and soul together with you also those people that God forbid even passed away they died, them, also, we need to take into account that they are our friends for eternity. because in truth and spirituality there is no difference.
17.S. (52:38) In the spiritual work we diagnosed two situations first you said that I start from myself that I want to come out of Egypt the next state is when I want to be the cause the reason for which the friend is coming out of Egypt how nevertheless can I relate myself to the second state?
R. It's very simple don't pay attention to yourself and in every bit of you try to devote yourself to the advancement of the society. This is the only important thing to you. Like a mother who has babies, make sure they sleep well and they are healthy. She is constantly thinking just about them. This is how it will be. It’s also in the animal world and in the speaking. This is how we need to relate to friends.
18.S. (54:02) You said that it is a must to reach the morning lessons, is this a necessary condition also what about paying Maaser?
R. Yes, it's not my crazy notions, it is what is defined before us by the Kabbalist according to the attainment of the upper system. In the upper system a person cannot correct himself, his connection to the upper 9, he can connect correct but he cannot correct himself therefore instead of correcting himself he gives the tenth part in a corporeal manner to spiritual advancement that's how it is toward spiritual advancement. In previous times during the times of the Zohar when they receive the Torah in the land of Israel, the 10th part was given to the Holy Temple. In the Holy Temple there was such a big group that were called the Kohanim, the Priest and the Levite and they used this Maaser to all those who needed it in the whole country and that's how it used to work meaning that Maaser. Tithing is not something that someone himself he uses, but he gives it to the upper force to the priest and the Levite, which are the upper degrees of the society and they divide this to the needs of the society. We have defined this many years ago that I think Maaser must be given, there's no question about that but we give it in the form of transferring it to dissemination, towards the dissemination of the wisdom of Kabbalah.
S. is there any other necessary condition besides attendance in the morning lesson and paying Maaser, tithes?
R. It's preferable to be married even though that's not quite an obligation in our days because we are in special days but it's best to be married and to be working. It doesn't matter if you have money or not, you need to be working and Rabbi said, four or five hours a day not 8, 9 or 10 but for 5 hours a day you have to work, be married, to contribute Maaser tithing. Everyday be with the group in the Torah with the method of correction. which will rise from the degree of beast to the degree of man. Now in Pesach, Passover we celebrate this exit as we are exiting degree of beasts 2 the degree of Adam from a person where they force of reception was in control and it the beast, chooses which will to receive to stay in, and in Adam who has the two forces constantly chooses how he wants to resemble the Upper more, to the Creator. It’s not that he’s a little high from the beast. He has two forces and he has the goal which is above him in order to advance and come closer to the Creator.
19. S. (58:40) Moses seems to be the only loyal servant and then he's not allowed to enter the land of Israel and he helps them to live till the end, is Moses the right role model for us and everybody tries to be Moses towards the others?
R. For the time being yes. Of course, this is the most superior of examples, we have no other example other than the image of the Creator clothing in man as Moses. As he went through the whole education of the ego he was educated in Pharaoh’s house, a prince of Pharaoh sat on his lap as it's written there so on later disconnected from that at the age of 40 and exited Egypt and connect two forces of bestowal and also not in a simple way, he got married with the daughter of Jethro who was not a part of Israel and this is a transition between Egypt and the outskirts and so on and so forth. While we will learn this process that this special soul went through called Moses and each and every and every generation there is a part of this soul. as Moses lives in each generation.
20. S. (01:00:49) For a few days already we have been studying this topic of Passover.
R. We will study Passover for a long time, who knows when we will come out of it, it's not that it ends in a weeks’ time. I wish but to get to know what it is and how it concentrates our forces, concentrate the group. Turn to the Creator, obligate the Creator to help us and exodus from our egos. That is a very big issue.
S. So I have the following question, the Torah teaches us 5 degrees in the soul in Egypt but before Egypt when man was on the way to Egypt that was the state of Noah. Did we go through this already?
R. Yes, all those degrees are in us, we are already after the cascading of the souls that were corrected before us. We are already in a state where we can feel ourselves slowly being in Egypt.
21. S. (01:02:46) We read in the excerpts about absolute complete faith versus non complete incomplete. Is complete faith in the context of Moses is it complete or incomplete? How does this influence us in the 10?
R. We can't talk about perfect faith now it is something we don't understand right now. Even just the force of faith, we don't know what that is. We need to simply somehow try between us to define what it means to be in the force of bestowal, the force of faith, and how we can ask the Creator to give that force of faith. As much as we will be able to tolerate this force of faith in us. Depict to yourself what this force of faith is, where I love everyone, where I care for everyone, where I have in my mind and my heart just thoughts about everyone so that everyone will have it good. How do I arrange their lives for the good and for them all to be nearing the Creator and for me to push everything with all my might towards that? Tell me is that so easy? That's called to be in faith, faith is the force of bestowal. Don't think that we're already in it. Other than a few minutes a day where I'm reminded by that I'm not in that. Naturally, I am never in that. I need to enter into connection with friends and to read some article meaning with some external forces and then connect to some force of faith, to the concept of faith but it doesn't exist in me. I look at my friends and hear what their saying or I read what is written and then I connect with force of faith which is outside of me. Then I feel myself, whether I have it or I don’t, I agree with him or not. But in it ourselves, it does not exist in a permanent way, it doesn't, it's not there. That's why we need to make all the efforts in order to acquire the force of faith.
22. S. (01:06:16) Even though it is a corporeal depiction, is it okay to imagine everybody comfortable, everybody feeling love, everybody stays safe, everybody else is a good house and everything like that?
R. It's written about that, that the righteous have no rest in this world and not in the next. meaning not in Malchut, Kingdom and not in Bina, that's called this world and the next world. Why don't they have rest? Because their love for others is constantly pushing them forward to do something to care for others that's considered that they don't have rest. Hence the fact that you think that I sit in my garden in the middle of my garden next to my lake, my pond, drinking coffee and taking a nice cigarette, maybe a nice cigar and something else and rest. That is not considered that I am at rest, the force of Bina, the force of bestowal is considered that you have the force of concern for the whole Kli, vessel, for others. Tell me how many minutes a day, or you're reminded of the 10 with your concern for them, are they thinking about spirituality, or their corporeal health, are they preparing themselves for the lesson, do they have all the conditions in order for them to be connected together? How many such concerns do you have every day for them? Therefore, you can see that if you had 100% of these concerns for then then you are considered to be in the complete force of faith. That's the force of Bina, it's called upper Ima.
23. S. (01:08:52) I heard that Egypt is when we discover that we want to unite but we are not successful and the mind realizes that we have to connect but that the heart each time gets a hardening, a burdening so to come out of Egypt do we need the desire of the heart?
R. The desires are all in the heart, it could be that it's not in the desire yet but in the thought. It must be a desire because the force of desire in reality, the forces of desire operate. We need to have the heart, the desire to receive that will hate the force that controls it and will want to emerge out of this heart and instead of the evil heart to have a good heart. This is considered that he replaces Egypt with the land of Israel. To correct the heart is where we exit. The desires in the heart that are bad, that are egoistic, that are for our own benefit and the altruistic desires for the benefit of others are considered the transition from Egypt to the land of Israel. We feel all of this internally as it is happening this way in our feelings, in our heart.
S. So all of the actions that we perform in our mind to come to the lesson, to pay their tithes they build the heart??
R. Everything we do is in order to aim our hearts in such a way, everything in order to aim and correct our heart.
24. S. (01:11:17) The Creator reveals to us the ego in order to advance towards him in a growing and intensifying manner, if we make effort towards a prayer constantly in the 10 in this way can we rise forever above the ego and how is this manifested in the 10?
R. If I rise above the ego in a personal way wanting to rise from it, by that I do not exit. Rather if I am incorporated in the 10 and the 10 helps me and I am in a state where I am not capable of doing anything other than nullifying myself before them. In the way that I belong there a name all of my belongings there and all of the other forces are upon me, this is why I need to do all that they need and all that they want. I need to buy them so they will do the work of correction upon me and exit me from my ego. That I'm willing to do anything possible because without them working on me I myself cannot do anything. That is how we need to work therefore we feel here a mutual dependency, a mutual guarantee and this is how we advance.
25. S. (01:13:33) What comes first, the thought or the desire?
R. It depends. I don't know is right now, sometimes desires which is the essence of creation and the thoughts are just to attend the desirable, that is if we are talking about the very essence of creation but if we're talking about us already then it could be that we don't locate the desire but rather we locate the thoughts. For the time being we need to see both this and that as first or second not as important, later it will be established correctly.
26. S. (01:14:38) We know that we need to raise MAN in each and every situation but when we pray in a common prayer, very often the ego diverts my mind, distracting me from the prayers so how is it possible?
R. I don't understand what you're saying, if we are praying in a common prayer then the ego takes me out of the prayer then we are no longer praying in a common prayer.
S. How to correctly overcome the alien thoughts that appeared during the prayer?
R. That is the main disturbance where we are capable to somewhat be connected between us for some time but later, this is a problem so I need to ask the friends as I am giving them and later, they are giving me and we are in this Arvut and in this way advance. There is nothing to do just one will help his friends if we don't think about the group work, we won't be able to do any steps forward, not one step forward meaning that we will do forward but in the third line, the negative line as much as we don't advance and are not capable in order to obligate and take into account that we need to advance in the three lines of left, right and middle.
27. S. How do we draw the reforming light in the work in the 10 is it by performing some action together practically but most importantly that we do this thing together that it could even be a wrong action but better to be together and wrong than by myself?
R. The main thing is the intention everything will be clarified in thought but according to this also the deed is important where we are working together doing something together let's hope that we will have more and more opportunities to do so. It is very important to be in the intention together now with each of us in our home. If we are together in this intention that we have to observe this heartfelt connection between us we will start to discover that the corporeal distancing is actually operating for us, we're not operating for a corporeal action, on the contrary we see that there is no corporeal connection between us and we see how we can establish ourselves in a corporeal way how will I feel in my heart that I am connected to others is a question.
28. S. (01:19:02) Is Moses related to despair?
R. Of course all the qualities that we need to advance with, towards the Creator, are all included in the image of the Creator, of Moses. Moses is the form if we are Incorporated in it, if we take on this form, we exit Egypt.
S. Let's say I'm constantly thinking that I want to bestow to the 10, to give something from myself into the center of the 10, not to take but actually to invest, to give. Out of the intention to increase the love of friends day to day. Does it actually happen or I shouldn't wait for this feeling?
R. You think not about how you are there inside your imagination but how much you are in your actions to strengthen the group otherwise you are developing a whole philosophy that has nothing to do with reality. As much as you cause everyday the strengthening of the group this is what you need to be thinking about. Those fantasies that are sweet and rosy none of those are beneficial. In practice if you benefit the group and the awakening of the friends as Rabash writes, are you doing that, examine yourself according to that and not what you are depicting to yourself. You don't put forth the standards and set check yourself according to them but rather you see what the Kabbalists write and examine yourself against what they write.
29. S. (01:21:52) In my mind I understand what I have to do, I have to connect with my friends in the 10 and there is a state where I understand that I need to do this and actually am doing this and as a result I received repulsion finding out that I don't want to. What is the difference between this state and the state where I find out that I actually want to but I cannot? What is the difference between these two states?
R. You need to try to feel what your response is and together with that what you decide, if you repeat what Rabash writes about the social relations in the group and if you don't understand, don't feel how much you are deviating from the lack of feeling from the path and are somewhere out there in a place that has nothing to do with spirituality, only according to that, don't ask me go to his articles and then you will be certain that you were on the path. That is what you need to do.
30. S. (01:23:35) Recently we have a feeling of burdening, it's very hard for the friends to wake up and listen, we make phone calls to each other, at some point you see the friends do join the lesson. Is this process wrong telling yourself that they will join later?
R. Okay, by a half hour prior to the lesson they are already connecting to one another, hearing each other, singing, connecting to the words of the general awakening.
S. According to the framework attendance of 7 days a week is necessary, mandatory but there are friends who have other frameworks that they're studying and they can't be every day in the lesson, what do we do about it?
R. I don't take into account any excuse. I'm just saying it as a rule. If a person misses the lesson, the daily lesson he is already thrown from the train that is on the way to the path and now he needs in some way to attain the train and how it belongs to anything. I'm telling you this with all seriousness. If you are in BB you need to take this even somewhere on the circumference you need to follow this. I receive emails from people who all together, are so far but they are connected to us somehow. It depends upon which Bnei Baruch circle you are in, which one you are attributed to. Don't bring me now all kinds of justifications like a child that says to his parents why did it not work out for him there, that he received a bad grade in school or something like that. It has nothing to do with it. You have a lesson and you have to be in that lesson all the time. I'm not talking about the places where it is impossible to observe because it’s in the middle of the day like in the Far East or in the middle of the night as in Latin America. But we must nevertheless try to be in the lessons. You need to just understand that I am not deciding this way, I have no desire to burden you on this path, to make you have a process that is much more difficult. These are the conditions which stem from a spiritual source, there needs to be such a gap between corporeality and spirituality.
31. S. (01:27:37) In the beginning of the lesson and also yesterday we learned that we need to reach the perception of reality where everything is inside of us, how can I relate this to work opposite to 10? Is the 10 inside of me or am I a part of the system called the 10?
R. Good question, how do I locate that 10 I feel inside my heart or the 10 that I see with my corporeal eyes? If there is a gap between those two forms between the desirable and what exists then I need to work on this, I need to reach a state, just like Rabash writes, I need to love them with all my heart and soul and there are no concessions here. Spirituality is a law, and according to these laws you can observe them and you are already worthy. If you cannot observe you are not worthy.
32. S. (01:29:00) We are speaking about the ego controls reality, all of our actions. How do we resist that because when we come out of Egypt it means we're already under the control of the force of bestowal and love, to think of the 10?
R. We need to depict to ourselves that we are in a constant state of connection between us and in that connection, we are connected to the Creator. This is according to the formula Israel, the light, and the Creator. Meaning the person, the group and the Creator, until a person and joins those three aspects together such that they all become one. This is our goal and there is no more than the whole Collective where Israel is one and who yearns, has the point of the heart awakening in him, binds himself to the mechanism called the group and later we call it soul and the force outside the soul called the source of the upper lights, the Creator where the three of them need to be together. Even though the three of them are completely different because the person is the will to receive, an individual one as a result of the shattering, the ten is ten individual desires that want to be connected above the shattering and the Creator is revealed to them in the gap between where they are in the desire to receive and their tendency to bestow and connect.
33. S. (01:31:28) The result of the process we are going through and Passover, when we say we have to come out of the ego and go to the quality of bestowal so the results will be that in every thought and desire where I am in Israel?
R. The first degree of Israel the light and the Creator are one is that we are already outside of Egypt.
34. S. (01:31:54) If a friend doesn't come to the lesson daily how do we set an example to trigger envy in him?
R. This I don't know, it is already your work, I have no business here and you can do whatever you want. But without having a group you're not going to attain spirituality, very simple. You have to make certain that you have a 10 the way it should be. It doesn't have to be 10 people and can be 5 and upwards.
S. Following up what you answered, there's no rest for the righteous, in today's time anxiety is a global crisis in society. Will stress, anxiety always exist and if so why?
R. Any stress or anxiety with regards to chasing love and connection only does good to you bringing you benefit, joy, happiness, warmth. There is a fire of hell and there is the fire that warms you and brings you joy. It all depends on how you use it even though we have concerns in the final correction that is nonstop but that they are concerns of love. It is about, am I already in complete love and then like Baal HaSulam writes, if at first, we had some problem with regards to the concerns and desires being to our detriment, now we see what is called mercy shall chase me all the days of my life. Meaning that I am chasing and longing connection and love and that is my pleasure. I still haven't heard from anyone or seen or heard that someone who is in love suffers from loving. The act of Love or feeling of Love itself. If you are going to examine their bodily measurements you will see the body agitated, not at peace but that it is pleasant for the person. It’s not about the physical measurements. It’s about what is the aim.
35. S. (01:35:51) The Covenant between people connecting in the 10 or the 10 that wants to come out of Egypt, what is the difference?
R. The issue is in spirituality we separate, differentiate between states not according to intensity but according to quality. Let's say state number one and state number two, even if they are adjacent to each other the difference is not in magnitude it is in quality. In spirituality every state is different in quality and so I can't even express this. If there is a state a little different than the one prior, it’s already fundamentally different. There are no amounts in spirituality, only qualities.
S. Is it pain?
R. We don't measure it like that, we only measure and check according to the force of bestowal clothes in our vessels. Only according to the force of love, unity, connection the qualities of the Creator. How much they dress in our vessels, in our will to receive it’s the only thing we examine is the equivalence of form between the vessel and the light.
S. How to check the difference between the qualities in the light and the vessel in the 10?
R. The force of reception and the force of bestowal, how much in our connection can we achieve the force of love, of connection. You're not engaging in the right things, why do you need this? I see in what we are studying, you are not following the excerpts. What are you looking into and how can you measure anything if you don't have that? If there is no vessel with which to measure, no light that shines and shows you where you are, it is not a good approach. Follow exactly what is written in the text and don't add your own intellect to it.
S. So should I concentrate only on the excerpts during the day?
R. Yes.
36. S. (01:39:51) How to get feedback from the friends in the 10 that it is really the actions of the Creator, when Moses came to Israel back to the people of Israel, they didn't understand it was the Creator?
R. I need to see on one hand this world, meaning the actions of the friends as they are, on the other hand I have to see these actions as they come to me from the Creator. The difference between this and that shows me how far I am still from seeing the true reality.
Excerpt 207 (01:42:16)
36.(a) R. Israel is called those who yearn for unity and through that to the Creator. When one is already inclined towards connection and the Creator, one discovers how the king that he had before has died, this is called the king of Egypt has died. Meaning that it is no longer an important great king that is alive, meaning the ego no longer attracts them the same way. Then as if longing for a different appreciation of the Upper Force. This is why they go through such suffering because they don't have the same kind of approach and kingdom that they had before.
Excerpt 208 (01:43:55)
37. R. This means they were able to better clarify what the spiritual work is and the work becomes more difficult than before. At first, they thought they want to make some efforts and then we would get a great reward, the spiritual world will open up and we will understand how we live and we will see the whole world from one end to the other. Meaning we will achieve better sensations; more expansion of our knowledge and we would see what is happening before and after life. Now we are beginning to discover that it is about things that are much more inner, real and serious especially if you want to attain anything it’s above our ego, to rise to the degree of faith above reason. Here we don't agree so much and we see this in our friends the moment they discover spirituality is not that I buy a ticket and go into the Upper World in addition to this world and then I don't care about anyone and I see everything from up top. On the contrary it is difficult work and it means to bend myself towards everyone, meaning to bend my ego and then not many run forward but rather many flee. This is why it says 1000 goes into the room and one goes out to the light. I have found one out of a thousand, truly we see very few people remain in the spiritual work but that they go forward because they understand there is no other choice. This is the path and otherwise I remain a beast, what the mind doesn't do time does, besides this I remain and it works on me.
Excerpt 209 (01:47:30)
38. R. Meaning the fact that we're each states of despair they are very good states they are supposed to lead us to a sigh, to the Creator that it will help us and then we will succeed only with his help, when he will pull us out of corporeality into spirituality, from in order to receive to in order to bestow and we begin to see the world from his degree and we understand everything which is happening from one end to the other.
39. S. (01:48:55) When we are in Exile, do we first have the desire to exit Egypt or to attain the land of Israel, what is first?
R. We don't know what Egypt is yet, we don't know what the land of Israel is. We want to devour everything. Then bit by bit it becomes clearer what is this world, what is the spiritual world and how do we come to a state where we properly situate these two worlds and the transition that we need to go through within us. Within each and every one to come from the lower world to the upper world.
Excerpt 210 (01:50:09)
40. R. I see eight questions. The question is, which questions are following what we just read?
41. S. (01:51:56) How do we grasp inside us going towards the true reality?
R. According to the spiritual degree you have a perception of the true reality, in the meantime of course you don't know where you live, literally.
42. S. (01:52:37) How do we reach the state of despair in order for the cry to come out of the 10 as one man in one heart?
R. Ask yourself, when can you come to despair and what kind of despair do you want to reach and why do you need to reach despair? If you have a goal of reaching despair it is not a correct action not a correct goal. What does it mean that I want to reach despair? I'm going to do some work in order to get despaired from it, where do you see such a thing happening?
43. S. (01:53:58) In Egypt, and they sighed, and in Purim there was also the mourning for 3 days, and will change the destiny, is it the same thing?
R. I don't know I'm not dealing with comparisons now, you're a philosopher, think about it, I am not.
44. S. (01:54:14) If Pharaoh died why did they cry out, shouldn't they be happy about it?
R. When they started to cry from the work, so he says by asking for help they should have been given new lights because the help from above is by a holy soul and by that there is a need for the people of Israel to receive great lights because otherwise, they cannot emerge from the control of the Egyptians. It follows that the Creator's reply was that he would give them the need to ask for help, that is what they need. This is the help from the Creator that will help them cry. I love so much which is that each time he will show them more bad so that he will give them more help by this the light and the purpose of the creation will be revealed to them.
What are you asking the Creator that each time he burdens their hearts they ask more, cry more and see they are incapable? He is giving them work that is very difficult, why is it hard work? Not so that they'll be able to do it but so they can see they can't do it, that they can't do this work of rising above their ego, rising above their will to receive but the moment they come to a state where they understand and determine and see that it's not for them, they can't do it, they can't rise above their ego. They don't run away but rather they turn to the Creator. What is the difference in the decision of running away or turning to the Creator? The difference is the environment, the environment has to direct them. If they have a 10 then they realize through the 10, through the connection that they recognize they have to yell and cry to the Creator, specifically that state where they came to the decision that with this will to receive they cannot conquer, cannot rise above it, that becomes clear to them.
Then they can cry to the Creator because the Creator put the spike in their wheels so to speak, making it a dead-end so they can't take advantage or win against the evil inclination, they can't. They have to turn to the Creator and the Creator will set it up, the Creator will arrange the right attitude and relation of the person in the group towards the Creator and the will to receive and the force of bestowal that arrives to them as what is called the holy soul and then everything will fall into its right place. What is the problem here? To cry to the Creator, this is what the Exodus from Egypt teaches us and the children sighed from the work and their cry went up to God from the work. Meaning they understood the work is not to overpower the will to receive, you can't overcome Pharaoh, you can only ask from the Creator to take you out of his control. Is that understood?
S. Understand. Who died, is it the ego that died, the will to receive died?
R. The will to receive can't die but rather the greatness of the king of Egypt, the greatness of that King died in their eyes, they first worked in order to fulfill their ego and now that ego went down from its level, from its status, so what do you do and what do you live for, Why Live? Either in order to fulfill the will to receive or to fulfill the will to bestow that is what we have on behalf of creation.
45. S. (01:59:41) The text says, they were revealed with the light of the purpose of creation, the question is, the revelation of that light is the adhesion, the constant adhesion between us and the Creator?
R. The light of the purpose of creation is the light that appears from the final correction towards us but to what extent? It goes to all of the degrees down to our degree giving us strength, understanding of what we need in order to advance. The light of the purpose of creation shows us the path, the light of the correction of creation is that we ask how to advance on the path and get the strength to do this.
Excerpt 211 (02:01:21)
46. R. Write the laws of nature are immutable, they don't change and of course just as how all the groups of Kabbalists advance, let's say the group of Moses in Egypt and the group of Rabbi Shimon, it was always groups. The laws that apply and how they advance, they don't change only the character of each and every group and how it uses those forces.
47. S. (02:02:42) We've always been talking about we can't live without any joy. Joy is empowering us in our existence, we can't live without any form of joy is so if there are saying there's no joy from reception in Egypt and there's no joy from bestowal in Egypt and there's only a cry out, what is empowering us, what is the joy that we can have when coming out of Egypt? What is driving us?
R. I'm surprised by you, why is it there be a cry without happiness and with happiness you can't cry up, if I finally reached the correct cry to the Creator that I need his help that I want him to look at me to take care of me, to bring me closer to him so why in that cry am I without happiness? On the contrary, I am in happiness, why not? I have a reason for the cry I have someone to turn to and I'm certain that if I cry correctly, that for certain he will save me and raise me to the best possible state so why is that not happiness?
S. Very nice, thank you.
48. S. (02:04:36) How can we compare efforts in the 10 so that way, they don't do more or less than needed in the work?
R. How to make efforts in the 10 that won't be more or less, equalized with what? What do you mean equalize the efforts in the 10 as each one is different from the other, each one puts his efforts in there, one more one less one in a certain style than the other but we're all equal, we're all different? Why in this, do we need to check something we just need to see as much as I'm envious of the others and increasing my efforts due to that, enlarging my efforts. How can I compare my effort to a friend's? I can never measure the other as he was born with a different kind of will to receive, he has different conditions, a different mood today, who knows there's a thousand and one conditions and I'm not the Creator I cannot compare. Only from the point of the end of correction I can say that each one, what he did but in the end of correction when we get there, we can see that everybody did the same so we don't measure each one towards the other only if we measure it in order to awaken our ego to advance even more above it.
S. Let's say we talked about coming to the lesson so we spoke with friends in the 10 and they say some have a problem. We can't demand them to come to the lesson because they work in that time or they have some other problems so the question is how is it possible to compare at least in the sense that not everyone came to the lesson, can we demand such actions from each other in the 10?
R. You used to tell me we can't drive to the place where we gather, that we used to gather in our centers and each one said I can't go, it's too far or I'm not able, I don't have a car and so on. The Creator organizes these things in a simple way, everyone stays at home, everyone has a computer and we just need to wake up and sit next to the computer. This is the whole trouble, today you have other complaints, it's hard for me to get out of bed and sit next to the computer, it's so far away but don't have the fuel, what else are you lacking? There is no importance so you stay in bed, what can you do. I have nothing to answer about that, just you and the group must take care of the importance of the goal and then everyone will have the power to get up and take a few steps next to his computer come sit next to it and incorporate in the lesson. You want even more the Creator to organize things for you? You want him to bring the computer to your bed or that from sleep you can incorporate in the lesson that the lesson will come to you as a dream, that you sleep and you dream about the lesson you want that to be, so let's do that no problem. I see a lot of you started smiling you're already expecting it. We have to understand that there's no concession on the exertion, the exertion is the same vessel where the spirituality is revealed. We just have to exactly locate what the exertion is and not that we will confuse ourselves.
49. S. (02:10:24) In the previous lesson and yesterday we learned when we are aimed at connection, we change reality, today we discover this new reality we can't connect it also what is the connection?
R. As much as you advance towards the exodus from Egypt the advancement is by making great efforts in order to connect and along with that, we value the connection more and we see how we can reach it. Then we cry that we can't reach that connection that only in the connection can we locate the structure between us of the 10 that from it we can bestow to the Creator and according to that to feel how he bestows to us. That there will be revelation of the Creator to the created being which can only happen to a 10 to the extent the 10 bestows to him with the coarseness, the forces of resistance between them, above that how they connect and raise the tendency to the Creator. These two forces of coarseness and the tendency towards bestowal, that is what we need to do and then we will have the correct vessel.
Excerpt 212 (02:12:31 - 02:12:44)
50. R. We learn that everything only happens through prayer, we learned that many times so here he says in order for him to pray from the bottom of the heart there are two conditions, how to reach prayer from the bottom of the heart and then for searching the Creator will reveal himself into
Reader continues: “His work must be against nature.”
51. R. Against the will to receive his work has to be against that.
Reader continues: “That is he wants to do everything only in order to bestow....”
52. S. It sounds like there's two conditions in the first one that he wants to bestow and also to exit self.
R. It is the same condition.
S. To come out of self-love is already in order to bestow.
R. If he just wants to come out so he won't feel bad then he won't come out, meaning we only have one possibility to up live from self-love that we want to bestow so in order for him to pray from the bottom of the heart there are two conditions, one his work must be against nature meaning that he wants to do everything only in order to bestow and wants to exit self-love and at that time it can be said that he has a deficiency, that he wants to uplift above his will to receive in order to reach bestowal.
Reader continues: “He begins to exit self-love by himself ....”
53. R. He wants to come out of self-love and he can't do anything about it, not even the smallest motion, even just a bit he can't do anything.
Reader continues: “at that time he comes needy of the create ....”
54. R. He wants to come out of the will to receive and he can't then he really has an impulse to cry out to the Creator, to help him.
Reader continues: “And his prayer is real because he sees that he can do anything....”
55. R. Specifically from the work.
Reader continues: “This means that by working and wanting to achieve that degree....”
56. S. (02:16:57) When Kabbalist talk about asking from the bottom of one's heart, what do they really mean?
R. As much as they can feel the true desire that is now revealed in them, the heart is called a desire, the biggest and most important desire for now is called the depth of the heart, the bottom of the heart.
S. Do we trust the will to receive?
R. There is no more than the will to receive, what else can we count on, I live through my will to receive.
57. S. (02:18:03) Sometimes I get a feeling the friends are my desires and my soul and that I am happy to ask for them, is that egoistic?
R. Yes, but it could be on the way, if you still think that the friends are a part of you so it is on the way and it is good, afterwards you will have more precise discernments and you will see as much as you are a pro or con that feeling.
58. S. (02:18:51) It is 3330 years that we are trying to realize the state of Pesach, Passover to correct the will to receive for ourselves now it seems that it is even more difficult to even though we try many times, we pray so what is missing?
R. We are missing a desire, and yearning towards the goal, importance of the goal. It is not so clear to us as if we could run away from our state into spirituality but our problem is that we don't want to. The excerpts that we are reading, they are all speaking about Egypt, they're all speaking about the people of Israel, Pharaoh, Moses it is far from us. Let us rewrite these excerpts in the correct way that regard to us to our will to receive, to the 10 and then it will be closer to us that it won't be revealed as being so far away from us. Otherwise, where am I, Pharaoh, Creator, some philosophy that is distant, no one recognizes that this is in him. We have to rewrite these excerpts to locate them inside, to depict them inside, translating them that inside This Is us, me built in such a way that I won't confuse myself.
59. S. (02:21:08) It says in the excerpt that a person tries to exit out of his ego, what is this effort, where are the friends, where's the prayer?
R. The ego is measured according to our efforts to come out of it, how do we check that, it can only be in the group, show me where else can you measure your ego as much as I want to connect to the others and I feel that my will to receive won't let me that is pushing me away from it, rejecting me doesn't want it, according to that I feel that I am under the control of the egoistic will to receive, that he is in control of me and it won't let me it is simple things that I want to integrate, incorporate in society, in the 10 that I want to connect with them in heart and soul as it is written not to feel any change between us. On the other hand, I see it doesn't work, what do you mean that it doesn't work, that I don't want it, that my will to receive won't let me as if there is two. In my mind I understand that I must have connection and, in my inner, feeling I feel that I don't want it, that I'm not prepared for it, that I just want to go around it in anyway, just to not be in it. I am willing to do anything, just not true connection because I have to annul myself, I have to love the others. I have to see them as greater than me and so on. I can't, what is it they want from me? That is actually that I have to see these two things, when I see that they are in me on what hand, the Kabbalists say you must otherwise you're dead as if with the will to receive I have an ability to run to a higher, nicer reality. On the other hand, they are saying for this, that you need to acquire the entrance there, to buy it. What is that entrance? Self-annulment is the only way that I can go in there. I see that I so they tell me if you love everybody, if you be good to everybody that you will feel life above death, a higher reality that everything is beautiful but I cannot. What do I do? A person starts being in such another contradicting discernment and doesn't know what to do that's why it is called and the children of Israel sighed from the work that they see and discover that they can't. It is only one thing. Cry to the Creator, did you try it? Did you see that you don’t want it, that you can’t, so don’t try too hard, it just stops you, the wise one means that he knows beforehand, that his eyes are in his head? We already understand that we won't succeed in such a way, that we are done, stop with it already, start crying out to the Creator organizing yourselves in a mutual prior to him and then you will succeed. That is, it, you will shorten your presence in Egypt greatly.
60. S. (02:25:48) The death of Pharaoh is when you don't get strength to work in the 10 and burdening increases that you have no power to cry, what do you do with that state?
R. With the 10 turn to the Creator, desire to do it with the 10 to cry to the Creator.
61. S. (02:26:29) The Creator always adds will to receive more and more which is just half the trouble, with it many times he gives you a strong desire to receive that you can't realize like he's showing you candy and you're being told you can't get it how do you cope with that question.
R. My connection in the ten increasingly more.
62. S. (02:27:07) You said, understand you can't do it on your own, take it to the Creator, it sounds like it is intellectual but all the verses say we have to come to this pain emotionally from the work?
R. I'm telling you to turn from your mind, if you think you have a mind turn from it, don't scrutinize things, turn him with what you have.
S. I didn't understand I can do such a process that I understand I can't turn alone and then I turn to the Creator.
R. And you keep complaining that it is emotional and intellectual and that you don't understand I'm telling you to turn with your mind and you're saying no you need to do it with your feelings.
S. I'm not saying I can't, I'm saying there's no feeling so what does it mean to turn from your intellect?
R. Turn to the Creator with your intellect, you think that you have one take your brain go to the Creator and turn to him saying I understand, not feel, I understand and maybe even feel a bit that I can't reach bestowal, love of others, nothing. That I am asking of you to please give me such possibilities that I will be able to uplift above my ego to come out of my ego to run from it. Turn to him with whatever you have, I do it, the main thing is to turn to him.
63. S. (02:29:11) Then there is a feeling that suddenly you just Discover that you don't love the teacher or the friends, that you only love yourself and you feel like you want to die. Is that shame?
R. It is a beautiful state, it is a revelation of the truth that you are really like that, in such a state that you only love yourself and nobody else and as much as you can gain from them so you love them a bit to that extent. You need not to be sorry about it but to be happy about it. From the truth being revealed to you and the fact that this truth isn't so nice, what did you think? You thought that you had something nice? but you are happy that you have a revelation of truth, a revelation of evil so keep going.
64. S. 02:31:30) If we are still not successful for so long and feel like we don't have the need that we didn't come to the true need with the right request that the Creator can answer, the right to spare, what do we do?
R. You're not connected enough to reach the true despair you have to connect with a tendency to the Creator a tendency for the connection to scrutinize these states and for certain that if you do it upon all of these excerpts so you also draw the upper light that comes to you through Rabash or Baal HaSulam and then it turns out that you will have the forces, the negative force that you can't do it and the positive force that still the upper light works upon you and then you will have an ability to advance. In spirituality you advance in those two directions, from the bad and from the good each one who is greater than his friend his inclination is greater, just try to implement what we need to.
65. S. (02:33:02) To remember to need the Creator's help is this the Exodus from the Egypt?
R. Yes.
66. S. (02:33:20) Tonight there will be a gathering of friends coming together from all over the world, what do we need to discover? How can we shorten the time and communicate to each other?
R. We have to try to reach such a connection in the morning lesson that each person participates in it and we feel how we are all connecting in it and together we all reach a prayer to the Creator in such a way that for certain the Creator will not be able to not help us oh, that we will obligate him to help us. When will we obligate him? When our desire will be organized correctly. That is why, what I'm asking, when you connect to such a gathering to speak about it that you ought to be together in the morning lesson with me together, and from that lesson, that we will make a prayer that every lesson will be a prayer. That we will want increasingly more to come close between us and the Creator that one depends upon the other and then in such a way very quickly we will come out of the exile from spirituality.
67. S. (02:35:35) We spoke about the hatred towards connection and that it is expressed in the friends not participating in the activities of the 10 and I look at the friends and sometimes they have preventions that they are not responsible for family commitments, is that hatred towards connection?
R. There is always what's worthwhile, this is worth more than that and so on so each one has to calculate but the 10 has to calculate on the entire 10.
S. This worthiness is hatred is that what you're saying?
R. It's not hatred why are you using such a word, when hatred is revealed that's a good thing, so some differences are revealed you can get along without me, I don't want it, it's more convenient like this. I'm talking about the connection that I don't have to move out of my place, that I don't have to move from my spot. Back then we used to say how we have to drive an hour or two hours to the center and maybe we have to sit in bad conditions and then go home. Now you're takes two steps from your bed to the computer and even not. I remember how I used to come from Rehovot to Bnei Brak, to study when I started studying with Rabash, raining in 2 a.m. that the police would stop you on every corner why are you going at this hour of the night. that they started recognizing me already, it wasn't simple.