Morning Lesson April 30, 2021 Transcription
1. Rav’s Introduction: The matter of creation is the will to receive in order to receive and if it would be revealed and it's true form then there would be no possibility to exist in it because each one word without any calculation just eat up the other, kill the other without any reason, just out of the reason his will to receive cannot tolerate having anything else besides himself. There for the whole of humanity, the whole of creation is developing out of this fundamental, smallest will to receive and it develops more and more gradually and according to how it develops it also builds within it systems so that it can also defend itself, overcome the will to receive that has no limits, placing boundaries on it because it sees it otherwise it cannot advance or exist. Therefore the will to receive begins to feel that it begins from a spec, from a black point and as it develops it already starts developing in such a way that it realizes and feels bit by bit it's connection in others the necessity for this connection and if not there are laws in the lower forms than itself, just like we have the still vegetative in animal. So the animate it feels around it to still and vegetative that it can chill and use for its sustenance this is how it is for each and every one on every level through the lower levels itself.
This is how we advance. Why am I talking about it? In order for us to realize in the development of the will to receive from one generation to the next specifically as it develops it builds for us the generations, the degrees and the relations between us, the differences between us. In our process if we will jump closer to the direction of men when the will to receive was still small in the beginning of creation, the creation of man then we were able to manage it correctly through suffering, reward and punishment in short. Whereas when the will to receive grew more the system became more complicated, people started using it and taking advantage of each other. They began to establish all kinds of boundaries and borders in the relations between them and then it became impossible only through suffering to correct the ego and to bring people to connection. Then came the reforming light that in the beginning it was sufficient for a person to have a reward and punishment, some fear and also some prize as it is said the bread with the salts drink a little water and sleep on the ground, if you were living with such restriction it would be enough for you to live with such restriction and keep it in order to correct the will to receive. Because the will to receive is also in you in such a small degree, with such a small intensity, however when the desire grows it is not enough for us to limit ourselves corporeally, it doesn't affect the desire maybe even the opposite of the fact that you are taking on such mortifications you could even be proud of it and think that it deserves more and more.
Then this matter of mortifications stopped. You shall eat bread with salt, but rather now a greater force is required that will be able to restrain the egoistic desire and this comes only already through the Torah as we call it. The Torah means the methods for drawing the light from above that this method brings a person the force so that he can restrain his will to receive in order to receive, man's ego and then the person can in some directed manner as much as he uses the Torah, this light from above, he changes and those changes that he gets through the light they bring him to connect with foreign desires and to see them not as foreign but as those that are essential for him that he has to connect and unite with them. Specifically in the connection between them, not by himself anymore as it was before the students of Rabbi Shimon that they built this fundamental 10, but rather each one was living in attaining the Creator personally. Those who had the desire and ability according to the plan of creation this is how they were, how they advanced. We are already working after the time frame of the Zohar an additional time up to Baal HaSulam and Rabash where we are no longer capable in our generation of managing our will to receive in any way, it has grown so much and it is controlling us to such an extent that I cannot by limiting myself corporeally as it says, eat bread was soft and sleep on the ground, by that I cannot destroy my ego so that it will agree to be modest, humble and that it will allow me to perform all kinds of actions that are above it.
Then we reach a state where only the upper force, the Creator himself shines and this is called the reforming bite and only this force actually help us, that is the same light that begets and established is my will to receive and of the whole of creation, that same force, that same light also helps me to correctly use this desire. That is I am already turning to the same source which becomes both the source for the evil inclination and the source for the good inclination and I arranged them so that I am in the middle. It is as if I am managing creation in such a way, here is such a great will to receive and this is how we need to learn how to use this correctly. Then it turns out that from the side of the Creator, we have two forces, we have as it says I have created the evil inclination and the reforming light is from the side of the Creator, from our side when we reach such a desire then we also need to acquire the other force, the reforming light. That desire that we get from the Creator that awakens within us we have to try to establish it correctly in order to bestow. This is why in our time, mortifications won't help us and the study won't help us or all kinds of other things, isolating ourselves, Kabbalist in previous generations use those as means to limit and restrain their will to receive in order to manage it correctly, in our time it doesn't work because the will to receive has become much greater than we truly need the force of a light which we draw through certain actions that they Kabbalist each of us and only through this lights will do well to receive take upon itself the treatment, the treatment from the light itself. This is how we can arrange ourselves to be similar to the Creator, to be similar to bestowal.
2. S. (12:15) How does the light helps to overcome the will to receive?
R. It is a force that stands against the will to receive, there is the force of bestowal, love and connection and by shining over the will to receive with its force it's subjugates the will to receive and then the will to receive doesn't feel to some extent or even at all its inclination to rule because the nature of the will to receive is I will rule, I will be king, this is what it has within it. Then a person feels that it is possible that I with this same will to receive that exists within me that the control of the will to bestow upon it, that I will truly feel that I can control it. This is how a person begins to advance with two reins, at first he understands that he exists either in this or in that, either in to receive or to bestow to some extent, various ascent and descent later on knowing he learns how to manage these forces. That you cannot have one without the other and that we have to fight in such a way that both of them will be connected together optimally so that love covers all crimes so that if there is no hatred there won't be any love if there's no darkness there won't be any light, we need to have both of them and then darkness shall shine as the light.
S. How do we draw and acquire such a force?
R. How do we get the force of the light, this is what we are studying even now, how do we get this remedy of the light so that this force will come to us to influence us so much so that we will feel that we exist in the will to bestow, in the desire to give, in the desire to connect and sometimes we have such inclinations and it is because some illumination, is influencing us from above. But we also want to manage the illumination so that we will demand it and it will, according to our demand because we do want to exist in such a way. That the more we have the evil inclination the more we will also have the reforming light which is called Torah as a spice, this is the light that comes according to the purpose, according to a special planning from above that they come gradually upon each and every desire that exists within us. There are lights that are standing up above shining on these desires and we can demand that these desires and the light so that the lights will influence the desires and the desires will enter in under the lights in between the connection between them we will understand the lights, to receive them and apply them within us this is called the study of Torah. That the ”I” that changes in the desire each and every time we will draw a greater light and this is how we will understand all of these lights add how we can draw them, receive them and on which qualities they influence and what exactly do they change.
3. S. (17:23) What is the specific action that brings the drawing of the reforming light in the 10?
R. We will learn this, soon we will get into this more and more this is why we learn many introductions through all of our lessons over the last year and now we are precisely reaching the learning of how to influence the light with which intensity, and which form to influence us. Out of that we will learn the Torah, meaning the method by which we discover the Creator.
4. S. (18:24) Why does the will to receive not receive the values of bestowal from the second phase of the four phases of direct light?
R. We will learn about it and you will know where you are jumping ahead and you're not understanding the question with no beginning and no end.
S. Why is there an external force of bestowal that's why the desire needs to be impressed by why is it not imprinted from the beginning?
R. Forget about Phase 2, why are you confusing everyone?
S. Why is it not imprinted from its very development?
R. Because in creation there is an upper force, the Creator and the will to receive that he created outside of himself which is the nature of the created thing and these two parts need to stay and one opposite the other. Also, in the Creator himself the will to receive does not exist, God forbid and also in the created being there is no will to bestow there is only a spark that the Creator placed within it so that he will be able to get to know, to start getting to know the will to bestow. If the created being would include within himself these two parts then it would be on the degree of this still, vegetative and animate that to begin with have these two opposite forces and they have a certain connection between them so they can develop one on top of the other just like the atoms and molecules. This can be only on the degrees of the still, vegetative and animate and these two forces have a natural connection between them following the laws of nature that is through the Creator who established it to begin with. Here the upper desire is that we will be as God knowing the good and the bad so it will be bad for us, we will have the bad and later on it will connect with the good for us and we will know how we can connect them correctly, these two forces, the good and the bad, the will to receive and the will to bestow. Then it says and you shall be as God knowing the good and the bad this is why they cannot exist in a single body just like in us, in our body you have the entire body and the whole of creation in general that includes two parts like you are saying. How come there is no bad desire or good desire in a person, there is no such thing in Adam, all of those things are only for himself and possible for the detriment of others. Opposite desires that exist in a single body we don’t have, rather they exist for the purpose of the common corporeal goal but if it is spiritual then we have to position them by ourselves, try to think about it more and you will see it.
Excerpt 13 (22:24 - 23:49)
5. S. (23:51) How can we as a 10 control the evil that bestows upon us?
R. With the same intensity you want to connect between you, you are drawing and bringing closer the upper lights to you. With the same intensity by which you are distancing from each other, then the upper light, according to the law of equivalence of form, also distances from you. This is why we have no choice. In our history, we existed in such a way that people independently, by themselves, would come closer to the Creator. And this is until the time of mankind, the time of Adam. Meaning there was Adam and his children -- meaning his school of thoughts, the circles that he taught, and before Adam, there were individual people who did not come together or connect, they didn't need to draw the reforming light through connection between them. It was the desire within each one of them was sufficient, that one wanted to approach the Creator, and out of that he was drawn to Him. But starting with Adam HaRishon and onward, the system begins to be built, become revealed, so that it is already a system that includes within it individuals that need to come together, to connect into a system with connection between them. Meaning that in order to rise above, it's not enough for me to rise above my will to receive rather besides that, I also need to cancel my will to receive in such a way that I adapt myself to connection with others. This is something altogether different, that is, the fact that I rise above myself towards the Creator, that I annul myself, is something that is simple. But adapting myself towards others, so that according to my ego I see them as lesser than myself, maybe I want to rule them and here, specifically, I need to do the opposite. In order to connect with them, I need to make out of myself a zero and this is already a problem. This started from the stage where the same will to receive that was broken needs only to grow in itself, personally and individually, but also to start connecting with others. This is why and how it was done, historically. They started to come closer, not to Babylon from the time of Adam HaRishon to Babylon and from Babylon to Rashbi, Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai. All of this is only in order to attain the reforming light. We have to realize that the whole of Torah, what we read and study and the advice of the Kabbalists that we hear is in order to draw the reforming light. This is the only thing that we are lacking and nothing else. The egoistic desire exists within us and it develops to the extent that we can draw the reforming light. If I draw a greater reforming light then the will to receive that I have, it can only be by connecting with foreign desires to receive in the 10s. Then I advance myself faster. I'm not waiting for my will to receive to grow and then I will require the reforming light to come correct it. However if I am not going in advancement towards society, looking for connections, then I am just waiting for my will to receive to grow, to awaken, and in that it will obligate me, compel me. So here, we already have Beito, ‘in its time’, and Achishena, ‘hastening’. Who do we advance? We advance according to the desire that awakens, or we accelerate the time. And we want to promote and advance ourselves faster. Faster is through prayer, through the revelation of deficiencies that also come on behalf of the lower one, instead of waiting for the upper one. This is called that: ‘I awaken the dawn, not that dawn awakens me’. We will learn all these details more and more.
6. S. (30:14) Other than the difference between Mishnah and the Talmud, the idea that we have the way of suffering and the Torah. You are saying we have the choice and the control to choose the easy way and the force is in our hands we just need to choose correctly?
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7. S. (31:16) What is this light that we are talking about, the light of Torah?
R. It is the force of bestowal that comes from above.
S. We talked about suffering and the things in Torah, you know, 40 people were killed in Mt Meron in the Torah that is suffering. Why do these things happen?
R. Don’t say they were killed because of the Torah. You need to check out whatever you're saying.
S. Now at this moment.
R. We went with Rabash, the group of students on Lag B’ Omer each and every year until 1983, 1984 something like that. In those years they started to come with all kinds of freaks and such people. Well, first of all it was youngsters, men and women which wasn't very customary and then Rabash said, “That’s it.” In the last year we were there, it was truly a big problem for us to go in there. We had to, really it was almost like a fight. They would let us get in. People would come there for a few weeks, even, and would take up their place and wouldn’t let others in. So we saw that it is becoming a place which truly is not sanctity. It's not that ‘each shall help his friend’, it’s not a place of bestowal and showing love to each other, completely not. It was a place of pride and looking down on others. So we stopped coming. And nowadays, 40 years later? What are you expecting to be there?
S. Is there a reason for all of these sufferings and disasters that are happening to the people of Israel?
R. They have no connection to the Zohar to Rabbi Shimon, to the study of the wisdom of Kabbalah. They just go there in order to be proud and take part of the next world, as it seems to them.
S. This is what I'm trying to ask you. Are there certain conditions where I can draw the reforming light as maximally as possible, or does it depend on the person and how to bestow connection?
R. It has nothing to do with the place, location. It has to do with the desire, the desire is called ‘place.’ This is why if you are connected to the friends and you turn to the Creator, and from your connection you want to build such a mutual place where the Creator will be able to be revealed, then you are doing the only Mitzva commandment possible. As we stay about the sukkah that a guest has come to our sukkah, it’s called Oushpizin, a guest. It is with each and every thing, all the customs we have are, all in all, only in order to connect so that the reforming light will be able to bestow, restore our connection and in this corrected connection we will discover the Creator
S. What are the best possible conditions to draw the reforming light in the strongest way?
R. To study TES, well this is for degrees that you already understand what you are reading. And you can interpret internally what you are studying, not technically or physically -- it’s not that you are studying about some forces outside of you. Rather, as much as you can awaken by the reading. These forces within you.
S. The daily study that we learn every morning, now?
R. Yes these are the most beneficial hours.
S. To draw the light?
R. Yes. But all the rest depends upon you as much as you will think about it.
8. S. (36:08) The Kabbalist recommend that we act before one another in order to inspire one another. What is the boundary between acting and the modification that the Rav spoke about? R. The game or the acting means that I want to be in a state but I'm not there yet. Like little children who play with games but they imagined to themselves that they are in it, in a true action: that I am driving a car, or I am in the train, or that I am building something. This is considered a game. That even though you haven't yet reached the next degree, you try as much as you can to be in it. Then this game becomes not a game but rather a means for achieving the higher degree in practice. This is how we need to do it.
S. How does a person check himself against unnecessary modifications?
R. This I don't know. As much as it is possible, try to be adhered and attached to the 10, and by that, you can check yourself. The entire scrutiny is nevertheless how much does he want to incorporate in the 10? It is the most repulsive thing, you don't want it, it’s unpleasant, you forget about it. But this is the truth, and the correct scrutiny.
9. S. (38:18) So the big desire is revealed in the person and it’s impossible to overcome some states so how do we draw the light to overcome?
R. This is what we are studying about -- the whole study is about how we draw the reforming light. Instead of having the possibility of sleeping on the ground, and drinking a little water and all of this. That is, through penance and mortifications, you want to destroy the will to receive. When the will to receive was small, this was possible to do in the earlier generations, many years ago. And also there are such light souls, special souls that are close to spirituality, let's say that even today if such a person exists in some state of seclusion, then he can feel it, he can begin to see all the Creator. However, it is not according to the system, this is not the Torah. This is not according to the laws of the system. Because from one generation to the next we reach such a great revelation of the ego, then we already have a different weapon against our ego, the reforming light.
Excerpt 14 (40:03 - 40:59)
10. R. (41:00) So, there is only this question: if in the Torah there is a hidden force that influences and corrects me, changes me and makes out of me something that is similar, closer to the Creator, then I only need to know how I should engage in the Torah, what does this mean, Torah? Is this just a book that the word “Torah” is printed on it or is it some physical actions, what is it I have to do? What is the Torah? The Torah is from the word, ohr, light. Torah is also from the word ‘teaching’. There’s the teaching or theory of Torah, of physics, biology, it is all Torah. Torah means teachings or study. So, what is it I have to learn in order to effect within me the changes that would be similar to the Creator, this is what is about. So, our entire study should be, as it says here, that the Torah is in order to subdue, to subjugate the evil inclination meaning to achieve Dvekut, equivalent to form with the Creator, so that all of our actions will be only in order to bestow like the Creator. I don't know what this is like but the Torah, this force that I draw upon myself through certain actions that the Kabbalists’ recommend, by this. I change myself and by this become more and more similar to the Creator. Then according to these changes, I begin to feel that I am coming closer to Him. It is precisely according to that, as much as I change, I get closer to the Creator. And the most important thing for me is only to get assistance from above, this is the reforming light, and this assistance, we get from the Torah. Through the study, through connection and all of these means that help us to discover the Creator.
11. S. (43:35) does the light change a person or does it take him around so he can feel what bestowal is and then brings him back to the same place?
R. What does it mean that it brings him from his place if not through change?
S. What is a person that is changing, what is a person that is changing?
R. A person who changes means that his will to receive changes. We have nothing else besides a desire, if I feel change, it is my desire that changes. If I feel a special kind of change that I become closer to the upper force, it means that my desire has changed in that direction. If I feel that I have changed on the plain of this world, then my desire is not changing qualitatively but only on this plane, wherever I feel these changes. It is all through the change of the desire and besides the desire we have nothing else except what the Creator created.
S. When we connect in the 10, we feel there is a force that is lifting us to a new place. Once the connection is over it is as if from that we are back to where we were.
R. Yes,
S. So did we change or do we go back to the way we were before?
R. Probably went back even though each action does an impression and you are not as you were before but you nevertheless, returned.
S. So what is advancement? Progress?
R. Advancement is where you try not to return. Just to rise, and rise and rise, and what you rose to, is what you want to become the permanent state for the time being. And you will rise even more. Meaning you always have to renew your ascents.
12. S. (45:49) He writes that the Torah was given to us in order to subdue the evil inclination but what I discover is that only in the descents is more evil but how do we subdue the evil inclination?
R. The fact that you discover you are bad and doing bad to everyone, this is how you discover your true nature, and this is what the Torah reveals to you. These stages are the initial stages that have to happen to each and every person. But don't think that this is the actual truth, that people understand this and feel like you. Only you feel that it is being revealed to you. So each and every one that reveals his true nature sees that there is no one worse than him in the whole world. That is how we are. Every single will to receive, even the smallest or the greatest, will always feel himself as being the worst. Because first of all there is no one like him as each and every desire is a desire of its own. This is how we advance. We need to know, discover this in the right way, to suffer and tolerate these things. Against these things, then try to work in a cold spirit inside the 10. Try to arrange the connections between us in such a way that everything that is revealed, especially when it is revealed in a negative way, that you are happy that you now have an opportunity to make it positive through the connection in the group. You have to constantly hold on to your connection with the group first of all. Prepare yourself and then all of the negative things that are being revealed, you will be able to invert them, change them to being positive, to build a middle line from them. A connection with the 10 on one hand, on the right hand, and on the other hand some bad is happening where you say you are discovering some bad that you are causing everyone and you connect. You connect how? You connect them in the middle line. You are not canceling the left and leaving the right rather you are trying to connect between them.
S. So, let's say the desire appears in me, something bad appears and I cannot overcome it. Is it always going to be like this?
R. What?
S. Some egoistic state, desire?
R. That is good, you are prohibited from destroying this ego, we need to rise above it. The Creator didn't create anything redundantly, neither the egoistic desires nor His forces, I need to use them in the right way.
S. What does it mean ‘correctly’?
R. I need to bless for the bad as I do for the good.
S. How do you do that?
R. It is because the bad that is being revealed, the Creator created that bad on purpose so that through the correction of the evil, I will be able to come to Him. The correction of the evil not to erase it.
S. Okay but how do I correct it? All kind of states appear in me, I’m not able to overcome them, how can I correct them?
R. By the reforming light, it's not that you do it, the light does this, you don't know how to do it.
S. Okay how do we draw this light? I mean, I study I do whatever I’m supposed to . . . where exactly do we draw this light?
R. This is by you being with the friends, learning the materials and try to implement it in the connections between you. Then the Creator organizes your connection in such a way that you will be able to begin to revealed according to the equivalence of form, according to your desires that are connected in Him. It is the law of equivalence of form. The desires that come to connect need to truly be in the same form like the light.
13. S. (51:09) What does it mean that I use something negative towards connection?
R. We ask for the will to receive in order to receive be inverted into a desire to receive in order to bestow. Specifically our ego we invert to become the force of good. This is called ‘the darkness shall shine as light.’
14. S. (51:45) What are we wrong about? Where are we mistaken and what keeps us from growing?
R. That we don't want to implement what is written, that we just hear and in practice we are not doing. We don't want to implement and to realize the advice of the Kabbalists. We will try to do this together, soon we are coming to the understanding of our situation, in a few days or a week and you will see that it will change. I really hoped for this that I also am expecting for it to happen to you.
S. How do we relate more seriously with greater responsibility to the relations between us in the 10?
R. That is the whole problem, we don't attribute the importance to the connection between us because this is the main thing, the main area where the evil inclination stands and bothers us not letting us relate seriously but also in the fact that we cannot relate seriously to connection between us. That we forget about it, in this also we need to see advancement because prior to this it was easier to speak about it and today it is much more difficult. This is a sign of advancement. At first all of the friends were good guys. We could have done all kinds of connections between us, today no. Today we already can't, we are more distant and each is important, taking more of a place. This is a form of advancement of the will to receive, but the will to receive is growing only in accordance with as much as we do the corrections so in everything there is both good and its opposites.
15. S. (55:00) It turns out that the Torah, the light all sums up to building one connection between us?
R. Do it together and you will see what will happen.
16. S. (55:45) If I heard correctly you said that when the evil is revealed that we have to accept it with a cool mind and even bless over the bad as the good this is hard to do as I do yearn for the connection with the friends but how can I look at it in such a level-headed way?
R. How can you grow the connection if you don't discover the corruptions between you?
S. Usually I don't like this situation, I hate the evil that is revealed and I try more to use my connection with the friends to mainly run away from the bad.
R. So you're saying that if I am alone, then the ego that is revealed, I feel as bad, if I am in connection with the friends then the ego that is revealed only shows me where we can now together, because we are there to correct it and come to the good. This is the whole thing, therefore if you're not connected with the friends and those the ego comes and you are like a fool who sits and embraces himself, eating his own flesh. If you are connected with the others, with the friends. Then you see that the increasing ego is an opportunity to enter into it and to destroy it to do battle and subdue it to a rise to the next degree.
S. Do I understand the unpleasant situations that appear in the ego that this is what my point in the heart awakens within me and also draws me to the friends to combine these two states?
R. Yes.
17. S. (57:30) What is the spiritual and corporeal definition of pride and how shall we tell the friends who have studied for seven or eight years and cannot rise above their pride and say they are going to quit studying?
R. Correct that happens many times I don't understand why they stopped studying, why they stopped their spiritual development even if they don't feel, and they know all of these things if they've been there for seven or eight years and they've probably read all of our sources then they understand that this is the path. What did they find, something else? Of course not, so they got despaired because they don't want to work with their ego, I understand them but I don't think that there is any room here for despair, there is room to continue in life. Look what we do in our corporeal lives, we live nevertheless and advanced, we bring our kids, we develop and we want to see our grandchildren and life continue. It is the same here, you need to do it such that the study of the wisdom of Kabbalah will be a part of your life. If you can invest more in this than invest oh, even better. This is very good, if not but at least something, somewhat. Wherever you are. Somewhat if you know at least the morning lesson, and that soon we will be able to do conventions, connection. The main thing is not to leave, as it is written anything but leave. When you leave and even become hostile when you get annoyed that it didn't work out for you according to you, it didn't happen, this is truly you degrading everything. It is like you have not any reward or profit, but a true loss. This is why we need to continue in a light way, in an easy way.
18. S. (01:01:31) As we advance in the will to receive more negativity and problems come, we draw the reforming light to become closer to it?
R. We have no problems as it is simply the same obstacles that we need to overcome and to pass which are revealed from the root of our soul in each and every one. It is not that we got stuck along the way somehow and that if we were to go another way we would be stuck another way, no. What is depicted before us as the world, where I see the world, I see myself in an opposite way just like we learn from the perception of reality. Therefore, this is what I see and this is what I need to see and this is what I need to discover but in accordance with as much as I am more or less in a state of correction it all depends upon my inner correction, I can see wars, I can see the Garden of Eden it all depends upon my inner correction because all together that is what I see before me, it is truly like that.
19. S. (01:03:14) How can we Implement in the 10 what is written?
R. Like it is written, try and do this and show an example to your friends from this in the 10 and you will see that it will be much easier.
Excerpt 15 (01:03:51 - 01:06:25)
20. R. Meaning two forces come and they connect to one goal as in the adhesion between them and the creature that is called Adam which they are connected together, before that it is just a beast, desire, or body, biological, we don't talk about. We are always talking about the forces. Good and bad connect together in one system it is called Adam HaRishon. Then all of this system sees itself as coming closer to adhesion.
21. S. (01:07:16) All of the answers you give this entire lesson don't satisfy anything within me, where are the corrections and where is the in order to bestow and where is the unity we engage all day in the zoom meetings are the physical meetings? When do we truly begin to engage in the true corrections?
R. Nice, you said it nice. That really, we are all waiting for corrections. They can't come before we draw them to us, therefore there is no wonder here that we don't see all these corrections because still we are not inviting them to come. Where? Tell me do we have desire? The place is called desire, where do you have a place in which these corrections can come and arrange for you this place which demands correction? In this place, later the Creator will be revealed, what is the Creator will be revealed? That the desires will be in such a connection, in such a way, in such a manner that you will see and feel in this the appearance of the Creator. These are your desires, it's not that someone comes and falls into that same place. But rather that's your desires. That your demand for them to receive such corrections that you will call these corrections, come and see, the Creator. Now the question is are you preparing within you such desires that you want the Creator to be revealed? How much closer did you come to this, what did you do?
The whole Torah is only in order to teach you how you prepare a place for the Creator, where your desires will begin to be stabilized in a form that is called Creator, in order to bestow. Are you trying for your desires to be connected and aimed to in order to bestow? Or are you sitting waiting and expecting, crying about what you don't have? You need to make the Creator as it is written, you made me out of the fact that we connect all kinds of conditions together in order to all together come to a certain form of bestowal we come to a picture that is called the Creator, a picture in our senses, desires, intentions, flavors. All together, we build and make him from our desires. It is not that it comes from above upon us like it lands on us from the heavens, but rather from within us, from us. We don't receive something outside of us but rather from the qualities that are in us, from those qualities which connect and from there, the complexity and special composition a form of the Creator is created, bestowal, love, mutual guarantee. We need to build all the preparations for this as we cannot come to true implementation and its final form but to prepare these things as much as possible. This we need to do and later we can say that the Lord will complete things for me, where I can't arrange this final form because I don't understand for who, for me it is new. But the fact that I prepared myself correctly I received this form that comes from above so preparation for the connection of my qualities that will give me attainments, feeling of the Creator this is all of our work.
S. Let's say I want the friends to be happy and I have nothing to give each and every time.
R. Anyway, you are not allowed to be sorry about this, you need to be glad that you have such thoughts, then also the Creator gives you and if you receive it with joy, the main thing is joy. If you receive it with joy then you advance. If you are sorry then it is like you are throwing it back at the Creator what he is giving and doing for you. You are not allowed to be sorry. There are ascents and descents, it is written in Torah to do anything but leave. This is why I don't understand people who leave, where are you going? You are returning to your complete beastly existence? What are you going to do?
22. S. (01:14:34) How do I know that I received the light that corrects the 10?
R. You feel it or maybe before the feeling you need to believe that all of their requests even if you're not speaking them from your heart but if you are writing it on a piece of paper, you write your request that you think, twice and written is written something that has great in greater power than thinking, I write a lot and I don't write in order to publish it or something but rather so that I will more correctly know how to express the internality of the heart. Try it, it really helps.
23. S. (01:16:09) It is known that the Torah is called a spice, why is this enough just to be as a spice and to invert the intention in order to bestow?
R. A spice is called an addition by which we can eat, without the spice you can't eat. Spice is all of the additions that the food has which is a hint that implies that the Torah is altogether and addition to the evil inclination, with all of the pictures and all of the connections that everything is done in the evil inclination, in the will to receive but the depiction of the connections comes from Torah. Meaning that you have many desires that are shattered. What does the Torah come for? It comes how to connect them together and to use them correctly, no desire is corrupted as the connection between them is corrupted. The Torah comes helping us, telling us how we need to connect between us, between all of those desires, how do we connect between us as friends in the group? This is the work.
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24. R. We see here how there are two ways in the study of Torah to learn in order to be smart and to retain what is written there with our intellect and that is completely opposite understand what we need to learn in order to change ourselves to become similar to the Creator in our inner qualities, to change by the Torah in our inner qualities. These are two completely contradictory ways and it cannot be that they will ever connect to one another or be parallel. This is why we need to pay attention to why I am learning, whether it is in order to know and to understand and to be a big wise guy or in order to improve myself and to make of myself some such a will to receive that the Creator will be able to close, to be a resting point, a vessel for the revelation of the Creator. This is the whole point. Look at what he says, a person cannot do anything for the benefit of the Creator, no one and only the light of Torah will correct the heart, our desire. For the light is called desire and on behalf of nature a desire to receive. How can a person go against nature, therefore the Creator said “I've created the evil inclination I've created the Torah as a spice” meaning he gave an opportunity to invert the desire and it follows that he is not learning to last for the intellect, do you understand but that he is learning in order to understand so as to achieve adhesion with the Creator. That which is clothed in the Torah and pertains to the heart, through the lights that he will receive it reforms him, meaning that the will to receive for his own sake and receive strength from above, the will to receive strength from above to be able to work for the Creator, to be like the Creator that the Creator will be clothed and revealed in the created being,
25. S. (01:26:37) The difference between the yearning to study Torah to reach adhesion with the Creator and constantly holding all of these thoughts within me and the study of the mind How do we learn specifically how to reach a decision with the Creator?
R. That is what we are learning, this is why you remember that I was kind of yelling at someone here from Moscow who asked when we will study TES, in such a way that he thought of learning TES, I am not learning this way. The difference is we understand the difference is immense between corporeality and spirituality, therefore it is called the counting pages. I don't go to study in such a way because we won't learn anything, you won't know what that is because you're not attaining one word in the correct way. The screen, the reflected light, the coarseness, the purification, all of those things there is no such thing as you're just speaking words. That's why the study of the wisdom of Kabbalah is when you rise to the degree of the wisdom and then what you learn happens in you.
S. If I understand correctly in every moment in our lesson if I don't hold within me the thought that I am doing this in order to achieve adhesion with the Creator and the friends then automatically I fall into a descent? (Cut off by Rav)
R. Yes, but it is not so bad as we ascend and descend multiple times and all of these things that are found it is any case in order that we scrutinize them so we must fall and afterwards we must rise to get up and once again we will fall and again we will rise these are the scrutinies and the corrections. These are the corrections.
S. What helps us to remember this during the lesson?
R. The thoughts of the friends as much as inside and each one that there is the correctness, the readiness to be in the states that we must attain the internality, that all of these things shall happen within us that we are found inside. Let's say two different shade, let's say you see a movie you can see it from the outside that you are looking at it and that you can get into it so much emotionally into the movie that you're really inside of it did you forget about the whole world there's nothing else you are inside this movie. This is what we must make such efforts that spirituality shall occur in us
26. S. (01:30:20) I'm trying to feel how to relate to these things, what is the relationship between Torah and the Creator and how do we relate to these things?
R. Torah is the means of the revelation of the Creator to men that we will better understand Torah is the means in order to build the depiction of the Creator in man and then that same creature that has the form of the Creator only then is he called Adam. From this he is similar to the Creator.
27. S. (01:31:29) We can't correct the will to receive so what does it mean to correct the will to receive?
R. In the intention.
28. S. (01:31:48) Can you explain what it means to correct the heart, you said it's about being similar to the Creator may you elaborate please?
R. Intentions, I want that my heart shall be similar to the Creator just like the Creator is the bestowing force I want in all of my forces that I feel them in my heart they shall be intentions to bestow.
29. S. (01:32:23) If I understand correctly in order for corrections to come when you do right deficiency?
R. We also received from the study which belongs to the correction.
S. Is what we are lacking to focus more on getting the right deficiency?
R. Yes, certainly everything is dependent upon the deficiency.
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30. S. How in the 10 should hatred and remoteness from the Creator be expressed?
S. The answer is yes.
31. S. (01:36:43) The text talks about the will to receive to come to the wisdom of Kabbalah should we first of all strip off a natural will to receive and then we can come to the wisdom of Kabbalah?
R. I don't know what he's talking about. We need to do what's written in the books and not to add our own philosophies.
32. S. (01:38:09) Through engagement in Torah we draw the reforming light. What is this act of engagement in Torah?
R. All of that means that the Kabbalists tell us to inform, to progress in spirituality is called connecting in the tens, fulfilling some conditions for the study and to expect the lights that reforms to strengthen one another and this is in sum total what we need.
33. S. (01:38:55) How do we ask for the light?
R. You request correction this is asking for the lights, what does it mean to request correction this is called connection between us, correction is called bestowal, it is called connection, love, it is first expressed in the social form between us that we are made closer to one another. We need to make ourselves the depiction of the vessel of Adam HaRishon that is going and being corrected. Meaning that it is connecting more as one person in one heart. This is what must be. I need to stop looking at all of these faces before me and I need to see and feel the desires in their faces, the desires. With the same desires I want to connect.
34. S. (01:40:09) Is it more important to learn in the lesson or to hold on to the friends during the lesson?
R. Hold on to the friends during the lesson as the preparation and the study in all sorts of forms of connection that we learned during the time of the study is the study. You need both, you need to prepare yourself just like the students of Rabbi Shimon or the connection before the study and then already in the lesson to enlarge the connections between us through all sorts of forms.
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35. S. Is establishing and intention personal work or is it given from the Creator?
R. It is not so much a reward but a result of our exertion that we want to connect to arrange the vessel of Adam HaRishon, as one general soul of everyone end from within our efforts will you reach desire that it should happen and that in this we draw the lights at reforms and it caused his connection between us and was in the connection between us of the different vessels that are opposing one another we should have a light. In the connection between us there is also resistance and also a desire to connect above the resistance in such a manner we reach the revelation of the Creator and as much as there is resistance and in any case above this we have the force of connection, accordingly we reveal the Creator more and more. Rather Adam HaRishon could not reveal him as he only had the light of Hassadim, meaning he wasn't connected by his own forces with anyone or anything, just like that it was called that he is on a trip in the Garden of Eden at the level of Bina. But by this that awakens in him, the desire Malchut this great big will to receive, now he operates above his will to receive all together we are Adam and getting close to a state where the will to receive will connect and reveal the Creator in the connection between us.
36. S. (01:49:05) How do we use the evil inclination for connecting with the Creator so that we can unite with the Creator above it?
R. That is what we are doing, our desires in each one of us are opposing and contrasting and therefore we see the others that they are outside of us in different bodies, in different states. I need to bring myself to a state that it is not important for me how I see others, I see them that they are truly within me. This is how I skip over this physical distance and I bring them closer to me emotionally so much that we can detect to ourselves that we are as one man in one heart. According to this we are bringing the Creator closer to us.
S. I do exercises to depict that the friends are standing in my heart, how do I find the Creator there?
R. You are revealing two contrasting things that in any case are to be in connection and that connection between them is the creator. It can be that the connection is not yet intense enough in order to reveal him for you but in any case you already feel that there is something from spirituality, some small illumination maybe even Symbolic sometimes.
S. What are the contradictions to connect with?
R. Of course we are connecting two opposing things, your desire and another desire. There is nothing else besides desires and various foreign opposing desires. As much as you can in any case see something in them that they are becoming closer to one another and in this you are building the form of the Creator. The Creator is the form that you build out of the opposing contrasting things you built him. There is no such thing that the Creator exists before creation, the Creator that we must reveal and build, no, the upper force is something else.
S. Does it also contain within it the opposing in opposite forms?
R. Yes.
37. S. (01:52:15) He writes that when a person comes to learn Torah he has to build the intention, while we are always learning how to improve the intention more and more each time.
R. Also we are worried about how to improve the intention.
38. S. (01:52:50) We will soon start learning TES and we will soon be learning all sorts of names. Is it correct to make an effort to clothe our work in these words or will it confuse us, this intellectual effort?
R. Do not confuse it. It must intentionally be this way, all of TES and the wisdom of Kabbalah is talking about the broken vessels that we must be on this intention.
39. S. (01:53:37) How do we increase our common deficiency in the 10 to reveal the light that corrects by connecting with each other?
R. We must correctly depict to ourselves what it means, why it is called the state that we must reach, what it is composed of and how do we prepare it to be revealed? If we have the final stage that we want to reach and a few stages beforehand already we are arranging ourselves correctly and we are drawn correctly to it. Talk amongst yourselves later how you correctly stabilize and form this state.
40. S. (01:55:11) We have a great desire to study TES, how can we prepare in ten for the study of TES?
R. In the meantime learn what we're learning right now and in a few days we will start.
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41. R. Every morning we get up at 2:30 we do the preparation, for the preparation and this morning I couldn't get up, I got up only at 3 and I feel like I can't even direct myself toward the 10 or ask anything of the Creator, can you somehow comment for this?
R. I don't know, try, try, feel sorrow the main thing and it's to now connect as much as possible.
42. S. (01:58:08) What are the fruits and the good results from the learning?
R. The results of the study must be that a person corrects himself. This is what the study to the extent means for that a person corrects and reaches in his corrections to be similar to the Creator. To the extent that he is similar to the Creator he begins to feel himself just as the Creator does because this is the spiritual law and this is what we want to reach. In the sum total we have a goal to reach a state where we feel ourselves as the Creator. What does it mean like the Creator? The Creator enjoys from bestowal and we also enjoy from bestowal, the Creator bestows to everyone and we also bestow to everyone. This is also for correction and fulfillment that we will reach a state that we are like the Creator as it is truly in us that we just need to break a bit our attitude to understand these things in the correct form.
S. What does it mean to bestow because we don't have this in us?
R. Very simple, do everything the friends want, do what they want, that is called bestowal. You are yearning to fulfill your desire t0 make and do what the friends want instead. This is called to pass from reception to bestowal. Simple.
43. S. (02:00:33) What is the connection a disciple should develop with his teacher to understand the language of roots and branches?
R. First of all listen to what the Rav says, the teacher says that you learn in someplace so that first of all you hear what the teacher tells you and if you are a good student you make an effort to carry out what the teacher says, advises, demands, this is one thing. The second matter is that you truly want actively and practically to fulfil and realize what the teacher is talking about, then this teacher then becomes a guide, that he takes you through all of these states that you cannot go over them yourself and you begin to see all that, yes, he is advising you and drawing you, really arranging for you the correct path from your initial state that you don't understand, that you don't know, that you are not capable, all the way to the states that you can and will be big strong and wise. This is called the connection with the teacher and we must make an effort to receive these forces from him, but not passively but rather in a manner that you carry out what the Creator tells you. Doing your homework is what it is called.
44. S. (02:03:00) From the Fathers and Sons convention, where we had 250 gathered in a physical assembly, are the conditions better for drawing the reforming light?
R. In a physical assembly I don't think it gives much, it could be that it should actually make things more difficult and give us troubles. As the world gathers into a more virtual connection it becomes easier and we need to use this more. Also, what is physical? You can then connect, maybe in some 10 or part of one to be there physically. How long can you be there and how many times can you connect? This does not really exist and to be carried out. Here we have a large place where we can have many people, to bring many people here and you see here Avot Ve Banim, which are now in the south, in the Negev. We went there twice to connect. It doesn't seem to me that the Fathers and Sons is something else, but it doesn't seem to us that in the friends of Bnei Baruch that it is justified to do such a thing. Because by this we are distancing ourselves from the world vessel, we have friends everywhere, all sorts of additional from all over from the edge of the world to the other edge. How can we make such a large Congress to have everyone come, it is impossible. I think that our efforts must be in any case, to be a virtual effort. If you can in the meantime in the 10 be connected, sometimes also corporeally, try it. But I think that also virtually we can feel just how much we are lacking the source of connection and request it. The main thing is the prayer just like we learn everything is attained by the force of prayer.
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45. S. Is it through the 10 to attract more upper light to correct yourself?
R. Of course yes, this is called they helped everyone his friend, meaning to the extent that we envy each other, to the extent that we look at each other and learn from each other by this we add to the deficiency that we naturally have, other deficiencies and then it is as if we connect our desires for the Creator into one desire and this is called Malchut and with this common disposition from us, from our Malchut to the Creator, which is the Keter, we build a relationship with Keter and the Creator fills all of these desires with all kinds of forms and fillings.
46. S. (02:11:21) What does it mean the student is obligated himself to be strengthened in faith?
R. It means that the student wants to strengthen himself with faith because besides face you don't need anything this is the force of bestowal that we acquire. The student must acquire, feel and determine that he is learning in order to achieve bestowal, this is called pledging to come to faith.
47. S. (02:12:20) You said that from within our mutual desire that we are building, our Malchut, how do we work with Keter? What does that mean?
R. Keter means that we yearn to come to connection with him, which is the Creator, there is nothing else for now. Afterwards in TES we will open these things up more.
S. When we connect together, we already feel a pleasure from the connection. How do we do it so that the intention would be in order to bestow contentment to him?
R. If we don't come to it then at least we are in a preparation but even if we are not preparing, that it is not in our plan, then all of our actions for the time being will not bring us any benefits.
S. What does it mean that we bestow to him from the connection between us like He bestows to us?
R. It depends what we are talking about, usually it is that to the extent that you yearn for the Creator you can discover he yearns for you. It is a matter of direct and reflected light, everything depends upon the reflected light. According to the power of this reflected light you discovered the direct light.
S. What here is the returning light, the reflected light?
R. The reflected light means that it is what I want to give back to the Creator the abundance that I feel that he brings me. When I want to clothe his relation on my relation I for my beloved and my beloved is for me.
48. S. (02:14:41) We learn about the preparation for the study and I wanted to ask about the preparation for the Congress that has begun, beginning with in the tens we are making an effort to scrutinize how to better prepare ourselves. What must we strengthen ourselves in during the time of preparation in the 10’s, in the world Kli? How do you see this? What should we do?
R. I think you need to discuss this amongst yourselves and not to ask me. I have nothing to say about this, it all depends on the friends. It all begins and ends among the friends so you need to think how to do these connections correctly. But I am happy to hear you are concerned with it.
S. Preparation has begun. How could we unite the preparation, as there's always something lacking in each 10?
R. It is always going to be so, the more we advance, the more directed we become toward the goal and move further away from the will to receive towards the intention to bestow then of course we will get more and more difficult, more confused and tired, we won't feel where we are exactly. It is always like that of course and we will always be hearing about friends who are leaving or who want to leave, because they don't feel that every day they are getting a nice tip for getting up to connect, for attending the lesson, if there's no pay they don't come. They came in order to receive, not in order to give. From day to day it will get more difficult and in the world also we will see more difficult things. We think that the world can overcome the states that it went through in the year and a half of this pandemic, no. We will see very bad things as we deteriorate in technology, in supplies, in people's relations, in education, in everything, the world will not be as it was. It will become more tense and bad. Mainly, it doesn't have a method or the power or the desire to deal with it, as it cannot connect humanity and tell everyone let us do this and that because without this we will die, humanity doesn't care. They are willing to do what is good for them now, what happens later? Of course they can talk about, saying nice words in all kinds of forums, but the bottom line in practice they will feel not good, the situation is not good and it won't get any better. So let us try as quickly as possible to connect among us in order to understand the direction and to be able to circulate it to everyone and even though we are so small that we are not seen or felt at all in this huge mass, we have to understand in the end that what succeeds is not the mass but the idea and the closer it is to the upper force, to the Creator, by this we will be able to be saved and to succeed.
S. As the main place in the preparation for the Congress, how do we help other 10s to increase the importance of the morning lesson? How can a 10 help other 10s?
R. First of all I don’t have any materials. I have not received even one written word about the Congress, nothing. Send it to me so I can see what it is about. What you want from the Congress, how it is built, its topics, the topics of the lessons, the workshops by all means I am ready. I am willing to participate and then I will speak about it during the lessons as well. You can also write what you think should be in the preparation lessons for the Congress. I see the congress as something that is not separated from our daily lessons, so let us do it but I have not received anything.
49. S. (02:21:17) Towards the Congress we have chosen a form of preparation where each 10 will prepare within itself and participate in the preparation, reading content, we have set assignments and we have the assignment for two meetings to scrutinize what are the goals, how are we working and how are we preparing each 10 as one 10 towards the Congress and we have reached such a question that there is this tendency and direction that we are preparing inside the 10 to strengthen the center and then we meet together with another 10 who did the same action of strengthening their center of the 10, how do we use the center of the these two 10s to prepare for the Congress?
R. I'm not certain we should do that, try to connect among yourselves but it is a problem because to the extent you begin to connect among yourselves you will begin to ask should two 10s be as one 10. If it's one 10 then it's one 10 of 20 people? That's not a 10. We are connected today but what about tomorrow? Are we going back to the previous format (of 10s)? So there is a problem here, we still don't know how to do it. I think that only for the purpose of the Congress connect in the work, in the act of the Congress and if not for the act of the Congress, then you exist as two (different) 10's.
S. Let's say we can take such a model like our 10. How can we add towards the Congress, the preparation, to the entire world Kli? How do we bestow to it?
R. Of course you are influencing the whole Kli, the whole vessel of Bnei Baruch and the more concentrated, focused you are and connected and you want to bestow. How do you do this? It's to the extent you raise MAN for others by this, you influence or bestow. It is all only through prayer as we learned so try to influence the Creator, to turn to the Creator for the sake of others. This is called influencing them or also bestowing upon them. The connection between you should also be through the Creator, not that one embraces the other, this doesn't count. But only if it is through the Creator who is between us then it passes as a spiritual form.
50. S. (02:24:30) You teach us to keep the circle that we have in the world Kli to have no group that stands out more, that there shall be nothing that stands out in any place, as a result from the center here (in Petach Tikvah) there are many things happening that the word Kli doesn't know about, that we are missing. Like one week ago there was a lecturer for the Russian department and there were more than a thousand people there and nothing was spoken about it in the morning lesson. There were other events that no one spoke about, is this okay like this or are we missing something here?
R. It is correct that this is so, but this is not good that it is so because we should help each other through envy, lust, and honor, each one of us can grow. When I look at others if you or some group does something, some operation and I hear about it here or there, why are we not talking about it and why are we not doing a presentation of a few minutes for example? That something happened in some country or in some place or with some group, some international group why not? It all depends upon you, you expect me to do something? I am closed only with in my lesson. I am concerned about what I gave today and what I will give in tomorrow's lesson, besides the lesson all of those operations you mentioned now, the Fathers and Sons in the desert that you can see now, I also didn't know that they were doing it. Now I see it together with you. You should take care of it on your own.
S. Is there a place to speak more about this?
R. There is room to talk about it because by this everyone will learn, be incorporated and they will envy and grow. You are asking me as if you just began first grade now. How can it be that you have read and learned so much and you are asking questions that really have no answers already. It is obvious before you even ask what you need to do. If you have an opportunity to share with everyone inspiration and awaken everyone, and you don't want to, you didn't think about it. So it's no wonder that you’re behind.
51. S. (02:28:07) The will to receive that makes things difficult, that says it's a long path,too much work, on the other hand we don't need to wait for corrections till tomorrow, we don't need to delay them, right!? We need to invest now how can I 100% at each moment work for the friends?
R. Only if you hold each other and give each other examples only in this way will it be.