Morning Lesson August 7, 2021, Transcription
Annulment as a Preparation for Ibur [Impregnation]
1. R. Each time I try to find more and more sources and excerpts that can explain to us further and further what it means to prepare for conception and also to see in this preparation states that we can establish correctly, states that are truly a challenge in spiritual work. It is a very difficult state because we are not connected and we need to connect between us to be the spiritual embryo, to be that kernel that all around it, humanity can also connect. This work is truly not simple because for the first time we begin to work with the earthly mind, the corporeal mind but in a spiritual way. With our corporeal desires it is also the desire to receive that works as though it is bestowing, we need to clarify and sort out all of these desires in a way that they will somehow be ready to receive the shape of bestowal. This is not seen by us, we don't see the examples from spirituality so there is a problem of how we do this, how do we move from one world to another. If we wouldn't know how to give birth, how could we come up with such a thing, to invent such a thing?
Just think of yourself that you think that you find yourself on another planet and you look at the people or creatures there and you don't know how they multiply, how they exist, how they give birth to their descendants, you don't know. How can it happen the way that it happens, that they will produce more and more development, why isn't it that the first generation is also the last generation that it just keeps developing and developing so that it doesn't need to give birth to the next generations and the next generations. Let's just say that they develop until they correct themselves and that is it. What is happening here? In short, there is a very complex process taking place here and it is not because the Creator is confusing us of course, it all comes from the beginning point of creation and the endpoint of creation. These two points in order to connect them and create a line of development from one point to the other we actually have to see what the end result will be in the initial thought and then from these two points the entire axis of development is born. We and all the changes that we go through and that we feel on ourselves. It is a wonder how this happens and we have to discover these wonders on ourselves and do them on our own to understand and attain them so the entrance to this research and to this work that we do on our form that we ourselves are doing and as a result of that we advance.
As it says from your actions we know you, that is what we have to do and it is not simple for us to even recognize the form of the spiritual work to be ready to approach it correctly, that is also not simple and this is what we are trying to do in annulment as a preparation for impregnation. Let's read these excerpts as much as possible to incorporate with them together in our desire because just like in that little video that we saw in the beginning of the lesson, as this sperm wants to go deeper and deeper into the upper one and to cling to the upper one, to adhere to the upper one even though there is a lot of difficulties so just as there are a lot of difficulties that the upper one is giving before the lower one. They strengthen and shape the lower one correctly so that it can enter the upper one and grow there, it is a true struggle between the lower one and the Creator because Malchut wants to connect with Bina, the two opposite forms.
Excerpt 1 (06:53)
2. S. (09:27) We here listen to your father's instructions and do not forsake your mother's instructions. What does this mean?
R. That you receive from above two forces, the detaining force and depicting force and these two forces give you the force similar to the Creator, the force of Bina and Hochma that work on you as you cancel yourself as a part Malchut and you want to resemble Keter. The action of annulment towards Keter and being similar to Keter by taking on the forces of Bina and Hochma as they are being calibrated in you, they turn into Adam similar to Keter to the Creator.
S. Why should we believe that before the soul left the body it was connected to the Creator?
R. So you know then, how do you know? This is an order for us to try to reach the root of the soul by our actions.
3. S. (11:16) Every sentence we read we understand how we're not even in this ….
R. You don't understand how high the state that we are in is. You are now entering the Creator as an embryo.
S. The theory is beautiful, the seed in the womb …. but if you don't pass the test in the end, it is worth it all, you don’t have forces for it, as much as you don't break the bones in the body it's not worthwhile.
R. That's not correct because you don't nullify yourself enough the way that the Creator can work on you with his forces from above, you need to give Him the annulment from below.
S. I'm doing it.
R. No, you need to do it further until you achieve complete nullification and then you will be able to enter the Creator, Bina as it is, Keter, Hochma, Bina is the GAR the upper part of the Creator that works through the Keter, through the forces Bina and Hochma on us and if you cancel yourselves to begin to get into the area where these two forces work on you and shape you as similar to the Creator.
S. I need this force to cancel and I don't have this force and then you just see as much as you reject.
R. You will do all of the actions possible and ask the Creator to cancel your ego. Pray that you wanted, you are standing at the point where you are literally standing between Heaven and Earth as it is called, ask above your mind to cancel towards him and here you need the help of the group. There is no other way for us. We have to understand that this is why the Creator broke the desire to receive into pieces and so you see the people of the world, the human beings, all of them by their connection they are now able to achieve annulment before the Creator. We have here in this world all of the conditions. That if we cancel ourselves each one towards the others, not towards the whole world, but towards the ten. That we can demand of the Creator to give us the possibility to connect between us to such an extent that we will feel what connection is because feeling the connection is already a spiritual force, it is already the force of Bina. It will be okay I promise you, just keep going as you see we are working in such a world that all of the external circumstances are helping us, everything that is happening in the world is no longer attractive, this world no longer gives me any temptation that I will try to chase some goal from day to day. I discovered how low and free falling this world really is.
4. S. (15:50) Are these two forces, fear and love and how does this work?
R. No, I don't want to get confused now with that. Some more this way or that way, some less. We will learn that in a more consistent way, you can say is like fear in love but they also have many kinds of expression and so let's follow the quotes. I am really asking you to follow what is written otherwise we will go in many directions. This is why I am not so allowing everyone to ask.
5. S. (17:15) What does it mean to cancel completely in order to be born?
R. We don't know what it is, we don't know when it will come but each time that we stand on a crossroad and I'm listening to myself my ego or listening to the Creator, the will to bestow, connecting to the group studying, then I need to really feel myself here how much I am in this decision point. Who do I relate myself to, who do I belong to. So, in the meantime I'm not an embryo that I can truly relate myself to the Creator clearly like we saw in that video but still I am pushing myself towards connection into the group into the study and this way I advance. Put it this way we are already on the path and if we continue this way then we will certainly reach a connection with the wall of the womb we will find our is place for spiritual development, that's it and then we will already feel that we are inside the mother inside the womb, inside Bina. The embryo in his mother womb, who sees from the end of the world to the other and we already feel how it is working in us of course according to the level of a nullification.
Excerpt 2 (19:28)
6. R. (19:41) You see, again, impregnation is a process where a person moves from his domain to the Creator's domain, he completely revokes his authority and dedicates himself to the Creator. Surely according to the level of will to bestow that appears in him as he is small but he is absolute.
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7. R. (20:43) Meaning it happens with each and every one, each one comes to a state where he really wants to nullify towards the Creator and completely lose himself and at the end the will to receive comes back and then a person sees that he forgets about creation and then you can't determine it correctly and he falls into egoistic desires and carry them out and they rule over him and so on and so forth.
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8. R. (21:53) Meaning like we saw that the drop of sperm, it keeps penetrating and penetrating until it has a constant connection with the mother. Then there are various struggles there and progress, it’s being guided and brought there, that is how we have to see ourselves that we can’t let go and go against all the disturbances and specifically that way we come to our designated place. We don’t know what that place is and why it is especially for us and why we need to cling to it, it is all predetermined and we need to just follow it.
9. S. (23:07) What is the sign that a person is successful in cancelling himself even temporarily to the Creator?
R. That he is above his ego and he is willing to be ready to realize that everything that he needs for the group and for the Creator, that is the sign, that is the sign in practice. This is against the disturbance that he has, let's say he wanted to go to sleep and he had to wake up for the lesson or he has an opportunity to do something interesting for his ego and he's letting it go and goes back to the topic of our lesson. So that's the inner struggle inside a person and the more he feels himself during the day, at night in these struggles, the more he is in this very sharp place where he can't move this way with the other and by that he sees how weak he is, incapable, how he keeps falling how we have no choice. That's how the Creator sets it up for us so that we will need Him that only by Him giving us the strength, the support then we will be able to decide that our will to receive is our enemy and we want to be adhered only to the will to bestow. That means we only want to rise above what we feel right now as it is nice and pleasant to engage with the will to receive and we'll let it go and engage with something unpleasant and then a person begins to see the universe makes another move towards the womb and he makes a connection.
10. S. (25:47) Mother's egg has a deficiency to absorb this sperm but we say there's a few million sperm on this journey and only one shows up, who gives that big deficiency to be observed?
R. Of course, it's the Creator and that's called men's free choice but certainly it's all orchestrated from above and if we add our participation from below then begins such a reciprocity between us and the Creator and this is how we advance, even in that preparation to enter the impregnation.
S. Who is in charge of the impregnation more, the embryo or the mother?
R. Only to nullify, it is not that simple.
11. S. (27:12) In the work in the ten we advance mainly through ascents and descents, now it seems the principle is annulment?
R. I don't know what were the ups and downs that you're talking about but certainly we have ups and downs not only in spiritual discernments but in terms of the movement, how we feel closer farther from the Creator. Also, the Creator we think about Him as good and pleasant then I don't think that the Creator is good and pleasant because we were talking about the actions of giving and bestowal it's not pleasant and good for us. We are seeing a false picture, we have to try to just follow what is written right now, don't drag with you what you were before. You let go of the pictures that you have; you get a new one and you'll see how that's the result of the other.
12. S. (28:47) At the moment I'm being distracted by a lot of other thoughts and actions and I'm trying to tell myself that there is None Else Besides Him and try again and again, is this the correct approach towards a moment, is this how we should approach it?
R. Yes, yes.
13. S. (29:34) Towards what can we annul in the lesson?
R. Towards the group, that we each want to hear as one man with one heart, we want to listen to the lesson together, we want to express that approach that action in the lesson is about.
14. S. (30:09) Later he fell from his degree and fell to a place of trash. We said that it is most important to not let go of the group but somebody in the group says I want to leave, I want to move to a different group. What should we do?
R. First of all, ask why you want to leave us?
S. We are not satisfying him.
R. That is the first thing you need to check, why are you not satisfying him.
S. How to behave with him, let him leave?
R. Maybe you need to behave differently so he won’t leave.
S. So we need to behave differently so he won’t leave?
R. That is the first thing to check.
15. S. (31:04) According to the two conditions of Rabash, to see the friends is the greatest and to see myself as the lowest, does that mean that they realize the study better than me to see it that way?
R. Yes, by realizing I don't exactly understand what you mean, we need to see how they absorb the lesson, how else can I check, as much as they devoted, as much as they come every time. According to that, I see that they're great, I'll tell you even more, you don't see on me but when I hear your questions I hear great questions, wise, that come from great people much more than me and that's how I can hear them. Look at what Rabbi Yossi ben Kisma is saying as much as we advance the more the friends seem wiser.
16. S. (32:51) How do you do it?
R. I don't do it, I feel it that way.
S. How do you feel us greater than yourself?
R. It has nothing to do with what you are, it is what I am seeing.
S. I wish, but how do you do it?
R. It's nothing to say about greatness it's to say about how I observe you, it's like a child and mother she sees him like the greatest, wisest, the smartest, is it because the child is like that, it is attitude towards him that makes him like that in her eyes.
17. S. (33:45) How to hear and understand, how to speak if we are in mother's womb?
R. I didn't understand the question. Are we in the mother's womb? We are on the way to the mother's womb and we need to adhere ourselves on the way to develop.
S. How to hear if we are in the womb?
R. I don't know what it means to hear or how to hear.
S. It's a question from a friend, it's not clear to me.
R. Rav draws. I can't say, we have the entrance and this area where the womb is are do it in a very primitive way and here is the entrance to the room so the seeds come from the father enters in the mother and here in the mother it has to go through a lot of more and more actions in order to reach the place where the seed starts developing. We have to understand that we are already here on some path but there are a lot of special conditions in order to enter the womb because in the womb the development is a lot more difficult, severe, a lot of resistance, scrutiny. As we understand there's millions of sperm cells that have to go through, each one has to do his work and that no one disappears, everyone is needed even though eventually one develops from 100 million. But the rest except for him also do the actions and they awaken the womb and they make the connection between the womb and that seed. That is called the future man needs the whole world, that the whole world are Earth dwellers that they participate in his spiritual development and then the development comes out outward. We need to see all of the friends that they are with him in the womb, it's all in all this. But all people on earth have to be connected to the development of that same embryo and that's why it can be that at this time, somebody would develop that it doesn't belong in this time because all earth dwellers, from the general system of the Adam HaRishon, they already determined who will be born now.
18. S. (38:23) I want to nullify myself and I see the friends so great, as you describe and I'm so little and I want to escape that.
R. You just need to annul you will be with them like that and don't be afraid of it, you will have a springboard towards the Creator that you annul in them and in this annulment in them you get this connection with the Creator.
S. How do I do it that I nullify in front of them, let's say I want to help them and I fill the vessels with light that did enter the heart, is that the correct state?
R. If you annul, then what you feel, that's correct.
19. S. (39:43) You said that when we enter the impregnation each one receives a different direction from the Creator to be properly arranged and calibrated to the entrance of the impregnation. How do we help friends that are receiving various directions, that are in different states? How can we pray for the friends that they accept this correctly that he's disturbance is my disturbance?
R. You want me to read the Rabash articles on society for you?
S. I just want you to give a direction, an intention.
R. The direction is connection. I have no more than that, Connection and we have to renew it every time, more and more.
S. If I see that the friend is in some state where he suffers and he can’t come out of it, what is my attitude to the friend? How can my prayer, my intention, the relationship between us. How do I relate to that? How can I help the friend?
R. How can you help? I don't know, but you must search for a way to help. Maybe you can help him in a corporeal way somehow, but the main thing is by your prayer towards the Creator for spiritual help.
S. It’s exactly what I’m asking. What is our prayer, what is the intention towards the friend who… each of us is in a different state?
R. To ask the Creator to help. Obviously, you can't do it alone, the Creator has to help you. Ask from the Creator and He performs it, in this man will help his friend.
S. How does he help? He helps him see that (cut off by Rav)
R. That is the Creator’s business, what He will do. You have to ask, and don’t tell the Creator what he needs to do.
20. S. (42:03) Why is the process of annulment painful and why is it sometimes with joy?
R. Of course it's painful because annulment is not pleasant and I don't like it. There's no taste in that so how can I be happy about it or satisfied? I can only be satisfied that by this action I'm coming closer to the Creator but for now I don't see any benefit, I don't see any results.
21. S. (43:11) At the beginning of the lesson you repeated the few times that impregnation is when one agrees with the Creator and annulled himself in front of the Creator, do we ask the Creator to do that with us?
R. Yes, exactly like that.
22. S. (43:44) You said all the people of the world determine who will be born now?
R. That the atmosphere that the person is born in that determines what kind of person they want to come out from Reshimot that is revealed now in the process of correction of Adam HaRishon.
23. S. (44:20) Rabash writes in one of the articles that a person is willing to nullify himself, that one time is willing to give up the excessive pleasures and some other times is willing to give up his existence. How does that work out?
R. It is part of the impregnation and that's the part of that process.
24. S. (45:10) Just not to worry about what we will eat for tomorrow?
R. Of course, otherwise what kind of annulment is it if I don't annul myself to all kinds of concerns, not in order to not feel these concerns.
S. What should we be concerned about and what shouldn't we be?
R. I am concerned about how we can be cancelled in front of the Creator, the whole world, the whole of humanity, the whole of the Universe, how do we cancel ourselves in front of the Creator that the Creator would make of us what he needs in the form of the last generation, the end of correction.
S. So what does it mean that he doesn't care about what he will eat tomorrow?
R. We obviously don't care about it, all I want to care about is that the Creator's plan will take place.
S. Concern for the future is concern for the others?
R. Towards the Creator that's what I want the desire of the Creator to take place. That's what I'm pulling everybody and you can call it the end of correction.
Excerpt 3 (46:44) Twice
25. R. (49:00) I hope that you will go over it during the day and maybe see other things in there but if you go and have questions, send them and we will scrutinize them. We also need to think about those who were not with us, that they will come later on and all of humanity that they will need to ask about these states.
Excerpt 4 (49:31)
26. R. (51:04) I see that there's some tiredness we got clogged, that came down on our entire Kli.
27. S. (51:25) In the former except it says about the fate, what does a person have to believe above reason, what does annulment have to do with fate?
R. In the simple way that I'm in now I have to take these things the way they exist, even if I don't know, I don't understand, I just take it and I work on that, that has nothing to do with my corporeal life, it's all in all towards spirituality.
S. You talk about the annulment that there are no preconditions. It sounds like there are preconditions that you have to believe about this and that.
R. In annulment we don't have conditions we just have to cancel ourselves according to what the Creator presents before us, usually happens when you are in a crossroads, when you are standing in front of force to bestow or the force of over reception, what should I do should I do an action of connection or study other corporeal things.
28. R. (53:08) We nearly finished the lesson. Let's have a workshop question: who can give us the topic of the workshop? Tell me what you recommend as the workshop topic.
29. S. (54:11) Exactly what we talked about in the lesson, the issue of annulment, it will also be by the way the topic of the meal, as our life now revolves around annulment before the upper one?
R. So what is the question we need to all discuss about?
S. We saw the video and now we want to know how that happens in spirituality. What is the process emotionally, in us and the 10s, how to enter the egg, how to nullify before the upper one?
R. You just have to cancel yourself the same way that you do when having kids, you don’t know you just do it as it is an instinct. Same way we need to perform our spiritual actions in order to be incorporated as a spiritual embryo in a spiritual womb. What do we need to do when we are the parts, Malchut when we connect all of us that's called through the ZA, and that's a line and we are entering the Bina, the mother. There we develop how we need to be annulled and how do we remove from that reach a state from all our annulment one to the other how can we reach a state of an embryo. We have a lot of questions here by this do I lose my independence and only feel the ten or even though I annul myself, I start developing myself more and more and in the ten, I develop in it, as I am in it or do we reach some sort of a partnership that there is no me in the friends and only the friends exist and I am with them like Rabash writes. What happens when we go towards the impregnation for sure the annulment needs to be complete and whole but what is the result of that what happens with us even though it will confuse us.
S. What happens with us when we are nullified completely each one through the ten and through the ten with the Creator.
S. What happens with us when we nullify ourselves with the 10 or to the ten with the Creator.
R. Let's do this workshop and prepare for the afternoon lesson, that we connect and see how we can connect ourselves together, all of us as one including the friends that are not here with us, that we include everyone and humanity who has that connection.
WSQ: How do we nullify ourselves each one towards the ten and from the 10th to the Creator?