Morning Lesson November 30, 2020 Transcription is made from simultaneous translation which leaves possibility for errors 

Lesson on the topic of Joy in all States

Selected Excerpts from the Sources. Shamati 40. What is the Measure of Faith in the Rav

1. Rav’s Introduction:

We learn that the whole of creation is the will to receive. Everything that happens, takes place inside of the will to receive. In the still, vegetative, animate and speaking, everything happens inside of the person. The person is the created being and all the rest, the still, vegetative, animate and speaking is what seems to the person that it exists inside of his will to receive this is how the Creator is depicting to him, depicting reality to him. This means that if we will be able to control our will to receive, to change it, in all kinds of directions, we don't yet know how, but if we will be able to do so, then we will be able to change reality. We will be able to depict to ourselves a different reality, a different world. Ourselves and the world that we are in, all of this can be changed. 

All of this was given to us to establish, according to our choice, according to how we will want to do it. That the Lord has created to do. This is why we have to divide reality into two. Reality either way that we perceive it, the way that we are. As we are born and as we develop in the will to receive and with this will to receive we cannot do anything and whatever we have that is what we have, we just accept it and in that we are in the animate level. Just like animals receive this reality, and that reality we can also change, truly change it, if we will be able to control our will to receive. To change it in some direction, this way, that way and to whatever direction we will change it, this is how we will see the reality in which we exist. We also will see ourselves that we are changing. Everything is given, is possible to change only through our will to receive and it was given for us to change it. One who controls it partially, for now, and he yearns to control the will to receive to the fullest, he is called a Kabbalist. 

He receives from the Creator the will to receive and he turns to the Creator and receives from Him forces with which to change the will to receive. And then, he can always change the world in which he exists. The reality in which he exists. The reality in all of the worlds in the entire ladder of degrees from here, from this state which is the worst, on the bottom of the ladder and up to the full height of the ladder, up to the peak, the top of the ladder. Everything was given to us to do. By us changing ourselves each time through our will to receive, as we go from degree to degree from state to state, from world to world, from perception to perception, each time we come closer to the true form. To the Creator, who is on the top of the mountain, on the top of the ladder. By that we are called Kabbalists. Human beings who wish to resemble the Creator, you are called man, Adam. As it says about those who want to change each time and to bring themselves to the degree of greater and greater similarity to the Creator. That is our work, that is our goal, and we need to try to carry it out. This means not to agree with whatever we receive now, but rather each time to search for how else can I change, can I improve the state that I received from the Creator. This is why the Creator says, I created the evil inclination. 

We always see reality in our corrupted desire. It is corrupted, since it is not one hundred percent to bestow like the Creator. In that it is corrupted. And we want this desire, we want to change it, to bring it so it will resemble the Creator, the will to bestow. And then in the will to bestow, after we will make it be revealed more and more, we will see our state as closer and closer to the Creator. In that way we will advance, that is our work. This means that each and every moment in my life I need to detect myself being in whatever state I receive from the Creator. That this state is revealed in my will to receive, because I created the evil inclination. The Creator created the will to receive. I am a created being. I exist in it and each moment I have before me, work. A problem that I need to do, to shift from the will to receive that is now being revealed in me and in it I feel reality, myself, my friends, the world, the Creator. 

I need to try to see it in a more sublime way, in a desire to bestow more which is closer to the Creator. By me correcting my will to receive which I received from the Creator, each time the Creator gives me a particular will to receive in which I feel reality and it is each and every moment. If I want to feel this way, I will feel it, that each moment is a new world, a new state. I then every moment need to want to be more adhered, closer, more bestowing, more connected with all of my friends, and through them, to the Creator. Until it will be so that I see that we are connecting between us and by that I, together with them, become one body, that wants to truly adhere to the Creator where I already have the Creator before me. When? When I include all the friends in my heart and then I am ready for adhesion with Him. This is how I reach the implementation of the situation that the Creator has placed before me.

That is, we have the beginning of the spiritual degree on the ladder of degrees where I'm in a certain state, and I understand I feel that I received it from the Creator. I understand it and I feel it in my will to receive. I understand that now I need to change my situation and I include within it the whole ten, and it helps me in such a way as to get rid of myself and to cling to them. This is as it says, the Creator placed man’s hand on the good faith, the good fortune and He says take it. Come closer to me. I, in the group and with the group, try to cleave to the Creator. What does that mean, that this entire state that I received I see it as a good state for advancement, for spiritual advancement? Indeed, I don't need anything else just to arrange it, to organize it, and this is how we advance. There are a lot of materials about it in the writings of Kabbalah. However each and every day we want to arrange for ourselves a certain new form of work, new advancement so that later on throughout the day we will try to actualize it, so that each day will be as a new day for us. As it says, they will be as new in your eyes. That way all of us, all of Bnei Baruch will advance from state to state, we can feel it this way. Therefore, the most important thing is that whatever we feel each and every moment, we should see it as a state that the Creator is giving me in order to change it. The change can only be inside my will to receive. Just like right now He is establishing for me a will to receive and giving me a certain fulfillment, a certain feeling. I need to change my will to receive and then the feeling will change. It should reach a state where I feel joy that I received that feeling from the Creator, it doesn't matter for me which one it is, it could be the worst, but through the society I can lift myself and it's always usually if it’s a serious state it's always through the environment, through the ten. Then I begin to change my attitude to reality. So that this will to receive that was given to me from Above and I went to invert it, to be in order to bestow. This is called, my sons defeated me. The Creator says, I gave them the evil inclination and they inverted it into the good inclination. My sons defeated me. In such a way we advance. This is our work, our daily work. In this work there are many more editions that we will study along the way but in the meantime this is how we will advance.

2. S. (12:38) What is that thing that from a certain situation where I hold it like a fish that I caught that situation and you say you start climbing stages of awareness? It comes from the ten, the Creator, the will?

R. First of all, I stop that state and I say it's coming from the Creator, this is a given. That’s the first state.  I'm in it so what should I do? This state, I have to attach it to the Creator, attribute it to the Creator. How do I do it? I try to be immersed in the ten. And by this, to cancel as much my will to receive as I can. To intermingle with all of the friends, by this I build the first nine, my quality of bestowal, and through that to relate it all to the Creator. I receive the friends from Him as well He creates for me this form. He establishes for me this form of the friends. It is all imaginary, it is not that it exists, but rather this is what we need to understand. The whole ten, the whole world in fact, is non-existent, imaginary. It is all in order for me to annul my will to receive and adhere to the Creator. So He gave me a certain form, so that through it if I am annulled in it, connect in it, I can reach adhesion with Him. This is how I need to see the group, the whole world, only in that when I annul before that when I accept it that I receive this from the Creator, then in such a way I reach adhesion with Him. 

S. Creator gave me a situation, He gave me a ten, He gave me the mind to understand the situation. Where are my actions here?

R. This is called, my sons defeated me. The Creator created everything and He gave me everything. He established everything for me except for one thing. That now I can take all of these conditions and start to work with them, in order to justify Him. To justify, this is very important. That whatever I received is from Him so that on top of it, I will now build a right relation to Him.

S. What is that action of justifying?

R. That I accept it as a given, the best condition for my advancement. Therefore, even if a sharp sword is laying on one’s throat, do not despair of mercy. Meaning even if I'm in the worst possible state given to me, do not despair, because I'm capable even from the worst state to reach adhesion.

S. So it's an agreement with every state that comes?

R. With every state that comes, of course. Otherwise it’s not there is none else besides Him. You're saying that states do not come from the Creator, is there such a thing then where is there not, there is none else besides Him? Is there anyone else besides Him who is establishing reality for you? My egoistic will to receive, that’s true, but that, too is established by the Creator.

S. And what's the role of the ten in justifying, in this submission?

R. This is the tool that helps you that is right next to you. So even in your current degree without changing yourself, you can already turn to them and start correcting yourself on the corporeal level on the corporeal plane.

3. S. (16:50) You just gave us an order of action. So first, I pause my state, and then I need to attach it to the ten to justify it?

R. Sometimes. It depends on the situation, sometimes I feel that state that I'm in and I cannot ascribe it to the Creator. He seemingly does not exist in my sensation rather I feel the situation itself more than I feel that the Creator exists in reality. Sometimes I feel that I am in a certain state which I received and this state is established by the Creator. However, I am also beyond just determining that this is how it is, and I can do more. Sometimes I feel the state, that is it was established by the Creator and it was given to me in order for me to change my attitude, my relation to the state and for what am I doing it. Am I doing it to feel better, or bring the Creator contentment? But it all begins with the person being capable of determining that whatever he feels he received it from the Creator, therefore the very first thing you hold onto is there's none else besides Him.

4. S. (18:46) You said that we need to place all the friends in our hearts and you say we need to do it against my will rather and the problem is when I try to do it against my will I feel shame. As though my ego is telling me you're doing something fake. This causes me to not do it so how can I handle this situation?

R. Of course the ego will be against it. Either the ego decides or you decide in your will to bestow, one of the two or you're completely unconscious, you don't feel your ego, you don’t feel yourself, wanting to be above your ego. It all depends on the state and you have to take these states into your hands and establish a picture of reality that you determine. This is what it's called, that the Lord has created to do. That we need to do it. The one who does it is called Adam. One who is under these forces down below and doesn't try to do it, he is still on the level of the beast and we must always right from the degree of the beast, to the degree of Adam with each and every Reshimot that is revealed with any new image of reality that is revealed.

5. S. (20:37) Will the circumstances change when we climb every step of the ladder and how did we pass the state with my ten?

R. Yes, of course everything will change from one moment to the next because every moment there's a new Reshimot, new desires, new thoughts and the Creator's influence. He is constantly doing all kinds of different exercises for us just like we do as children with children we want to give him this and play with the different forms so that he will be a complete person so that we will be familiar with sounds and forms and colors, he needs to do something with his hands and also walk and crawl. In short, the Creator does everything with us in this way and we don't know why it, through such actions, these actions or those actions or situations that He reveals in us. Just like a baby doesn't know why they play with him in such a way. We have to take it and bring it to a state where we connect with Him because there's none else besides Him. He is the cause for all of these states and this actually is what we have to stand on, this is the entire wisdom of Kabbalah.

6. S. (22:21) You just said that we start by determining that there is none else besides Him and with every new state this becomes a harder thing to determine so how to do this work correctly, to determine that the state truly comes from the Creator not to do it in one's mind but also in the heart?

R. If you cannot turn to the Creator each and every moment, it is a sign that you are not helping each other. You are not helping, in the ten helping each other. Because, if you think about how much everyone depends on everyone in the ten, so that there is no choice but I have to be concerned about the friends that they will not disconnect from how we all have to connect, come together and connect to the Creator. By this we will help each other not to run away from the battle but rather to be constantly connected to each other and to the Creator truly in a way that it's only for a slight moment that we disconnect from the Creator when he establishes for us a new state he raises a new Reshimot which we have to actualize. Only for this moment when He raises the Reshimot and we, seemingly, receive a strike and we behave like that and we immediately again try to establish ourselves in His direction. It should be truly like a sting and then not more then again, we are with this thing together in adhesion between us and with Him. If we are not capable of this, it is a sign that we have no connection, no mutual support between the friends, you need to care for it, quickly. I'm not going to stop and I have to bring you as quickly as possible all of the components, all of the exercises in the spiritual work, so that we will implement them in a practical, mutual way. We have no choice, we have no time. This is why you should just come to the lesson and seemingly wake up during the lesson. You have to constantly be twenty four hours a day, you have to be connected to each other not on the phone or something but in the heart. Realize that only mutual help can hold you in each and every state because each and every moment I get disconnect, I disconnect from spirituality, from the Creator, from my soul and only by the friends thinking about me and me about them in such a way he'll help his friend we can be on the path.

7. S. (25:54) How can the perception, how can the study of the perception of reality, help us here?

R. Because the perception of reality is what is revealed in our desire. The wisdom of Kabbalah teaches us how we receive, or perceive reality and how by changing our desire we can change reality. Change it and instead of this world we need to reach a true perception so that we will see the spiritual world, eternal, whole. Then we will look at what we now feel and we will understand that we saw it because we were as dreamers. As if from a dream. It wasn't the true reality. Rather we were confused, dazed as if drunken as if drunk, intoxicated. This is how each time we try to bring ourselves and our perception of a higher world and in each and every world, the Creator is revealed as the source of reality, the source of our feeling and understanding, our source. In a way that is more and more clear until we start to be adhered to Him, truly in all of our desires

S. Study of the perception of reality seems to be a critical component of our work, we don't often study it. I don't even know how to study in the sources where to find good material, but how can we start studying this more and how can we do it?

R. I, each and every day in the morning give you a new portion which we should advance throughout the day. We should talk about it, absorb it and when we try to somehow truly become integrated with it, then we are ready for the next day. The next day, tomorrow we will receive the next portion and you can see it in every morning and every lesson it was this way once but now when we are a group we are in a state of general guidance over us and the whole world from the upper force, this is how I behave. Accordingly we study the sources but each and every day, what we need to work with, what you receive in the morning lesson from me, it's enough to go through the morning lesson really, really well a few times throughout the day and this is giving you advancement.

S. I didn't mean it would change our daily study, I'm asking if the perception of reality is something we have to attain through the sources through the daily portion or is there another component to our study that we can add that will specifically focus on... You used to give us an analogy of the computer-generated pixelated graphic and you have to skew your focus so that you can actually see the image.

R. I'm repeating what I said again, I don’t need to search for anything or go anywhere, if you just repeat the morning lesson when you have some time during the day it is enough to advance to truly advance. There's enough materials here, your perception of reality will change out of those practical actions which I propose to you to do and then you will see how it works. If you will start to search and all kinds of different sources you will not find it in a way that is closed and realistic that is given to you to actually perform.

8. S. (31:03) If the Creator demands our hearts, what is the gratitude that needs to come from the heart and such situations?

R. I wish to thank the Creator and through the friends, with all of the friends, on behalf of all of the friends, to give thanks to Him as much as possible. For we are grateful, we are all aware that He is bringing us closer. Therefore everything that we receive each and every moment as much as these states are confused, as much as they're not understood, as much as they're unpleasant we accept them specifically in a way that from these states, the more they are far from spirituality, seemingly, I feel that they are the most beneficial for my advancement. I accept these states and I justify the Creator with each and every state that I get.

9. S. (32:19) Why is it written, we shall do and we shall hear, and not the other way around?

R. We shall do, should be in that it elevates me to above reason. When I elevate myself above Malchut to the degree of Bina, to the degree of faith. Then I reach from the action, from doing to hearing. First I perform an action, this is what I received and this is what I need to do. And when I do it, by that I raise myself to Bina. Bina is called hearing, the degree of Awzen, ear. We have Galgata Enayim, eyes, that is Hochma. Awzen is Bina, Hotem, nose is Zeir Anpin. Malchut is the Peh, the mouth. This is why it is called we shall do and we shall hear. We will elevate ourselves from the degree of Malchut to the degree of Bina.

10. S. (33:41) All the friends are integrated together for a long time, they are deep in each other...?
R. Say one sentence or two, don't say more. The fact that you feel yourself, the fact that you feel yourself that you are lesser than everyone, inferior to everyone and all the friends are in adhesion and good relations between them they help each other and you, seemingly are outside of the group. You don't have enough desire and also strength to be connected with them, this is an excellent state that the Creator is giving you so that you will feel this way and you think that he is not always giving it to your friends, he is giving it to them also, they too feel that way. Each one feels that he is outside of the ten, he gets from this a push from the Creator in order for him to connect more and in such a way he advances. Therefore, say thank you to the Creator for awakening you and go forward.

11. S. (35:27) These states change in our feelings either it awakens us, or it lowers us, what's the right way to behave in such a situation?

R. All the time through the environment to be adhered to the Creator, I have nothing else to suggest, this is the only action we need to do.

12. S. (36:00) When we change ourselves and come to construction of the Creator through faith above reason so then all of reality changes?

R. Yes, by us elevating ourselves to faith above reason, the whole of reality changes. That you will see a different world, you'll see new forces, new relations, you'll see everything totally differently. It won't hinder this world that exists, rather you'll see the forces that are operating in it and you'll start to work with them already and later on even this world. It's in the general correction you will see that this world, too will disappear, it will simply disappear, vanish from our senses because everything all in all exists inside of our senses.

13. S. (37:07) A concern in one's heart for the friends in the ten, who needs that, the ten or the person?

R. Actually there is no question here because it is the same either I need it for myself or for their friends there is no difference between the two.

14. S. (37:40) If a person doesn't see each moment as a new moment and doesn't prepare like you said in the beginning of the lesson, how does the system react, how does it change in the next state for the person?

R. The person is given all kinds of states, usually unpleasant ones that are far away from spirituality. Until he begins to understand that he has to respond differently to what is happening. It could take many years if the person does not try to perform actions that are at his disposal, that is to be connected with the ten and through the ten in a way that he doesn't understand it, but he just does it, even mechanically. He demands the Creator, he speaks with the friends, he tries to study. In short, he does everything properly. Whatever the mind doesn't do, time does. Because bit by bit, a penny by penny, a great amount and then a person starts to feel that it is all the Creator playing with him.

15. S. (39:09) You said previously that only by thinking about the friends and if they think about me, that each one helps this friend. What does that mean to think about the friend, what do I need to think?

R. That I think about the friends means that I feel myself as dependent on them and they depend on me. I owe to them and they owe to me, and only together can we change reality and bring ourselves to the feeling of the Creator in order to make Him happy.

S. Can I ask another question, I keep thinking about how not to turn it into some psychology?

R. If you work with the friends as we are talking about, you will not become a psychologist, if you will listen, well, to what I'm saying, it won't allow you to just remain a psychologist.

16. S. (40:18) The ultimate goal in our relation with the Creator through the work in the ten, is it to justify, is it to be in contact with the Creator, what is the connection?

R. First of all, justify the Creator. After you justify Him you can adhere to Him.

17. S. (40:47) What actions must I perform when I feel all of a sudden that I'm not connected with the friends?

R. Do everything in order to be connected with them, that's it. Just connect start to organize the meetings of the friends, do something, take part in some way with them so that it will also let you feel how they are connected.

18. S. (41:21) How to hasten, in Ahishena, the work you described in the ten?

R. It's very simple, we are talking about the practice that I need to be included in the ten, I need to beg to the ten I need to enter into them. I need to help the ten as much as possible to be connected, I need to constantly think about the ten, because the ten is that Kli in which I will discover the Creator in order to bring him contentment from me

S. How do we hasten the times, how can we do something more inner?

R. Whatever you hear you need to do this is what you should do, think about it from morning to evening and you will see what you can do. I'm not going to write for you what you should do. There's no such thing, it is you searching by yourself that is part of the spiritual work. What should I do, how should I connect with the friends in order to bring contentment to the Creator by it. This is our work.

Excerpt 1 Reader (43:00 - 44:24)

19. R. That is we nevertheless in each and every state, we need to try to feel that we are receiving this state from the Creator. Truly from the Creator, only and directly from Him. If I feel in this state I feel myself in a bad way, it is a sign that my will to receive is not in equivalence with the Creator so then I need to try to change myself until I will have a good, correct feeling towards the Creator. So, I begin to look at my situation and my will to receive as help made against me. It is helping me to be closer and closer to the Creator by showing me how much I am in a bad state.

Excerpt 2 Rabash Reader (45:26 - 48:33) Read Twice

20. S. (48:26) What does it mean that we take a part of the vessel of reception?

R. I take a thought, a desire in which I don't feel myself connected with the Creator, I’m not in contact with Him. I'm not pleased with the Creator or with what He is doing to me, and I try to correct the way I relate to the Creator as good and benevolent in every state and me not feeling it, not being pleased with it, that's how it appears to me for the time but I need to accept it as being tied to the Creator.

Excerpt 3 Rabash Letter #18 Reader (49:44 - 52:38) 

21. R . Very difficult, they chose these excerpts very quickly and they're not very simple, but what does he want to say? It is actually pretty simple. In summary, everything that we receive every single moment, these are conditions that enable us to advance in spirituality, to discover spirituality, to discover the true world in which we exist. It's not that we exist in some imagination, unable to hear like people who are disconnected from the true reality. We are in this inner bubble, a false bubble showing us this world and ourselves and so on. We need to make an effort with every opportunity we need to see how we can climb out of this bubble. Like the worm in the radish, yes it lives within the radish and ultimately as it emerges from the radish, it feels how narrow and dark its world was and completely not real.

Excerpt #4 Baal HaSulam (54:14 - 54:35)

22. R. That we don't know about we don't know what is above them, ahead of them, what needs to be revealed for us to reach the end of correction. So, he says, how much do I regret that they haven't appeared yet. 

Reader continues (54:52 - 55:00)

23A. R. Meaning to give lots of exertion, many energies, we need those conditions for more corruptions to be revealed, which are ahead of us from the shattering of Adam HaRishon so that we will approach the end of correction. 

Reader continues (55:16 - 55:40)

23B. R. Yes, that's how we need to see these things. The whole world is spiritual. The spiritual world Is concealed and it is revealed gradually, through the corruptions and if we relate correctly to what appears, then that's how we correct our attitude our corrupted will and we turn that will to the corrected will and so until all of our corrupted desires are revealed and corrected and we determine the proper relation in them towards ourselves and reality and that's our work.

24. S. (56:26) Is a person capable of changing his Reshimot, the ones he has to implement throughout his life?

R. One cannot change the Reshimot because it stems from Ein Sof, infinity. We all descended down to this world and we were in such instances of the shattering, integration between us and so everything that we have before us from here on to the end of correction, we need to go through all of it but the question is how? How do we go through all of it? All of us together with the knowledge of what we need to do? If so then the work is short, happy, we give contentment to each other and the Creator and that's what we need to do but the Reshimot are in each one and in all the states one has to go through from here to the end of correction.

25. S. (57:48) It says for if you cast your eyes on them, they will become a pile of bones. What does it mean if you cast your eyes on them?

R. Focus on them, know what that is revealed is revealed so we can relate to it properly, nicely, look at it as necessary things related to my correction and I need to see them as necessary, they need to be revealed on the path and I attribute them to the Creator who revealed them to me and I adhere to them and upon them I want to elevate them the will to receive in order to bestow so I raise it above reason and that's how I advance.

26. S. (58:40) Can we say that we have to rise above reason not because we understand it within reason, but because Kabbalists told us this is how we reach the Creator?

R. I can’t hear you well, the network connection is bad.

27. S. (59:19) It turns out that when a state comes there is a way in which you can try by yourself but it's only by saying it but you don't feel it in your heart and you can also ask of  Him that he will give you the forces to a justify Him in this is also in the mind and there is a way to integrate is there a way to integrate with an emotionally and he will give us the power the power to justify what is happening to me so is their importance or what are you asking it for to improve your situation or for the Creator?

R. Whatever works for you but for the time being at least that way. You might think that some good will come to it because you don't have a choice, or you think it’s openly although later you discover that you thought you meant to bring contentment to the Creator but the state comes which shows you that you were only thinking about yourself. That's how it happens. That is how the new degree is revealed over the previous degree. On the new degree you elevate yourself above reason, and you think you are in bestowal already and this gives you uplifted spirits, you bestow upon the Creator and then later it is revealed that no, your will to receive is still corrupted, that's the spiritual ladder.  Nothing you can do about it, what was holy in the previous degree and it becomes refuse and it becomes unholy in the next degree. That's how it is and it's not bad, that is how we advance.

S. In the heart, not only in the mouth?

R. There is no such thing that tomorrow comes and everything is the same. Never, nothing ever repeats even though it might seem to you it does. This is just how you feel things but it's a lie.

S. What I mean is that it is happening because I'm not correctly integrated in the ten if I think it's a bad state?

R. You need to continue working.

28. S. (1:02:21) He talked in the article about the opportunity that each moment a person gets a precise opportunity. There are friends who didn't succeed in getting up for the lesson and they had an opportunity, but they did not succeed they're not with us right now. How do they compliment? How can I compliment it throughout the day, the opportunity they missed?

R. Try to convey this to them and repeat the lesson throughout the day explaining to them, bring them into your feelings so we can advance together. There's no choice about this, maybe tomorrow you won't be able to get up, it happens we still need to protect and guard every friend that falls along the path.

S. From the side of the friend himself from his perspective?

R. I'm not making any calculations from the side of the friend. My calculation is such I must awaken him.

29A S. (01:03:25) There are contemptible corporeal states which the Creator takes me through and I'm ashamed that he takes me through them and what do I do about the feeling of shame that I'm so dirty i n these states?

R. If I'm in these states, the states of a beast yes, family sex, money, respect. If I have one of these desires and I integrate in those that I'm integrated them, what can I do. I received that from above and I hope that by being better integrated to the group in the study. Especially by repeating what we studied, preparing myself for the next lesson that by that I correct myself and the more the Creator gives me states, states of a beast, I will accept it as something I cannot avoid because it's in the root of my soul and it's something that has to keep awakening me but it's not that I should eat myself up about it. Rather I need to accept it as a place of an ascent.

S. So this feeling of beastliness remains but besides that you have the inner work?

R. Yes, I should be glad about having such beastly desires but on the other hand there's nothing you can do, the Creator does it and we need to see it that way also. It is written that from the day that the temple was ruined the joy of sex exists only in the servants of the Lord. 

S. Should I fight this beastly feeling?

R. Can't do it except through the group and the Creator, that’s the meaning of finding it, but not with an egoistic desire of any kind because one who wants to break the egoistic desire receives two egoistic desires. He needs to understand that he cannot correct it that way that's not correction. Correction is such that you come closer to the Creator in each and every state even from the most beastly.

Excerpt #5 Rabash Reader (01:06:04 - 01:08:46)

30. R. You see how we should relate to everything that appears? In reality within us before us. It's all Reshimot every time an inner and external memory is revealed in which we see certain reality and I have to say this existed already and there's nothing new, rather everything comes from the shattering of the vessel. Where me and humanity and the inanimate vegetative and animate degrees, everything that exists in my perception it's all one Reshimot. Each time a new memory is revealed more and more and each time above the Reshimot that is revealed, we need to bring myself to a state where it all comes from the Creator, so that I can ascribe everything to him and that's how I reach a state where I gather all these Reshimot, records and I attach them them back to the root, source and that's my correction.

31. S. (01:10:15) A few times it's a suggestion to take all of your desires and thoughts and say this and that about them, what does it mean to say something different about them, to whom and what and how does that help?

R. In everything that's revealed I need to say to myself that this is coming from the Creator I must ascribe this to Him alone there's no one else besides Him. It's all revealed in a corrupted way for me to correct my attitude. I need to raise myself to the degree of faith, the degree of bestowal so that I can see the state as holy. As bestowal coming from the Creator for the benefit of everyone and there's not that there's anything bad in this state. I need to correct myself because everything that appears is revealed in my vessel, the world, humanity, the group. It all appears, including the Creator, it's all revealed in my perception, in my vessel. I need to correct my perception such as to see that it's all good and benevolent to us, to everyone so I justify the Creator and each time I need to bring myself to the just, righteous who justifies creation, justifies the Creator. There's nothing bad in reality, it all comes from the degree of Bina from the degree of bestowal and love.

S. So it's not an inner dialogue, are these concrete actions I need to perform?

R. I need to do everything possible in order to feel reality as good. The good who does good. That's all. You listen to what I say. I need to bring each and every state I feel, I need to see it as coming from the good who does good even though to begin with, when that feeling comes to me it comes in a confused way, maybe in a threatening, dangerous way and so on. 

32. S. (01:13:01) There is one problem with the explanation when I hear about justifying the Creator it turns out that it just brings me to calm myself, to pacify myself so I guess I'm not interpreting this correctly. What do you mean when a Kabbalist says you need to justify the Creator?

R. Justifying the Creator means that in each and every state that happens to me I need to say that it comes from the Creator and that it comes as a corruption that is revealed and upon this revealed corruption I need to tie myself to the Creator through the corruption and when I tie myself to Him then me and the corruption, I need to attach myself to the ten, to the Creator in such a way where I say that there is only good in it nothing bad. In each and every state. By that attitude I try now to establish, I correct that state. Don't be wise philosophers. Do what I say. Then we will be able to advance to more complex situations. Otherwise if you disagree with me today tomorrow you won't understand me at all. That is all.

33. S. (01:14:54) The scrutiny today whether the situation is good or bad, how do you do it because sometimes you see that a certain situation happens but it's hard to feel whether it harms the ten or it doesn't, or the spiritual work?

R. It doesn't matter whether the state seems good or bad, I need to ascribe it to the Creator to say that it is a good state. This is how I need to bring Him, not in my imagination but rather to bring myself to a state where this state appears to me as good. I elevate it to the degree of Faith. There each and every state which appears bad in the degree of Malchut, in the degree of Bina, it turns into a good state.

S. Here it says first you need to see it as bad to elevate it.

R. Correct.

S. So the scrutiny is not always clear, the scrutiny is not always clear what is bad in it, how to rise above it with respect to what you scrutinize the state is bad?

R. With respect to the connection in the group. You have no other indication, no other discernment, it is only with respect to the connection in the group. I'm very glad you all have so very many questions everyone is waking up, because this is a very real thing we need to, in a very practical sense solve every single moment. So let's continue.

34. S. (01:16:46) Each time when I succeed in relating the state, the Creator to none else besides Him, immediately the next question shows up, where am I? What am I adding? Is that even a correct question, is there a room for it?

R. If I say there's none else besides Him then I also do not exist, I am included in none else besides Him.

35. S. (01:17:21) Continuing the questions about the thoughts that run around in a person's brain you describe a few times that Rabash would immediately fall asleep can you explain how he would do it?

R. Do you have a problem falling asleep?

S. Many friends have problems falling asleep at night, thoughts running around in your head not allowing you to...

R. You all need to connect at night and discuss the connection, how much you are advancing, how this path brings you towards the truth and to correction, about the state in which you are under the attending of the Creator, upper light and you will become calm as you truly see it needs to be that way and do will fall asleep. This must happen, each one must help the others be in a more balanced state. So you must try to do this not to remain along with your own nerves but to bestow upon others, influence others instead of thinking about yourself, think about how you can calm down the others, take care of them and that will help you.

36. S. (01:19:02) Is all our work to discover the Creator between us that we cannot see because of our ego?

R. Yes, all our work is to correct ourselves in such a way where these corrections on our will to receive, our individual and collective will to receive, will bring us the form of the Creator, the form of bestowal and love. Like yesterday we talked about it, the love that dwells within us.

37. S. (01:19:50) In this work that we are now talking about you said in each and every moment a new external and internal Reshimotis revealed, what does it mean?

R. My Reshimot, which I see myself in a certain state, which is the external Reshimot, the external record through which I see the world. So ultimately it's that, me and the world, two types of records, the inner and the surrounding, we will learn that later.

38. S. (01:20:28) How do we justify the Creator without being indifferent?

R. You need to awaken each other, each one helps his friend, you have an opportunity before you to reach a state where you can see the whole of reality, above death, or the physical death of your body will not affect you because it is not related to the body, to the beast. When we rise above the beast above the feeling of the beast and start seeing reality as Adam, the human sees it is something completely different. It's not like in our world where you have a difference between man and beast where man is also a beast, just a little smarter. We need to rise to the degree of the Creator to an extent at least. To the degree of bestowal, faith above reason and then we will see reality as not connected to the will to receive but rather to the will to bestow. Then we will live in the way we should. If you all feel that you are becoming indifferent, it is because there is no connection between you and you are not awakening each other and if you are incapable of doing this alone then connect to us. Say, tell us, we can't elevate ourselves, we are falling asleep, a wave came that weighs down on us, turn to Bnei Baruch and we will try to strengthen you and just take care of you. What do we exist for? It is only in that way that each one helps his friends, those people will be helped, or those people who help you, they themselves rise through the bestowal. It is only bestowal that way rise, so the fact that you're not asking for help you're also not allowing us to rise with you together. That is the meaning of each one helps the friend, I asked the friends for help and myself I look for ways, places where I can assist also. Don't be ashamed to ask and turn to whoever is close to you and if not that to us here at Bnei Baruch do we have any such address?

S. Yes, boardworldkli@gmail.com

R. When you feel yourself to be in that sudden descent that you can't climb out of why not ask the others to help, you're doing a favor to the others by asking for help because by that everyone connects more and we all rise, do you understand? It is excellent for it to happen, so go forward, connect and by that you'll help yourselves and us.

39. S. (01:24:33) Please say if depicting or writing on a piece of paper the justification of the Creator, would that increase the quality of our work?.

R. Yes it is good for a person to do it will help him much if he writes because as one writes he begins to criticize himself to examine himself and through this criticism he sees what he lacks or not.It will seem to you that you write two sentences let's say and suddenly you will see that even the whole page isn't sufficient you're ready to write a whole book. Good, start, it's good to write. There are people who know how to order their thoughts through that, their desires. I did the same in the past, this is why I wrote all of these books.

Excerpt 6 Reader (01:25:46 - 01:27:34)

40. R. If I am constantly concerned with how to rise to above reason, meaning to justify the Creator to say that I am receiving everything from Him that He is good the good that does good and must be in adhesion with Him in each and every state that I feel as it all comes from Him. In that way we truly elevate ourselves without pause and constantly. So we climb through all of the degrees.

41. S. (01:28:21) About asking for help, what do we do when a friend is not asking for help and rejects the attempt of the ten to help him?

R. We nevertheless carry him with us to all the actions of the ten and between us, in the ten we try to show each other, each one to everyone else how much we are connected and how we are building the common desire for the revelation of the Creator between us more and more.

Excerpt 7 Reader (01:29:02 - 01:30:50)

42. R. If I can be in joy ascribing everything I have to the Creator, even though my ego doesn't feel good. I may even feel bad physically, corporeally, but I am receiving this from the Creator and therefore I agree, I accept this as it is, yes. so I may not even be happy about it but I understand that it comes from the Creator. Now if I get angry and I don't agree with what I have it is a sign that I am disconnected from the fact that it comes from the Creator, I incriminate the Creator I am angry with Him, I don't want him, this is a state where the will to receive controls me and I have nothing I can do here. I, by that, I am in my egoistic state where the ego governs me and it may be that these states are, that they control a person for a long time, a prolonged duration.  I will live through the study, through the group, through dissemination, through various corporeal actions even though related to spirituality, I ultimately reach a state where the Creator begins to awaken some reforming light upon me and then I recuperate, I awaken. I reached a state where this darkness that I feel begins to become received as some kind of light by me and so I advance. The main thing is not to leave the path and to continue forward, but again, here for a person must divide himself into several degrees. The first step is where I'm angry with what I get. The second one is I'm angry with it despite knowing it comes from the Creator. The third is all the means I have, the group and the fact that it comes from the Creator I don't want to accept it as is and I am angry with the group with the friends with the Creator of everything and I cannot contend with my ego which situates me against everything. Another state when I start understanding that there is no choice and this is the way the Upper Providence is working on me and I surrender and whatever will be and that is how I exist. I carry myself. If in all of these states, I still don't let go of the connection with the group, at least not with the wisdom of Kabbalah or even if I bestow and some way, I disseminate, study. Gradually whatever my mind won't do, time will do, and the general attitude from the system changes towards me. I change, the system changes. The Creator, everything starts connecting differently and from this different connection between all of the causes I start feeling emotional changes. Then I start connecting myself to reality through the force of bestowal. Meaning as much as I awaken, as much as I want to be in the bestowal, I see that it brings me closer. I start understanding what faith above reason is, that even if I don’t want it, bestowal actually helps me advance. In this way we gradually come out of our will to receive and start connecting ourselves to the will to bestow, we start appreciating the will to bestow, we start dividing ourselves to be in two degrees. In the will to receive called Malchut and in the will to bestow called Bina. Then these two levels that I start recognizing in me, those degrees start helping me rise more and more to a state where I want to be in bestowal. In such a way I can start connecting to the group more, which is the means to stay to be in the degree of Bina, of bestowal. The study starts to be in order to draw the force of Bina upon me and I connect to the group more. I come back more and more to be part of the Soul.

43. S. (01:37:13) When I tell myself that everything comes from the Creator, how do I imagine this in order to not enter imaginary forms?

R. That every picture that I am in, is all established by the Creator, including me. That what I see now as I see myself from the side, and the world and how I and the world are in a certain state, that is what the Creator is stabilizing. What does He want by that? First of all, He wants me to determine that it came from Him, that from this picture where I see myself in the world to bring myself to a state that I can describe everything to the Creator and by that I will adhere to Him. Even though I am participating in it but along with that, I want to connect myself to the Creator that he is doing everything. In what should I be in two realities, that I have to be split, that I am doing these two forms to bring me closer and closer to the truth. That is why I have to hold myself in this corporeal picture and also in the spiritual picture that it’s all the Creator doing and none else besides Him. The more I can I bring these two forms closer together into one.

44. S. (01:39:38) Is the transition in the ten from condemning the Creator the first moment and later justifying, does that bestow upon the Creator?

R. Everything you are connecting is for the Creator.

45. S. (01:40:10) When I determine there's nothing else besides Him, can that be below reason?

R. There's a lot of things, I'm not going to go and scrutinize everything. You try and do it, we're doing and then your question will be in the right place. We will talk about it, there is also the matter of below reason.

46. S. (01:40:43) Let's say a conflict awakens between friends in this world and awakens a lot of anger. On one hand there's the Creator and this ongoing constant question and on the other hand they also need to solve this on the level of this world. He insulted him, he hurt him, he did this, he did this, he did that... Is it just above reason, the solution or also on the level of this world?

R. They have to agree also on the level of this world they are organizing this whole conflict.

47. S. (01:41:26) Is the corporeal reality a state of falsehood, of a lie?

R. The corporeal reality, of course it is false, but for now it is awakening and that is why we need, we need to deal with it and ascribe it to the Creator. Obviously afterwards this whole world will disappear. All worlds disappear until we reach one reality of Dvekut, adhesion that is the only thing that exists. The rest of the things exist only in our imagination, only in our corrupted will to receive.

Excerpt 8 Reader (01:42:26 - 01:44:15)

48. S. (01:44:28) Today when you answered a friend's question you said that if today you don't agree with the teacher then tomorrow you won't even understand him. Sometimes what you say resists the ego, so how is it correct to build the work to not fall to disagreements with the Rav?

R. It is not a matter of whether you agree or disagree. If I am speaking, I am speaking about the next spiritual state of ours and if you don't agree it means that you are not ascending to the next spiritual state. That is why if you don't agree with me today, meaning you didn't grab the principal we are speaking about today, so tomorrow you won't understand what will be tomorrow. That is what I said. It is still worth as much as possible to integrate from that same state that we are speaking about. Let's say this morning and every day you see, I give you another portion and another portion, from all of this method of correcting the soul. Because in this way I see that we can do it in our state, my state, your state, the world's state, the Creator's attitude towards everything, that is what determines. If you don't agree so I recommend, write it on the side. Write down your disagreement and for now I agree and in that way you will advance in both.

S. Can the ten help me in this somehow?

R. Of course the ten can help, what is the problem, you are a smart person, you are a scientist, very developed and you are used to getting everything in your analytical brain. That is why you can't... above reason you don't even understand what is it, how can that be, show me, show me something within reason, something else and I can check it in my reason if you're right and then I will go from my reason to your reason. Meaning I will accept a higher reason than a lower reason. That is how I learn, I am willing. But above reason, that I don't get. So again we are saying , above reason means that I take a different kind of control upon me, the control of the Creator, that He is in control, not me but Him. By that gradually I want to ascribe all of reality to Him, try it.

S.

R. You can't disturb the Creator, you can't disturb you ten, they will advance, everyone will advance, we have a large world Kli, there are a lot of people that don't understand yet, don't understand, what above reason is. I remember myself how long it took me, it took a very long time to grab that principle. We were speaking about it also in the previous lessons a little while ago maybe a month ago and I said try and depict to yourself that what you are going through now, what you feel that the Creator is doing it, it's coming from the Creator, the Creator is stabilizing it. Then just take it the way it is, you don't agree with it, don't want it, but try to take it. Also try to do it differently, let's say you wake up in the morning or during the day and some state that you want to give contentment to the Creator, that is it. How to rise above what you are doing to a level of what He wants you to do? Let's say I want to be alone but He decides that I have to be with the friends, so how do I annul myself and integrate with the friends? Meaning to try and divide our reality into two levels. One level which is my will to receive my ego in control and the other degree, my will to bestow, the force of the Creator is in control. We have two levels, two worlds, this world, what I depict in my will to receive and the upper world. That I can see it in the will to bestow or the qualities of the Creator and then between these two worlds we have to try and correct ourselves as much as possible to take myself from one level to the next.

49. S. (01:50:37) How do we maintain the view that the ten is in wholeness while asking for the right help to further connect the ten?

R. There are degrees in it. On each and every degree I need to depict to my ten that they are connected and with the Creator but it is not Gmar Tikkun, it is for now. I want to ascribe myself to them and in them to discover the Creator, come and see, meaning part of Him that can be revealed in the current state, in the connection between us and in this way we advance.

50. S. (01:51:39) I wanted to ask about what he says, while a person engages in the right that's qualified as the time to draw the upper abundance. This action of drawing abundance, what is this action, does the person do it and also does the friend get that strength? Is it realized in practice amongst the friends?

R. It depends on the connection between them that is one. When I do it, when I am included in the ten, integrated there, that is it. How did you start your question?

S. About what he says here, when a person engages in right, then it is time to draw the upper abundance?

R. When you justify the Creator, the group that you see that the upper force is in control of reality, then in this time you continue that action, what you are saying there.

S. Besides justifying the Creator, it gives strength to the friends and practice and opportunity?

R. Yes either, in a revealed way or a concealed way, but if you do it in the ten, so you feel the ten with your force of bestowal.

51. S. (01:53:21) If I went through all the states described about anger and still there's still no joy revealed in the work, what does it mean?

R. That you wanted to overcome your anger and you didn't succeed?

S. Right, I didn't succeed.

R. So what to do? I think that there are states that you can't just jump over and I am saying it from my experience. What to do... there are a lot of things but it is really the most difficult that I bumped into. To get rid of anger...It is a sign of the big will to receive in a person that he stands before the Creator and doesn't want to agree with the Creator in any condition. It is the sign of an exalted soul. There is nothing to be proud of that he is angry but he has to be proud that you are overcoming the anger, but still it is a sign of a big will to receive, heavy, and it will be difficult to overcome it. But when you will, you will reach states that are very exalted and good and spiritual. What to do for now is to integrate in the group and all of your forces as much as you can. I don't see any other means, nothing. But there is more means except for integrating in the group and that’s dissemination.

Excerpt 9 Reader (01:55:29 - 01:57:33)

52. S. (01:57:34) Did I understand correctly that when bad states come my way, sufferings, that I attribute it to the Creator, justify Him that it is good for advancement and that is the correction?

R. Yes.

S. Where is the ten here?

R. The fact that a state that isn't good and a  feeling came to me and I am trying to relate it to the Creator, that is already a good thing that I am ascribing it to the Creator, but it won't bring me to the feeling of the Creator because I say that this bad state came from the Creator. Until I correct this state that won't seem bad but that it will seem good, that I ascribe it to the Creator. Then I really come close to the Creator, I am even adhered to Him so it is not enough to say about the good state, about the bad state that it came from the Creator, it's good it is the beginning but it's not the way to come closer to Him, I have to come closer more and more and how do I do that? By me discovering in this evil state the reason and why and the purpose and with what I can turn this bad into good and until the end I adhere to the Creator because He organized the state that first I thought it was bad and now I think that it is good. That there isn't anything better than this and first I felt that there is no worse than this state. So in this way I correct my attitude through the group, through the ten, through scrutinizing, to the Creator. Then I come to Him with the same desire I had before, negative, and with this whole path by the connection in the group I organized a new sort of attitude, meaning restriction, screen, reflected light and now I came to the Creator with a new state. That you did something good to me in my will to receive it felt as bad and in the will to bestow that I could rise to the degree of Bina and then I am close to you and that feels good. That is a difference between day and night, a descent and an ascent. That I did it, this is why we are doing day and night with you there is no day and no nights, the Creator is stabilizing the states for us so we can reach a state which is all day. That the darkness will shine as light.

S. If I come to the ten and try to connect, that state comes anyway. So it turns out then I just want to come out of that state to do something for the ten, for the sake of connection?

R. Yes, correct and in the meantime you do that because you feel bad and it always will be this way in your will to receive, each and every degree you are going to feel bad, in it’s beginning in your will to receive, you will raise above reason in the will to bestow and then you will start examining the state how bad it is or how good it is in the eyes of the Creator. How much you want to be in it, in bestowal. Then you will reach the state that you will pass all of your vessels from being in reception to being in bestowal. Then you are in the degree of Bina where you are going to have to raise yourself to greater bestowal and greater bestowal there are also degrees there and then even in receiving in order to bestow, there are also degrees there. Even in receiving in order to bestow you are going to start doing it as much as you can like a Partzuf. A whole Partzuf that has Rosh Toch Sof and you are going to receive in order to bestow. It will happen, gradually., The main thing is to keep on going. And what’s not clear today will be clear tomorrow, and also again will not be clear again. That’s how we will overcome. 

53. S. (02:03:01) Is there a meaning to the fact that there is an agreement with the Creator on this state that He is sending after the state or does it have to be at that moment when it came?

R. No, why? Also, when the state comes I can't immediately do something with it, so later on I examine and I think or maybe I thought or forgot about it and it comes back again. The main thing is to keep on going. If I am in a sum total of the general influence of our group, it won't run away, I will scrutinize all of the states that have to be revealed.

S. Ascribing to the Creator, I understand like I couldn't fall asleep before the lesson and you're asking and why won't you let me sleep as a lesson I want to be awake.... there's a lack of agreement why aren't you letting me sleep...

R. The main thing is that you're connected to the Creator, the main thing is to be connected even if you're angry at Him, just don't forget, forgetting is the worst. When the Creator vanishes from a person's perception it is the worst punishment of reality. That is why even if you're not connected, back-to-back, posterior to posterior, this is also connection.

54. S. (01:05:04) The final goal of above reason is not to expand my reason that I will get smarter or sneakier, but to let the Creator work in my reason with agreement, so that if that's right, why is the Creator not doing it without me going above reason, why isn't it working in my reason already?

R. How would you acquire these vessels up bestowal, vessels of the Creator, how would you understand and feel Him, how would you be in His degree? You have to rise to the degree of the Creator which is the degree of Bina and then Keter, to rise from Malchut, from your will to receive. He created the will to receive on purpose so that when you rise from Malchut to Bina, you will understand the difference between the qualities of the Creator and the created being even though you are a created being you will be like the Creator, he has no other choice. We will see how much the Creator is obliged to check in all of his actions and He does it because He has no choice as if He has no choice, because it is love to the created beings obliges Him.

55. S. (02:06:56) I wanted to ask how to be the Creator's partner that he takes a step and I right away take another step towards Him?

R. The Creator is in the group. To the extent that you are in the group and you annul in it, to that extent you start feeling how the group affects you and you identify the Creator dancing with you now. That is called a dance when you are incorporated in the group and through the group you feel how the Creator is dancing with you, that is possible.

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56. R. Very nicely written, very precise and concrete.

57. S. (02:12:33) And you see if his work is in purity that if he can be in happiness and darkness that means he is in purity so how can you be in happiness when you are just feeling horrible?

R. Why can't you be in happiness not from what you receive or not receive but what you received from the Creator?

S. When I feel horrible and lately it is completely horrible.

R. Where did you get this horrible state from?

S. From all kinds of states.

R. Who are they from, the Creator.

S. From the Creator.

R. Why are you not looking at it who you got it from?

S. Let's say I see.

R. You see. So if you will be able to say, yes I got it from the Creator and from there is none else besides Him and from the good that does good and this is how it is aimed at me, then you can't say about this state that it is a bad one.

S. How can my feeling... I feel horrible? 

R. Even if you are feeling if you will persist on this point that you got it from the Creator you are going to feel that it is not bad. You are going to start feeling that bad, evil is disappearing, it is impossible for Him to bestow bad things on you, even if it is whatever. It is not bad, you're going to stop feeling bad you're going to start transforming your relation to the situation.

S. That is the thing I think I'm alone and I have a problem I feel like I'm alone

R. What do you mean you're alone, you're with Him you get what you get from Him

S. What about the friends I think, the friends can help me the moment I feel?

R. Even better but even without your friends, are you getting it from the Creator there's none else besides Him, so whatever happens I got it from Him. Now the question is how are you coping, how are you dealing with Him? So I'm asking you can you look straight at Him and say I got something bad from you?

S. I know I get the bad from Him.

R. Can you say that it is bad?

S. I don't know I feel horrible but I don't know how to relate to it, I don't know how to deal with myself. I know the Creator is doing it.

R. If this is the way you relate to the Creator than out of lack of choice you will start dividing yourself into two parts. Your desire that is now suffering and wants to say, I am going to reign. Meaning in it I determine my state and the different desire that you connect to the Creator because you are saying there's nothing else besides Him, He is bestowing upon me. This is how you divide yourself into two and these two are faith and above reason. You have your reason, that is your ego, your will to receive and you have faith above reason you can already divide yourself into two. What do you want to attach yourself to? Your own reason like a beast or this above reason like an angel?

S. I wish, above reason.

R. So try it, you have all the data, just see how you organize all of these things.

S. Can I come out of this feeling of depression?

R. There is a question, do you want to come out of it? If you will come out of it will you be connected to the Creator or not?

S. That is a question.

R. So maybe you're saying I prefer staying in this bad feeling and have a connection to the Creator but how can I feel bad but have a good connection with the Creator meaning I have to rise above reason. When I'm in my reason I feel bad, above my reason I feel good and there I am connected to the Creator. That is nice. What an exercise he did for me. Meaning by that he raised me to his degree.

S. Then I can really reach the state, that the force, the light gives me the forces not to be depressed?

R. I didn't understand.

S. I accept everything you said if I do that, all the efforts to do what you just said so the Creator will take me out of these states of such a depression to be above it?

R. You don't feel you're in a bad state. What does he have to bring you out to, you feel that you are in a good state. Otherwise you're going to say the Creator did something bad to me, gave me a bag state and then I begged Him, I asked and He got me out of it. Sometimes the Creator does something bad to people and then something good, there is no such a thing. He never does anything bad in whatever state, you are the one who determines it is bad, by your corrupt  vessels.

S. There is a delicate point...

R. Yes you may justify Him.

S. And that is above reason?

R. Yes this will happen once.

S. With God's help.

R. If it will happen it will certainly happen with God's help, but still I don't understand why all of the time, curse the Creator, why should you curse the Creator and get angry at Him all the time. This is really the appearance of the will to receive in such an apparent way.

S. Because he brings you to such states of loneliness. 

R. So connected to Him that is His game, your whole life is a game it's a theater, it is an act. Try to see the situation this way, what is wrong with you? Look at the whole world around you, everyone is taking this theater in a serious way, even though everyone knows they're going to die soon. But still they play in such seriousness as if this is the worst thing, this is the best thing, look at what people are doing, like little children that are in a small kindergarten group. That's how you see these grown-ups. Do you also want to be this way? Look at yourself from the side

S. If you weren't here, what would I do? That's what I keep saying, without your guidance. If you weren’t here, what would I do?

R. But after a minute you will forget it. 

S. That's the problem.

R. You should go into the group and not forget, you should talk about it all of the time.

58. S. (02:20:40) What should I do when a person can't take the evil directly from the Creator because in that way, he blemishes His greatness. Because it's much easier to conceal the existence of the Creator and not say that He is the good who does good. How can I start asking and not just...

R. Again this is only in the group, it is impossible for a person to feel himself on the path if he has no support, it is impossible, really. To ask of the Creator means you are accepting this game, you are like a child being taught what to do in life and he demands. Asks. Do this or that, he wants to learn these things, he wants to learn the behavior of the Creator with him a person wishes to learn the way the Creator is behaving to him. This is why he is called a Mekubal, Kabbalist he wants to receive, leKabel, the right relation from the Creator to him. That is why he is always scrutinizing, always turning into the Creator saying, this way or that way, all the time. Never let go of the Creator. The best thing is if it is through the group, at least be in a direct line with the Creator all the time and that is it, demand. Demand. Do this to me, do that to me, give me the opportunity to do this, am I doing this right or not be always communicating with him.

59. S. (02:22:40) He is not asking the Creator to give him the form of white but to give him the force to be able to overcome the concealments. So what is the difference we see in overcoming in the form of whiteness?

R. A form of whiteness, everything is like the upper whiteness, the lightness of Hassadim, of Mercy that I will feel that I am simply there, in a world that is all good without an effort. But if I want to overcome and to be connected to the Creator with all of my desires, then I will already know in what state I'm in and what world I'm in, what desires, what connections I will be activating on behalf of my will to receive. How I hold onto the Creator, how I adapt myself to Him That is a whole different kind of connection,  to be only in the degree of Bina without feeling anything except for this general bestowal like a cloud feeling everything. Or I can be in a connection with Malchut and Bina when I raise my will to receive above reason to Bina and then I may be connected to the Creator also in my desires. Then I can understand Him, Him, the way He is organizing my desires. How I, in my desires of Malchut, I discover His qualities of Bina. When my desire is to receive begins to be organized like the qualities of Bina and then t I discover the Creator.

60. S. (02:24:36) We learned that it's forbidden to ask for ourselves, but in this article, Baal HaSulam speaks about a person asking for strength to overcome all the obstacles. What is the difference between asking for strength and asking for vessels of bestowal?

R. There is no difference, if you are asking in the right way to ask for vessels of bestowal or to I ask for the force of bestowal, it is the same. But to just ask for a strength, strength for what? To control everyone, to bend everyone your way? To rule the whole world, I don't know. The force of bestowal is something you can receive from the Creator through your ten when you are incorporated there, you annul yourself there and then you certainly deserve to receive the force of bestowal.

61. S. (02:25:51) About connecting everything to the Creator when a person has a very difficult inner resistance but the friends remind him that it's from the Creator and still won't accept it inside, knows it as knowledge but is that okay, to?

R. It doesn't matter in what way. If a person is connected through the friends to the Creator he receives bit by bit forces that correct him and establish him properly.

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