In any state our goal is to reach the recognition that there is none else besides the Creator. Whatever happens, I overcome this disturbance and enter into “there is none else besides Him,” but without disconnecting from the reality of this world.
The work consists of accepting the disturbances and, through them, searching for the Creator. And when I finish this work, it means I am done with this world and begin to work with other disturbances, spiritual ones.
Why did the Creator arrange it so that I stumble at every step and discover my total powerlessness? Because this entire process is only a means for me to feel the need for the Creator and to connect with Him. Through this I acquire His qualities.
The Creator wants me to become eternal and perfect like Him, and therefore every time He shows me my weakness, helplessness, hopelessness, and ignorance. He shows me His opposite so that I turn to Him and ask for something opposite to what I feel, that is, for a bit of His qualities, His degree. And thus, from being opposite to the Creator, I come to a perfect state. Each time the deeper I sink into evil, the greater the good I attain.
When I have no choice left, I remember the Creator. But in truth, it is He who reminds me of Himself. On my own I would never think of Him, because the egoistic desire is locked inside itself; it is a closed system. Therefore, the Creator brings a tiny almost imperceptible ray of light into me, and suddenly I remember that there is a Creator and I can turn to Him.
And so it goes each time in order to strengthen the connection with Him because through this I build my inner spiritual system, acquire His qualities. and become like Him. But first, in order to show me who I am and how opposite I am to Him, He has to place me into unpleasant states.
And of course, all the states must occur, and I will definitely stumble at every step. It is already written in advance where I will get a bump and where a bruise, but without these blows I cannot grow. It is said that above each blade of grass stands an angel who strikes it and commands it to grow.
But if you want to avoid suffering, it is possible. The whole question is how to go through them; that is what our study is about. We learn how to pass this path consciously, through our own desire. We want to find out who we are and in what we are opposite to the Creator, that is, to consciously achieve correction. And if we act this way, we do not feel the blows, but go through them with joy.
We feel disappointment, but look at ourselves as if from the outside, as though it is someone else. As if I see my body on the operating table and I myself take part in my correction. This is a completely different sensation.
Instead of suffering under each blow for fifty years, one can pass through it in ten minutes. A person lives many years of life in heavy labor and suffering, and in the end receives tiny corrections in the spiritual, corrections that cannot be compared with what a student corrects while studying Kabbalah. One who participated in a single kayak trip with our group made a correction that would take an ordinary person an entire lifetime, yet the result in the spiritual world is the same.
We do not understand what significance the conscious path of development has. A person goes through dozens of cycles of lives, while he could, in just one life, make a leap.
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From Daily Kabbalah Lesson 1/6/26, Rabash, “On My Bed at Night”
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