Morning Lesson March 7, 2021 Transcription is made from simultaneous translation which leaves possibility for differences from audio

Everything is Obtained By the Power of Prayer - Selected Excerpts from the Sources, #12

1 Rav’s Introduction: What do we mean everything is attained by the power of prayer, indeed everything, it is truly so. If we want to attain it we can obtain it with a request. If we want to attain the Creator, we have to convince Him that we need it. Then we will receive from Him both the forces of reception and bestowal, intentions, you can receive everything from the Creator on the condition that we know how to ask, what to ask, and then we will receive. Without the request without developing with truthful deficiency in us, we are not able to receive anything but the first awakening, which the Creator gives us in order to search for what truly we need, what we want so we can develop the deficiency to such an extent that we can eventually obligate him with our deficiency. Then the Creator will give us both the deficiency and the fulfilment, the Creator is that who formed the light and creates darkness, the force of the desire and the fulfilment everything comes from him. So what is up to us only to ask and they're both the beginning of the force of the request and the deficiency received from him, this is the point in the heart to have a desire for the Creator to reveal him to get the force of bestowal.

Each one of us feels that there is something that pulls as forward to something that is probably called spirituality and this is how the Creator arrange is the starting point for us. The beginning of this deficiency which is called the point in the heart is not enough to progress with if everyone's to progress through it then we can do it only by developing from the point of deficiency received to it deficiency. We start to connect between us and then we warm each other up to increase the deficiency each and together as we see in children but also in grown-ups that they walk around and look at each other and the windows that are displaying everything in the stores everything they have. Then they want something and they are willing to do everything to attain those things so the deficiency is present in everything both in this world and in the spiritual world we acquire those from each other. Each helps his friends specifically as we learn from the deficiency of the others and here the wisdom of Kabbalah that we know that they do not have a deficiency for truthful bestowal, we do not have it by should we have such a deficiency, we have a desire to receive, the desire to receive for spirituality it seemingly exists which is the point in the heart.

We need to receive from each other through jealousy through the desire to respect and desire for more we acquire the deficiency for spirituality like little children, like women who follow fashion looking at each other, as a man looking at each other's cars but the others have each according to their nature. This way we can increase the deficiency this is the meaning of each helps his friend we can increase the deficiencies by others and if we are in a special environment then we can learn from the environment what is worthwhile to desire and how to do to grow the deficiency more and more work through the environment we can grow the right deficiency the Creator brings us to the good fortune, brings us to the right environment and seemingly putting our hand as by chance we do not know how it happens. Suddenly we discover ourselves in this environment and then in this environment which is built in a special way, we can receive from each other the right deficiency but to what extent do we receive the correct deficiency. As long as we feel that the are indeed after the spiritual deficiency because spirituality is good and attractive, it is better than what we get in this life. Because before we interview think we entered an environment where everybody wants something but what exactly they want this is not clear and in the environment of the begin to arrange the correct deficiency. Here there is another question that when we receive the deficiency from the environment it is still not ours it is still not the same deficiency for which we can receive a spiritual fulfilment rather we receive a deficiency from the environment in the desire to receive. The desire to receive is still egoistic so we seemingly turn to the Creator, we seemingly want to receive something on the level of the ego inside the desire to receive.

These seemingly turn to the Creator but still in an egoistic way so how can we correct our position for this new desire so it would be a desire not for fulfillments for selfish pleasures but it would be a spiritual fulfillment the desire to bestow and fulfillment of bestowal. This comes only after we spend some time in this environment that wakes up enough the right deficiency for the desire for spirituality which grows the importance we have for spiritual through envy, lust and honor, desire to respect desire for more we discover that we indeed have a desire for spirituality and then we begin to understand that it is not happening right away but are we to understand that a spiritual desire is something that we need to receive from the Creator. Only in the condition that we ask from him give me the desire to bestow, I wish to be in bestowal and even though I do not have it through full desire for this. Because if we are built in an opposite way so I don't have it through this idea for bestowal but through the jealousy desire for respect desire for more as I see the others I see here and there, there are people who have some connection to spirituality, they have this tendency even a point of contact with the upper force.

By that I begin to see that the Creator didn't just send me random events where I see that there are some people around me who are already in spirituality and I also wish to get there soon if I grow this desire, I don't run away I don't suppress it. I come to a stage where I have no choice but to pray to the Creator to give me this desire, this is is it a praying for deficiency, without a deficiency and that this way we can slowly build deficiency through deficiency for bestowal even for the forces of bestowal the Creator needs to give it to us. Gradually this small tiny amount of this start to feel and attitude there is a desire to give and there is a force of for bestowal and although it is not ruling over me yet but I can be attracted to it. In this way we grow our prayer more and more towards the Creator give us the strength of bestowal these give us the force of prayer, the force of bestowal I want this for just as you gave us give me the force of reception, the desire to receive and I want also the desire to bestow. For that I am activating my prayer although it is not a strong prayer yet it is not a strong deficiency, yet it is not in me yet in a necessary way in a forceful way but each time when I asked and ask and ask by that each penny is added to a great sum and I start to see that this is what I am I lacking, that I always ask for fulfilment for the force of reception I am asking for a different fulfilment for the desire to bestow. I want the force of bestowal, I want such a thing, that I would feel that I am coming out of myself and I wish to fulfill the others and that I am no where from which to receive it from, no place I can receive it from only from the Creator I think that you already understand these things if you don't understand them please ask.

2. S. (13:09) What is this deficiency for bestowal, how to imagine that the desire to receive into it the desire to give what is this?

R. He has a point in the heart from the shattering of Adam HaRishon from the beginning but this is the starting point the vessel of bestowal that is simply a point and simply very tiny desire consequently I can build from it a certain attitude for bestowal, for the Creator by asking from the Creator, I am asking for the force to bestow. I am asking for the feeling that I am lacking this force of bestowal, I am asking the Creator for what the Creator is to have a divine part from above and we need to develop our attitude to this.

S. What is preferable to ask that we ask for the desire to bestow and we don't really have it or ask for the friends direct?

R. I think here we have to develop these things gradually, this is one thing, I also need to reach a state that I don't only pray for a deficiency where I don't have one, this is also correct. I am actually speaking of that I discover that I truly need the desire to bestow and I do not know where to get it from. That I am missing this deficiency for bestowal, where can I take it from, I look at everybody, these guys and the others, they are already under the governance of bestowal, I can see how much time and energy I am burning and I reach nothing. There is also a calculation, I look at the group, look at humanity and that also awakens me. Then it turns out that I turn to the Creator and I have what to turn to them with I have a few stronger points here on one hand the Creator it created me, he gave me a certain deficiency for bestowal which is called the point in the heart and according to this deficiency I am in the group of Bnei Baruch and I don't know quite what it is, I am in it so I don't know what it is but I have an interest, I have to scrutinize it. Later I see that I have nowhere and I have no place that I could receive the force of bestowal even deficiency I do not have anywhere to receive the deficiency for the bestowal. I have only one source which is the upper force, the Creator which is the source of everything or the evil things as it is written I created the evil inclination and he's also the source of everything good so he says that I created the Torah as a spice because the light in it reforms. This is the origin of both force is the good and evil, reception and bestowal so I always have to turn to Him, there is no other source. 

I can turn to only this single source, so the turn to the Creator as he gave us the desire to receive so he should give us the desire to bestow. Meaning that we see everything is attained through the power of prayer and with their private power of prayer we can also attain the forms of bestowal and the desire to receive what he gave us, on top of it we can ask for the desire to give. Why did he make in us a desire to receive with which we develop the desire to get so in spirituality we could be independent, we acquire spirituality out of the desire to receive on top of the desire to receive. It turns out that we can seemingly build the vessel, we discover the Creator in it, you have made me as it is written, we truly become independent and independently recognize the Creator.

S. So it turns out that when we develop, we open the desire of receive in us and we ask for the desire to give in prayer we don't receive the desire to bestow in response?

R. We are asking for the desire to bestow, then receive the desire to bestow and becomes our vessel, this is the condition for receiving the light, for revealing the Creator, this is how it works.

3. S. (19:39) What are the specific fundamentals to build a new vessel of bestowal?

R. The foundation to build the vessel of bestowal is that we have a desire to receive and the desire to receive is where we feel that we must attain the desire to bestow. This is the will to receive. It is written, “I created the evil inclination,” it comes from the Creator. Each time He awakens in us, more and more, the will to receive, we can see it on the corporeal level, how all of humanity develops all the time. The Creator adds the will to receive. That’s how we need to obligate him to develop in us the will to bestow, except the will to bestow is something that we have to develop through the deficiency for bestowal. Then it works out that the source of the will to bestow, Him, is the source of everything, but it is according to our deficiency. So, therefore, we build ourselves, we build inside ourselves in the will to receive, the will to bestow. This is the meaning of “you have made me.” This is the part of the Creator which enters the will to receive, and this is called Adam and inside the system of bestowal which we are creating, we discover the Creator and each time, we can grow it within us. As Rav Zusha writes, each day we have a new Creator in us.

4. S. (21:49) We hear that we should not ask for oneself, even if we ask for bestowal for yourself. Another time, we hear give me, give us bestowal . . .?

R. We can ask for the force of bestowal. There is no way to arrange in us the desire to bestow, unless we receive it from above, from the Creator. He is the only source of bestowal. He is also the source of reception but the force of reception comes to us according to the engine of time.  it comes since all of creation must come to the final goal. So the evil force is revealed in each passing day, and of course it's the Creator who arranges those things, and directs them correctly, and determines what happens with each one and everybody together, everything comes from Him. But the force of bestowal doesn't come to us. Except to a certain measure. Just as we start to discover that there is another force of bestowal in addition to the force of reception, we feel bad because we don't have the force of bestowal. We need to connect so we’ll have more the force of bestowal and we’ll be able to demand from Him. What we are learning now is that we lack nothing but the force of bestowal and we can receive it only from the Creator. To turn from the force of reception to the force of bestowal, change from one force to the other, from two forces to one, He creates the darkness and forms the light. But we have to turn to Him, and beg and cry all forms of expression when we reveal our deficiency that we want the force of bestowal since this is the main thing that we want. We lack nothing from Him only this force.

S. We need to understand what do we ask these forces for? Not to myself for the 10 or for the whole Bnei Baruch?

R. It’s not for ourselves. Of course we have many Kabbalistic texts that tell us how to ask for it, and what to do with it. You need to read, to want to have the desire they are describing. You need to know why we’re learning the Kabbalistic texts. They have gone through those things and they tell us what is up to us in this process and we have to realize and implement what the Sages are saying, like the student who follows in the footsteps of his teacher, they are our teachers.

S. So, it seems that there is a hierarchy: from me to the 10, from 10 to Bnei Baruch, from Bnei Baruch to the world. Do we have to hold on to this picture to have the right direction?

R. Of course, we have, in each time, a possibility opportunity, the ability to build for ourselves the form of connection between the Creator to the created beings, to Bnei Baruch, through the Kabbalists. But each time we need to adapt it to us.  But the most important thing for us is that this has to be the way by which we eventually come to a prayer because everything is obtained by the power of prayer only. Then if we come to the right prayer then the entire path was done correctly. Meaning we have added the reasons, the causes, and until what I need is to turn to the Creator and pray because whatever I wish to attain is through turning to him and according to my request, He will answer me. Only in this way can we advance.

4. S. (27:07) Why can we increase the power of the prayer only in the 10?

R. Because in the 10, you nullify as much as possible the ego towards one and other and you are willing to connect by each one stepping on his own ego, nullifying it, and to the extent you can nullify this is ego and we feel ourselves a bit closer to each other To that extent of closeness, we can turn to the Creator because we nullified the desire to receive to certain extent and now we can ask the Creator to give you the desire to bestow to the extent I am nullifying, cancelling my will to receive towards the friends. So there cannot be a request from the Creator unless it is a prayer in the public, in the ten, in the Minyan, the quorum. Since then I nullify to the friends and to that extent I come to the Creator and say, “I’ve annulled my will to receive, now please give me into the same place where I annulled that will to receive, please give me the will to bestow. Of course, my nullification is also egoistic and when I want to receive the desire to bestow, it is also egoistic from my part. But, nevertheless, I do something against my desire. Then the Creator arranges all those things the right way.

5. S. (29:21) You just answered the question, we ask the Creator for what we lack, the question is where is the lack to bestow, where does it come from? When we nullify to the 10, is this where the desire appears?

R. The deficiency from bestowal comes from my will to receive, from my ego. When I look at the friends and it seems to me that they are already in bestowal, they are already in spirituality, to some extent and I am not. Then through envy, I also want to have the force of bestowal so I wouldn't be lower than them. Therefore, envy, lust and honor, those pure egoistic dispositions, very strong inclinations, envy, lust and honor, they take a person out of this world to the spiritual world. From the corporeal world to the spiritual world, this is how it is set up. This is how it works, when I want what the others have, It seems that he has it and I do not and this is how we advance.

S. It seems it is a deficiency to receive not to bestow, I want something for myself.

R. Of course I want it for myself. I want spirituality for myself, I want bestowal for myself. Of course. But gradually from this, we begin all the corrections, and the foundation of the force of bestowal you find the force of reception, of course, but later, by the work of the reforming light I am asking for it and then gradually it changes me because I have a Reshimot from the shattering we have those records from the shattering, So gradually the light comes and takes care of me and changes my desires and I begin to want, to appreciate the quality of bestowal which is disconnected from reception. Even there, I want. I want to rise above, I want to be in bestowal. But already this is how we advance. 

6. S. (32:10) The truth is that I feel very far away from the will to bestow. How can we ask this from the Creator?

R. You have to be connected to the group and in the group everybody starts to play like little children. Act as if you were already in the force of bestowal. To activate each other, to stimulate each other. You have to build in each and everyone of you, envy and in this way, you will advance. You need to play, to act towards the friends that I have the will to bestow. To some extent I am in bestowal and by this, you will activate in them the envy, lust, honor, their self-worth and gradually, thanks to the reforming light it will change into spiritual qualities.

7. S. (33:48) The Sages say that the Creator is within but when we pray it is seemingly that we turn to something outside of us. How can we pray to the Creator in the right way knowing He is within?

R. I do not know. You can imagine the Creator is something inside the 10, or outside or above the 10, near, distant. As long as you know that there is a source for everything, for changing your nature, for changing you from reception to bestowal. This is the source is everywhere and fills everything. You have to turn to Him to change you. It doesn't really matter how you imagine where this source is. There is no place for Him because He is the place. Read more articles and you will see how to correctly depict the Creator.

8. S. (35:45) On one hand, in our campus courses the students arrive and they are very ready with a very right deficiency. On the other hand, we have data that many people in Georgia are hearing you. How does our desire for broad dissemination fit into this?

R. I don’t know. I give you lessons and you need to advance accordingly. How do you organize yourselves between you. How do you come to a common prayer? You need to care about all those things. I give you lessons but outside of the lessons, it is up to you, I give a lesson and that’s it, afterward, you need to work. There is the work of a person, with the ten, with the entire world Kli. You need to hold each other and digest the lesson and what you have to do. If throughout the day you work between you and how to realize the lesson then you advance. If you think about other things then it will be zero progress.

9. S. (37:33) Is it possible to appreciate the need for creative expression as a need to bestow or the beginning of a desire to bestow? 

R. There is no connection between inclination to arts and the expression of a deficiency for spirituality. Art is not spirituality, not in music, or painting or dancing, those are all egoistic forms through which the person wants to express himself, period. There is no point talking about this. I cannot talk about this anymore because there is nothing spiritual in it. Not that I don't respect or I look down on such things but the person who receives an impulse to express himself through different external forms of artistry, expressing the ego or his view on life. Although he’s creating beautiful images or creations, after all, he is simply emanating his own egoistic tendency towards the world, there is no spiritually in this. This should be clear and we can see according to culture and education, we see how egoistic they are. There is nothing that we can learn from them, there is no way to learn about any acts of bestowal, even when they paint with their blood or they work day and night, it’s to express themselves, not more than this. A big ego, that’s what exists in them.

10. S. (39:46) In the excerpt, there is a wonderful statement that the prayer is the connection between the Kli and the light, and we are supposed to broadcast the prayer towards the direction of the light, the Creator, but we do not know the frequency and we are also demanded to do this in hastening. So what is the right frequency?

R. The frequency is very simple, “may he pray all day,” That’s the frequency. You turn to the Creator with an absolute, maximum prayer all the time.

11. S. (40:32) In the 10, do we discover the concealment and accordingly the Creator builds the vessel of bestowal in us?

R. Yes. We ask the Creator to give us the desire to bestow and in the desire to bestow which we develop on top of the will to receive, we build the spiritual Partzuf. The will to receive is the  foundation of the Partzuf and on top of it, as much as we can receive from above, the reforming light, we build a part of the will to receive in order to bestow and then we have the spiritual Partzuf. In that, we discover the inner light, surrounding light, all those lights which are the revelation of the Creator to the created beings.

12. S. (41:38) Can we say that through envy and honor, I increase the desire to bestow?

R. No. through envy, lust, and honor, you can grow your will to receive and also in order to bestow. But right now, we are talking about wanting to want to have a desire to bestow. I want to have a desire to bestow. How do I get it? As a result of envy, lust and honor. I’m between friends who I think already have a desire to bestow and I still don't have it. Then reluctantly, I turn to the Creator and ask from Him to give me, please, the desire to bestow. Where do I get the deficiency for bestowal from? By being in the correct society, and they awaken in me the desire to bestow because I see I think they have it and I do not. Everything is according to very simple laws of nature which are right in front of us.

13. S. (42:57) Where does the envy come from which gives birth to the deficiency and gives the right prayer?

R. The envy awakens up in us as a result of being in the correct society. Like children who envy each other because somebody has a toy which I do not have. Like women who look at each other and the other one has a dress which they don't have. Men who look at other men and say, ‘he has a car and I don’t’. Envy, this is the foundation of the will to receive when the other has something that I do not have and then I am willing to do anything to get it. From that we advance. We are inside a system, the system of nature, a system of laws, and we need to learn how we are using these forces.

14. S. (44:13) How does my act, my game in the 10 happen when I try to wake up envy in the others?

R. I look at them and I try to envy them as I look at them as people who are greater than me in something, as each one has something which I do not have. Then I'm filled with envy and this envy is pushing me forward, it is propelling me, it is burning, the fire of envy. I turn to the Creator and I ask to have such qualities as well. I also want to reach the force of bestowal which they seemingly have and I do not have and this way we move forward. It is written “envy, lust and honor take a person out of this world.” Take him from the corporeal world and they insert him into the spiritual world.

S. This somehow manifests in external actions?

R. As much as we can show each other in the 10 that I have something. I need to try to stimulate the friends, awaken in each other the force of envy towards something, this is a must, It is a must that on one hand each has to be interested in seeing certain greatness in each other. On the other hand, each one needs to try and awaken certain envy in the friends. This is the envy which brings up, that builds. That’s why it is written that “the counter’s envy, the envy of those who count, increases wisdom.” Those who count the different discernments, those are the people who want to advance towards the purpose of creation. They have “counter’s envy” the envy of those who count. Since they count as much as possible until they come to the state that they acquire vessels for the light of Hochma. The envy of counters will increase the wisdom.

15. (47:09) S. The main thing is to pray all day long. How can we do that in the 10, how can the 10 help us with this?

R. You should work, today, on awakening envy in each other, you must this is the meaning of “each shall he’s his friend.” You are helping each other advance, the more a friend feels envy, the more he will advance. He would want what we have that he doesn’t and that’s how we advance. So my duty is to ensure that the friends are envious. That they see that I have something, or as if I had something, I don't really have it but I act as if I had it and then according to the spiritual degrees that I act as having, they would truly want these spiritual states, they will ask the Creator for them and acquire those states from Him. Then they will be in such spiritual states that I, myself, will envy them. I awaken in them envy from the zero state, don’t have anything in spirituality, I acquire spirituality through envy and then I truly envy them.  This is called “each shall help his friend.” When we are all on the zero point, we can help each other recuperate, get up and climb towards spirituality.  Think how to do it because on that depends the entire spiritual future.

16.  S. (49:29) What does it mean to pray all day, how does the 10 help us pray all day?

“May he pray all day” means that I, constantly, in this request, this demand, to the Creator to arrange for me the force or deficiency, if not the force or at least ask for a deficiency for bestowal. How can I ask for this deficiency to bestow, when I see it in the others. Why is it in the friends? It’s not in the friends but they are acting, but by this each is helping the others. We awaken the friends to bestow; although we do not really have the force of bestowal in this way, we ask the Creator, we demand it from Him and He gives it to us. We have to write down this process. It’s not a lot, it’s just two or three stages and if you insist on it, then from above we will receive such forces from above that shape you to be in bestowal. But you have to be in it.  Again, everything is attained by the power of prayer, only by the power of request. Nothing else but to pray to the Creator. From where will I take the deficiency to pray to the Creator? Only from the environment.

17. S. (51:21) We talked a lot about envy, what about lust and honor? What is the unique work with these two discernments?

R. This is not terribly important for us now because it will just confuse us. We’re going to work on it, it’s not for now just understand that the most important is the envy. If you have it, it is the most important thing. Again we are going through very delicate, very serious states from which we have the entry point to spirituality and when we enter, we will have different work there. Clearer work, more directed, more precise. The most important is to focus on what we are talking about right now, we have gone through many lessons and we are in the final stage. How do we build the prayer, how can we make it more precise so we can be aimed correctly. From which qualities do we make this prayer? Because we have nothing from spirituality. So how can we use the earthly, egoistic qualities with which we were born and how from them, do we then assemble a desire for the correct direction for spirituality? Out of this game, this acting, that a few egoists can aim themselves to spirituality. From having only the will to receive and only for ourselves, we can obligate the Creator, we can obligate Him to help us and to guide us to in order to bestow. 

This is a miracle but look how He created it. “I created the evil inclination” in such a way that in the correct merging, combination of the desires to receive we can extract the correct relation to bestowal. Think about it more and more, discuss it between us, try to be in this all the time. Don't let go of it and you will see that in a few days you will feel, you will sense that you are building inside of them this place where we can understand how to work with the vessels of reception. So that from them after all we can arrange them in such a way, that they will be aimed at bestowal. This happens to us even in technology when we take various phenomena, different opposite things in order to receive and above them we build the foundations by which we can turn to the Creator, and the Creator gives us in return the desire to bestow, an intention of bestowal. We just need to correctly arrange our fundamental elements, our primary forces. It is a very special thing how we build on the basis of the will to receive the Creator created, but we ourselves scrutinize it, we ask by this to build the vessel to bestow. This is called “you have made me.” I highly recommend not to let go of this point, and insist on it all the time.

18. S. (55:46) On the topic of prayer I see the more we talk about it, the more we have the same problem. How can we really act out when, sometimes, if I want to give something and want the others to be envious, they are not impressed by it. Some friends have the power of acting, some don't. How exactly does this work?

R. It is only the sign that you are playing with a concealed righteous and you do not want to reveal to the others such depictions, such portrayals that they would envy them. You have to act that he is great and by this, each one who looks at him, would want to be truly great. When he truly asks for the Creator for this power to grow, and they look at him then they also truly want to be grown up, or greater like him, and they will look at you and then they also want to be greater, so each stimulating the others. This is how it works. 

19. S. (57:12) A few days ago, you said we need to speak to the Creator at least 2 or 3 minutes a day. Is this the exercise of being in the prayer, today? How should we relate to the Creator like a person that we are relating to?

R. You understand the meaning of natural forces? The forces of nature, the Creator is the general force of nature and from this general force, all of the individual forces emanate. So there is a source for this force which is only an abstract force without any concrete expression. Rather it is just a force that you turn to. He is one unique and unified force, as we learn from Maimonides, and we ask of it. What are we asking for? For whatever we want. You can ask for anything because it is a single force in reality. You can't have any deficiency that won't have fulfillment in Him. Because you are made from Him, so all of your thoughts and desires, the best and the worst all originated in Him. You simply need to arrange what He did in you, desires, thoughts, different inclinations, what you want, what you scrutinize, You need to take everything that you received from Him and arrange it correctly in order to return to Him and He is helping you. If you don't go back to Him, you feel bad, and if you do although it's not simple as it requires effort but you will feel good. This is our path and our work.

20. S. (59:59) In the Kabbalistic text, where does it say about acting?

R. It says that all of creation is a big game, a big act. The Creator is playing with a whale which is the will to receive that He created, that which He created opposite from Himself, from the will to bestow and He is playing with it. This entire creation from beginning to end until the will to receive that He created will become like the will to bestow, similar to the will to bestow,  completely resemble the Creator. It is written in many places. Rabash writes in each and every article of his, he gives examples, exercises. But it is enough if you play with it yourselves. Start arranging those situations where, like in the theater, you act towards one another that you wish to invoke in the friends envy. That he will want to be like you. 

Show them, show the friends how you love one another and care for each other. Not in this excessive exaggerated way, like an actor who acts as if it is in real life and by that you awaken the friend and when you awaken the friend you begin to see him differently the next day. This man has grown and he is different and that brings you envy and because of the envy, you wish to be like him. So what we need is to set an example for one another, that we ask of the Creator turning to Him. So using certain hints in our discussion, we need to show that we turn to the Creator. I am in prayer. You can even say it to the friends, when they say “let's call one another” and you say “I can't because I'm praying.” It’s a blow when you hear such a thing. I try as much as you would want to awaken one another. Just like you do it with kids and anyone who has little kids knows that he has to play with them like that, to act before them a certain way.

21. S. (1:03:29) I still don't understand how to work for a desire to bestow through a desire to receive. Could you please elaborate?

R. Read # 12 please

Excerpt 12 Reader (1:04:09 - 1:04:39)

22. R. What are we asking the Creator for? I don't lack the desire to bestow and I know I don't, but I am asking you to please give me a deficiency for lacking the will to bestow, give me such a deficiency as I want to have it, when I will miss having a desire to bestow then I will work accordingly looking for where I can find the force of the bestowal, the desire to bestow, the force and reason for bestowal, all of these things I am asking the Creator for it. I don't know myself how He is organizing it, I don’t know what I'm going to get out of it. I just know the will to bestow is the Creator and this is why I am asking Him to give me also the desire to bestow which is His nature. 

I want to have in me a divine part, a Godly part from above, how does He give it to me I don't know. How do I get it? I also don't know. Just to have it, I want it. When I do that I am not making myself a concealed righteous when I'm asking the Creator. I want to show it to the group and then in the group the friends begin to see that I'm asking the Creator for the desire to bestow. As we are building such a prayer that we write it together, each one has a computer and we create a common page and each one writes in that page in his words what he is asking to give him the force of bestowal, the desire to bestow, then we can quickly see the style through which each one is asking. This is how we advance. We check ourselves, did we receive and return the will to bestowal from the Creator or not. Did we only advance in our understanding, where we now understand this process a bit more. In this way we will advance so he says, the only way to attain a deficiency that we are lacking the desire to bestow is by prayer. 

Meaning to obtain the desire to bestow is only by prayer. I  turn to the Creator and am asking to give me the desire to bestow, I want to lack bestowal, to miss it. When I want to bestow I feel myself being filled, because I am realizing my will to bestow. Just like a mother who has a natural desire to give to the baby food and then as she feels full, she gets fulfillment from it. I also want to have the deficiency for bestowal and when I bestow I receive fulfillment. I receive fulfillment from my deficiency. Except for a mother it is a corporeal thing but you see it in this example from above from the Creator. In us we don't have that desire. When we acquire the desire to give and feel the others this is the expression of the will to bestow, we will feel fulfillment and pleasure from that and this is the pleasure the wisdom of Kabbalah is talking about. We have to be full of pleasure from it, just like a woman feels her baby and she feels happy, satisfied, and full. That it is more important to her to feel him than to feel herself. This comes from nature, let’s learn from it.

Excerpt Reader (1:09:24 - 01:10:06)

23. R. We need to come to a state where the whole world will feel like the little child that I need to feed. In truth this is what each of us can give to the world, no one else can give to the world what we can, this is how we are connected and are put together as the world Kli. The Creator gives the fulfillment but we need to have the deficiency to pass the fulfillment to the others and when I fill the entire world with the light of the Creator that passes through me to everyone this is called the attainment of the world of Ein Sof, without any limits or boundaries, and then I am on the level of the Creator who builds and fills the world. Gmar Tikkun, the end of correction.

24. S. (01:11:13) Envy stems from the ego and we need it in order to advance, so how will we use it in a positive way?

R. Nothing the Creator created has any positives or negatives in it. Rather if you use it in the lower world it's negative and if you use it in the Upper world it is positive. If in order to receive all of the qualities are negative because you wish to feel yourself. If you use in order to bestow, meaning in the upper world then you are using them positively. The qualities themselves are neither positive or negative just like we learn about it now, envy, lust, and honor take a person out of the lower world unto the upper world. We never thought that envy, lust or honor are something positive because we are in a egotistical world. But if you use these qualities in order to rise from the egoistic level to the altruistic level then you can see how those qualities are eternal qualities, whole qualities. All depending upon the intention either with the intention to receive in the lower world or the desire to bestow which is the upper world.

25. S. (01:13:03) What are the things I should not be envious of the friends and how to see them as great on top of all of that?

R. I wish to envy the friends in everything. One is strong, another is tall, the third one is good at reading well all of the articles, the fourth one is punctual and he cares about the society, the fifth one creates all of these things around us in order to arrange a place for us. Meaning each and everyone has something that the other lacks. When I look at them, in truth which one has the other doesn't and what the next has the third doesn't but in general I have something to be envious of in all of them. This is how I form a connection with them and the more that we grow I will see greater things in them and then my envy will grow accordingly. According to my envy in them I will grow. That is why I don't shut my eyes, I wish to see them as great since to the extent that I am in a society that is great in my eyes, I will grow more. So no one needs to hide himself from others. On the contrary, let’s reveal as much as possible, because by that we allowed the friends to advance and you will advance as a result of their work. This is the meaning of each shall help his friend.

26. S. (01:15:19) You spoke about asking from the Creator to give me the desire to bestow, would it be correct if the ten specifically in this kind of ultimatum and demand that desire all day?

R. It will be good, it says, “my sons have defeated me”. The Creator says, I gave them the will to receive and they demand of me the desire to bestow, they defeat me. They say we don't need a will to receive unless we can use it in order to bestow. This is called “my sons have defeated me”. There is great joy in the Creator that we are asking of it.

27. S. (01:16:24) There is a scrutiny that keeps rising in our ten, on the one hand it is playing in bestowal like we hear and on the other hand we have to discuss what we are lacking, what is our common prayer, how does this coincide? How do you work with these two things together and the right way?

R. Why can't we be in both together at the same time?

S. When you start scrutinizing you say look I feel as a ten we don’t lack spirituality right now? 

R. No one lacks spirituality, I also don't lack spirituality there isn't a single created being who is lacking spirituality. There is no such thing in nature. Creator gave us a state by which we would not be lacking, we can arrange such a relationship where we will feel the deficiency out of envy, lust, and honor. How can I have a deficiency for a spirituality when I don't have such a lack? A lack is a desire and the Creator did not create a desire for spirituality, so it's clear that I don't lack this. But, when I am in ten, I learn from them and they act before me as if they have something and I don't, then from that I take three principles from my demand to the Creator. Please give it to me, I want to have a desire to bestow, I want to lack the desire to bestow.  I look at others and I see that they have it and I don't. Where is my self-worth, my respect, my ego cannot keep calm if they have something that I don't. It is like the allegory of poke out one of my eyes if you poke out two of his. This is how we are using this process in the correction of our desire to receive, the correction of creation we are using forces that are in it.

S. This is clear so just to make certain we understood correctly there is no such scrutiny in the ten of what we lack, in the ten we play the perfect state and the scrutiny is in the person that everyone scrutinizes in himself. Many times we hear, scrutinize together what we lack.

R. We lack the will to bestow but the degree, the style, the mode is individual because it stems from the point in the heart, the root of the soul. Each one has a different root. Imagine that the ten friends and each one discovers his natural quality. His natural qualitySefira, which is the Sefira inside the spiritual Partzuf. Let’s say you belong to Hesed, he belongs to Tiferet and the other belongs to Yesod and each one is like that, completely different from the other except you have one goal. To come in total through mutual support to Keter. By this you are similar meaning, that you yearn for the one Creator.

S. When we meet all of the Sefirot we need to scrutinize our state to make an address from the desired state; how do we clarify what is the current state?

R. You connect all of your desires into one, Malchut, a deficiency, so it will be seemingly as one. This desire and deficiency is aimed at the one Creator and when you are connected in this way the Creator begins to work, the Upper light in you begins to work on you, connecting you to the system of Sefirot of the Partzuf. Then you begin to discover that you have a common desire, a common Creator and that you are completing one another, incorporated in one another and each has incorporated in the other so it works out that even though you are ten, each one is incorporated in everyone having a complete Partzuf. From that you begin to discover the quality of the Creator, this is truly spirituality. Today we are in the last lesson out of the series of lessons that I wanted to give you that literally seals the entire process that we started over two weeks ago. 

Singing together. Boreh, Come and See (01:22:56)

Excerpt 13 Reader (01:26:08 - 01:29:39) twice

28. S. (01:29:40) Today I supposedly heard for the first time why I can't pray, I am not connecting my will to receive and it is kind of clear that in the excerpts of 12 and 13 that a person should ask for himself, but we know that we can't ask for ourselves we need to ask for the friends and here the force to receive won't support this prayer?

R. I have to ask the Creator to have the desire to bestow, I need to ask. Anyone can ask to have the desire to bestow and each one asks the Creator for this and ask for himself and afterwards when you have that desire to bestow you will be able to bestow upon others.

29. S. (01:30:49) After we pray is there a state of demand how do you go from a prayer to a demand?

R. It is all I cry to the Creator, either you call that a prayer or a demand, a knocking in repentance, it doesn't matter, they are cries to the Creator in all kinds of ways.

S. So my sons have defeated me is a prayer that is accepted?

R. My sons have defeated me, it's out of our prayer, it’s from within our prayer when we come to a state with the Creator that He has to answer. We obligate and impell Him to answer. The whole prayer is impelling the Creator as if the Creator has no desire and you instill in Him your own desire and according to this desire He will build for you the response.

S. How do we know that we are praying together that we reach that degree of a prayer that is from the bottom of the heart?

R. That besides this there is nothing, besides what you are asking you can't demand anything is this is the only thing that fills you. This emptiness that you want to specifically receive, this is called from the bottom of the heart. The heart is the desire.

30. S. (01:32:41) When the prayer awakens envy between the friends how not to let that envy be expressed in an egoistic way?

R. For this we have to be in the group watching over each other, we are advancing towards spirituality and they send envy not in order to see a friend as inferior to me, but rather what promotes me is if I see them as greater than I. When I want to learn as Rabash writes about it, when a person is among tailors or shoemakers he doesn't go there to learn to do his trade halfway, he wants to go among professionals, so he can learn how to do it well. So I want to be among friends so I can take examples from them. It's one should build for himself such a group where he will feel that he is among great people, like a baby and that they are pulling him forward giving him examples. It all depends upon how he wants to see them and depends upon them how they act as great towards the others. We shouldn't belittle them or slight them, by this we destroy our spirituality, our path.

31. S. (01:34:50) About answering the prayer, what is the difference between a deficiency and intention to bestow, what do the vessels pass between them?

R. The deficiency is already a deficiency to bestow when you have an intention to bestow on top of it. A deficiency in itself can go in any direction, meaning that the deficiency is directed in a certain way.

32. S. (01:35:22) About organizing before the prayer we run into a lot of friends who can't stay with all of the actions that we do in the ten, not because they don't have a desire, but it's about that they just don't organize the day correctly. How do you recommend to organize your day for those that it's hard for them to get ready for a connection with the ten?

R. A person who doesn't think all of his free time about the morning lesson that he went through has no future spiritually. I'm saying every free moment during the day you have to return to the morning lesson. I recommend for you that even if you read articles or you discuss things, I advise you to repeat the morning lesson. Go back to the morning lesson because without it you don't advance. All of the lessons that we go through you’ll see we are not learning anything else besides how to advance and from day-to-day to learn how to advance more correctly towards  the goal. Someone who didn't take the previous steps will certainly miss them in the coming lessons. I am just reminding you again because afterwards you will see that you don't know what it is about, you don't know how to position yourselves, how to organize yourselves or that you are making things up and not following the Kabbalists’ advice. We are taking the most important excerpts here from the most important compositions. Please be serious as the morning lesson contains within it the extract of our work, another step, another step, this is what every lesson is like.

S. What do you recommend for the ten to give friends who don't have support at home? They have complicated conditions? 

R. It’s complicated, I don't want to get into these things as I can only increase the importance of the morning lesson, that they have to hear it, even several times a day, to read the excerpt several times a day discussing with their society as much as they can. In this way to fill up all of their free time, meaning free from work and family to spend that time in the material of the morning lesson. Besides the morning lesson you don't need anything, this is how important these lessons are right now and how they determine all of our path.

33. S. (01:39:03) My feeling, my prayer, should it need to have the intention to pass what we are getting to be a conduit for what we are receiving?

R. Yes, that also is correct.

34. S. (01:39:03) The process of organizing the prayer, is it the same as organizing the ten Sefirot?

R. I don't want to say it because you will get confused, organize the prayer as best as you understand it.

35. S. (01:40:20) How can it be that the person resembles the Creator and we are such beasts?

R. It is not about us. We in our internality are animals, beasts, because we are operated only by the will to receive. To the extent that we act according to the desire to bestow we will turn gradually from beasts to man, Adam, Domeh, similar to the Creator, right now we are all similar to beasts.

36. S. (01:41:06) During the day there is more of a resistance to ask for the deficiency in bestowal, we have those excerpts of one who asks for himself is destroying his soul, so how should we be in prayer?

R. Asking for ourselves is a person asking for himself. but it asks for the force of bestowal it's not regarded as asking for himself. Understand that I can ask, turn to the Creator and ask for the force of bestow although it is written there that even asking for his own soul is also seemingly forbidden. But without it we have no way to join the ten, we have no way to turn to the Creator. Therefore, if we ask to have the intention to bestow, all of us, in order to build the ten, in order to turn to the Creator in a complete way it is not regarded as asking egotistically. Start seeing what it is about, what is the intention in your request.

37. S. (01:42:36) The process we were speaking about is the little bits that accumulate to the big sum that's how we get the deficiency?

R. Yes, but we have to be aimed at wanting to be deficient, to lack the force of bestowal. This can’t can't be if I am alone only if I am in a society where all of us stimulate them, provoke each other, awaken in each other envy that we have the quality of the bestowal and they don't, then they will want it.

38. S. (01:43:44) Is envy a quality that influences on our feelings without passing through the mind and this is why it is so unique?

R. Yes.

Excerpt 14 Reader (01:44:05 - 01:45:08)

39. S. (01:46:02) Is it possible to work in such a way that one desires to turn to the group and accept the qualities gifted by the Creator of all the friends and Kabbalists?

R. No, that is impossible. You cannot convey a desire, you can do exercises by which we ask from the Upper force, from the Creator, which is the desire of all desires, to replace our desire, to tend to our desire but we can't receive a desire from another one. We can be impressed by a desire of the friend. This is what we talk about when we speak about awakening envy, but this is not enough to work with it as it is still a deficiency of the friend. I have to turn to the Creator and the Creator builds in me a deficiency according to my request if my request is correct. I can't join another Kabbalist and get from him a deficiency, like in a gas station.

S. Can it be said when I draw the reforming light it affects people around me?

R. It does affect them, but you can't install in them your own deficiency, your corporeal deficiency you can but not your spiritual deficiency as we received this from the Creator. You can be next to great Kabbalists but they won't give you their deficiency. You have to build it yourself, even create in you the right deficiency. Only from the Creator do you receive a desire to bestow.

40. S. (01:50:07) In the article Rabash writes, the main thing is to work in the heart. How do I convince my mind to agree to such work so I can be in this as much as possible a yearning towards the Creator?

R. For the past two hours of the lesson we have been talking about it. When I envy the friends I asked the Creator to change my desire, this is it. Envy awakens me to be at a higher level in the desire to bestow. There is nothing else, but I still have to get it from the Creator as He is the source of all of the desires, the will to receive and the will to bestow, everything depends upon Him. This is called life and death are in the hands of the Creator. Hands of the Lord.

S.  If I understand correctly it means that this is work not with my efforts but work and the Creator changes my desire?

R. Of course only the request, only raising MAN, the prayer. Everything else the Creator does. He also causes my MAN, but in such a way that I don't feel it. I may ask and demand of Him to change my desire into a desire, a prayer before a prayer, but still all of the changes that come to me are only from Him and only as the result of my request.

41. S. (01:52:24)  Is it right to ask for the desire to bestow for the friends to pray that they will have it?

R. Of course, yes this is called they help each other. To the extent that you elevate yourself you elevate the group, because you are a part of the group.

42. S. (01:53:03) What is the discernment of receiving a personal desire from the Creator or the discernment of getting deficiencies from the friends in the ten?

R. What you get from the friends is deficiencies that they all follow envy, lust and honor, egoistic deficiencies. I need this, I need that, I need a desire to bestow. It is still an egoistic inclination in me where I turn to the Creator and ask Him to change these desires in me, to give me already a spiritual form, characteristic, then from Him I get the real spiritual characteristics.

43. S. (01:53:59) You said we could pray for ourselves for the desire to bestow and also our Kli, that they have the desire to bestow. Do we also pray the same thing for humanity or is that prayer different and will this lead us to a complete prayer?

R. It is written that the most important is to pray all day. If you are directed to the Creator alone through the ten however you can and you are in the lessons, in the end you will discover your connection to the Upper force, which will arrange and set up the corrections in you and be revealed in you. This is what will happen. 

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