Morning Lesson August 21, 2021, Transcription
Part 1:
Annulling Before the Upper One - Selected Excerpts from the Sources, #34
1.Rav’s Introduction: If the work is first of all to detect to what extent we are under the control of the desire to receive, that it is not myself but it is a special force of nature that controls me, that directs me and is making of me whatever it wants. Even though I don't feel at all the difference between myself and this force it seems that we are the same, this force and me but here we really have to see that there is not so, this is not truthful, rather that it is a foreign government that the rules me, controls me to such an extent that I accept it as it is my own nature. Then to peel myself off, to distance myself from this control, this actually is the very first stage that I need to do in the building of myself as independent, as an operator, as existing in the spiritual world. Therefore, first of all the action is not to refrain from evil, but to first of all, after refrain from evil and later only have to do good, to attach ourselves to the desire to bestow. First of all, we need to examine to what extent we exist in the nature of in order receive and to what extent it is not me, each one of us but the way it is instead an evil force that is ruling us with cruelty and it is truly managing us and doing with us whatever it wants. We all the time just obey its orders.
First of all, I should disconnect from this force and feel I am neutral, that I do not want anything and I then want to realize and feel all the time how I am constantly getting these orders from this force and I without criticism or maybe with some criticism over these commandments, I keep them. And if I do not want to keep them, then what is it that I have to do, how can I disconnect from keeping these commandments. Can I leave or can I exist if I disconnect from them, this is an action that is very much not simple, it is a very serious action and the person should truly feel what is going on with him or more correctly what is happening inside of him and to start working from that. I want to make a barrier between myself and the desire to receive in order to receive that comes and wants to control me. This action that I now want to perform is called the act of Tzimtzum, restriction. That I disagree with being under control, being a puppet of whatever my desire to receive dictates to me and I can't even find this I can't even identify it, I grew up this way, I was born this way, I live this way and therefore here it is the which is very much not simple how to act this restriction, this disconnection from my desire to receive from its commands and here the atmosphere is very important. That the group is also engaging in this and then I also follow them.
How can I detect, maybe I do not run away but at least to detect to what extent we are always keeping the commandments of the egoistic nature that is ruling over us and we already after such a few exercises, we will feel that it is truly controlling us and that it is a foreign force and it is a bad force, it is an alien force and it is an evil force. Does it really want my benefit? If I continue to think that I may feel that precisely when I exit the control of the desire to receive, that is constantly obligating me to do something, the way that I speak, the way that I breathe the way that I think, everything, each and everything I do. If I will want to do what we call a restriction. Meaning not to let it control me in a free way, like a baby but I already want to be greater, more grown-up and more resistant to show my own desire, to determine my own actions myself and not what this force tells me. That means that I already begin to be free from that. As it says to be a free people in our land, in our desire. That there is a desire and I do not listen to my desire that wakes up the actions of the selfish ego but I want to determine myself in a different way. But first of all, I have to detect that we are constantly executing the actions of the evil inclination. That always, always without any stop, determines for me what to do. How to live, how to think, everything. How you speak, how you look.
It is not that we have to oppose this and work against that instead to what extent it is controlling us and if we pay attention to this then we can sort out it's commands on the levels of the still, vegetative and animate and against that I should not really resist so much I'm not going to resist my body that operates in a physiological way in some instead where I am as Adam, a human. And Adam means being similar to the Creator. This is where I have to examine to what extent I am in the direction to become Adam to become similar only on the fourth degree so we have the still, vegetative and animate but we are talking about the speaking, the human-level. And this is where most of our work is. All work is if he wants to focus it even more correctly, it is in respect to the group, in respect to the connection between us and later from us to the Creator. And if I am constantly checking and criticizing, if I pay attention to my attitude to the group then I begin to feel that in the emotion, mind, criticism wakes up in me to this state. Then I can always increase my participation in the group by pushing myself in there, mostly emotionally and then I see myself more connected, more obligated and out of this I will feel how much I need the Creator and his help. I am drawn to him, I am getting closer to him. Let's not forget about this, about this matter of trying to measure how much each and every day I am getting closer to the Creator, so let's read.
Excerpt 34 (11:30 - 13:15)
2. S. What does it mean to nullify my desire, my needs?
R. No, what my body wants, I can’t get into that, into this physiology. The physical body in the desire to receive is my desire to enjoy. The body is the Guf of the spiritual Partzuf, the desires that I correct and I get in them the revelation of the Creator and I get into attachment to him according to equivalence of form; this is called Guf, body.
S. (14:03) What is to care for the bride, for Malchut?
R. This is what the bride is called, the Malchut is called the bride but where did you see that?
S. (14:17) In the next writing, quote.
R. Why do you want to confuse everybody? Malchut is called bride and we have talked about it already and the Creator is called the bridegroom and most importantly our work of the first nine of our qualities is to create the connection between the bride and the groom so the Creator will become the Keter and the Malchut, the general desire, will be like Malchut and there will be a connection between the Keter and Malchut through the connection between us. That we exist between the Keter and the Malchut but do not ask about such things next time. Whenever others do not understand if they are not in it, you must not ask about it. How do you teach others how can it be that you ask about something that the others are not in?
3. S. (15:33) Why does he say that my sons defeated me, as if we wage war against him?
R. It is a war, the Creator is constantly inserting in us each time new selfish desires and we have to overcome them they are fighting against him not to keep these desires as he inserts them in us as he wakes them up in us instead we want instead of these selfish desires being aimed towards our evil inclination the ego, we want to detect this ego as something evil for us and we want to invert everything that the Creator wakes up in us towards the good inclination. This is called towards him. This is how we correct ourselves each time.
4. S. (17:19) What kind of obstructions in the work come to us from above and what does it mean that one is given the force to discover the desire to receive from above?
R. The disturbances or obstructions that come they reveal to us the desire to receive and this is how it happens, this is called help made against him. That the Creator seeks after the desire to receive and we need to study it and by studying it we actually also study what is opposite to it because these are just the two sides of the same coin, of the same nature, which is either the evil inclination or the good inclination and the person himself is in the middle. Therefore, this is how we learn and from the evil inclination we will learn the good inclination because the Creator himself we cannot study, understand or feel but because we feel the evil inclination and want to disconnect from it. Then by us inverting the evil inclination which we do not want to reject, we learn what is the quality which is opposite to it, which is the good inclination which is the Creator. This is how we study him because it is impossible in any other way to understand and to feel the Creator.
If we are the created beings we have to be separate and opposite to the Creator because otherwise we would never be independent, we would be just like the still, vegetative and animate existing under the control of the higher force without understanding, feeling that we are under his control, like it is now. Before we emerge above the restriction, we carry out all the commands of nature which God Elokim which is in numerology, like nature and we feel that nature is controlling us. The entire of wisdom of Kabbalah starts with the person beginning to learn to what extent he's under the control of the upper, for the Creator and he disagrees with this control, he does not want this control and the Creator is happy that we reject this evil inclination and instead we want a different control, the good inclination. What is the relation between that good and the evil inclination, it's a different kind of control created specifically by disconnecting from the evil and into the good, it is all relative. It is only in order for us to examine and differentiate these two forms of natures and to be able to exist between them as independent because otherwise we have no independence. How can it be that someone created us and we did not exist before at all and we reach a state where we are independent. How could that be how good such a thing happened and we stop being simple puppets, marionettes. How can that be it can be on the condition that we exist between the two forms of nature the evil and the good forces and we are in the middle determining our own state this is how it is.
5. S. (22:02) How can one demand to bestow, how can I request something I do not know?
R. In a simple form we are told that if you want to understand the Creator to come closer to him to the higher force it is ruling everything. God, Elokim in Gematria is nature, He is nature, all of it. The Creator is the same as the whole reality, all the forces exist in him, the whole reality that you cannot even say that it exists, it is only in him. If you want to begin to understand the Creator, to feel him, then you need to understand a little bit what connection means because then you can understand what is the force ruling the whole nature. You need to try to get closer to one another because then you'll understand what is getting closer and opposite to that, what is distancing. All of these qualities you can acquire in order to feel the Creator, to understand him, in order to get into some kind of connection with him, all in all, it is in order to understand what his reality is, what is the reality in which we exist? We cannot not exist in this reality even if we die, we cannot get out of it. All in all, in life-and-death, there is no big difference between them in our state, our life and death are adjacent to each other but to understand who the Creator is and to reach the degree of eternity and wholeness as he is we need to acquire qualities of connection and therefore the connection between us is the central action by which we begin to understand and feel and attain what is the quality of the Creator, what is the Creator, Boreh even mean. Its Bor-reh come and see, this is how it is revealed towards us.
6. S. (25:17) The writing says that the force was given to us from above to be able to discover the desire to receive so why is it so difficult for us to change our nature and as we go along in the work it is becoming tougher instead of becoming easier?
R. It is not difficult, it is not difficult. The difficulty is in us asking one thing and we, in order for us to truly ask and to truly want this, for us to rise to a different state in nature not the way we now identify ourselves. We are born into a certain state and the Creator shines on our state and then we can see and we gradually can understand in which state we exist and if I want to get out of this, we have to keep what the wisdom of Kabbalah is telling us about, that's the way it emerges from our situation is to draw the Creator's actions as he established as in the present state we discovered that this present state is evil, we do not want to stay in it. We want to get out of this. I disagree with being in my present egoistic nature. I want to rise above it to the degree of bestowal, to the degree of connection and then we need to demand from the Creator who established us in that state, number one. That he now shifts us to state number two and, in this way, we can progress in each and every state that he takes us to, we will discover initially in the state we are entering that it is a good state and later on we reveal that it is not a good state. It is not enough so we start to discover in this, in it all kinds of flaws and then we ask from the Creator again to elevate us, to an even better state, in bestowal, in giving, in greater bestowal. That in each time we discover in our present state desires for reception. Then we determine them as evil and against them opposite to them he wants to rise to higher, better desires to bestow. This is how we progress and this is actually our work until all of the desires that can be revealed with all of us, all the egoistic desires we replace them with the opposite desires as it says and it will be an opposite world, it will be altruistic desires, from hatred to love, all in all, this is the entire transformation we have to go through, this inversion.
7. S. (29:22) Should we accept happiness from these rejections and disturbances we get from the Creator because this is what gives him contentment so should we reach equivalence of form with this concealment, disturbances?
R. This is necessary because it does not matter in which desires, we are the most important is which intentions we are. That is the Creator created the world for enjoyment and if I do not enjoy this then by this, I am cursing the Creator on one hand on the other hand when I enjoy, I also need to enjoy because I am in equivalence of form with the Creator that means that by this, I am passing pleasure to the Creator because I enjoy. And here is this subtle examination that we have to precisely scrutinize how this happens that I need to bring myself to a state where I enjoy out of each and everything in the world in my life in such a way that by that I am passing pleasure to the Creator and out of this we get double pleasure the pleasure out of the action itself and pleasure out of the result of this action as by this I delight the Creator. We need to do exercises in this and we will do them and then we can begin to feel how much everything is built only for this purpose that by me enjoying I give delight to the Creator. Because the purpose of creation is to do good to his creations to enjoy but when do I know that I am truly enjoying because I can enjoy all kinds of things that are lies and I do not know what is a lie or truth as I am in darkness so on the condition that I am enjoying together with the ten and within the ten we want to connect between us and to enjoy together with the Creator then for sure I am performing an act of bestowal and this act of enjoyment discovering the truthful pleasure.
8. S. (32:51) How do we invert the bad into good?
R. If I add to each and everything that I feel in the present reality besides myself, also the Creator and I add the Creator inside of the 10, then it turns out for me that Israel which is me, Yashar El, the Torah, the light, that means the group that comes together and the Creator become one. These three will be together and if I do so, then for sure I did for the time being a correct action.
9. S. (34:00) If 90% of my desires are desires of this world can I work towards bestowal with these desires because I do not have many other desires?
R. Bit by bit, we can sort out all our desires, don't worry and you will see how you will be able to aim them in order to bestow. Even in the tiniest things in which you are in this world, when you perform them personally, individually, not with the group, nevertheless you can aim them, those actions in order to bestow contentment to the Creator. How? In each and every thing in which you exist in your body you can understand, think, be grateful that everything that you have in your body it is all because you exist with the readiness to connect with the friends and through them with the Creator and in this way to reach the correction of creation. There is nothing that exists outside of this purpose, nothing. Even things that you do by yourself somehow with your body with the physiology of your body, it does not matter what it is. Nevertheless, these things exist in order for you to live and to carry out an act of connection between you and the whole of humanity and to the Creator.
10. S. (36:18) This morning I am very happy and thrilled to be here because we have 5 people on the screen so we can ask. My question is does the Creator use third parties to obstruct us? For example, we need to be a minimum of 5 people on the screen but only four of us come to the morning lesson, so does he obstruct us as students with the lack of the fifth person?
R. Certainly, all of the lacks, the missing things are also done by the Creator to order to awaken you toward greater advancement.
11. S. (37:28) In the beginning of the morning lesson you said that we have to actualize the restriction so the egoistic nature would not affect me. How is it even possible to do such a restriction?
R. We cannot do any spiritual action, all we can do, all we should do are efforts in order to discover our current state. It doesn't matter what state it is, ascent, descent, in between, wherever we are. But to discover the truth of the situation and to try to identify what we should to do in order to come out of it, onwards. All the rest is done by the reforming light by the prayer, by raising the MAN, that’s all. All to discover the current state, how much it is incomplete and to ask the Creator to complete it, this is our whole work. If I compare my current state to a more corrected state, what makes me feel bad, the more corrected state is when I am connected in greater bestowal, etc. And so, I’m asking the Creator to be in such a state. To be in this state together between us and to discover the current state upon the next state.
12. S. (39:45) What does it mean that the person is in between the two desires in the middle, what is that place?
R. Between two degrees. From one degree he rises to the next, to a greater will to receive and accordingly to discernments that are higher.
13. S. (40:10) What does it mean to enjoy together with the 10 throughout life when all kinds of pleasures come, I somehow need to include, to incorporate the whole ten within me in order to get these pleasures in the right way?
R. I don't know what pleasures you’re talking about but I should certainly depict each and every state, each and every spiritual state that I’m in the 10 in ever growing connection and ever-growing fulfilment with the recognition of the Creator and equivalence of form between us. When we’re more together we discover Him more. We’re more in bestowal between us and then we are more in bestowal from us to Him, more and more actions. This is how a penny to penny accumulates into a large amount.
S. We know from history that let’s say the Kabbalists have a certain portion of food they eat and they know how to aim themselves somehow to the Creator so I am asking not to enjoy even the beastly pleasures for myself. Now I heard something new, that I have to include the 10 in every action in my life.
R. I don't want to talk about it anymore because this will confuse you and it will twist your head. We should be connected between ourselves and the 10 as much as possible even though we’re going through many states that seemingly have no connection, I should always see myself as the representative of my 10.
14. S. (42:22) When we resist its control, even a small thing, the will to receive starts going wild and tries to deflect in all kinds of different forms. What is the advice in which we can defeat it?
R. You have to understand it’s not the will to receive, it’s None Else Besides Him. The Creator is governing all the desires. That’s why by these actions we should see how much he wants to teach us through all his tricks, all of His actions to get to know nature and in the nature of bestowal we should be an exact copy of the will to receive. Where in our will to receive we need to be a replica of the will to bestow, meaning to learn how the will to receive is, and against it to make actions that are the opposite, for the will to bestow.
S. Should we search for a win or focus more on the effort to resist it?
R. To turn it to the will to bestow.
15. S. (43:43) You said that the will to receive is an external force and not me. How can I accelerate this awareness, what kinds of exercises can help me understand that this is an external force, not myself?
R. By incorporation in the group, talking about it, common effort, then you start discovering faster that the will to receive is an alien force acting upon us to make us fight between us, etc. And this is a long path, it’s a long road, it’s not simple. But the main thing for us is to stand upon it and to demand an explanation, a scrutiny, a revelation. We have to get to know the will to receive that stands upon us as a hater, as an enemy. King Solomon called him the enemy.
16. S. (44:50) Is a part of this awareness the criticism, the judgement that I do with everything in my life, is that correct?
R. Just criticism, no. Just criticism is when you work out of your own ego.
S. But seemingly I’m criticizing everything the Creator is giving me?
R. Don't start explaining these things to me. By this you’re only confusing yourself. What you should do is to take the direction toward connection and whatever is related to the connection go with that, period. If you want to confuse yourself then go right ahead but be cautious not to confuse others in your group. You don’t hear what you’re being told.
17. S. (45:47) How am I going to progress if I cannot disagree with my current state and be always satisfied with what the Creator offers me?
R. It does not matter that I’m not content, that I am not satisfied but I want to reach scrutinies. That’s what I want to discover in every state, that’s what we’re talking about. It’s not that I’m drawn to the will to bestow because I see it’s good for me. I don’t yet have the light that reforms that corrects my egoistic desire to be in order to bestow. Otherwise, why do I need to do all these actions? I cannot jump to the end of the action and then come back to the beginning of the action and carry it out from the desire to bestow that I have acquired. If you are wise, you want this to happen in your life. It will never happen this way, no. Rather only when we feel that we are under the control of the will to receive and we want to have a new kind of control. Maybe we should read some more as we are going from one confusion to another.
Excerpt 35 (47:45)
18. R. (49:39) This is not such a big difference; it is pretty subtle. It’s as if we are asking, we have no choice, I know I’m in the will to receive so give me the strength of the force of bestowal. I want to bestow with all my forces, I want to have this force of bestowal and I’ll always bestow, I’ll bestow all the time, just give me the intellect, the mind for it, the emotion for it, let me bestow and I’ll do it. This condition when we say first give me and then I’ll act, it’s not so clean, even though it seems to be, what can I do? I’m entirely the will to receive which the Creator created. He controls me with all the pleasures of the will to receive, I can't detach myself from my will to receive so what can I do? But what we should reach is a state where I agree to work without any force, without any desire, without any help. And if I ask for the greatness of the Creator to be revealed I replace one control over the other, and the Creator doesn’t want that, no. He wants me to be seemingly independent of Him as well. This is why if I ask, well let's suppose if I ask now for the control of the Creator and then I’ll bestow with everything, then I’ll become what we call still of sanctity, like an embryo in his mother's womb doing nothing. However, if I already address and I’m asking that I must not be completely under the control of the Creator without my participation, because then I become still, inanimate. The Creator will do whatever he wants with me just like now. Now he’s doing whatever He wants but if He showed me, revealed to me that I am under the control of the will to receive, this certainly came from Him. So, what am I asking of Him? To be in a different state, to be in bestowal, but in a state that He controls me. So, what did I do? I replaced my current state with another state. So, I won't feel any change, there’s no change here. This means that the whole thing here is that I should be independent. And from whom? From the Creator Himself. This is what He wants. This is the meaning of ‘my sons defeated me’. We’ll go into it, we’ll feel it, we’ll understand this point. It is very important, subtle, sensitive. It will awaken in us in our nature, and we’ll feel it from within, how it will arise and will be felt. And we’re going to want to keep it. You’ll see, everything is before us.
19. S. (53:15) Until now we heard that the greatness of the Creator that we engage in the 10 is an ideal state, but we heard now that it is not clean, so is there something else we need to do?
R. Because the greatness of the Creator can control me without asking me. And then what will I be? Will I exist or not? I won’t exist just like now I don’t. The will to receive controls me and then the will to bestow will control me. The way we grow is independently. That’s called the middle line between the will to receive and the will to bestow, and we’re always walking in between. It’s not simple, we’re talking about some very subtle and new discernment to a certain extent but it will sink in, don't worry. All in all, we’re close to establishing ourselves as ready for the path.
20. (54:33) How can we feel the greatness of the Creator? How can we add the Creator to everything that we do?
R. This is by you talking in the group, connecting to all our lessons, and I promise you, that whoever is in the lessons and two or more times a day he’s doing the exercises in the group; certainly each and every one, that I am responsible that each and every one will ultimately reach a state of shifting himself from the will to receive which is anti-Creator, to the will to bestow, which is the Creator. And he’ll be independent in that. It’s not that he will be incorporated in the Creator without any feeling of independence. Rather he, along with acting with the Creator, he is independent, even more than that. The Creator wants us like a little child to pull our parents by the hand, like a child pulls his father. That’s what the Creator wants us to do. That we’ll discover in advance the good states in spirituality and we’ll draw Him after us, pulling after us. We’ll force Him to help us and we’ll force Him to help us in a way that we will be independent, and we will determine each and every future state of ours. We have such an adventure here we can't even imagine.
21. S. (56:46) Can we call our more corrected state the point in the heart and if can call it the point in the heart, the Creator within us, then can we ask Him to help to connect to a more corrected state?
R. I would say yes to all that, it is correct.
22. S. (57:27) In order for me to agree to carry out those actions that you are describing I feel that I need to love the Creator. Can I ask to love him?
R. To ask, you can do that but on what account are you asking? Love is a result of recognition of awareness. Just to ask, you can ask for the final correction. The final correction, I only act to bestow and not receive anything and I embrace the whole world and organize it, and care for it. And I care for the Creator to feel the world, but what do I have out of it talking this way? It has to be executed in my desires, in my recognition.
S. Where does the person's agreement come to all of these controls? From the side of the will to receive, the will to bestow but there has to be agreement in this process?
R. By the light that reforms. We get these small lights, they act upon all parts and then the group, all of the participants, and this is how all of these lights bring the friends closer to each other until they start feeling that they’re not bodies, rather they’re connected to a system. And they care more about the system than each one to himself. Later with the other groups, different groups, etc. until they discover the Creator within the common Kli, the common vessel. As the verse goes everyone will know me from the biggest to the smallest and my house will be the house of prayer for all nations.
23. S. (59:43) If a person makes an effort and as a result of that he turns to the Creator to demand that He will help….
R. This doesn't matter, what’s first and what’s later. We’re under extensive care from the Creator, intensive care from the Creator.
S. Different parts of the soul of Adam HaRishon, can you explain about that? You said there are small influences that influence in a different way the different parts of the soul?
R. This is what I wanted to say that by these small illuminations that affect us, by that we start getting some direction. This one or that one, not more. I can't explain any more than that because we don't feel it.
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S.
(01:02:02)
What
is
the
correct
request
that
will
advance
us
in
the
work?
R.
The
correct
request
that
will
advance
us
in
the
work,
that’s
it.
That
we
want
to
be
servants,
meaning
to
get
direction
and
instructions
from
the
Creator.
This
is
how
we
come
closer
to
connection
between
us,
this
is
what
He
wants.
In
order
to
be
revealed
in
the
connection
between
us
and
this
is
the
way
it
is
for
all
the
people
in
the
world.
25. S. (01:01:42) Can you explain please a bit more. You said the Creator wants us to do the work independently so what does that mean?
R. That we, it is not Him that determines all of the different states for us, rather it is us, we ourselves will determine these states. For example, when a child grows, he learns how to take care of himself, to sustain himself, he goes to school, goes to university, he grows up. This is how his whole generation become grownups and they start elevating their whole generation to be a higher degree than their parents. This is how we advance in spirituality as well. Only by more and more connection between us the Creator is revealed and He shows Himself to us. And out of revealing Himself and showing Himself, we advance. By us being drawn to be connected then we discover Him, we advance Him. This is the meaning of we are making the Creator, you have made me, that’s how the verse goes, because the Creator doesn't exist. We can say that’s the personality, that’s the essence that is revealed out of the connection of the broken vessels. Between the shattering and the correction there are different attributes that are revealed, in favor and against, and through that we discover what the essence of the Creator is. Come and see, there is both darkness and light there and the mixture, all of the different combinations between these states.
26. S. (01:04:18) You said there is no difference, if I understand correctly, between our life and our death but rather what is important is for us to reach equivalence of form with the Creator. Because in this manner we will reach eternity. What does it mean, this concept of Eternity?
R. I can't explain this to you. This is something we will understand once we reach the attainment of the Creator because then it’s as if we rise from the degree of this world, which is temporary, imaginary, it exists in the will to receive that is always changing. We rise to the degree of bestowal, the world of bestowal which is entirely Eternal. There is no concept of time there. Time only exists in our world. Because of the egoistic desire it always looks for new things that it can acquire, but in the will to bestow which is the upper world, the world of bestowal, there is no such thing as a concept of time or running after something. Acting not from a deficiency but rather an action there is out of completeness. Where we want to compliment others, complete them. I am thinking about others rather than myself. That’s why there is no death there and you don't act out of a deficiency. Think about it, it is actually good. Good stuff to think about.
27. S. (01:06:25) In order to organize this work should we work as the assistants of the Creator, and whatever we get we incorporate it with a deficiency of the ten, and then we work in order to satisfy these deficiencies by directing my appeal to the Creator so that He will be the one that completes the effort that I am making?
R. Yes. Don't spare turning to Him whatever you have, good things, bad things, it doesn't matter with what. The main thing is to always turn to Him. About this there’s a general verse: don’t have an alien god, that’s it.
28. S. (01:07:25) How to pray for a more corrected state for help to connect?
R. You should be as connected between you as possible. I should see you on the screens more often. You want to scrutinize the states more, and this is how you will advance.
29. S. (01:08:03) If we are standing opposite before opposite forces, where do we resemble the Creator but we’re not inside of Him?
R. I didn't understand, we’re always in the Creator. The only question is how much we attain the place we’re in, how much we have a connection with Him. He is always there and always controlling us, and by this He gives us the best states for us to awaken for independence. Each and every moment wherever we are, the best and the worst that can be is the sum total of the moments that are closest to independence because this is what He wants from us.
30. S. (01:09:19) Do we build a vessel for the feeling of the Creator or do we build the Creator Himself?
R. It is the same because the Creator is called Bo-Reh come and see, it’s not a force that exists in nature without us. Rather to the extent that we compose it, organize Him with respect to us, that is how we exist, that is the concept of the Creator. Besides the Creator there is a general upper force holding the entire reality, we don't call that the Creator. The Creator is what we call come and see, made of two words, come and see, Bo-Reh. Baal HaSulam writes about this. And there are many explanations about it. That’s why all we should think about is how we reach a state where we always awaken Him to help us in the right way. Otherwise, we won't awaken him. As much as we are in the maximal equivalence of form with Him to the degree of 0,1,2, etc. To that extent we rise to him and we feel.
Excerpt 36 (01:11:00)
31. R. (01:12:37) This means how can a person examine if his work is truly in order to bestow? Only under the condition that he doesn't feel any flavor in it, no flavor, no pleasure, that he doesn't even enjoy it in his pinkie. And this way when he nonetheless does work it means that he raises Shechina, Malchut from the dust because that’s the state he feels she is in compared to him, compared to his feeling. This means to raise divinity from the dust. Under the condition that he feels this way, that he is in his work without any flavor, then under this condition he can already feel what it means to bestow without flavor, without self-address, without his ego, what it means to truly bestow. After that he passes this degree when he’s in the dust; there is no reason, there is nothing for, there are no goals, no flavors either now or later. From this moment on he can start feeling pleasures in order to bestow. That he has this ability here to determine another degree of connection of enjoying the fact that he is giving. Maybe it seems to us that it is doing this without a choice because I must enjoy something. It’s all bestowal. That I will have a pleasure, no, this means to bestow in order to receive. Meaning these are very special scrutinies, we will do them. Well, they are actually done by the light that reforms that’s why it’s called the light that reforms.
32. S. (01:15:20) What do you mean by us being independent because in the end the Creator does everything as there is None Else Besides Him, so what is my part in being independent?
R. Being independent means to be in the middle line, not to be enslaved by the vessels of reception or bestowal. We will have to talk about that, we’ll have to calibrate ourselves, it’s not for now.
33. S. (01:16:02) What is missing for a person who has no pleasure so he does not curse the Creator?
R. Only connection with the friends. He has nothing to hold onto, he just needs to understand why the Creator shattered the vessel of Adam HaRishon. That only by searching for connection between us I find an anchor, a connection, a force, a foundation where I can somehow calibrate myself. I don't calibrate myself by feeling a foundation underneath me, rather because I am connected to others and especially to the extent that I bestow to others, because the more I want to bestow to them and help them, I receive from above the light that reforms and through me it bestows to everyone and that’s the connection. The moment I fall I disappear and don't exist even for a minute, the same for anyone. It turns out that we all depend on mutual bestowal and we all depend on how in mutual bestowal we are nourished by the Creator and that is essentially the existence of a correct group. Try to detect this, to depict this for yourselves, it’s a very special thing. It resembles what is called a tower that floats in the air, the degree of Bina. We will go through all these things, what’s important is that you will start realizing them and then move forward.
34. S. (01:18:17) Does the obstruction come when the intention is correct or when it’s incorrect?
R. Vice-versa, it works both ways.
Excerpt 37 (01:19:20)
35. R. (01:19:37) This is essentially our goal to find the Creator. What does it mean to find the Creator? It's not that I go and look through some telescope or microscope or something, but within us, in our senses, in all of our qualities, in everything we’ve got from head to toe and everything around us. There we discover there is just one force that rules and that is essentially the goal.
Reader begins: (01:20:17)
36. R. (01:21:23) This is from the book Maor VaShemesh, the book that Baal HaSulam really loved. We have to try in every state only to work on connection and connection through nullification, until the Creator is revealed. And through this increase in connection, we discover Him and study Him.
37. S. (01:21:53) Could you allow us to come back to excerpt 35 where...
R. No, no no. Don't take us to some place we are not right now, never.