Morning Lesson June 29, 2021, Transcription
Raising Ourselves, #13
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1.Rav’s Introduction: We learned that the main thing for us is to rise from a corporeal degree to a spiritual degree where we move from within our reason to above reason. How can we do this? How can we rise above the person that we are now, how can we rise above what we are? The Creator arranges for us conditions such that if we accept them then we inevitably raise ourselves above the degrees of this world. Whereas we have entered into such relations with the Creator that we have no choice, we must begin to relate to Him not according to our kind feelings and intellect but above that otherwise we won't have a connection with Him. This is called to uplift oneself, since to uplift oneself is not that now I am in a certain state and that I am raising myself a little higher, from first grade to second grade, or something like that. No, raising oneself is considered that by me finding within me such inclinations and qualities that I will be able to arrange my attitude towards them correctly, I will be able to raise myself to another degree of reality. That is, that I change my intellect and I change my feelings to a different degree, to another level. This is what Rabash wants to tell us here in these verses and this is truly how to raise oneself, not to be smarter but to change the perception of our reality, this is called to raise oneself. Let's follow the excerpts and we will see how we do this, such that we need to put forth exertions in a certain way that raises us. What is that specific thing that raises us? This is where we don't receive what appears to us in our senses, in our feelings, and our mind, of what is happening but rather we go above that.
Excerpt 13 (04:00)
2. R. (05”47) We don't let go of our address to the Creator and even though it appears to us that we won't have any success, that we have been there many times already, who is wiser than one with experience, that we see and realize that it didn't help me. Nevertheless, because we are obliged by the Kabbalists, so we go and continue the prayer and the request which is called an opening for those who knock with repentance where I knock and knock and knock on the same door which needs to open and lead me to the next spiritual degree. Actually, the first spiritual degree, this is how we enter the upper world to a spiritual degree. This is under the condition that we go above all of the doubts, upon them, not that we are running away from them but that they are with us and remain with us as the posterior of the spiritual state. We have all the difficulties even though the body is telling me that you have been here already, that you are despaired and what can you do? It will happen again and again, and I don't have the strength to continue and return at this point, to again and again each time do all of these additional actions that are seemingly to demand to enter a state that is above despair, nevertheless I must. Here again it is only the group, the society, the study, persistence and perseverance in our meetings and our mutual work of one helping his friend is how we can unite and overcome. This is why it is so important several times a day to be connected, to read, to talk and to be cautious not to bring some words of despair or a weakness to the group that could destroy everything. This is how we will advance and understand.
Reads Excerpt 13 again (08:45)
3. R. (10:19) It is clear to me that I am certain within my intellect and within my feelings that I am not a fool and I see the path that I've been through so far and it did not help me, no appeal or prayer, nothing in order to come to the spiritual perception, to the force of bestowing, to the true force of connection which is above my nature. Above this earthly corporeal one. Nevertheless, because it is not apparent to me and that I am certain, and I performed the correct scrutiny upon it and that nothing helped me, I go and demand, and ask for help from above, to rise above my state of despair and darkness, the loss of hope and to awaken myself through that prayer. Even though a thousand times it didn't help me, now at the 1,001 time, it will help me, it needs to help me. The work here upon this is the work above reason.
4. S. (11:56) What is exactly the meaning of praying and overcoming?
R. That I am in a state where I am despaired and I have nothing, I am certain that it didn't help in the past by asking and demanding, yet anyhow I oblige myself through prayer to seek by what can I come to a prayer, so it won't just be empty words, but for there to be some kind of feeling and demand and efficiency. That I then turn to my friends, and I do find in the group a new state. I try to grow and increase, intensify this, to demand with the group from the Creator to raise us to the force of bestowing, the force of connection. In this way for us to overcome the situation is called the ascent to a degree of above reason. Above our opinion and reason where according to my mind and feeling there cannot be anything new here and will remain as a beast, as animals already buried inside the state in any way we continue with our forces. This is impossible alone but the fact that we are together constantly seeking more and more as much as possible to establish a new state.
5. S. (14:13) How do we get to that level of logic so we can work on it?
R. Reason is considered that I see with my feelings, my intellect, with all that I have just like a person in this world where I see that there is no chance to rise to a higher degree, for us to bestow and connect to one another, so that we will be above the force of reception. For us to come to the force of bestowal, to relay ourselves to the Creator as I don't think and see that there is a chance, that there is the recognition of evil, this is what I am going through. Through my nature I am opposite of all of these spiritual demands and even though all of this is true, and this is called according to my reason. I try and this is mostly through the environment where we connect and, in our internality, our inclination to try to demand from the Creator as there's no one else to demand from, he's the only one who stands before us where we connect, and we demand from him to give us the force of bestowing.
6. S. (16:20) What is this point you spoke about, the truly emotional point that it changes from empty words to truly felt and meaningful words, where is this point and what is this difference between the true words in the empty words?
R. The difference is in the exertion, if I put forces to demand and ask from the Creator, and if it is possible through the 10, to turn to Him and to give me the possibility to rise above my ego and to be a little in connection and bestowing. That I start to see here a place for exertion, and I have something to talk to the Creator about.
S. Does this have to do with being in a constant dialogue with the Creator to come to this point of meaningful words to the Creator?
R. If you have the possibility of being in a persistent connection with the Creator, all the better but usually we are in such states that we are disconnected, that we wake up, disconnected and then we wake up. These are the states that the Creator puts upon us, and we need to try to awaken and to come to Him that way. In the next few verses that are ahead of us, we will get there, meaning, where the Creator constantly plays with us to bring us closer, distancing us, He reveals, and He hides. In such a way, He plays with us, awakening us and building within us a new sense of bestowing so that we will be able to be in this force of bestowing, the force of giving above intellect and feeling. Through such changes in our state's that He does, it is for certain that I won't succeed and then I won't be able to do anything, but I continue and I again and again through such things I come to a stage where I evoke the reforming light and it built in Me Is state that I can be in bestowing above my intellect, above my logic and that is already the first spiritual degree.
7. S. (20:15) We build a prayer in the morning, and it works and then afterwards there's a meeting and in the evening it's hard to relate to what we said. How do we treat this?
R. The fact that we are changing is good, the fact that I am arranging for myself and appeal to the Creator in the evening and in the morning that I see I'm not in it already, this is a good sign that I am developing. That I shall be as new in your eyes as it is written. This is why each time we need to see the extent in which we are in demand, in prayer, in a renewed appeal to the Creator as there is nothing unique here. On the contrary, if a person is without change then he becomes inanimate, and these are the signs that we are in development.
8. S. (21:29) When the group truly attracts me, taking and pulling me out, when I use the power of the group to advance, is this the same as faith above reason?
R. No, when I remove from my reason to the reason of the group, this is not a sign of faith above reason. I'm moving from one level of reason to another level of reason, and this is not a true spiritual ascent. Many people use this, and it is not what we are talking about, we are speaking about the fact that I truly feel in my feelings and my intellect, the current ones and that I can rise above them to be above them, not from incorporating in the group and using what is in the group, even higher. You are right that there is a means in which I am incorporated in the group and go according to their feelings and mind, but above reason is above my reason relative to the upper force. We will develop this further, but the question is nicer than my answer. I can't yet explain what the difference is between all of these answers to the question are in going above reason.
S. You said a person needs to connect everyone within him as one man in one heart and with the friends we don't feel that we learn that first we have to take care of the progress of the friends so how do we bring these things together to connect them within me and incorporate?
R. The fact that I want to incorporate all the friends in my heart gives me the possibility of connecting to them, and what other way can I connect to them but only by me wanting to include them in my heart?
9. S. (24:21) We read that he doesn't answer our prayer and we still pray, what do we expect to get out of this prayer ultimately?
R. We want the Creator to give us the possibility to rise above our desires for ourselves to the desires of ours outside of us and eventually to Him. Where, I want to be in a state where I am not thinking about myself, where constantly my desire to receive is entering me inwards and returning me inwards and certainly I have a problem here as I cannot exit this prison that I am constantly for myself, for myself and rising above if I can't. This is the issue why I can't enter the spiritual degrees so my whole state is how can I incorporate with the friends, but to incorporate with the friends is not yet considered a spiritual degree it is only a means for the correct spiritual demand. Then together all of us ask to pray and cry out for the Creator to help us just like the exodus from Egypt the fact that we will connect together in Egypt is still within Egypt and how do we exit it, this is the point here that we need to activate a prayer and the prayer of each of us and all of us together.
S. We talked about how if we incorporate with the friends, it is still not a spiritual development so how do we make it spiritual?
R. The fact that we want to integrate with the friends together is still nothing, it can be a society of criminals and not of righteous. We need beyond that to come to the Creator where our integration with the friends that we are trying to do I reveal that I am not capable of this, but that also this is still not the end of the way, that I need to integrate with the Creator, otherwise what am I building but some form of Socialism, what am I doing here? I need to come to a state where we're together with the friends, I am turning to the Creator and asking Him to care for us. Then He raises us like we learned in the Arvut article in Matan Torah because then the Creator cares for us, raising us together. The condition for rising to the higher degree is for us to be as one, that within us making from ourselves and effort as one that is only a condition and then we pray to the Creator who raises us to a higher degree.
S. The fact that you say we ask Him to take care of us and to raise us, where does He raise us to, into adhesion with Him?
R. The Creator raises us to a higher degree of perception of reality, of knowing reality, from where we are from where we need to rise.
10. S. (28:34) Can one deliberately do what he knows is unpleasant to him but do it to his friends and still desperately pray for the force of bestowing at the same time?
R. The state that you're talking about is a complex state and a person needs to go through these states and try to scrutinize them and then he will see from those states what is happening. You can't answer this state as you are talking about many conditions that we need to reveal. I can't answer, maybe ask again?
S. We all are praying for the force of bestowing to have this love and connection between us, can one still deliberately not cause harm but do what he knows that is unpleasant to him, what is not good for him. That, when he does it to the friend deliberately and still desperately pray for the force of bestowing for the Creator to give him this heart of love break free from his egoistic perspective.
R. This is how we do this we turn to the Creator and ask for him to complete this, it is clear that these states are not good but that we understand according to from what Rabash says about the states that each one goes through and as the Kabbalists say that each one goes through and that we are going through now as a result. This is how we advance as there is no Kabbalist who has not been through all of these states as I have been through them to reach adhesion and revelation, and this is what stands before us now. We are truly in a degree of opening, the degree of Lishma, the spiritual world.
11. S. (32:21) If you can explain how to rise above the resistance when we try to play the next degree when we hear from the friend that he doesn't believe in playing and he doesn't have an intent to do this towards anyone?
R. We don't want to receive a friend who doesn't want to grow and to grow is called that we are acting in a higher degree always just like with children as you look at a child who is constantly wanting to do something that is more than that which he is capable of doing. He plays being a driver in a car or building something or doing something because nature obliges him in such a way to grow and it is the same with us that we need to continue yet only through us it is through choice that we want to be bigger in spirituality and in our actions, there is nothing that is not according to that same process that nature obliges us to do. Nature is obligating us to grow also, only not on the corporeal plane but to enter the spiritual plane. This is the same process of development and just like children don't know what they are doing but that nature compels them to build something, to do something and to achieve something, tasting everything along the way it's how we need to do the same. Really there is nothing different here, just hear what we need to engage in is from our participation and our participation is made of two levels. From one level that we make of ourselves all kinds of exercises of how to do and what to do but that the desire for this that we need to get to be towards an unknown state, the next state, one that is above reason. we put forth an effort and we enter a level that is not in our place but above our place and above our reason. We want to enter a state where our mind and feelings don't operate yet but that we want to enter and have a new mind and feeling and this is called a new spiritual degree. From a beast a man will be born, Adam and more and more a higher and higher Adam by having more mind and feeling of bestowing and resembling the Creator, this is called even more above reason. There is nothing here that cannot be grasped or digested, think of where we are, that in us there is a degree of the beast, and animal and there is the degree of Adam, and we need to develop this upon that. This is how it is called, man and beast the Creator shall save, shall bring salvation to where in every degree we need to rise above our desire to receive.
11A. S. (36:34) I heard that I, ultimately as a result of incorporation in the group, I need to reach a request to rise above my nature, understanding, view, desire, knowledge, is this not the same prayer that I asked for myself?
R. I am asking to be a bestower, that there is nothing here that is contradictory, I am asking to be a beast or to be more connected with others and to help and support others, this is called to be spiritual, to be a bestower. So, I am asking for myself, you can say this, that you don't have the strength to bestow, I am asking for the forces to bestow otherwise how can I ask? If I ask and I have the forces, this is called bestowal where I don't receive anything for myself, what does it mean true bestowing, to receive in order to bestow. What does it mean to receive? It is opposite, I use the whole vessel of reception that I have but in order to bestow to others otherwise I cannot bestow, that I remain in the desire to receive but that the use of the desire to receive is in order to bestow to others. That is the manner of my bestowing towards others is by me receiving systemically, considered that we move through us all of the upper light to everyone.
S. Then my friends are corrected in my eyes?
R. You need to ask for everyone even though I feel that they are more than me, but that anyway we need to unite together, and this is why I am asking for everyone.
12. S. (39:26) He writes about two kinds of overcoming that with the faith that the Creator does here and then to exert above reason and pray for the Creator to help, so the Creator can hear and not help what needs to happen so he can both help and hear?
R. Try to ask for the others and then your request will always be in order to bestow where you want to connect with the whole group and bestow together to the Creator, then it is considered that you are not praying for the group but for the Creator. In certainly toward the access of bestowing.
13. S. (40:30) I can understand what it is I turn to the Creator with. How can it happen that the Creator turns to me? How does he answer me?
R. You feel according to your life and what is happening to you how the Creator is showing you his attitude towards you, whether it is working for you or not to connect to others, to understand what we are learning, to attain something. The attitude towards the regular life and all together to the complete still, vegetative, animate which are around you because all that is established for you by the Creator, but the main thing is that which you give him is the response through the connection in the 10.
14. S. (41:52) The quality of bestowing is above or below the barrier?
R. The quality of bestowing is the actual barrier, you can say above the Machsom.
15. S. (42:17) In the beginning of the article it says, he understands that the true advice is prayer so a person determines in his reason that prayer is important, and at the end it says he needs to overcome this as well to exert above reason and pray that the Creator will help him overcome his view and pray. What is the difference between these two prayers within reason and above, but it is not important, I want to show the Creator through this how much I want to come closer to him and that I have no other way to do this except only through this, and so I continue above reason?
R. That eventually I need to operate myself even though I don't agree according to my intellect with what I am doing. Let's say simply according to my intellect I already saw that I have seen a thousand times that I was there and all kinds of states that I made efforts, and I asked, and it did not help me. So how will I do that now again? What am I crazy? Am I forgetting? No, I don't forget and I'm not crazy but rather I do this action because by this I want to bestow to the Creator and bring Him contentment. The fact that now I am in the thousandth time and at the 1,001 I want to show the Creator the extent I want to come closer and resemble Him and even though I already have great experience with the fact that I didn't succeed, but it is not important. I want to show the Creator through this how much I want to come closer to him and that I have no other way to do this except only through this and so I continue.
S. It's a bit confusing how to pray above reason if I pray within reason, I know what to do but above is kind of confusing I'm praying without understanding what for?
R. Prayer that needs to be above reason is called despite the fact I did not succeed in connection and did not succeed in the act of the despite the fact I did not succeed in connection and did not succeed in the act of bestowing and did not succeed to rise above my heart, I asked the Creator to give me the possibility to be that way, for me to rise above my heart in bestowing and did not succeed to rise above my heart I asked the Creator to give me the possibility to be that way, for me to rise above my heart.
16. S. (45:39) Is this prayer answered in a certain state so we will always be able to move into Holiness or will we always be in a state of deficiency and the prayers never answered?
R. We will reach a state where we will learn how the Creator replies to the prayer, in what style and in what way. It is not like what we think that He gives us the forces of bestowing and faith, and that are able to be in the force of bestowing above our mind and our heart, that are still operating in us. We will then be in a different world on a different level of perception of reality and then we will certainly receive the Creator's response in a different way, in new vessels, and this is how we will exist. We never receive spirituality in our present vessel, it is impossible, on the contrary when we go above our mind and our heart and how did we come to that? Even though we are certain that we won't succeed we still continue the effort, we still give, and we still put in effort and in this way the new state becomes stable in us, and we feel ourselves as new in the Creator that becomes revealed. It is not in our present vessels. the fact that we now can't discover the Creator's response, the Creator in our desires, it leads us to a state where we reach spirituality. It is not the smart one who learns meaning not in our present mind and emotion can we heal him, on the contrary. In opposition to it we can, so look what he is doing he gives us such states showing us that we cannot succeed in any of them, and this is how we learn that spirituality is above the desire to receive.
17. S. (49:15) Reaching the highest degree of perception of reality relates to this world or a different world?
R. The true perception of reality is not in this world, in this world we have a beastly perception only, a human perception is already in the spiritual world, and we are not human beings yet. Human, Adam, means similar to the Creator. To the extent of the quality of bestowing we acquire we will be called human. In our world there is only a perception of still, vegetative and animal levels and this is why it is said about us they all seemed like beasts.
18. S. (50:21) How does a person feel he has entered spirituality, what are the symptoms of this?
R. The symptoms that a person enters spirituality is that he knows and sees, feels what it means according to his logic that how he reads reality and yet he can also stand against his logic, above it and make some action against his reason.
19. S. (51:11) I would like to know how not to forget the advice of the Kabbalist that we receive every day when I am going through some state of descent?
R. You won't forget it, you will get it from above when you need it, what is important is just to try to stay in the group, to be in the group and with the group to advance. If you're not in the group, you won't advance correctly because the implementation needs to happen in connection with the friends. So then don't be afraid as it will happen correctly.
20. S. (52:25) Sometimes a person has a state where he comes to the lesson without a deficiency and understands and feels this, then he hears the friends and begins to feel their deficiency and takes it upon himself and revives him. He doesn't feel that he received it for free without any exertion or effort in overcoming the question is whether does it have to always be in overcoming and prayer?
R. Okay this example is not an example of above reason, when I incorporate with the other’s desires it is a corporeal thing here, there is no overcoming of my desire. Let's say even if I came with my desire to the group when I incorporate with the group, I am next to them, that I hear them and feel them and gradually replace my desires and thoughts with the desires and thoughts of the group. So, it is not that I rise above reason as many times a day we replace our thoughts and desires from ours to the environment. Let's say when you watch TV or hear the radio or see the people on the street or read the newspaper, whatever it is, it's not that I go above my reason in that sense. To go above my reason in spirituality means my reason is a desire to receive and I rise to a degree that is in order to bestow. Only that is called above reason from the degree Malchut to Bina and if I just replace a cow for an ass as it says then I am not rising in a spiritual degree.
S. So if possible if I change the state in the friend comes and he doesn't feel the deficiency and the group also doesn't give him, he doesn't get the deficiency from the group and he tries to overcome through prayer so that he will be able to awaken through the 10 by the Creator to receive the deficiency is this lack called overcoming?
R. If I come to the 10 and I have no correct desires of my own and I want to enter them, so I have more desire, direction, and tendency for spirituality this means that I replace my desire with theirs but that's still it is not necessarily a state of faith above reason. I am replacing one desire with another, possibly their desire for spirituality is stronger, different but it is not that it is already spiritual, already in order to bestow, no. The desire in order to bestow is that I work against my desire even though according to all of my mind and heart I see that nothing is happening for me but that I still relate myself to the upper force, the prayer, the request and that the Creator orchestrates such a reply from me by which I will get a new attitude, that I will see a whole new way to relate to reality. This means that I have received faith above reason what you get from above, it is the degree of Bina, bestowal. at first, I had my own reason, my desire to receive and now I have received a force of bestowing from above and I can work according to that and when I continue with that force of bestowing it becomes a force of reception, from faith it descends into reason, and I have to rise to a higher force of faith above reason and this is how it always continues.
21. S. (57:40) What is the connection between annulment and faith above reason?
R. Annulment before the friends in the 10 I do that as I am obligated to do because gradually I realized it is my only means to reach bestowing on the path and so I try to practically cancel myself towards the friends who are with me in the same world on the same level and the more that I rise above my desire to receive and make actions of bestowing towards them, this is a device to achieve the true actions of bestowing. Even though for now these actions that I make are still on the corporeal level.
22. S. (59:02) How to advance in faith above reason?
R. You have to try to derive forces from the connection between you as your whole confidence can be from holding each other and then you can be connected to the Creator and not otherwise as alone you can't do this, you don't have the strength this is not an egoistic strength you can hold on to spirituality. To the extent that one comes out of oneself and feels that he is incorporated with others, in that incorporation point you also hold on to spirituality.
23. S. (01:00:21) We get results from the connection and there is a certain desire that it will somehow remain and on the other hand we have to ask more?
R. To ask is always good, you just have to work on your request and try to raise the request to a unified state as possible, that you are asking together and that it is aimed at the Creator to maintain the request is correct.
24. S. (01:01:20) There is a state of complete absolute despair. We depend 100% on the Creator, He connects and disconnects us. How can we rise and do any form of action if I am always in the hands of the Creator, what do I do on my behalf?
R. You want to be in His hands, and he keeps rejecting you.
S. What does it mean I'm overcoming if He keeps rejecting me, if one friend is in this connection and doesn't know that the Creator is doing such things for him?
R. This is how he needs to feel, I don't understand, say it again?
S. If we need to reach the Creator as one man in one heart and the friend is disconnecting, what overcoming can you do if he is in disconnection?
R. As much as he can.
S. He is not able, he is disconnected?
R. As much as he can, what can you do if this is what the Creator is doing to him? This is the calculation; how do you know the depth of his soul?
S. Where is the form of overcoming as there is no ability to do anything on his behalf?
R. He is in the group?
S. Yes.
R. He is in the group in connection with others as much as he can perhaps, he doesn't succeed so much in connecting with them that means he has a high soul, a very kind of harsh and hard soul and yet he stays, and these people have a hard time that they erupt, and we have to help him advance with us.
S. How can he overcome?
R. Whatever he can, this is what the Creator gives him.
S. Just to understand, a person has prayed so many times and he understands, yet he still has to pray but these states where the Creator disconnects a person he can't even pray?
R. Yes, this is the state that the Creator gives him.
S. So what form of overcoming does he do?
R. According to what the Creator gives and according to how the group influences him, you have to influence him, and this is why there was a shattering of the soul into many pieces so that even within the soul, these pieces help each other.
S. So the 10 helps a person do an active overcoming?
R. Yes, as much as possible the 10 needs to help.
S. Where we don't agree with any state that the friend goes through?
R. Let's say so yes, if you can do that in the state of the sense that a person is being forced or beaten.
Excerpt 14 (01:05:17) Twice
25. S. (01:07:44) Our friend is asking what is the sign of acceptance of our prayer to the Creator in the 10 so we can understand it?
R. The Creator is always hearing what was raised as deficiencies because basically all of creation is with Him in a closed circle. There is no other system here; it is all one single system. It is just that we are emotionally detached from Him, but in truth the Creator senses us, this is the common force of the whole system. That He absorbs us, we are in Him, we are in the Creator, so His influence is always upon us. The question is how we come into such a mutual influence with Him so that we feel how we influence Him, and we feel how He responds and influences us in return. This is the question and basically our whole work is how we are coming from connection between us to connection with the Creator. Then all of our actions take upon this reciprocal form through the friends, I influence the Creator and from the Creator through the 10, I get the response from the Creator. But when we start acting that way towards the Creator and receiving from the Creator, we begin to feel ourselves as one, as I attain to some extent increasingly so. Then we come to a point to the extent where we connect between us as one that we also connect with the Creator, to this concept of one. Then ultimately, we come to this condition of Israel, the light and the Creator are One, meaning the Creator is literally as one. This is our work.
26. S. (01:10:21) He is talking about people being in an idle state and not despairing, what does this mean?
R. Even though our rejection and our confusion become greater each time, the detachment could be stronger between us and between us and the Creator, that we may feel that we are going into some routine way of studying between us, that it just happens day-by-day, that it is just a routine of life. This means that we have to wake up at what is going on, when does this end and when do I make an action that rises above this world, above my mind and emotion, this is what we need to think about. Our daily study that we put so much time into, the main point of it is how to shake each and every one of us so that we don't stay as we were yesterday but that each time we move to a new state.
27. S. (01:12:02) The Creator gives every person what each one needs. Does he give each what he needs or each the same way to all the members of the 10?
R. The Creator gives each and every moment to each and every person specifically what that person needs at that point specifically.
28. S. (01:12:45) Who gives in us the thoughts and feelings, and how to be above that?
R. To be above that it is possible only by receiving a unique influence from above that raises us beyond our present mind and emotion to a new kind of mind and emotion. And these new mind and emotions are already in a style, a format called Bina as opposed to Malchut, bestowing as compared to reception, so I can make an action that is unrewarding for me, and I don't make the standard calculation in my standard vessels rather it is a calculation of bestowal.
Why do I do this? This is what I do, based on what? Based on bestowing, why, no answer. Meaning in the desire to be so you can't give an answer.
S. How to format this inside me to create that change?
R. Only yearn for trying to exit oneself, to rise above oneself, meaning that I want, especially with regard to the group, as much as I want and I tried to connect with the friends, to that extent I am approaching and rising above reason, coming out of oneself. What does it mean to rise above reason? To first detach from Malchut and then approach Bina.
29. S. (01:15:05) As Rabash writes to us in the beginning of the excerpt that we need to pay attention to this and believe that in all the worst possible states that can be we will not escape the campaign in the 10. Even though we are pretty strong between us, how do we protect ourselves so that we won't run from this campaign as it's not simple?
R. To awaken each other and to pray that people won't lose their interest, their deficiency, the greatness of the goal, the greatness of the Kabbalists, the greatness of the Creator in them will be important, that there is nothing important in our world. Most of us are already several years here together in our study. Think about what happened and how things were a few years ago before this pandemic, the virus as this recent thing. We used to think differently, we are thinking differently now because the whole world is advancing, and it becomes easier for us to see ourselves on the path that we have a path and a goal as opposed to the entire world.
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30. R. When does the light come to us which corrects us to open our eyes, our mind, and our heart, is only when we have the deficiency for it? So, our whole work now is to achieve a deficiency for the light so that we need to advance in a sensation of darkness and that way we are incapable of anything, we don't see anything and this needs to be more painful to us. Only if we have a real powerful sense of darkness, then we will have a Kli vessel that is ready to receive the help. Then it will open up to us and we will see how the Creator made the entire path in the right way for us. He always grew within us, developed within us the need for the light of bestowing, for the force of bestowing otherwise it won't happen.
31. S. (01:22:51) To advance in attaining the darkness is this a state that is revealed in the 10?
R. When we pray together and ask, and want together, we discover our true state in our progress, together. The more that we work in the 10 we see that it doesn't really work out for us to connect in the 10, even though logically we should become more unified and connected, it does happen. But with it, we also discover how we internally, each of us is running into a wall and cannot penetrate the friends’ hearts and this is the question, do we just cool off and let it go or do we keep going because we have no choice, that we have to bang on this wall to connect with the friend's heart and yell to the Creator to help us. By this way actually attain this new spiritual vessel.
32. S. (01:24:27) In the last excerpt that we read is Rabash Is describing a state where we crossed the wall?
R. You can say, so yes.
S. By which means other than the prayer can a person help his 10?
R. Basically nothing, only example and prayer. This is what is needed.
33. S. (01: 25:24) What is one who comes to be purified?
R. This means that I want the Creator to purify my heart, that my desires will be in order to bestow above what I have now, meaning of a completely different kind. That I think only about the benefit of the friend, the benefit of the Creator in a style that is outside me.
S. What are those spies that are revealed?
R. All of the disturbances against that, forgetfulness, and all of the disturbances.
S. If I change my attitude towards that it turns it from darkness to the state of a vessel?
R. Yes.
34. S. (01:26: 42) The degree of faith above reason, needs to be attained by the whole world?
R. No, as we are only talking about the 10, our 10's. The whole world doesn't need this as it doesn't raise itself to the level of Bina by themselves but rather, we are as GE and the whole world is like AHP, and we make the connection between the Keter through us meeting, through GE to humanity and they don't rise by themselves but only by how much we act and work to carry them, to raise them. But thanks to them, we absorb new desires, and this means that the nations of the world carry the people of Israel to the mountain of the Creator. Meaning by the great desire to receive that exist in all of humanity, we, those who want to achieve connection with the Creator receive from all of humanity, a desire which will happen soon arise and connect with the Creator in a more powerful way and then to pass on to humanity a greater influence from Him. We are just in between, the conduit, the adapter between humanity and the Creator.
35. S. (01:28:39) Why does he say that it does not occur to a person that he must advance and attain the darkness?
R. Because it is against our will to receive. How will we advance towards the attainment of the darkness? It doesn't happen to us and in this world, we don't have an example of attaining the darkness, attaining zero, the negation, we don't have such a thing. It could be like a scientist who wants to put himself in different states, and research what he still doesn't know and feel but it is part of his attainment. He is developing his will to receive from this, however for us when we want to go above reason, we don't have this approach, it is not the normal approach, when we go the other way, going against reception into bestowal. There is no foundation for it. Try to absorb that and to really think about it and you will see that it is really opposite to what we know.
36. S. (01:30:33) If I understood well, you said that bestowal is actually the same as Machsom or a little bit above it. My question is bestowing a result of our efforts to overcome and our calculation of how much light we can receive as a 10 in order to use it with the right intention?
R. No, bestowing is above that. Bestowal means that I make a calculation like in order to receive except in order to bestow. Bestowal means that I work with a foreign will to receive, one that does not belong to me at all. I have no connection to it, nothing, then it is called bestowal. Nevertheless, then it is then that I work with the will to receive in such a way that I have no relation to it.
37. S. (01:31:39) He writes that one should say that he is not progressing, and we should discuss this condition in our group. Is this harmful to our work?
R. Try, just don't confuse one another as it is permitted to try a little bit up to the boundary, after which you'll begin to enter into one another and mix with each other's mind to feel each other.