Congress Lesson Three September 26, 2021, Transcription
Lesson 3: Ibur [Impregnation]
1.Rav’s Introduction: First of all, I wish all of us a good continuation of our congress. The first World Congress of its kind. I really hope that we will advance today as well, it all depends on us. We see that if we follow and keep the conditions that the Creator is giving us, not to get close physically but only in our hearts, then we advance even more towards each other and all of us together towards the goal. There we will all come to the system of Adam HaRishon that we will build together among us and the Creator will be among us. This is called the Shechina, divinity will be among us and in this way, we will achieve corrections. We have to keep picturing that there is none else besides. That basically our goal is first of all, a condition around which we live and that we put ourselves forward and you can say that's the first commandment and basically the only one. Each of us has to understand that he's dealing only with the Creator, but only through the friends. Because otherwise he has no connection and there can only be contact with the Creator to the extent that we are connected with a friend's in quality and quantity and in this way through them we will discover our connection with the Creator. This is why our homework is from love with friends to love of the Creator. Therefore, here we have to aim all of our thoughts and desires, all of our actions, only through connection between us to the Creator. What connections can I make more and more complex, uniform, tighter stronger connections, to that extent within this connection or discover the Creator. That way I'll come to a state that out of the corrected Kli, corrected vessel, I will also come to my connection with the Creator, with adhesion with the Creator.
Therefore, our whole work is in having to clear up the area between us between all the friends, from every foreign thought, every confusion I have, from everything that I can at each moment, that can distract me, veer me off from the road, from the path. I have to constantly be in intention for our real connection among us as much as possible, higher than all of the complaints and grievances of my ego. All kinds of disturbances. I have to accept these disturbances as directing me towards the right connection. To the extent that I clear up the area between us from foreign thoughts from disturbances to that extent I clean up the place until in it, I begin to discover the Creator who is present among us. In this way through the efforts of each of us for others of all of us together we discover the Creator among us and our intention gradually grows stronger to bring him contentment. I focus my mind and heart only on this work. All of my feelings and thoughts and in this way. We are already in the beginning of Ibur the impregnation. We only have to broaden our connection. Strengthen it and then we will see where this Ubar, the embryo is. The Ubar, the embryo, is the vessel, the broken vessel of Adam HaRishon that is beginning to be revived. To resurrect from the shattering and today we will continue with it.
The first point of Ibur, we've already passed it. We have already begun to understand a little bit where it happens. How of course our whole grip on that first point which Kabbalists say is actually the most difficult situation and it really is difficult because we don't really control it. We will go forward and get stronger and pay attention to it and grip onto it and develop. I'm very happy with the participation of all of our friends together with us in this Congress. Let's hope together will be the same. We have another section to go on the way today. In this way we will advance. I wish you, I wish us basically, a good day of thoughts, desires that lead us to the goal. There are bound to be disturbances of all kinds and we should accept them with gladness, with joy because there is nothing that comes but only from there is none else besides. This is why we have to understand that all the disturbances are only for us to strengthen ourselves more and more in those states in those points of contact where these disturbances show us. Where we are still lacking the power of connection. On the way we will have a few workshops. It all depends on how much we try to open our hearts and not close it before any friend, before any group, any 10. In the heart of each of us there is room for all of humanity and we want everyone to come into every single heart.
2. S. (09:40) We just finished half an hour of preparation and the friends are so giant and special. What do you do with this feeling that overwhelms you from the friends?
R. It remains, I was in that preparation too, and I was really inspired by the good desires. the open hearts of each and everyone. I even discovered that we have a friend who is 92 the elder in Bnei Baruch. The senior, and when I now look at the screen I see Africa, Asia, Holland, the Czech Republic, Northeast, Latin America, Australia, Almaty, Asia, from everywhere there is not one place in the world without friends. That means that we are certainly becoming one group, one world group. This is what is special and we will see that precisely because we are not leaving and after the Congress we will talk about it too, also we are not leaving this connection. What we obtained during the Congress we advanced along with it afterwards and that's how we go from state to state. That's how we advance the connection, whatever connection we achieve, we must not decline from it in quality or quantity, only move forward because every day in that way will be for us as a continuation of the Congress so we want big conventions to lead us to the vessel of Adam HaRishon.
Excerpt 1 (12:02)
3. R. (12:53) In other words, the fact that we're going into the impregnation and we're already in it. Only the very beginning of the impregnation but it's already a situation from which it is certain that we will continue and reach the right goal. Meaning we will become Adam. In the meantime, we only have to do the first action, the first thing to only maintain the first state that we have to do. What we need to do is to learn how to annul before the Creator in whom we are impregnated. This is basically our state. Ibur, embryo is from the word Over, passing, when we pass through states of annulment the upper one. Accordingly, the upper one corrects us. This is contrary to what we have in corporeality where the embryo does not need to do anything, nature does everything. It both annuls it before the mother and develops it within the mother. We need from day-to-day to advance in impregnation by annulling ourselves more and more. Turning to the mother, to the Creator, to Bina to be not even more to tend to us that we are all willing to receive and take upon ourselves the forces of bestowal the forces of Bina. To take them upon ourselves so they will control us. We are willing to connect in order to be more and more similar to the degree of Bina. In this way this is called the entry into Ibur. Into the Impregnation.
Rabash says, we should enter in, Ubar from the word (0ver) passing which is the first state when he passes from using the vessels of reception into the degrees of Kedusha, where he uses only Kelim (vessels) that can aim to bestow. Otherwise, if he can't use his desires in order to bestow, otherwise if he cannot use his desires in order to bestow, he doesn't use the desire he simply restricts them. This is similar to physicality when a woman conceives, she is certain to also deliver. This is why here we need to help ourselves with all of our might to maintain the connection between us. to strengthen the connection more and more and in the connection between us we will need more and more of the conditions of connection.
These conditions, whatever they are, as long as it's connection, only connection. I don't look at anything, I also can't see what was good, what is bad. I only have one goal in front of me to be more connected. Anything else I don't take it into account, I don't use any other discernment that exists in the group. In the system of Bnei Baruch. In me, I have only one thing in front of me. In this way we go through the state of Ibur. This is what he is saying, “incorporate when a woman conceives, she's certain to deliver". So, all the concerns are for the women to conceive, meaning to keep the embryo. This is why we have to annul before the mutual power of bestowal. I don't care how I see it in my vessels. I cancel all my vessels. I cancel my criticism. I cancel everything besides one thing only. This is the first condition. We pass through it when we pass through it, we will come to more advanced stages. We have to understand that everything will happen afterwards in the newborn. In this group as we go through the stages of the impregnation and achieve a different connection with the Creator, which is called Yenicka, suckling and then Gadlut, adulthood. It will be only out of what developed during the impregnation, this is why the most important is to now concentrate our thoughts and desires and efforts on maintaining ourselves and achieving connections as quickly as possible and within them we will begin to discover our connection with the Creator through annulment. An embryo and those itself before the upper one in which it is. Let's be like an embryo, like a correct good embryo. Each one will and all himself before the others and that will be the right sign that we are also annulling before the Creator.
4. S. (18:40) According to the excerpt we read, what does it mean that we only focus on vessels of bestowal?
R. I don't criticize anything. I want only connection among everyone and I don't believe any of my desires and thoughts other than wanting to cancel them and be attached to the group and through my personal group to be attached to our entire world group. Here we are already beginning to for the first time to speak really about a division of groups because from the perspective of the Creator we are all of us in this world are all is one 10.
5. S. (19:53) Is the annulment the subjugation before the upper one?
R. It's the same thing.
6. S. (20:13) We are a young 10 truly privileged to ask a question, how do we as a young 10 connect through an old woman?
R. We can't talk about this now, we talked about it a lot and we learned it over a long time. I would say that for the past year-and-a-half we have been studying it. You will have to learn it quickly. Speak to the one who is taking care of you to attend to. But it's possible if you and all before us now you will feel how much it promotes you and you continue in this way.
7. R. WSQ: One time we learned that we are in the Creator and he is like the uterus the womb and we are like a drop of sperm in the womb that is beginning to develop. Another time we learned that the Creator is in us and not that we are in him. What do you think, what is the difference between those two states?
R. When we enter into the Ibur, into the impregnation, we don't understand what to do how to control our desires or thoughts, so the beginning of the impregnation is something I don't know what to do, what not to use on what I should restrict as if I can or can't. Impregnation is when I have both vessels of reception in vessels of bestowing and thoughts of desires and I've gradually begun to scrutinize them and to sort them out with what I can approach that connection in the group. The general can access. Only towards connection that is the meaning of the whole point of the impregnation to connect all the forces. We can that must be in connection, connect all those forces together and use them and in the meantime don't use the others and afterwards at the end of the parts if they will come the Rosh, the Toch and to have the interiors that are we are now beginning to build these are the thoughts and desires with which we can connect with in us. Within us so now I am sorting the connection between us when we sort with which thoughts with which desires, I can be connected to my friends, I can connect to my friends in the group. Those thoughts and desires I keep. what is called the mind and the heart and I sort them, arrange them, organize them. That's how I advance and this is called within a drop of sperm there begins to be a scrutiny, what belongs to the Rosh and what belongs to the Toch and what belongs to the Sof of the Soul and we have to do all this by connecting to the group. Whatever works in the connection with the group I keep with those thoughts and desires, I work with them, and what I can't work with for the time being remains for the end. They are good thoughts and desires but I can’t still work with them and that's why I drop them and I work with what I can and in this way, we begin to sort out our state's from lighter to heavier. This is called a drop of sperm beginning to develop within us. In what in the general force of bestowing to the extent that I can relate myself to it that is how I develop in this is called within the womb within Bina within the mother. To that extent I realized myself and organized myself and with this concern and with this power with this prayer of everyone together, we begin to work and organize the embryo from all of our correct forces.
9. S. (31:31) From our reading this morning Baal HaSulam Shamati 42 with the title “What Is the Acronym Elul in the Work”. How and when does the Creator undo all himself and what does it even mean that the Creator annul himself?
R. The Creator is our common vessel which we picture according to our qualities because there is no Creator without a created being. We build him. Basically, all our thoughts and desires that are directed towards connection, we can call them the Creator because we can't imagine anything that we can't imagine in the force of connection and bestowing this is why the Creator is called come and see, we make him we build him. With respect to this concept of connection the ideal concept that we can even imagine, towards that we want to annul. So, it's not as if I build for myself some kind of a statue and I bow before it. All of us together above the ego of each and every one of us we want to connect above all of that and this will be for us the Creator and that's how we advance. Then we begin to see in what we build that within this Creator that we build, there are forces and qualities of bestowing and love in it and they control us. This is the only way we can picture the upper force. It's not the way people think that something comes down from heaven. Rather you have made me, we build the vessel of Adam HaRishon and we put it together out of the shattering, and within that vessel we discover this quality of bestowal, love connection and that is the Creator.
10. S. (34:22) Are you actually saying that all of us can have a common intention that we can point our desires to?
R. In the end this is what will happen. For the time being we're just beginning to put these conditions to get. The fact that we connect our intentions and desires to one goal, to connection, this is called becoming an embryo.
11. S. (35:07) I thought our desire awakens in me and I see I can't work with it in the group, what does it mean that I put it in the salt?
R. That you're not using it for the time being until you can correct it and use it. There are no desires, our thoughts that awaken in us that we cannot work with them. The only question is when for the time being we can't and afterwards we will be able to.
12. S. (35:42) What is a desire or thought that you can work with in the group. Is it only positive things about the group?
R. Positive things with which you can be connected to them. There is nothing before us other than connection among us, and the connection among us eventually has to be such that we will find in the source of the connection that precedes us. This is called the Creator, except we discover it from our perspective through the connection although it operates on us in advance. From the point of connection that we are destined to discover. This is called “I for my beloved and my beloved for me.”
13. S. (36:47) There's this emotion that comes from all the world kli, how do you work with that feeling towards the ten?
R. I too am very moved by the power of our vessel. Although it's a virtual convention it's very very powerful. I don't remember in terms of quality that we ever had such a meeting. Because we really are something different and it is a fact that we are going into the impregnation we are beginning to understand what it means to achieve impregnation through annulment, through clearing up the area of the ego in the area between us and in this area where beginning to discover the Creator as we spoke yesterday. Today we also have to continue with it.
S. (37:59) How do you work with that feeling towards my ten?
R. Annulment and connection.
S. (38:09) In parallel to work also with the world kli end with it then?
R. Yes.
Excerpt 2 (38:17 -39:58) Twice
14. R. In other words, the whole process we're going through from the corporeal world to the entry into the spiritual world is called Ibur, impregnation right. It's a long process, 9 months of pregnancy, and we have to acquire during that time in the process we are going through the qualities of bestowal. In them we will somehow be able to exist in the spiritual world. So, what is the impregnation? It is a transition from the spiritual world from the desire to receive in order to receive. Thoughts that are in order to receive into thoughts and desires that aim to bestow. We shouldn't think that in the spiritual world we will have only thoughts of bestow and desires to bestow and that's it. No but we will be able to deal with them and to know how to work with them so as to advance and grow. Now for the time being we only unite by how we acquire annulment, annulment, annulment before all the disturbances that come and we want nothing besides but to annul ourselves because we are all immersed in desires in order to receive so we only have to annul ourselves. In other words, the period of annuling myself, cleaning myself up from the intention to receive this is called the period of impregnation, the embryonic period. There are stages to it but this is really a phase. When we complete it, we are ready to exist in the spiritual world. In the state where we are in order to bestow in feeling the Creator in recognizing, knowing this higher reality in general. It's all ahead of us but let's go through these things quickly. In spirituality there's no time, we don't need nine months of pregnancy. Rather everytime we progress more and more we can accelerate our time more and more. Until we are above time and place.
15. S. (42:51) What does it mean that he wants to exit egoistic love?
R. It's out of our Reshimot, the records, out of the breaking a record from the light remains and that record from the light what is called a point in the heart, this record pushes us to come to the light, to the Creator, to bestowal. From where does each of us have a desire to none the less to come to spirituality and others in this world do not?
16. S. (43:36) What should we be cautious with in the ten so that the embryo will continue developing?
R. We have to be careful about anything other than bestowal and connection. Ubar, embryo means it has nothing, it doesn't have any intellect, no brain, no feeling as if it doesn't have any intellect or mind or heart. The Ubar, the embryo is a system that thinks only about how to be in bestowal. It doesn't sort anything, it is only in a state of annulment. Like a drop of sperm. How does it exist? By annulling itself before this big body of organism of the mother and this organism begins to develop it. But how does it develop? By constantly annulling itself more and more and more and that's why it grows. In other words what we see from a drop of sperm that grows in the womb, we see forces of bestowal. We're talking about the spiritual embryo. Forces of bestowal that grow and grow and grow on top of forces of reception, and then the spiritual embryo develops. This is what we should now learn how to do. Basically, a very simple work in the beginning, we cancel every calculation of reception among us, and want only to develop relationships of bestowal among us. This is what the embryo does, and therefore the nine months of pregnancy we develop in them by only building forces of bestowal. That's it. We don't take any desires or thoughts about reception into consideration, we don't take them into account.
17. S. (46:16) What does it mean to make ourselves a zero in the ten? Does it mean we have to be silent or cancel our personal desires towards a mutual goal?
R. Both that and those. I want to keep quiet and talk only about the connection and this way until we connect in one desire of connection only. Everything that doesn't relate to connection and can't assist us we throw it away. In thoughts and desires. When we come to that state, we are called Ubar, embryo. When we don't pose an alien, foreign force within the Creator, within Bina, within the mother.
18. S. (47:45) What happens in this annulment? Do I move away from my vessels? The vessels of the ten, the vessels of the friends? Where should I place my attention?
R. I build my vessel of bestowal on top of all of those thoughts of desires that I receive from the Creator, and that's how I build myself. That's it I don't want anything but connection. And I assemble the connection, meaning myself as an embryo on top of those thoughts and desires that the Creator awakens in me, egoistic ones. On top of them I'll go forward and keep building myself only in bestowal, in connection. And how to do it? Through annulment. Very simple. The embryo means annulment he has no self-movement he doesn't even make any movement at first. It only exists in the womb through being completely annulled before Bina the force of bestowal.
19. S. (49:32) How do we sort the desires that bring connection and those that don't bring connection?
R. That is work we're going to have to learn later, ask what's relevant for us now. Nullifying whatever you think won't help connection means not using it in the meantime.
20. S. (50:05) How to feel we're working in the right path towards conception and how in this process will we rely on one another in order to achieve it?
R. We can check, and it's very important, we can check how we advance in spirituality in the process of impregnation, as we accept whatever we feel in our mind and heart and we sort it out each and every one of us, and we examine what can cause this connection with the group and what can bring me to move away from the group. And I try to be only in those desires of connection. That's what you take out of anything that appears in you and that's what you use. That's what you use to assemble the Partzuf of Ibur in you and then that Partzuf grows until you begin to feel the Creator, meaning the upper world. Only this way where I constantly, constantly scrutinize and sort out what can bring more connection with the others and not distancing from the others, and not to pass any criticism because I still have to feel myself as an embryo who doesn't really understand and doesn't under have anything he can do besides this ability. And if he annuls himself towards the mother this way, Bina, the force of bestowal, then the embryo begins to feel and receive nourishment from her and grow. End the entire growth is only through self-annulment. Then he receives blood from her. So, whatever is in the mother is what more or less what goes into him.
21. S. (52:42) What can we do with the external desires not to interrupt the spiritual desires when they create obstacles?
R. To always engage in what we are engaged with. Not think about anything else that will help for sure. Not participate in any other groups or forms or whatever that is not related to the wisdom of Kabbalah, to spiritual development.
Reading excerpt 3 (53:38 - 54:01)
22. R. This essentially determines our whole behavior during Ibur meaning the embryo is his mother's thigh he has nothing more than what he has inside the mother. What does he eat, what does he absorb in order to grow and advance in spirituality? What his mother digests, what Bina has and he has no self-authority; he is not taking into account because all of his actions are only annulment and he has no questions to ask on his own behalf, no questions just annulment. This means he has no name of his own.
Reader continues (54:52 - 55:20)
R. Yes as we know that the embryo inside the mother is nourished through the umbilical cord. That's how nature develops us in physicality and that's in accordance with the development of our soul in spirituality.
23. S. (55:40) Can you explain the last sentence about these organs?
R. This is when a person can go with eyes shut meaning he doesn't look at what is in front of him because he is nourished by the upper force. Just understand that we are physically in this world but what we are now growing within us is something that's connected through an umbilical cord, a pipeline to the upper world. And we want to be nourished from there and so we want to be the least as possible influenced by this world, and more and more connected to the place from which we are nourished spiritually. This is so when a person can go with his eyes shut, above reason and believe in the sages and go all the way. This is called Ibur when he has no mouth. Meaning I have no way to classify what I should receive or not. Anything that has to do with connection between us in the group is the only thing that I am receiving. All the rest I don't know, it's as if it doesn't exist. I just refrain from it as if it is waste. So, our whole existence as an embryo during the conception is only at the account of the upper one. Bina is our spiritual mother; she makes all of the actions we just have to annul ourselves so as to join her.
24. S. (57:55) What are the points to be considered in the relationship of bonding with friends so what are the conditions: do not swallow them by progress and we can always rely on the love of friends?
R. Only connection between us towards the spiritual goal that's it.
25. S. (58:31) What does it mean that the embryo is the mother's thigh? Is there some significance to the mother's thigh?
R. An embryo is his mother's thigh means that we can be as an embryo only according to that measure by which we annul ourselves towards the mother. This is the meaning of his mother's thigh. Then the mother begins to develop me from that little drop of semen and to bring me more and more advanced form from her. We'll talk about it. There are other things here about how Bina can develop man, woman, in general what is happening here. Well, this is later, for now we need only simple things; to annul before the force of bestowal meaning to be only in the force of bestowal, relative to the ten, relative to all of Bnei Baruch and only that, nothing beyond that. This is our work.
Excerpt 4 (01:00:08 - 01:02:18) Twice
26. R. (01:02:19) Meaning as much as possible to think as little as possible about himself instead about the group or the 10 or our great group and to be immersed in that only as much as I can all before them in this way I certainly advance and advanced correctly and o ask the Creator each time to help me be annulled towards this general group.
27. S. (01:03:06) How can we be sensitive to the needs of our friends so that our Kelim vessels of surrender can grow
R. Because we care about our connection in order to make an embryo out of us so we will begin to develop from the degree of Ibur to greater and greater degrees which is our soul. Then to the extent that we assemble the qualities of bestowal inside the connection between us we will begin to discover the Creator in that Boreh, come and see that will be revealed in the connection between us. Hence, all of my work is to correctly connect with my friends until the form of the connection between us will be the Creator. This is the meaning of the Creator clothing inside of people inside of the 10.
28. S. (01:04:28) Why does the state of Ibur awaken thoughts and desires that are opposite of it?
R. This is so we will be able to sort out the good things from the bad things. The embryo is actually doing a lot of work. All that gets into his feelings and in his mind and he has to sort it out and he leaves only such thoughts and desires with which he can be in bestowal and in adhesion with the group. He has a lot of work, it seems to be simple work but it's not simple for him it's not that simple but from that he learns how to put together the system called Boreh, the Creator, Boreh come and see, To the extent that he advances he becomes one with the Creator because what's happening in the developing embryo, he's an adhesion with his mother, with Bina. Which is the beginning of the attainment of the creator.
29 S. (01.06.18) Let's say we have an annulled towards one another, what should we do to go on word with our ego? How to use this force correctly for the benefit of the friend?
R. We're not talking about that. You're jumping ahead and first we will annul all of our desires and thoughts and desires that prevent you from connecting and think only of the connection. Like an embryo that annuls everything for Him. The main thing is to connect and what happens later you have no intellect, no feeling. You won't understand what is happening next. These questions only show that you are not even at the beginning of conception.
30. S. (01:07:24) You mentioned that impregnation is a process. Is it possible for us to go through all of these states during this Congress?
R. Yes, everything is ahead of us or rather before us and we are invited to enter conception. We are actually in conception, we are already in it but we do not quite feel that we are in it.
31. S. (01:08:10) Is conception the beginning of connection?
R. Yes between us and the Creator.
S. What does the mother eat?
R. It doesn't matter to me what the mother eats. What matters is to connect to her in annulment. According to the degree of annulment, they can receive what is in her. Those are upper lights inside Bina and I can also receive from those lights. I am not sorting anything out. I am only making myself more adhered to the mother in annulment.
S. The point we touched in the workshop, can we elaborate on what is the difference in the state that once were in the Creator and once the Creator is in us?
R. I'm leaving that to you. I asked that they should think about that and they should discuss it.
32. S. (01.09:31) How to leave all the egotistical previous states and the self-egoistic love and move towards a new desire, to the spiritual world and at the same time to stay in balance with the corporeal world. We don't need to leave the corporeal world and at the same time to leave the desires?
R. We need to put in all of our strength and our forces to connect in the group and it has nothing to do with the reality of this world, in the families and kids and work. This flows next to us. Rather we are also in connection between us, between the friends in the group and we yearn only for the connection between us. Anything that disturbs or interferes with the connection, we throw it in the wastebasket and everything that can strengthen the connection, we check it and we add it, we attach it to us. We have no other process in our development, only this. Try it and start working with it. You will see how it works. It's not simple. Yes, it's not simple but it is for you to overcome, to grow up.
33. S. (01:11:24) What are we lacking in order to feel the Ibur, conception? What are we lacking in order to feel it?
R. Only annul us towards one another, nothing else. The minute we truly annul ourselves upon all the disturbances the Creator is giving us, presenting to us then we begin to feel ourselves in the spiritual conception.
Excerpt 5 (01:12:14) twice
34. R. (01:14:21) Let's do a workshop. How do I try to constantly be in subjugation towards the upper one, the upper one is Bina, Ima, upper mother who is entirely in bestowal. How can I cleave to such a quality? To such an extent that everything that exists in it, in the quality of bestowal, I want that only want that. I want to suckle from it. I want to grow up like it, to such an extent that I wish to be in it, not to disturb her otherwise she will eject me. In this way I will grow up more and more by being connected to her more and more. Meaning such thoughts and desires awaken in me and I try to bring them to be in accordance with Bina. This is the meaning of an embryo growing up, fattening up. You can say he is growing up in his mother's womb. Not inside the mother itself, in Bina. He is not capable of being like her but Ima, his mother, is creating such a medium between her and the embryo between her will to bestow and the embryo's will to receive, which is the womb. Inside this mechanism a person exists and grows.
. To the extent that he can make him so similar to his mother, on top of his desires to receive, accordingly he grows up, develops. Although he is made up of the desires to receive, he constantly wants to adapt himself to the degree of Bina, in order to bestow. Therefore, between him and Bina there exists a special mechanism called the womb, uterus, in which she grows and all his desires to receive acquire a form of the action like the mothers will to bestow. This is the meaning of creating a form within a form. Meaning within the form of reception he introduces the form of bestowal and he arranges the desires to receive to be able to work as if they are desires to bestow. Then the person becomes truly similar to the Creator externally speaking. Meaning in expression of the desires, although the desires themselves are desires to receive but by trying to be like Bina, like Ima, mother, they begin to function like the Ima, like Bina and that is why he is called Adam, Adome meaning one who resembles the upper one, resembles Bina. We wish to acquire such a form over our will to receive so that our will to receive will function externally like Bina, the desire to bestow. This is the meaning of He creates a form within a form. So let us work, let us talk about it in the workshop.
35. Reader (01:19:00) Maybe you can make the question more precise?
R. Let's talk in a workshop about how if we are all a will to receive that is never changing, how do we make over ourselves the form of the Creator called Adam, one who resembles the Creator who functions like Bina, the will to bestow.
Workshop (01:19:29)
Excerpt 6 (01:30:10) twice
36. R. (01:31:58) There are several conditions here that we have to keep and then we will enter conception. I'm not using my reason, my intellect, I am not listening to what my thoughts and desires are telling me rather I annul before the upper force of bestowal. I take those conditions, those qualities through the society, the more I annul in them, the more I advance.
37. S. (01:32:39) No Translation
R. What belongs to the group I take only one thing, that which can get me to connection surely, quickly, directly. Everything else I do not use, not now, not ever, it will be revealed in the future, it will be but what will not, will not. I am responsible right now to sort right now what belongs to my connection to the group even inch forward. I'm not thinking about it when I will be there another inch forward, I will think what to do next another inch and then another inch, this is how I work. Only according to the information that is needed that appears in me and only in them as it is written, the judge only has what his eyes see. I see only one side before me, what is needed for connection.
38. S. (01:34:05) Another practical question sometimes as a 10, we are invited to speak someone to be with another 10 to participate in some event, how should we calculate here while we are in Ibur because sometimes our calculations towards the 10 also gives us impressions and describe discernments that we should overcome?
R. I do not know why you are asking all of this now, you have to be considerate of the groups that are listening, you're taking their time. Also, my time, I don't think this is worth discussing right now, we are discussing only one thing now, how to connect inside the ten to such an extent that we will feel the Creator in it and you are talking about being invited, I'm sorry, I'm sorry to hear it.
39. S (01:35:18) Is to be in the group to be in the Creator in the condition of Ibur?
R Yes of course. How I annul towards the group or towards the Creator is one in the same, I can’t divide into two things, this is group, this is the Creator, I need to measure the system as one there is no more than that.
S. It is mentioned in the sentence “give me a thought in your heart and I will grant you the world, only desires that want to bestow?
R. Yes, the first of all the desires to the store we are not talking about anything except for bestowing to the Creator through the 10.
40. S. (01:36:45) I’m with the 10 I need to annul, how can I not use my intellect?
R. You need to use your mind, your intellect in order to annul before the group. This is a state that requires a great deal of intellect, how do I annul towards the group above my intellect, think about it and you will see that it is not so simple.
41. S. (01:37:32) What is the meaning in the text that we read personal guidance of the Creator?
R. Private providence is how the Creator relates directly to a person.
42. S. (01:38:14) The acting or lying inside when you don’t agree with the ten and externally you agree with them.
R. No no, that it says they have eyes but they don't see, I have to see in the 10 that it is entirely in connection. It has none of those negative qualities, not that I see it with my eyes. I have to imagine it to myself because with my eyes I see all kinds of negative forms and I have to imagine that there are no negative forms “that they can have eyes but they do not see.” Just look at them it's just like a mother she looks at her baby, she only says good things about it. Someone else looking at the baby will see all kinds of negative traits, it all depends on how you look at it. So, we need to bring ourselves to a state where we see the 10 as perfect and I have great deal of respect and appreciation for them and I want to connect with them and I'm concerned that I might be thrown out of the 10 because I do not deserve to be with them and by that we will advance. Then you will begin to see the 10 as a womb in which you grow up spiritually and you will feel the force of the Creator dwelling there and you need in order to bring yourself to give contentment to the Creator through the 10.
43. S. (01:40:32) My question was that is Ibur is a form within the form and I wanted to know if that is the attitude I have to the group, that I see the friends this perfect?
R. That is how we should do it and it is written about it in many articles.
44. S. (01:41:05) The Creator sends us thoughts and states that are for the benefit of connection and also situations and states that are opposite the connection?
R. But they are also for the sake of connection to those states that disturb us are also for the sake of connection.
S. When I see the states, I do not work against what the Creator gave me?
R. No during conception I have to use only that which helps me to annul myself. Annulment is a state where we only annul ourselves, we make ourselves into a 0 zero. That is why we can be in conception, inside the mother. There is no other work in conception. If we begin to work with vessels of reception to think, yes or no, we will cause an abortion.
S. What happens if I reject the feelings that go against the connection so I stop annulling myself?
R. You do what they tell you, do not be smart as if you know what is for your benefit. The Kabbalists say to do this that you cannot work with these scrutinies and these thoughts, receive something or not, you can't, you are not in spirituality yet. First of all, annul yourself and enter spirituality. Then you will see that even through the corporeal world, how man develops that he annuls himself according to nature. Nature annuls him and he develops inside the mother and then he can be born. That is what we are learning about how to behave in order to exist in spirituality in order to be born in spirituality and you can with your brain and now you want to do something that you don't even know what you are talking about. They tell you to shut up because an embryo, he's like a mute that he cannot speak, right, shut your eyes, shut your ears and annul. Then you can go through this passage from this world to the spiritual world otherwise you will remain here as a beast and the choice is in your hands.
44. S. (01:44:25) You just talked about a form within a form, what are the functions of these forms, what does the one form do and what does the other form do and how could it be one?
R. I need to bring my form of the will to receive to the form of the upper one which is the desire to bestow, this is how we grow through the whole ladder of degrees to the Ein Sof and so my state is now by annulling myself in order to receive the first forms of bestow upon myself and then I annul myself, very simple, annul. I'll be able to do it and I will advance as a spiritual embryo if we will not be able to do it, we will remain in corporeality, we will only be wise in our brains which is just philosophy that will not give us anything. But in practice what stands before us is an issue is to go through the Ibur, to the passage from one world to the next, from Malchut to Bina.
S. It looks like that if you annulled the formal reception then it's a form of giving and annulling yourself to another form of giving, so it looks like two forms of bestowal?
R. We will see, every time the bestowal you will attain, it will seem to you later on as reception, that is the matter of the degrees, the lower one and the upper one.
45. S. (01:46:46) How to maintain the sense of conception after the Congress and the field and keep the feeling of connection with the world Kli?
R. You need to discuss this between you and be concerned about what will be. I'm only giving you the knowledge, the discernments, the examples but implementation is upon you so you organize your systems in whatever way you can develop yourselves as an embryo. In this way you will advance and, in this way, enter the spiritual world. We need to work on our senses in order to feel that we are in the spiritual world because it is here, we just do not recognize it, now we are only speaking about how to recognize it so it is all up to you.
46. S (01:48:03) How to grow to intensify the control of the Bina in the group?
R. By annulment, only by annulling towards the group, I can feel what Bina is.
S. I have a charge I want to annul and there's certain crumbs that I can hold onto?
R. That is why we always have to think about the force of bestowal, how we stabilize it and increase it, that's it. What you have the others have also, don't worry there are thousands like you, they also need to do the same work, connect together and do it. Annul one towards the other and then you will feel that it is not towards the friend but beyond every friend is the Creator and then you will feel that you are annulling towards him.
47. S. (01:49:26) There's a process here, stages, let’s say we go for a first stage, then we advance to the next stage?
R. We are entering a state of Ibur, impregnation, we are standing on the right on the first condition to annul ourselves in the state which each one is towards the 10 annul. The 10 is actually that same upper one, that same womb that in it we need to grow. That's why the Kabbalists tell us about connection so much, about love, about the 10, about the Minyan that you cannot without that. Now we are in the entrance, do we agree to annul towards the 10 or not? In what are we annulling, how do we annul? That is the whole path before us but to the extent that we go with it we will start feeling in our vessels that we annul. That will be called the vessel of Bina, that we annul ourselves. We will start feeling the quality of Bina which is called the Creator. We will already start feeling it as it is written that the embryo in his mother's womb sees from one end of the world to the other. A candle lit on his head, meaning the Keter shines on it. Meaning he is taught the whole of the Torah, he sees everything, he has no vessels for it but by annulling himself, he sees all of reality, all worlds and afterwards he already advances towards birth.
S. How do I discern that I annul myself, do I do it or do I look at it relative to the 10?
R. Both, for now both.
48. S. (01:52:24) Is it sufficient for a person to be consciously pacified and bond with their mother for a healthy pregnancy process?
R. Yes, it can annul yourself and be passive.
49. S. (01:53:12) Can you please explain precisely in number five, it is written that the Creator was impregnated for me in His name?
R. That the Creator is impregnated in a person in order to aid all the other parts of Adam HaRishon, in order to draw everybody in such a way. We get awakenings not from the Creator himself but from the environment.
Excerpt #7 (01:54:13)
50. R. (01:55:10) [no translation]
51. R. (01:59:22) Short workshop: How can I depict that in my will to receive, the will to bestow starts developing, that is called making a form within a form. How can I depict to myself that within my will to receive that is entirely me, a desire to bestow starts developing there. It is not like in our world now, that's what we feel, this is the desire to bestow and this is the desire to receive, for because for us it is all the desire to receive even though there is a form of bestowal. Here we are saying there's really a desire to bestow within the desire to receive, how can it be. How can we depict in us such an embryo, that we become such an embryo? Please. Workshop.
Workshop (02:00:43)
Excerpt 8 (02:06:48) twice
52. R. (02:08:55) That is under the connection that we are already hearing the voice of Creator listening is Bina, it's a degree of bestowal if we reach that degree of bestowal, we can already hear the Creator that we reach the degree of Hochma so we start seeing the Creator also, well that is all before us.
53. S. (02:09:36) In the first excerpt it is written I get the desire to receive, we are an embryo within the desire to bestow in another excerpt it is written that we are as the desire to receive impregnating within us the desire to bestow.
R. That doesn't matter, you can see that in the will to receive there starts to be a desire to bestow developing, once you can say that the desire to receive enters the desire to bestow and then it develops, it all depends on what kind of relationships we are talking about who annuls before whom.
S. Annulment is to bestow in order to bestow or is there some scrutiny that I can receive an order to bestow?
R. If I annul myself, so I am completely annulling myself and not demanding anything, meaning the state itself that I annul myself, that I can be in such a state, it is for me a reward that I value the state more than anything else, that this is what I want to be in right now.
54. S. (02:11:14) What does it mean that the 10 hears the Creator?
R. That's more or less all the friends in the 10-start getting one opinion and they feel that it comes to all from above, meaning from the general force of bestowal, the Creator.
55. S. (02:11:59) In item number 6 it speaks of a person temporarily removing selfless, why does it threaten temporarily not permanently?
R. It will also be permanent, but for now even though he tries and he is able to overcome for only a certain time above his ego, he already starts to get a feeling and appreciation for what spirituality is.
S. Sometimes we have some issues the ten needs to address within the group, how can I contribute to this discussion while maintaining the state of annulment, especially when I feel that I'm completely at odds with the friends and I am afraid that if I will open up myself it will only turn into an argument. So how do I maintain the state of annulment and also contribute to the group
R. I can't answer you because there are so many states in this, that I do not want that afterwards you will use my name to speak about it with one another, usually I do not get into these things. You can't know what it will bring you to. The main thing is still to let go of all these things and to be in love and connection. That's for sure, advancing towards the goal.
S. I want to add to the group, so is it okay that I add my little bit?
R. Everybody wants to add to the group, everybody is right and just wants for the benefit, whoever you ask. Just connection and love, if you want to advance just to know who is right and who is wrong, we don't speak about it, no one's right, everyone is an egoist, everyone is looking through his own ego, no one is right, love will cover all crimes, that is the rule.
S. Is it necessary for me to speak or should I remain in the prayer?
R. No, if you want to speak above love and connection then you must speak about it, all the other states you can shut up. As it is written that he closes his mouth during the argument.
56. S. (02:15:23) What are the conditions for the heart to hear the voice of the Creator in the complete form.
R. Open your heart.
57. S. (02:15:40) Regarding us, we understand we are all egoistical, we need to annul ourselves, the question is how can I not worry about my 10, it is also something that’s mine I need to think about them?
R. Correct by giving everyone an example of how to relate to the 10 bestowal and connection that is called that we help the 10 advances. I do not understand the question, where did it come from.
58. S. (02:16:41) What is exactly the heart in Kabbalah? Why are we not talking about other organs, the mind, the brain where the thoughts are? Scientists say that...
R. Ma’am, enough, that’s clear. Ask without explaining where it came from. Heart means all the person's desires are called a heart, that’s it. All the thoughts of the person are called a mind, that’s it. The rest of the body just performs the commands from the mind and the heart, that's it.
59. S. (02:17:46) What is the connection between the work in the 10 and private providence?
R. In our work in the 10 we discover a personal attitude from the Creator towards each and every one and the 10 together, and then we attain private providence in the individual and in the collective.
60. S. (02:18:28) Who do we pray to Elohim or Boreh if there is any difference between them?
R. There are a lot of names for the one upper force. Kabbalists use them according to what they understand of who they are turning to, that's it. So, for now we do not understand that yet. For us it is all one force, upper force, Creator. You can say God, Elohim whatever but it is clear that it is the upper force. It is one and we are only dependent on Him.
61. S. (02:19:21) When we connect in the morning lesson with the 10’s, we do not want to leave the friend alone in the morning lesson. To support him, can that be part of a prayer?
R. Yes.
62. S. (02:20:05) What is the prayer of the embryo?
R. The prayer of the embryo is to develop because by developing he is giving contentment to the Creator, to his mother, that is his prayer. That is the only thing he exists for as the embryo. And he grows in such a way.
S. With what prayer do we need to come out of the lesson today?
R. That is what you need to think between you. You have to discuss what will happen to you, what happened during the lesson today. Usually on the second day of the Congress we feel some tiredness, fatigue. That is how it used to be in our big conventions. Here we need to understand, is there tiredness now or is it because of the topic, which is very difficult, very difficult, most difficult. As Baal Has alum writes that the entrance to the impregnation is the most difficult state, the most difficult degree because it is a transition from one world to the next, from the world of reception to the world of bestowal. We still have to pay attention. What am I today different from yesterday in my attitude, my state, my forces, my thoughts, my disturbances, the relationships between us, pay attention to everything. But after we check it, we still yearn to be embryos. Meaning each one is drawn towards connection with the others. What do you recommend in order to speed up the time of the development of our embryo, our mutual embryo? Where is that baby that we will all be concerned for and develop day-to-day?
S. So we need to keep praying for connection? Because during the lesson I found myself thinking about myself, how do I annul, how do I ask for myself to be able to annul?
R. You need to ask for an annulment towards the 10, your personal 10 and also the general 10 of the whole Kli of Adam HaRishon. To annul, yes. That is why you are asking for these forces, to have the force of annulment. That you will join them and along with them to annul towards the Creator.
63. S. (02:23:27) I need to aspire for the desires of the 10 to dominate my desires or do we need to work together?
R. I do not have any desires but to annul. My spiritual desire is only to annul towards the 10. To that extent I can reveal the Creator. And I do not have any calculations, only annulment. The embryo doesn't need anything. Depict this state, you're in a womb and all your future depends on the extent that you are annulled toward that womb. As much as you influence all the causes that help you to be in that womb, that is what you need to depict for yourself. Stop all these calculations. By this you are bringing the spiritual embryo to death
64. S (02:24:51) From this side of the world we enter into nighttime and we are going to go to rest after the lesson. Is there any recommendation so that this process that we are going through with the world Kli will not be severed and we will be able to continue although physically or mentally we are seemingly disconnecting from this work. Is there a certain recommendation that we will not simply go to sleep but we will continue to be able to be adhered with the world Kli?
R. During the Congress we determine for ourselves times of rest. Now we also have a little addition to the lesson, how much will that take? Then we have a break, so go eat go rest, sleep and prepare yourselves for the next lesson. And when we come to the next lesson, we will be full of forces, we know what for, with the right inner preparation, and also externally that everything is organized, and we can be dependent, immersed in the lesson completely. That is all before us.
65. S (02:26:43) Through all these conditions we heard in the state of the embryo how do we develop the quality of faith?
R. We always in this whole process develop the quality of faith, faith above reason. In other words, we call it the force of bestowal. We do not need to develop in us anything else but the force of bestowal, that by this we will resemble the light, until we reach adhesion with the Creator, equivalence of form with Him in a complete way. On all of the desire to receive the Creator created we will clothe the quality of bestowal. And then we are Malchut inside, Bina on the outside, and we can resemble ourselves to Keter, to the upper force.
66. S (02:28:02) It seems like the embryo is in a passive state so one way or another there is a desire to express initiative in the 10. What is the uniqueness of the annulment of the egotistic reason?
R. You now especially need to learn only about Ibur, impregnation. Read about it between you and you will see how much it will develop you. The desire to bestow the relationships between you. Then you will understand all of the other material we have in the wisdom of Kabbalah.
67. S. (02:28:44) What is born out of this connection between us in the work?
R. Embryo. From our connection the spiritual embryo is born. That’s called Adam, a form that resembles the Creator.
68. S. (02:29:20) We started this lesson off with a workshop question about the difference between existing inside the Creator or wanting the Creator to exist inside me. My question is if I annul my will to receive whether I want to exist inside the Creator or whether I want the Creator to exist inside of me, is this when the will to receive is put to death all together?
R. Is that a question? Bringing the will to receive to death you are rewarded with adhesion with the Creator.
69. S. (02:30:21) With the annulment of the will to receive you are rewarded with the will to bestow?
R. Of course, yes.