Morning Lesson August 7, 2021, Transcription
Ibur [Impregnation] and Yenika [Nursing], #41
1.Rav’s Introduction: From what we saw on the clip you might say that everybody must have seen it more than once all kinds of such clips and it’s truly a wonder until we emerge out of the mother into the world into our lives and this process is precisely like the process of our spiritual birth. That the mother is the will to receive and what format it corrects, it gives it a depiction, a shape, it is the will to bestow. Through these two desires that is the will to receive and the will to bestow, this is how we reach what we call that he makes a form within the form. To the extent we are capable of restricting our will to receive, so that it will take on the form of bestowal, by that we actually make for us a spiritual embryo, and later on a newborn or a fetus when it is born it is the spiritual human being where it has in it all the forms qualities inclinations like the Creator, However it’s matter is the will to receive.
It is just that in its behavior, in its external expression it is like the Creator like the will to bestow. This is why it is considered to be similar to the Creator and it is called Adam, the human. We saw in the clip how it is not so simple, how much it is a difficult, very complicated process and it is prolonged. How much along the way there are all kinds barriers and new conditions each time and if in the corporeal embryo, it is done through the forms of nature whether the will to receive and the will to bestow, these two forces of nature, the depicting force, the force that depicts the fetus and the force that develops the fetus from within and from without, the way you make a statue. We need to do this together with the Creator. We have to be like clay in the hands of the potter, to make restrictions upon ourselves and let the Creator do what he wants to do with us each time and then in such a way in such attitude towards Him, we will reach being an embryo, entering impregnation and becoming an embryo and following a process called the 9 months of conception, until we are born into the spiritual world.
This is a very special process as we can imagine to ourselves to what extent, all-in-all we'd just nullify ourselves more and more our will to receive which grows more and more. This is how we take on more and more the form of the future Adam so we can resemble the Creator. This is the 9 months of pregnancy and then we are born and in that there are many processes and sub-processes but it is all ahead of us and we are in it already. We are in it however because it is still the time of impregnation, we do not quite understand yet what is happening to us. However, what is up to us is to nullify ourselves towards this new state each time which we do not understand and we do not know what it is for and why. But complete nullification is what we have to do in order for the force of the Creator to make out of us an embryo. This is actually the process. We will go back to our topic and we will see this outcome of the clip that we have to nullify ourselves all together, this is the beginning of our spiritual path.
2. S. (05:23) This clip is very evoking and emotional and makes us think how much we need the help of the Creator in this process, how much we need each other for the confidence to go through this process?
R. The fact that the Creator is doing everything that there’s None else besides Him, that for sure is clear, the question is how much in order to nullify ourselves so the Creator could do whatever He wants, how much in that we need his help and also how many percent.
S. (06:05) Where do we get this confidence?
R. Only from the group we are in. We have to take an example, confidence, forces, necessity and we have to give ourselves to the upper force, more and more so He can do with us whatever He needs and He wants. This is the form of the Ibur, impregnation, this is how we have to behave and this takes time because we want proof, some physical proof why it is this way, why not the other way, where is my emotion, where is my mind, can I take something from this world to the spiritual world. Nothing, I cannot take anything from here to there, whatever is left in me is only that point of disconnection from the previous state which becomes the point of connection to the next state. This is how I pass through the partition between the two worlds. We need to try to realize, actualize these things as much as possible and to help one another to be equipped with confidence, with connection. Here, there is nothing else to do but I need to try to determine with my ten those relations as I should have with the Creator, so with the help of this atmosphere which each ten creates towards everybody. We can feel that we are in a safe place and we can develop in such a way and to the extent the person develops more and more, he feels himself that he has nothing to lean on except the ten. That this is why he disconnects from himself and attaches himself to the ten and through the ten he feels he can connect to the Creator. Or the Creator himself through the ten reaches out to him. The first contact as we read is the hardest and the most complex, most complicated even, however what is upon us is only to act towards nullification and therefore the action is easy in terms of our perception, grasp. It is very difficult in terms of practical implementation, more and more and more we try, and who continues will succeed. Here it does not require wisdom at all, it requires a desire and to implement it correctly in the environment.
3. S. (09:43) What is the difference between Ibur and Ubar?
R. Ibur, impregnation or conception is the process, Ubar, embryo is the person who wants to enter in order to bestow the forces of bestowal, which are called spirituality.
4. S. (10:09) You also said that the Creator through the ten comes to us?
R. To the extent the person nullifies himself to the ten to that extent he opens to the Creator to work upon him. Towards the ten to annul or towards the Creator it is the same thing. We have no other possibility to nullify, towards what? Only towards the ten, and the Creator also performs all these actions towards the ten, so the same body in which we operate, me towards the Creator and the Creator towards me is the ten.
5. S. (11:07) We nullify ourselves towards all of us and we dissolve?
R. To that extent that you are able to nullify towards the others and before the ten, in order to get closer to the Creator and to nullify towards Him, to that extent the Creator works through the same place of nullification towards you.
Reading 41 Twice (11:37)
6. R. (12:42) For the benefit of the Creator. Because besides the person there is only the upper force. It seems to us that there are many people and the whole world but all in all this is how the Creator presents himself to us. And to the extent we nullify ourselves and we try to see around us only the Creator, to that extent we start to connect with Him, we give Him the possibility to work on us. This is how we use only those vessels, intentions in order to bestow what we get from Him and this way we progress.
Reading 42 twice Baal HaSulam. The Meaning of Conception and Birth (13:48)
7. S. (16:56) It turns out that he says that the Ibur is a process from below upwards?
R. If we annul, then we are letting the Creator from above downwards to impregnate, to enter us, to work in us, to create His form in us. Of course, in this we do not participate other than in nullification and later on top of this nullification we begin to add the desire to receive in order to express ourselves to nullify ourselves with the desire to receive more and more but we are operating in the opposite form. So that the desire to receive also works in the direction of bestowing.
S. (17:53) What’s not part in this process if everything is from above downwards?
R. Only to annul ourselves nothing besides that. Because we do not understand and we don’t feel what is going on but we start truly from zero from not existing and to the extent that we nullify ourselves we begin more and more to understand where we are and how much we need to nullify ourselves even more.
8. S. (18:36) What is the father's brain that is generating the process above downwards? Is it the Creator doing good to its creation? What is the father’s brain?
R. There are two forces, the force of bestowal and the force of reception. This is what we learn that the Creator is working on us so he is working with two forces, the depicting and detaining force. He needs to build from that matter, which is opposite to Himself, the desire to receive, such a form that will behave like Him, that it will behave like Him. Therefore, the Creator must work with two forces right and left, reception and bestowal, the light of Hochma and the light of Hassadim, and to the extent nullify ourselves and we let Him, each time through our nullification to work on our matter which is the will to receive, then he makes this will to receive into all kinds of forms of bestowal. Truly like a sculptor who is making out of clay a certain form, a certain shape. This is the Creator's work. And through the forces of plus and minus this is how He creates us, but these forces are not as simple as we mentioned that in through many different degrees and manners and interconnection between them so as we say and with the embryo how suddenly, in the embryo the bones are formed and the veins and the tissues and all kinds of different parts of the body the 613 parts that it is born with, even though they are not all active, each later receives a certain time for activation and freedom to act to the extent he nullifies more and more. I’m talking about the spiritual embryo where each and every part of the body has to receive the ability to open itself up and to join the body of the newborn and to activate itself as we see with children as they start to perform actions with their hands and legs. It is not instinctive incidental ones, but when they know how to activate themselves more and more. Where does this come from? Because in the spiritual Ubar the embryo, we can nullify ourselves and then the upper force exists in our matter, it activates it.
9. S. (22:19) If from above I receive a new imprint that creates more lack, is this against what I need to cancel myself? Because I am not in adhesion with the upper one and from this nullification, I build my center point, which is the group, so I add more and more despite the pressure from above?
R. No It's not like this. We can see in you that you are a scientist, you're a doctor. You don't get anything from above in your mind instead, only according to how much you go above your intellect. It is not with intellect but only with nullification because you need to take on a new form that does not exist in you. It is not according to how you do something and you get something you see and then you decide no. You need to nullify to each and every action from above and then the Creator forms within you this new form, which is making a form within your form, it is only in faith above reason more and more on top of the forces of bestowal and then later on the forces of reception.
10. S. (24:01) In the process of impregnation does the embryo get the mind of the upper?
R. After the act, after he nullifies himself the upper one does something to him as a result of this but whatever the upper one does, he begins to acquire the ability to act according to whatever the upper one did.
S. (24:29) Does the embryo have some recognition of this process?
R. Not before the upper one performs this form and activates it.
S. (24:42) So after performing he has some recognition, some awareness?
R. Yes, it is called that from your actions we know you and the Creator's actions are in us, and from whatever he does in us from that as we nullify ourselves and we explore what happened then we start to study the Creator's actions in us in such a way that it is difficult to agree with it. Seemingly as it says “I am the first and I am the last'' that's what he says about the Creator, and we want to be the first ones with our intellect we want to open it up and explore and understand.
S. (25:28) This is the reason why the brain only grows in the third trimester?
R. Yes.
11. S. (25:37) Is there a special moment of the soul when it comes down to the impregnation? What kind of soul are we talking about?
R. The soul, that according to its development from the general broken vessel of Adam HaRishon comes to a state where it does want to be in contact with the Creator, it does not mean it wants or does not want. The person wants to understand, to attain and feel where he belongs, what he lives for. This is the Godly part in him, truly a spiritual cell which begins to demand it's development. It starts to demand connection with the Creator and therefore we need that the entire body does not hinder us. We have to annul it, in order to let this one single cell, develop to the extent we nullify all the other desires and we want to go only with this single cell, which is aimed at the Creator, to attain the Creator, to attach to the Creator. Then the Creator works opposite it and tries to pull it towards him then we enter the group, the process and then we are in it already but nullification, nullification, nullification it doesn't matter in what, but we have to nullify to the upper force, this is what we have to do in the whole process of Ibur until the enter Ibur and then later when we are already born.
12. S. (27:46) We learn that the embryo is made of the ten with all the stages of nullification so can we say that to the extent the Creator makes us connect, this is the point in the heart where we start the journey, does this relate to the concept of the individual being equal to the general?
R. You might say so, but it requires more examinations.
13. S. (28:43) All these forces acting on the embryo, the embryo anyhow is nullified, it has no senses or motion, so what does he annul, how can he nullify itself at all?
R. We are talking about the fact that the person performs actions on himself so that in his spiritual development he will give the Creator all the control over himself. I do not need to do anything except to nullify myself and opposite that, I have many ways that are pulling me in all kinds of directions to develop like this, to develop like that, this is good, this is not good. I actually want only one thing, I want to nullify all my inclinations, all my intellect and my emotions to the spiritual development and let the Creator, give Him the possibility to develop me as much as He can and the way He wants it.
S. But the person does not identify all these forces there is nothing to hold on, what to nullify before?
R. This is not correct. I am in my life with my family work and this whole life and world and also with the group as an embryo. Then I need to try towards the group to annul and with regards to my life in this world I just flow along. With respect to the group, I must annul more and more and intend to annul before the Creator. By that I give the Creator a possibility to annul before the Creator and he can make an embryo. If I perform such actions more and more, I reach a state that is certain truly in respect to spirituality, in respect to the Creator not in this physical life but in respect to spirituality I nullified myself and the moment I have done this then the Creator begins to work on me in a way that is more and more. Clearly, I begin to feel my actions and his actions more and more. This is already development in the pregnancy of the 9 months. There are three sections, the first, second and third sections and more and more, I nullify myself with understanding and awareness and actions and this is how I reach a state where everything that I said I had before, everything that I had before in my emotions and intellect will invert. I invert with my head down and I begin the process of birth when I pass through the canal of the womb and I emerge out into the world easily. This is a very special process. We will study this and learn and this is how we are born. We go through the cervix and we come to the enlightened world and start to develop, this will come. It will not take too long, the most important is that we all want to perform these actions and all the actions are inside, within us and all these actions according to how much we restrict ourselves we restrict the ego and the desire to receive.
14. S. (33:55) In the process of development in the10, how can we avoid a miscarriage when we pass on from the previous state to a new one?
R. It is by holding on to the group. All the time the group is the buffer, the anchor that I am constantly hold onto them and I do not fall, there is a problem with the transition from one stage to the other when I might fall into a state that I don't even know where I am. Even today when I am in a certain state and I feel that I do not have any foundations and it is not important for me, let's say I am tired of spirituality and what I can do is to hold on to the group. I have to the come to the meeting of friends I have to connect to them in the middle of the day, I have to come to the lesson and through such actions we stay put, while if for not for this work who knows where we would be, there is nullification to whatever is related to spirituality and this is what we have to do all the time.
15. S. (36:28) If I am not for me, who is for me?
R. If I will not do it for myself, nobody else is going to do it for me. He’s asking with respect to annulment, so what I’m saying is, if I do not nullify myself and perform all of the actions that are required from me, nobody else can do it for me. I have to nullify myself to the group and also the group is taking steps to each and everybody who takes part but this is according to the mutual agreement between them.
16. S. (37:36) Is it possible to help a friend to nullify himself to the 10 or are the disturbances he is going through purposeful from the Creator?
R. The have to help each other even to give him examples to talk to him sometimes here and there gently, but we need to give a friend who we really see that his behavior is outside of the boundaries of nullification to the 10, we have to try to bring him back to the 10 because otherwise we will lose him. We have to be alert because we are as one body, one man with one heart so we have no choice, we need to try to help each other as it says, each helps his friend, specifically in this.
17. S. (38:57) What is the plus and minus between these two forces, which is the light of Hochma and light of Hassidim?
R. It is difficult to say, it is hard to say. The most important for us, right now, is to nullify ourselves. We do not have plus or minus, we do not have the good, positive force. Beside the force of nullification, this is what we need to do until we grow as an embryo all the way, and we are born, we cannot use our forces, seemingly our forces, we do not have any forces, we get everything from the Creator the forces of reception, forces of bestowal and all the relations between them we get everything from the Creator. But we have to see how we get to know the relations between them. The Creator created as an opposite form to Him, so what is this opposite form to Him? That as it says, ‘that making a form within the form,’ so we get to know Him as well from this process, and then we make ourselves to be an attachment for Him, to be similar to Him and so on. This is a process, but in the meantime for us, it is only about searching, craving for which way, in which actions, thoughts, and desires we can express our nullification to Him. This is the whole secret of our success. That I do not have any desire on my own, only whatever in each and every moment I have to implement the desire of the higher, then this is called that I attach myself more and more as an embryo inside my mother, Bina and this is how I grow. In all my desires, in all my thoughts that are constantly awake within me, I just want one thing, how can I nullify myself and do whatever the higher force demands from me? To study, to connect with the group, to prepare myself for the lesson, and so on. Besides the necessary thanks I have to do in this world of course this is it.
18. S. (42:15) Annulment is like a new idea and until we become a spiritual embryo, our only action is annulment to the 10 but the emotion does not let us do this. Where do we get the forces to annul?
R. I try to examine myself all the time. How much I can do according to what they decide and I see myself, how much I go and I work it out, how it works out or how it doesn't work out and if this is what I have to see, the Creator will arrange for me to see how unready I am, how much I do not want this. How much they do something and I don't give any importance to that, I don’t want to do what they say.
S. Yes, and when I say that I am going in the opposite direction from the inner nine of the 10, what then?
R. Then correct it, ask for forces from the Creator to neutralize your will to receive. It’s not that He’ll take it from you but rather that He’ll help you rise above it, and above that, to attach yourself to the 10.
19. S. (43:50) You said that most important is nullification in the 10 and all of everything else in life, we just simply have to flow?
R. I’m asking you, give me a different example where you can nullify yourself to the upper one, the spiritual world, is there any other way?
S. No there’s no other option but the question is, well today let’s say, we have the two zoom meetings so how under these conditions, do we create opportunities to nullify because the opportunities for annulment are in other things that happen throughout the day and in those things, we don’t have enough opportunity or maybe there is, I don’t know?
R. This I do not know, first of all the fact that you nullify your ability, meaning you have an ability to go to the movies or to a coffee shop or somewhere else or to sit with your mother or somewhere, I don't know where. When you do that, you nullify yourself to the actions of the 10 what you determined in advance. Even if you don't want it. Usually, the Creator gives you a thousand and one different excuses and reasons to do other actions. And then you have to overcome and determine that I am doing that because I want to annul.
S. But this stage we are in, is it enough to nullify in actions to the morning lesson and during the zoom meetings? Is this enough?
R. This is something each and everybody has to define for himself, what is his boundaries. It is like Rabash writes, ‘Some do it from time-to-time, some do it each and every moment in their thoughts and Actions. They want to be attached through the group to the Creator this is all free choice for a man.
S. The moment when we have such actions and the lesson and the zoom meeting becomes a habit not requiring much effort because they get used to doing it, so the 10 should think about how to amplify the actions by adding additional places for annulment?
R. If you are used to it, it doesn't mean that you are working. Your habit becomes a second nature. Want it or not, I won’t be able to get up later than I wake up every morning because it has been 40 years and more that I wake up at this hour. I do not remember myself except when I fly to other time zones waking up later than 1:30 a.m. There is also such a thing because this is my habit, so it does not take strength. This is not considered overcoming or work.
S. So if I understand, if you want a greater overcoming, we have to add more things to have more things to overcome?
R. Yes, keep on going, do more and more as much as you can. It’s not only that you wake up for the lesson and some meeting during the day. But try to be all the time, internally connected to the 10 through it, to the Creator. There is nothing complicated, like a formula you have to keep in your head.
20. S. (47:55) In the excerpt we have just read, Baal HaSulam talks about the cascading from above down and from below upward, what is the difference?
R. There is a very big difference between them, one comes from the Creator and the other comes from the created being.
21. S. (48:40) It was said that the embryo is part of his mother and eats what the mother eats and what is the mother, and what nourishment does he get?
R. Whatever the embryo needs, he gets it from the mother but what is within the embryo, he has it from the father. This is the meaning of ‘The father is giving the whiteness and the mother is giving the red.’ The mother acts under the making of the desires in the embryo, and the father acts on the essence, on the spiritual essence in the embryo. We will learn these things to what extent these two actions when they come through the will to bestow and the will to receive, when they connect in us, these desires they build they establish the Adam in us.
Reading 43 (53:20) Twice
22. R. (53:44) This is bringing him whiter it helps the person to distance from the desire to receive.
Reader cont.
23. S. (56:04) We read that this is regarded that the upper one works and the lower nullifies without any criticism, is that the Creator’s action that He places into us and our will to receive in a state of sleeping?
R. Where did you see the will to receive asleep?
S. Well, because he says that the Creator is the first one, and He does the work. After we ask for the longing to connect, and He brings us into that state where our will to receive in order to enter the embryo, has to be in the state of slumber.
R. Where is it written, this sleep? Don’t explain to me what sleep is, where did you hear this from?
S. From the Rav?
R. Did I say this word “asleep”?
S. Yes?
R. Okay
24. S. (57:12) We read about the work of Aba and Ima, and the work of the lower one which the only action he can perform is the annulment but where does the lower get the forces for this action?
R. Of course, it is from above. All of the forces are coming from above, what is your question? The only question is what we should do in order to get these forces the required forces to progress. It is as if these forces are standing in line, all the actions, all our future states, it’s like a movie it’s already made from here to the final correction and all we need to do of ourselves, the condition of this movie to be filmed projected inside us. And we can start moving through this line forward. Everything exists already, all the future, everything exists. It only depends on in what way we see this film projected and with what pace. This all depends on us. This is why it is written, ‘Israel are the ones who hastens time,’ but it is not like there is something that is unknown, that we would not know the future. There are no secrets here, it is only our exertion that lets this film appear and to show us the whole development, this is all.
S. From where comes the feedback, still it’s annulment, but this someone towards something, towards someone else, so in spirituality we don’t have... (cut off by Rav)
R. What don't you have? you have ego and you have the actions you have to do above your ego, so you have to nullify your ego toward these actions you have to carry out. To nullify to the group, to the world group, to do all kinds of such actions, this is all. You do not have here, anything besides nullifying us to the Creator all along the life until the final correction, that we have nothing because all of these frames are ready, all we need to do is to go into them the right way. And if you do not do it in the right way, then we will feel all kinds of problems, which will help us to enter in a better way.
S. So these actions are considered at the time that we are unconscious, unaware, because if there is awareness it is no longer my work?
R. Anyhow, it is not my work. But there is work above reason. There’s work in reason. And in each and every step, I have to go as if within reason, I make an effort, and then raise it above reason.
25. S. (01:01:05) It says that Abba, who is Hochma, gives the light, how does this happen?
R. The light bestows upon us and this Light makes our desire to receive white and, in this light, in this feeling, we understand that our will to receive is as written, as waste. Then we start to respect the will to bestow, the actions of bestowing, the actions of connection between us, and this is how we raise ourselves.
S. It’s a painful process?
R. Yes of course, it is unpleasant because by that you really have to twist yourself. What used to be nice and good, you are going to have to do it in the opposite.
S. So here, I also have to agree with the fact that it's going to hurt?
R. Everything depends upon the extent of the importance to what extent the importance of the Creator and the importance of coming closer. The importance of the quality of bestowal will be higher by the environment, by the upper light, it will be higher than the importance of the equality of reception.
S. If we try to increase the importance, the pain will diminish?
R. Of course, of course. Even all together as it's not that it's painful, it makes you happy.
26. S. (01:03:26) Is the process of becoming mute to the criticism, does this stop us from dealing with what is being criticized, is this when the Creator is going to help us?
R. The criticism about what? If I criticize myself how much I am annulled to the group or the Creator or not, this is good criticism, this helps you. If I could have criticism for what is outside of me, when I have to annul myself towards it, this is not a good criticism anymore it stops me in spirituality.
27. S. (01:04:25) ‘Makes, performs and the lower one annuls himself without any criticism’, this is what it says here. The upper works and the lower one annuls himself, does the upper one change in every state towards us?
R. The upper one all the time changes if we are sensitive to what it changes to.
S. Only following the annulment can we, later on, feel the change?
R. All the changes, all our advancements, in the meantime, are only by our ever-growing annulment in our actions to what the Creator does to us. Meaning with respect to spirituality, I have only one action, to annul myself.
S. So the changes in the manner of the annulment or the form of the annulment?
R. Both of the manner of the annulment and its shape and every time you have to discover new results from the annulment.
28. S. (01:05:44) When we grow inside of the 10 as an embryo inside the womb, so the anger and all of the negative sensations we feel towards the friends, is this the nourishment that is leading us toward the quality of bestowal?
R. Yes, all of the qualities we feel in these times that are in favor or against spirituality are for us to rise above them to the degree of connection.
29. S. (01:06:25) It turns out that we're not capable of annulling ourselves truly until we will discover the evil in us and we will discover the will to receive as a waste?
R. We have to annul ourselves gradually like when the embryo grows. What does it grow with? It all the time annuls itself to the mother, and the mother gives ‘the red’ - this is called ‘the light of Hassidim; and, to the extent that a person annuls himself, he receives the light of Hassidim from Bina, the force of bestowal, by this he grows. The whole body as it grows is an expression of what he is getting from the mother, the force of bestowal. And then when the force of bestowal has reached a state where it can exist disconnected from the mother, then it is born. This is what happens to us, we are in Bina within the Ima, the mother, and she makes us grow inside herself. She guards us so that we will only collect in us, accumulate in us forces of bestowal and in the right way. What is the right way? The hands, the feet, the bodies, the head, all the external and internal organs of the embryo are parts, forces, expressions of bestowal of an embryo that he received from the mother. When he is ready to exist in a way that can express his form of bestowal towards the world, toward the external ones, he can exist in his form of bestowal, independently. Then the mother brings him out, forcefully, with the labor pains. She brings him out for him to grow in the shape of bestowal more and more, but outside of her, meaning more independently. This is how we will see ourselves, the way we grow as we have here some sort of internal revolution to understand the process. To perceive this process in the right way. Now by annulment more and more, we get the form of the mother. Once we have all of these shapes from her, within the mother, within the mother we get the shape of the father they act on the embryo. And the newborn comes out in two forms: either a male or a female. This is how we grow in a more independent way. Meaning what we get from the mother, but with development in the mother we get the forces to cope with different disturbances and to keep growing as a force of bestowal, as a baby being born. And of course, the way we understand the care of the baby, the way we take care of it, this is all expressed in our world, the Creator's relation to us of how we should accept the Creator's care, and to try and be more and more like Him. This is how we grow until we reach the state of Adam, resembling the Creator, truly with all of His forces. This is called ‘the final Correction.’ This is a very special process and it changes our mind, the way we look at the world, at the entire creation.
S. This inversion, this gradual process of the recognition of evil upon which the importance of the Creator in the group grows, then we truly want to bestow, is this how it works?
R. This process is not that we understand it is also when we understand but the main thing is to what extent we perceive the qualities of bestowal in us and we start behaving and this means that I start to grow. When do I start to be an embryo? When I can cancel myself and I can say from now on in spirituality the Creator is the one who determines everything for me and I'm willing to get everything from Him. To exist like in our world, like the degree of the animate, there’s no problem, here. Food, sex, family, money, honor, knowledge whatever you have in this world, no problem. However spiritually speaking, I accept the control of the Creator in each and every moment as much as I can, accordingly I advance.
30. S. (01:13:06) to ask about the states that we go through from the future state is seemingly ready. We just have to accumulate some acceleration and speed so we can go through the state to discover the beauty in it?
R. I don't understand your question, we are talking about annulment.
S. You said it is like a film in the theater, the transition between the states like frames in a movie?
R. If you want to protect this film inside yourself, you have to annul and this is why it is neither your present mind or emotion as it won't help you even if you're very smart it won't help you at all only if you annul your ego and to that extent the Creator starts showing you the next frame.
S. The speed of the transition between the frames does it depend, in a movie theatre it also happens in this way each and every frame in itself but if there is a speed and we discover the beauty in it… (Cut off by Rav)
R. I am asking you to do what we are saying, first of all cancel yourself and then the Creator will give you the next frames then we can talk. Don't show us your film.
31. S. (01:15:16) We are entering the state of impregnation at the ten, there's a detaining force and a developing force. The developing force is clear but it is hard to grasp what the detaining force is and how to annul before it?
R. The detaining force does not let us fall from the spiritual degree, there is a force that develops the embryo and there is a corresponding force that basically doesn't let it develop too much and then these two forces from inside and out, they stabilize, they shape the form of the embryo. Look at how sculptures are made, the matter is added but then basically some of it is subtracted so more is added and more is subtracted and then you have the desired shape. There has to be two opposite forces in nature working together towards the same goal.
32. S. (01:16:58) You said I have to do everything I can because nobody else would do it for me. How do I ask for help from the friends in this process?
R. Example, there is no more than example as this is the most important.
33. S. (01:17:27) What do we work with, what do we receive and how do we bestow?
R. We work with our forces and we try to equalize in the group to incorporate in the group.
34. S. (01:17:58) About the developing force and the detaining force for us, it's like you have a child that you let him run and you can measure his timing but you won't let him run into the street. Is this the right depiction of developing the detaining force?
R. Yes let's say the one force gives desires and the other force gives limitations for the desires and in how to use them correctly.
S. Can we work on the balance in advance?
R. Yes.
35. S. (01:18:37) From the previous article it says it starts from the thought. Does it say that every embryo gets the same bestowing from the Creator?
R. No, look how different we are, everyone receives from the Creator forces, some depicting force and some the detaining force, all of these forces each of which is comprised of many forces and they are all working on the spiritual DNA of the embryo. This is that desire that is comprised of 613 desires that are evolving by the influence from above and that is how we grow.
36. S. (01:20:00) From all of these scrutinies spiritual equality in the ten, what is this?
R. Spiritual equality in the ten is not up to us to make, but what is up to us is only to nullify before the ten and then the upper light that works on our annulment all together towards each other, it performs the right kind of connection between us and there we feel how the Creator depicts His shapes there, because if we cancel ourselves we receive from above as if the imprint works on us, the imprint of the Creator on our annulment. The more we cancel our desire to receive and take on the shape of bestowal on it, then we discover that the Creator performs this copy of Himself on us and then we are called Adam each time.
37. S. (01:21:30) We are doing this work in annulment and incorporation in the ten. I don't understand if we are lacking some decision that we want to cancel ourselves completely that nothing will be left and forever, maybe we are lacking some depth at this point?
R. We need to try to cancel ourselves towards each other on top of all of the states that the Creator reveals to us and also together with that we also need to try as much as possible to get closer to cancel to each other and help each other.
S. We just work on this and then you're thrown out of the process of annulment before the friend to this world with this concern but the state of conception I want to understand that you won't be thrown out of the work anymore. What is the needed state or will it always be this way?
R. Each time we have to feel how the depicting force and the detaining force of working on us and the more we cancel ourselves that happens more and more to the final correction and there are many aspects of these ways but it all works this way, we are now learning and we will learn and all the phases of conception we will basically learn all of our future states until the final correction. You will learn that later.
38. S. (01:23:08) The depicting force is the Creator and the detaining force is also the Creator, meaning this is when we have a certain extent of annulment so it works on us?
R. You can say so in the meantime that these two forces come in parallel and they work together, the light of Hochma in the light of Hassadim they work in us as one.
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Morning Lesson August 7, 2021, Transcription
Annulment as a Preparation for Ibur [Impregnation]
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1. R. Each time I try to find more and more sources and excerpts that can explain to us further and further what it means to prepare for conception and also to see in this preparation states that we can establish correctly, states that are truly a challenge in spiritual work. It is a very difficult state because we are not connected and we need to connect between us to be the spiritual embryo, to be that kernel that all around it, humanity can also connect. This work is truly not simple because for the first time we begin to work with the earthly mind, the corporeal mind but in a spiritual way. With our corporeal desires it is also the desire to receive that works as though it is bestowing, we need to clarify and sort out all of these desires in a way that they will somehow be ready to receive the shape of bestowal. This is not seen by us, we don't see the examples from spirituality so there is a problem of how we do this, how do we move from one world to another. If we wouldn't know how to give birth, how could we come up with such a thing, to invent such a thing?
Just think of yourself that you think that you find yourself on another planet and you look at the people or creatures there and you don't know how they multiply, how they exist, how they give birth to their descendants, you don't know. How can it happen the way that it happens, that they will produce more and more development, why isn't it that the first generation is also the last generation that it just keeps developing and developing so that it doesn't need to give birth to the next generations and the next generations. Let's just say that they develop until they correct themselves and that is it. What is happening here? In short, there is a very complex process taking place here and it is not because the Creator is confusing us of course, it all comes from the beginning point of creation and the endpoint of creation. These two points in order to connect them and create a line of development from one point to the other we actually have to see what the end result will be in the initial thought and then from these two points the entire axis of development is born. We and all the changes that we go through and that we feel on ourselves. It is a wonder how this happens and we have to discover these wonders on ourselves and do them on our own to understand and attain them so the entrance to this research and to this work that we do on our form that we ourselves are doing and as a result of that we advance.
As it says from your actions we know you, that is what we have to do and it is not simple for us to even recognize the form of the spiritual work to be ready to approach it correctly, that is also not simple and this is what we are trying to do in annulment as a preparation for impregnation. Let's read these excerpts as much as possible to incorporate with them together in our desire because just like in that little video that we saw in the beginning of the lesson, as this sperm wants to go deeper and deeper into the upper one and to cling to the upper one, to adhere to the upper one even though there is a lot of difficulties so just as there are a lot of difficulties that the upper one is giving before the lower one. They strengthen and shape the lower one correctly so that it can enter the upper one and grow there, it is a true struggle between the lower one and the Creator because Malchut wants to connect with Bina, the two opposite forms.
Excerpt 1 (06:53)
2. S. (09:27) We here listen to your father's instructions and do not forsake your mother's instructions. What does this mean?
R. That you receive from above two forces, the detaining force and depicting force and these two forces give you the force similar to the Creator, the force of Bina and Hochma that work on you as you cancel yourself as a part Malchut and you want to resemble Keter. The action of annulment towards Keter and being similar to Keter by taking on the forces of Bina and Hochma as they are being calibrated in you, they turn into Adam similar to Keter to the Creator.
S. Why should we believe that before the soul left the body it was connected to the Creator?
R. So you know then, how do you know? This is an order for us to try to reach the root of the soul by our actions.
3. S. (11:16) Every sentence we read we understand how we're not even in this ….
R. You don't understand how high the state that we are in is. You are now entering the Creator as an embryo.
S. The theory is beautiful, the seed in the womb …. but if you don't pass the test in the end, it is worth it all, you don’t have forces for it, as much as you don't break the bones in the body it's not worthwhile.
R. That's not correct because you don't nullify yourself enough the way that the Creator can work on you with his forces from above, you need to give Him the annulment from below.
S. I'm doing it.
R. No, you need to do it further until you achieve complete nullification and then you will be able to enter the Creator, Bina as it is, Keter, Hochma, Bina is the GAR the upper part of the Creator that works through the Keter, through the forces Bina and Hochma on us and if you cancel yourselves to begin to get into the area where these two forces work on you and shape you as similar to the Creator.
S. I need this force to cancel and I don't have this force and then you just see as much as you reject.
R. You will do all of the actions possible and ask the Creator to cancel your ego. Pray that you wanted, you are standing at the point where you are literally standing between Heaven and Earth as it is called, ask above your mind to cancel towards him and here you need the help of the group. There is no other way for us. We have to understand that this is why the Creator broke the desire to receive into pieces and so you see the people of the world, the human beings, all of them by their connection they are now able to achieve annulment before the Creator. We have here in this world all of the conditions. That if we cancel ourselves each one towards the others, not towards the whole world, but towards the ten. That we can demand of the Creator to give us the possibility to connect between us to such an extent that we will feel what connection is because feeling the connection is already a spiritual force, it is already the force of Bina. It will be okay I promise you, just keep going as you see we are working in such a world that all of the external circumstances are helping us, everything that is happening in the world is no longer attractive, this world no longer gives me any temptation that I will try to chase some goal from day to day. I discovered how low and free falling this world really is.
4. S. (15:50) Are these two forces, fear and love and how does this work?
R. No, I don't want to get confused now with that. Some more this way or that way, some less. We will learn that in a more consistent way, you can say is like fear in love but they also have many kinds of expression and so let's follow the quotes. I am really asking you to follow what is written otherwise we will go in many directions. This is why I am not so allowing everyone to ask.
5. S. (17:15) What does it mean to cancel completely in order to be born?
R. We don't know what it is, we don't know when it will come but each time that we stand on a crossroad and I'm listening to myself my ego or listening to the Creator, the will to bestow, connecting to the group studying, then I need to really feel myself here how much I am in this decision point. Who do I relate myself to, who do I belong to. So, in the meantime I'm not an embryo that I can truly relate myself to the Creator clearly like we saw in that video but still I am pushing myself towards connection into the group into the study and this way I advance. Put it this way we are already on the path and if we continue this way then we will certainly reach a connection with the wall of the womb we will find our is place for spiritual development, that's it and then we will already feel that we are inside the mother inside the womb, inside Bina. The embryo in his mother womb, who sees from the end of the world to the other and we already feel how it is working in us of course according to the level of a nullification.
Excerpt 2 (19:28)
6. R. (19:41) You see, again, impregnation is a process where a person moves from his domain to the Creator's domain, he completely revokes his authority and dedicates himself to the Creator. Surely according to the level of will to bestow that appears in him as he is small but he is absolute.
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7. R. (20:43) Meaning it happens with each and every one, each one comes to a state where he really wants to nullify towards the Creator and completely lose himself and at the end the will to receive comes back and then a person sees that he forgets about creation and then you can't determine it correctly and he falls into egoistic desires and carry them out and they rule over him and so on and so forth.
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8. R. (21:53) Meaning like we saw that the drop of sperm, it keeps penetrating and penetrating until it has a constant connection with the mother. Then there are various struggles there and progress, it’s being guided and brought there, that is how we have to see ourselves that we can’t let go and go against all the disturbances and specifically that way we come to our designated place. We don’t know what that place is and why it is especially for us and why we need to cling to it, it is all predetermined and we need to just follow it.
9. S. (23:07) What is the sign that a person is successful in cancelling himself even temporarily to the Creator?
R. That he is above his ego and he is willing to be ready to realize that everything that he needs for the group and for the Creator, that is the sign, that is the sign in practice. This is against the disturbance that he has, let's say he wanted to go to sleep and he had to wake up for the lesson or he has an opportunity to do something interesting for his ego and he's letting it go and goes back to the topic of our lesson. So that's the inner struggle inside a person and the more he feels himself during the day, at night in these struggles, the more he is in this very sharp place where he can't move this way with the other and by that he sees how weak he is, incapable, how he keeps falling how we have no choice. That's how the Creator sets it up for us so that we will need Him that only by Him giving us the strength, the support then we will be able to decide that our will to receive is our enemy and we want to be adhered only to the will to bestow. That means we only want to rise above what we feel right now as it is nice and pleasant to engage with the will to receive and we'll let it go and engage with something unpleasant and then a person begins to see the universe makes another move towards the womb and he makes a connection.
10. S. (25:47) Mother's egg has a deficiency to absorb this sperm but we say there's a few million sperm on this journey and only one shows up, who gives that big deficiency to be observed?
R. Of course, it's the Creator and that's called men's free choice but certainly it's all orchestrated from above and if we add our participation from below then begins such a reciprocity between us and the Creator and this is how we advance, even in that preparation to enter the impregnation.
S. Who is in charge of the impregnation more, the embryo or the mother?
R. Only to nullify, it is not that simple.
11. S. (27:12) In the work in the ten we advance mainly through ascents and descents, now it seems the principle is annulment?
R. I don't know what were the ups and downs that you're talking about but certainly we have ups and downs not only in spiritual discernments but in terms of the movement, how we feel closer farther from the Creator. Also, the Creator we think about Him as good and pleasant then I don't think that the Creator is good and pleasant because we were talking about the actions of giving and bestowal it's not pleasant and good for us. We are seeing a false picture, we have to try to just follow what is written right now, don't drag with you what you were before. You let go of the pictures that you have; you get a new one and you'll see how that's the result of the other.
12. S. (28:47) At the moment I'm being distracted by a lot of other thoughts and actions and I'm trying to tell myself that there is None Else Besides Him and try again and again, is this the correct approach towards a moment, is this how we should approach it?
R. Yes, yes.
13. S. (29:34) Towards what can we annul in the lesson?
R. Towards the group, that we each want to hear as one man with one heart, we want to listen to the lesson together, we want to express that approach that action in the lesson is about.
14. S. (30:09) Later he fell from his degree and fell to a place of trash. We said that it is most important to not let go of the group but somebody in the group says I want to leave, I want to move to a different group. What should we do?
R. First of all, ask why you want to leave us?
S. We are not satisfying him.
R. That is the first thing you need to check, why are you not satisfying him.
S. How to behave with him, let him leave?
R. Maybe you need to behave differently so he won’t leave.
S. So we need to behave differently so he won’t leave?
R. That is the first thing to check.
15. S. (31:04) According to the two conditions of Rabash, to see the friends is the greatest and to see myself as the lowest, does that mean that they realize the study better than me to see it that way?
R. Yes, by realizing I don't exactly understand what you mean, we need to see how they absorb the lesson, how else can I check, as much as they devoted, as much as they come every time. According to that, I see that they're great, I'll tell you even more, you don't see on me but when I hear your questions I hear great questions, wise, that come from great people much more than me and that's how I can hear them. Look at what Rabbi Yossi ben Kisma is saying as much as we advance the more the friends seem wiser.
16. S. (32:51) How do you do it?
R. I don't do it, I feel it that way.
S. How do you feel us greater than yourself?
R. It has nothing to do with what you are, it is what I am seeing.
S. I wish, but how do you do it?
R. It's nothing to say about greatness it's to say about how I observe you, it's like a child and mother she sees him like the greatest, wisest, the smartest, is it because the child is like that, it is attitude towards him that makes him like that in her eyes.
17. S. (33:45) How to hear and understand, how to speak if we are in mother's womb?
R. I didn't understand the question. Are we in the mother's womb? We are on the way to the mother's womb and we need to adhere ourselves on the way to develop.
S. How to hear if we are in the womb?
R. I don't know what it means to hear or how to hear.
S. It's a question from a friend, it's not clear to me.
R. Rav draws. I can't say, we have the entrance and this area where the womb is are do it in a very primitive way and here is the entrance to the room so the seeds come from the father enters in the mother and here in the mother it has to go through a lot of more and more actions in order to reach the place where the seed starts developing. We have to understand that we are already here on some path but there are a lot of special conditions in order to enter the womb because in the womb the development is a lot more difficult, severe, a lot of resistance, scrutiny. As we understand there's millions of sperm cells that have to go through, each one has to do his work and that no one disappears, everyone is needed even though eventually one develops from 100 million. But the rest except for him also do the actions and they awaken the womb and they make the connection between the womb and that seed. That is called the future man needs the whole world, that the whole world are Earth dwellers that they participate in his spiritual development and then the development comes out outward. We need to see all of the friends that they are with him in the womb, it's all in all this. But all people on earth have to be connected to the development of that same embryo and that's why it can be that at this time, somebody would develop that it doesn't belong in this time because all earth dwellers, from the general system of the Adam HaRishon, they already determined who will be born now.
18. S. (38:23) I want to nullify myself and I see the friends so great, as you describe and I'm so little and I want to escape that.
R. You just need to annul you will be with them like that and don't be afraid of it, you will have a springboard towards the Creator that you annul in them and in this annulment in them you get this connection with the Creator.
S. How do I do it that I nullify in front of them, let's say I want to help them and I fill the vessels with light that did enter the heart, is that the correct state?
R. If you annul, then what you feel, that's correct.
19. S. (39:43) You said that when we enter the impregnation each one receives a different direction from the Creator to be properly arranged and calibrated to the entrance of the impregnation. How do we help friends that are receiving various directions, that are in different states? How can we pray for the friends that they accept this correctly that he's disturbance is my disturbance?
R. You want me to read the Rabash articles on society for you?
S. I just want you to give a direction, an intention.
R. The direction is connection. I have no more than that, Connection and we have to renew it every time, more and more.
S. If I see that the friend is in some state where he suffers and he can’t come out of it, what is my attitude to the friend? How can my prayer, my intention, the relationship between us. How do I relate to that? How can I help the friend?
R. How can you help? I don't know, but you must search for a way to help. Maybe you can help him in a corporeal way somehow, but the main thing is by your prayer towards the Creator for spiritual help.
S. It’s exactly what I’m asking. What is our prayer, what is the intention towards the friend who… each of us is in a different state?
R. To ask the Creator to help. Obviously, you can't do it alone, the Creator has to help you. Ask from the Creator and He performs it, in this man will help his friend.
S. How does he help? He helps him see that (cut off by Rav)
R. That is the Creator’s business, what He will do. You have to ask, and don’t tell the Creator what he needs to do.
20. S. (42:03) Why is the process of annulment painful and why is it sometimes with joy?
R. Of course it's painful because annulment is not pleasant and I don't like it. There's no taste in that so how can I be happy about it or satisfied? I can only be satisfied that by this action I'm coming closer to the Creator but for now I don't see any benefit, I don't see any results.
21. S. (43:11) At the beginning of the lesson you repeated the few times that impregnation is when one agrees with the Creator and annulled himself in front of the Creator, do we ask the Creator to do that with us?
R. Yes, exactly like that.
22. S. (43:44) You said all the people of the world determine who will be born now?
R. That the atmosphere that the person is born in that determines what kind of person they want to come out from Reshimot that is revealed now in the process of correction of Adam HaRishon.
22. S. (44:20) Rabash writes in one of the articles that a person is willing to nullify himself, that one time is willing to give up the excessive pleasures and some other times is willing to give up his existence. How does that work out?
R. It is part of the impregnation and that's the part of that process.
23. S. (45:10) Just not to worry about what we will eat for tomorrow?
R. Of course, otherwise what kind of annulment is it if I don't annul myself to all kinds of concerns, not in order to not feel these concerns.
S. What should we be concerned about and what shouldn't we be?
R. I am concerned about how we can be cancelled in front of the Creator, the whole world, the whole of humanity, the whole of the Universe, how do we cancel ourselves in front of the Creator that the Creator would make of us what he needs in the form of the last generation, the end of correction.
S. So what does it mean that he doesn't care about what he will eat tomorrow?
R. We obviously don't care about it, all I want to care about is that the Creator's plan will take place.
S. Concern for the future is concern for the others?
R. Towards the Creator that's what I want the desire of the Creator to take place. That's what I'm pulling everybody and you can call it the end of correction.
Excerpt 3 (46:44) Twice
24. R. (49:00) I hope that you will go over it during the day and maybe see other things in there but if you go and have questions, send them and we will scrutinize them. We also need to think about those who were not with us, that they will come later on and all of humanity that they will need to ask about these states.
Excerpt 4 (49:31)
25. R. (51:04) I see that there's some tiredness we got clogged, that came down on our entire Kli.
26. S. (51:25) In the former except it says about the fate, what does a person have to believe above reason, what does annulment have to do with fate?
R. In the simple way that I'm in now I have to take these things the way they exist, even if I don't know, I don't understand, I just take it and I work on that, that has nothing to do with my corporeal life, it's all in all towards spirituality.
S. You talk about the annulment that there are no preconditions. It sounds like there are preconditions that you have to believe about this and that.
R. In annulment we don't have conditions we just have to cancel ourselves according to what the Creator presents before us, usually happens when you are in a crossroads, when you are standing in front of force to bestow or the force of over reception, what should I do should I do an action of connection or study other corporeal things.
27. R. (53:08) We nearly finished the lesson. Let's have a workshop question: who can give us the topic of the workshop? Tell me what you recommend as the workshop topic.
28. S. (54:11) Exactly what we talked about in the lesson, the issue of annulment, it will also be by the way the topic of the meal, as our life now revolves around annulment before the upper one?
R. So what is the question we need to all discuss about?
S. We saw how that happens in spirituality but we want to know how that happens in spirituality. What is the process emotionally, in us and the tens, how to enter the egg, how to nullify before the upper one?
R. You just have to cancel yourself the same way that you do when having kids, you don’t know you just do it as it is an instinct. Same way we need to perform our spiritual actions in order to be incorporated as a spiritual embryo in a spiritual womb. What do we need to do when we are the parts, Malchut when we connect all of us that's called through the ZA, and that's a line and we are entering the Bina, the mother. There we develop how we need to be annulled and how do we remove from that reach a state from all our annulment one to the other how can we reach a state of an embryo. We have a lot of questions here by this do I lose my independence and only feel the ten or even though I annul myself, I start developing myself more and more and in the ten, I develop in it, as I am in it or do we reach some sort of a partnership that there is no me in the friends and only the friends exist and I am with them like Rabash writes. What happens when we go towards the impregnation for sure the annulment needs to be complete and whole but what is the result of that what happens with us even though it will confuse us.
S. What happens with us when we are nullified completely each one through the ten and through the ten with the Creator.
S. What happens with us when we nullify ourselves with the 10 or to the ten with the Creator.
R. Let's do this workshop and prepare for the afternoon lesson, that we connect and see how we can connect ourselves together, all of us as one including the friends that are not here with us, that we include everyone and humanity who has that connection.
WSQ: How do we nullify ourselves each one towards the ten and from the 10th to the Creator?