This means that one should see what he needs before he prays, and on this lack he prays that the Creator will satisfy his lack (Rabash, “What Is Heaviness of the Head in the Work?”).
It is written that a person should pray based on their deficiencies. How do I find out what I lack? All I need is to see that my qualities are opposite to the Creator, to grasp this intellectually, as it were, and to sense it deep within myself. There is nothing special about it.
The remarkable aspect lies in the fact that the Creator performed a miracle. He granted me the sensation that my current form is contrary to what I usually feel; furthermore, He gave me an additional Kli (spiritual vessel) from a spiritual world that is entirely opposite to my own.
So now I have two distinct types of vessels. First there is a tiny spark of desire to bestow (Ner Dakik), referred to as an illumination of holiness or a point in the heart. This spark is a fragment that remains from the shattering of the collective vessel of the soul. Second, there are my egoistic qualities, my ordinary, natural form.
Now I can examine, analyze, deliberate upon, and conclude that, to the extent I can see my qualities through my point in my heart, they are opposite to the Creator.
This realization is only the beginning of how I relate to spirituality; it is not yet my actual entrance to the spiritual world. Many people experience this sensation, reach out to us, come here, receive this feeling, and subsequently go home and never come back again.
Why? Because there is another step from this point onward. Since I sense my oppositeness to the Creator, I must find the correct solution to what to do with this knowledge? What can I derive from the interplay of these two systems. I have to relate to them correctly.
This does not mean that I should seek out specific Kelim to improve myself and pull myself up to the level of the Creator through my own efforts. If I look at it that way, I see I cannot do it.
Then I break down and leave Kabbalah. I tell myself this work is not for me, and that it is beyond human ability. The Creator is in heaven and I am on earth. Let me live in peace. It is better to close my eyes and see nothing, remaining in my own nature.
Being caught between the spiritual and material worlds is a terrible suffering. Constantly feeling yourself opposite, insignificant, bad, experiencing unpleasant sensations, and hopelessness. For what?!
In other words, the disparity between the material and spiritual worlds must be used correctly right away or one falls into depression, into a state of hopelessness, from which there is no way out.
Recognition of evil should immediately become a springboard for working with faith above reason; I cannot do anything on my own, but the Creator can. Moreover, His program includes implementing my correction to the extent I require it from Him.
How will it happen that I will demand this from the Creator? To do this, I must value His greatness and lower myself before Him. This is how I get advice from Him, adhere to Him. Ultimately, adhesion is what we achieve.
If we process all this data correctly, we reveal the need for a group that will give the strength to properly relate to unfolding states. And then one quickly moves on to the next stage in the work.
The next stage is serious work. It constitutes a prayer to the Creator, which can only be carried out by faith above reason.
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From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/4/26, Rabash, “What Is Heaviness of the Head in the Work?”
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