Morning Lesson June 7, 2021 Transcription
“I to my Beloved, and my Beloved to me” - Selected Excerpts from the Source
Part 1
1. Rav’s Introduction: “I for my beloved and my beloved for me” it is a great principal because indeed we need to feel, to understand, to accept and not to forget that the Creator is always open. He has no face or back as we learned that seemingly he has it but it is all with respect to us as much as he shines to us, it depends on how ready we are to truly receive the light of his face. It all depends on our preparation, on our corrections and our relations with Him. That we, when we prepare between us, in the connection between us a place and in that place if we prepare in order to receive the Creator and we show him that place, if we serve in that place then it turns out that according to the preparation of that place he is revealed. This is considered that the upper light is in absolute rest and on his side there are no limitations and no laws about how to hide himself but rather to the contrary. how to reveal himself only. That therefore it says “I for my beloved and my beloved for me” that is to the extent that I am ready to come closer to the Creator in order to receive all of his bestowal to that extent, I discover that to begin with the Creator is ready for it and he is bestowing to me. So let us therefore not delude ourselves that we need to change something in the Creator but rather we need to change something in ourselves only to that extent we will discover how much our Creator is ready and already expecting it to begin with and he had prepared everything for us in advance so that once we correct our vessel of reception we will be able to receive from him what he wants to give us in advance. We will study these exact excerpts and let's hope that we will now turn to the Creator with any complaints, how come you're not giving us but rather we will turn the same complaints to ourselves, how come I'm not able to receive what the Creator wants to give? That way we will discover ourselves that all of our work is only to open up the faucet so that the upper abundance will truly pour down on us. This is our only problem.
Excerpt 1 (04:13) twice
2. S. (07:44) What does it mean that the Creator restricts or annuls his desire?
R. He is hidden even though he feels the whole of reality but towards the person he is hidden. He demands a deficiency because according to the intensity of the deficiency in a person he can be revealed according to the quantity and the quality so that the person will feel him correctly. The deficiency has to come for it before the revelation. The deficiency is the vessel and according to this vessel the Creator becomes revealed this is the law of doing good to his creations that first they have to reveal the desire in the created beings and then they can be filled up. This is how it needs to be, how is it in our lives without a deficiency can we enjoy life? Not all life we build it in such a way that we will be able to enjoy from all kinds of things and our whole life revolves around building a deficiency then according to the magnitude and the intensity of the deficiency in the character of that deficiency, so we enjoy. and around that our whole system of life is built what can we enjoy from? This is how it is otherwise we would remain as animals. Because in the animate its desire does not evolve as it is born so it is that is why it is considered that an old calf is an ox he doesn't need any more than what he was born with the same desires whereas for us it is not the same the Creator demands that we artificially in a deliberate manner, will develop a particular special desire which will be in order to bestow. then according to this desire in order to bestow that we develop then we will be able to feel his desire and to enjoy it.
3. S. (10:36) We've always learned that we can never get rid of the will to receive because it is the very matter of reality and to annul means to cancel to me, do we need in this case to diminish our will to receive and then only the Creator can annul our will to receive?
R. The will to receive cannot be canceled, this is the creation that the Creator created and it exists in reality however it is revealed according to how much we can and need to and demand to advance towards the purpose of creation. So with respect to us it becomes revealed more or less and all kinds of different manners, however in truth the will to receive is the whole of creation. If we are talking about something then we are already talking about something that exists in the will to receive we cannot talk about the light, even we can't talk about the Creator outside of the will to receive. Because it is all felt it is revealed inside the desire.
4. S. (12:12) The relation of the light of the Creator is revealed in the 10 more as a will to receive or as a will to bestow?
R. The revelation of the Creator it becomes revealed in the will to bestow however in the will to receive also which we feel that we are all a will to receive. Since we are all our will to receive, we need to discover and get to know that this is also the Creator's work. As it says all my bones shall tell. That all my desires, the worst ones, they also awakened under the command of the Creator there is none else besides him. That way we will advance towards the recognition of the complete state.
Excerpt 2 (13:26)
5. R. (15:33) The most important thing for us is to not separate from the Creator. He is our root in each and every state that there is. Even if I will walk in the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil because you are with me. This is what it says and this is very important because one who separates from the Creator no matter what the incident he cancels and revokes the uniqueness of the Creator and he shows how much he is willing to connect to the Creator only in certain cases. Let's say when he feels good or if he understands some things. Therefore our whole work is to first and foremost be connected in each and every case without ever becoming separated and specifically in cases that are not suitable and not similar for the revelation of the Creator in us. That we actually adhere to him and that's what's important that we will accustom ourselves to always be with the presence of the Creator constantly in adhesion with the Creator. That's one thing, the second thing is that we need to realize that all of these exercises come from the Creator and not from any other place. The light and the darkness and all kinds of states, the worst possible ones or the best possible ones. It is all acquired inside the will to receive and that will to receive the Creator invented it and he sustains it and he changes it. Therefore, I need to constantly be in a state where I am chasing after my connection with the Creator. That the first point of connection is that whatever I feel, it comes from him. He exists inside of me and he is arranging everything for me, that it is not somewhere outside of me and by chance but always permanently inside of me adhered, exists there and is arranging for me my mind and my heart and my whole perception, my whole reality. He is depicting it to me and upon this picture that I get from him in my ten, emotionally, mentally I begin to relate to him, that is the Creator is always the first and I already work on whatever he has established within me.
6. S. (19:05) In the end of the excerpt he says something like as if, like you have to see things through setting a personal example through you know acting it out like we just can't wait, sit and wait for things to happen. Now the friends that you see around me, these are the greatest of the generation, friends that put together the Haifa group and they have been studying something for over 20 years. I relatively, came you know, kind of late. I have been here for thirteen years, they have been here for over 20 years. They are very serious and responsible. How can I influence them? I feel that I only irritate them. Say the words like you said to be a rag and to really annul yourself, these are tremendous friends, they really deserve better, how can I help them because I just irritate?
R. I don't know if you're irritating them or not, however the fact that you have to constantly try to work on it in order to be favored by them is true. Each one does it his way one prepares for the place for them to study the work, the daily schedule reading an article. The other one prepares the meeting, the third one scrutinizes what is new in our world Kli and in order to tell them about it briefly and so on and so forth. Each one should see how he can complete this environment which is called the 10 and this is how we connect, this is how we build our vessel. It is not the will to receive, it is incorporated from all kinds of discernment of our life. That's one thing, the second thing is that besides the fact that you are saying that you truly feel concern for how much you might be hindering them or not this is actually very nice. This already awakens envy I would say. How come I don't have such a feeling that I am enduring that I am not okay.? Thank you for giving us that feeling of envy that you awakened in us.
S. I even learned how to say the word in Russian, which is a very meaningful word as if.
R. Okay.
7. S. (22:40) I heard that I start to relate to the Creator above the mental and emotional picture that I get, what is that?
R. The picture you get from the world is the picture however if you tie this with the upper force then it is not just this corporeal, beastly image it becomes already the form of your spiritual perception and this is what the Creator is portraying to you in a ten, that you need to establish your relation with him. You have to build a mutual connection with him here “I to my beloved and my beloved to me” the Creator is a seemingly, constantly awakening in us, images of the world and images of life and we just regard it we disregard it we don't want to tie these images to their root their source. But rather if we live that life and if it's a picture it's a picture whatever I feel in my mind and my heart whatever he establishes within me and it is not so.
S. If I see in myself something that is against connection that is also for him obviously but from that point on what work do I have to do?
R. How do you work from that moment on? You already from that moment on you start to establish mutual relations “I to my beloved and my beloved to me” how do I change so as to elicit the response from the Creator. I want to learn through my mutual connection with him through this dialogue, how I and in which form and through which incidents through which acts in my mind in my mind and my heart I can bestow to him with maximum benefit? Maximum pleasure as much as I'm capable of and then I ask of him if I'm not capable of it but I feel that I can add here than I ask of him to help me and that way I am doing it constantly, like a little child who is asking of his parents that they will help him in this and in that because he wants to be a grown up. He wants to do good things, good deeds.
8. S. (25:42) How can I build the perfect Kli?
R. It is through research, investigation, examination, that you are constantly what can give more pleasure to the Creator. So you disconnect from what might give more pleasure to me and we exist in this question instinctively and we exist in it and constantly sustain it and you think of him. What could it be in this inverse manner? Then by changing your attitude towards the Creator, in this way you begin to develop yourself to change yourself.
S. How can I know whether I am in my desire before his desires? Is there a way to know this?
R. Yes, this is called a screen, restriction screen and reflected light, this is what we do, certainly this is our work. This is how we research him until we begin to get all kinds of responses, different kinds of understanding, emotions, and through them we establish ourselves more and more correctly towards the Creator. I begin to be more similar to him through that it is in paying attention and working in order to resemble him.
9. S. (28:23) In the excerpt it says that the desire to bestow is fulfilled first so what are these desires to bestow?
R. Which desires?
S. He says weak, bestowing desires, that they are filled with light first.
R. We have desires that are closer to bestow and desires that are closer to reception, you have the entire spectrum of desires 0 1 2 3 4. So of course, the lighter desires those that are farther from reception and are closer to bestowal, they are filled first according to the law of equivalence of form.
S. What does it mean that these desires are filled with light?
R. I feel in them more clothes us to the Creator into his bestowal to his influence.
S. In our work what are these desires?
R. Desires to bestow, desires to connect.
10. S. (29:49) In order to bestow to the Creator, a person has to go through special corrections or does it depend on his yearning?
R. It depends on his yearning however he does have to go through special corrections.
11. S. (30:41) When the will to receive is suffering is it because it does not receive light that the light is not reaching it?
R. Yes, because it was created out of the light. It has all the Reshimot from the light and these records become revealed. Then according to that he suffers, he wants but he does not get what he wants.
S. So when one annuls the will to receive then he can receive pleasure?
R. Yes, not when he cancels it, he doesn't cancel it, he wants to use his will to receive in order to bestow and then he can receive pleasure from using it in order to bestow. If he cancels the will to receive completely he doesn't receive because he canceled it, this is called restriction, following the restriction we have more further process that we need to discover.
Excerpt 3 (32:00) twice
12. S. (34:00) How in the 10 do we awaken the desire of the upper for him to give us the vessels of bestowal?
R. Only if you connect, the Creator doesn't hear any one individually but rather if a person is connected to others then you can raise what we call a prayer. In the public there is always a response for the prayer. There are a few conditions here that have to come together, it is that I need to connect with the friends. We need to scrutinize together, what is our desire, into whom are we raising our desire. Then what is it that we have to ask for and what do we have to add, what do we have to focus on, how can we truly evoke the Creator so that he will bring us what we want? This is what we have to do and then it will happen. However, we truly need to see these things that are standing before us in a way that, it is a practical question, are we going to do it or not? We are all sitting each one in his corner and waiting, what is one waiting for? I don't know if we're not serving the vessel to the Creator then we are not going to get anything. We have to bring him our vessel.
S. Without the force of the connection of the Creator how can we connect?
R. We cannot connect if the Creator will not do it. This is called if the Creator will not build a house its workers work in vain, the Creator can connect. How can you connect, when you have to let's say 10 desires, 10 egoistic desires completely different. There is no relation, no contact between you and the contact can be only on the plane of this world. So you can sit together and eat something and go and maybe travel and talk about things external from this world only but more internal things in connecting the desires, this is already the spiritual plane and you're not capable of doing that. It's only if the Creator will do it from the plane of this world. He gave us to begin with the ability to connect, the ability to communicate however higher than that no, we need him.
13. S. (37:21) What does it mean to unite the desires to connect them?
R. To connect the desires it means the different desires connect for a single goal. Each one on his side and this is the revelation of the Creator. So we want to take upon ourselves each one a correction in order to resemble the Creator, each one of us according to his original quality however with the intention to bestow which we get from the Creator. With those intentions to bestow even though we are all different however this is how we connect above ourselves. This is called above all crimes the Creator covers the force of connection from the Creator that's it.
S. Suppose the friends in the 10 want to build the spiritual vessel right now that we want to connect between us?
R. Well this is what we are talking about, I don't understand why you're asking as if you're not hearing what we're talking about? Maybe you will try to hear in my words the topic for your next question so you can immediately ask but rather how to realize it. that will help you more. If you jump with the question as though you already tried to do it and you did not succeed but that is incorrect.
Excerpt 4 (39:25)
14. R. (40:31) There are a few things here, first of all, what does he say about what is the face? The yearning, the deficiency, this is the face. I think face is whatever that shines, it's the light that comes but he says no that is incorrect. Rather it is what I feel is a deficiency as a lack for the Creator, a lack for connecting, for discovering and being close to him and feeling him, this for me is actually the face. This is what I want to reach. Otherwise it is considered that we are lying to ourselves. that only the yearning, only the deficiency, only longing for the Creator. This is what I want. and this is what needs to fill me. It's as we said many times like a first love or something like that that fills the guy and he doesn't need anything. This revives the fact that he is thinking about the one he loves and he wants to come closer, this is what fills him and if he actually comes closer I'm not sure if this is for his benefit but rather what's the most important is the yearning, the longing. That is the deficiency, this is actually the fulfillment. because I have no more than that and I don't need any more than that. This is the expression of my love whereas if the light comes and it fills the deficiencies, then we know from our life that usually ends with us becoming despaired and full, and we no longer have a deficiency and without the deficiency we cannot have a feeling of the fulfillment and we are indifferent to the relations the relationship. Therefore the attitude towards the Creator is only increasing yearning.
15. S. (43:23) The prayer of the 10, is it 1 prayer that the entire ten has to come to or each has his own prayer but we have a common intention?
R. Each one has his prayer however with a common intention, yes.
16. S. (44:06) Connection and the hardship of connecting is felt as a general hardship that the 10 has but what does it mean a common yearning into ten to bestow to the Creator?
R. That we all yearn like you do for the same goal and we're trying to scrutinize whether that goal is the same for all of us. Are we really yearning but certainly everyone yearns in their own way without even being able to express it really. Because our language is insufficient in order to scrutinize the inner desire.
S. Let's say we write a prayer after every lesson and it's hard to feel that we are reaching a common yearning to bestow to the Creator which is something that is collected for everyone as 1 ten?
R. If you write your prayer only about that, it will be enough. Everyday find out what form of yearning do you have and if you don't then ask for the Creator to give you. Is there something that is yours? Everything comes from above.
17. S. (45:47) In this search short excerpt it says if the first time I read it describe the guidance system that the Creator, how the Creator is helping. How can we be more sensitive to this guidance system because you said sometimes we need to add a bit of quality and quantity to the prayer, how to be more sensitive to the guidance system?
R. Imagine that you are like a baby in the hands of his mother, the mother she is playing with you. So sometimes she is playing with you in a way where you don't even know that she is playing, that she is giving you these toys and those toys and you grab them and it seems like it is already next to you and it is yours and you can play with it, that you have achieved it. Sometimes you say that no, it is actually mom that is giving it to you and that maybe you have to respond to her in some way. meaning the game is eventually mutual. To the measure to which we find the Creator who is behind this, around us also inside of us, that he is hidden, he confuses us, the different forms of life that we go through. It's all the Creator playing with us. It seems to me that there are friends, that there's the world, that there's even me who is changing. That is becoming someone different every moment, it is not me and not the world and not anyone and not the friends, that is all the upper force playing with us in order to eventually bring us to a state where we will become like him. This is our work, the more we move ourselves aside so it's not me who is in control but it is all done by the Creator, by that we will be able to come more quickly to the revelation of the Creator and adhere to him.
18. S. (48:38) The Creator is pure love, he dwells everywhere he feels all the world, my question is what is the face and the back of the Creator and how is it felt in the created being?
R. The face and the back the posterior in the face of the Creator is something that we have to learn about. In the meantime I don't want to confuse people. That they will start well, the face is the plenty and abundance that we are getting from him and the posterior is the preparation that we do not get all of this plenty and good but it helps us correct our vessels.
19. S. (49:50) We were able to depict a 10 that is yearning for the Creator. What is the atmosphere that is constantly in such a ten, that is capturing each and every friend?
R. Good question. You have to depict this way and try to be in such a state. Try. I can't depict all the images and pictures and everything that goes on in spirituality. Every time you have to prepare a vessel that can be fulfilled and accordingly, you will understand.
S. When is it considered that a friend has started working for the sake of the Creator?
R. When he starts working for everyone for the benefit of his friends.
20. S. (51:12) We learn that yearning comes from despair at some point in our work. In our connection this yearning can grow through the love of friends. Is it sometimes the opposite? Does it come out of despair or pain?
R. It doesn't matter how it comes in what way, but of course from this or about this we can learn from each other and enhance our yearning for it.
Excerpt 5 (51:56) twice
21. R. (54:42) What he wants to tell us by it is that, we can't perform some direct action towards the Creator. We can't. But, our efforts to connect, to come closer to one another by which we want to make a vessel for the revelation of the Creator, this means that we are bestowing to Him that we are giving to Him and that by this we are nearing Him. Meaning that there is no way that we can directly turn to the Creator but, only through connecting more between us coming closer to each other, and in that we are acting towards the Creator.
22. S. (55:40) It's not clear what does it mean adhered, what is this concept of adhesion with each other?
R. It can never be in the desires themselves but only in the intention. In the intention of each and everyone to the extent to which upon those new, maybe bad desires that are revealed, to the measure that we rise above them, and connect in one intention to the Creator towards our source that is it. Then generally nearing the Creator and anything else that we want to do, it is only through our connection. It's not in relation to the Creator, you know in relation to the Creator we can't directly near him or distance ourselves but it is all only according to the nearing and distancing between us and this is something that has to be very clear to us. This is how we make spiritual actions nearing between us. we find spirituality distancing, we move back in spirituality, we retreat from spirituality. that's it.
S. This adhesion I don't feel the intention of my friend or I do feel it. What is adhesion here really if I feel the intentions it's considered that I adhere to them?
R. If you feel that you have one intention that you are all directed together towards the Creator each to the measure to which they can annul their ego it means that you are performing an action together that you're connected. To what extent to which each cancels his own ego and is willing to connect to the others.
23. S. (58:06) Maybe I stick to the words too much but when you answered my question you said that we unite with the Creator if I understood it correctly in our intentions that's how I unite with the Creator but now you're saying that we only connect between us and you cannot connect in the Creator, so how can we connect our intentions nevertheless?
R. We connect our intentions only according to the measure to which we yearn to the Creator or yearn for the Creator. We can't join our desires to become one. We say that but it is just talk, what does it mean one desire, that he wants this and I want that, excetera excetera and then we join our desires. How can we do that? It means that we can connect our intentions using our desire to give the Creator contentment. This is what we can do, it's always an intention, and the desire we can never reach any kind of connection. We say that this is what we do but actually the problem is the way we use the language. That's the problem. no one can come out of their desire but only the intention that only above the desire these intentions can be connected and can come closer, move away, and accordingly we talk about the desires but it can never be in the desires because what's mine is mine and yours is yours and his is his. In that we remain completely separate from one another but the intention of what I do with my desire personally, individually with my personal individual desire that belongs only to me, then there, I do with mine, you do with yours etc etc.
S. I want to realize what you're saying right now. I want to realize it right here and now, how can I feel the intentions of the friends and all the friends in the 10 and connect? How can I feel their intentions and connect to them?
R. Talk to them, start feeling them better. Studying together, eating together, singing together, how else? In the end, the main thing is to ask the Creator to connect your intentions. You can't connect in your desires, but to use your desires what is it for? This way you can connect. What is it about that all the 10 Sefirot in the Partzuf, they all connect their intentions and then out of these 10 Sefirot you get one intention. Think about this. We'll get there slowly, slowly we'll build these things.
24. S. (01:01:57) What is the relation between yearning and intention?
R. Yearning is the deficiency and intention that is already the proper usage of the deficiency.
25. S. (01:02:29) With your permission, it says here in the excerpt five, what is this life? We are living 70 years and I come here to make corrections. This is not called a life being alive?
R. Of course, it's not called life. What kind of life do you have? I'm telling you that you have no life. That is called the life of the wicked. that counts their life according to the measure to which they have to. The matter to which they receive and acquire as much as you have stolen in this world and taken from everyone defeated etc. It means that you had a good time, this is life so for this you are responsible 70 years maybe enough already. Now try the 20 or 30 years that you have left to live the life of the righteous. Not of the wicked, so that your entire life will be about how much I can bestow to others. We can bestow to others, how is it possible to do if through the friends you are asking the Creator to give you the force of bestowal but it's impossible to bestow to the Creator unless you bestow to the friends. First try two first try bestowing to them and then from that, from your bestowal to the friends and that is called the hidden wisdom and in general the wisdom of Kabbalah is called the hidden wisdom because no one sees or feels what you think what you feel maybe it is the opposite of what might seem to them. The good actions that you might apparently be doing and they see the complete opposite that you are doing the complete opposite so try and perform actions of bestowal and that is called the life of the righteous.
S. Without the life of these wicked ones, we will never be able to bestow to our friends. I must have this life so this is a part of the true life isn't it?
R. What you want to say is that after 70 years, which I did so much bad and evil, now thank God finally I have what to correct and I'm going to do good. I wouldn't say that that is right because a person is born with the evil inclination, The Creator created or made the evil inclination so in short don't we practically just start performing acts of bestowal.
26. S. (01:05:41) How can we shorten the times to reach a complete connection between us?
R. I don't know. You have to help each other. You have to give each other an example and to measure that you envy each other accordingly you will advance.
S. How can we build good envy between us? One that promotes us?
R. Good envy, that you want to be like the friend, not to hide him, that you block him, that he will go and gradually disappear but to the contrary for him to become an ever better example.
27. S. (01:06:45) Is there any advance to begin within each one of us yearning for the Creator or is it something that we build between us existence from absence. In every friend is there already built in yearning for the Creator or do we build this yearning in the group existence from absence?
R. The initial yearning exists in us, it is the record from the shattering and all the rest we have to build in our connection. To the measure to which we connect to each other, from that we have to receive a greater deficiency for the Creator.
S.We cannot detect it until we start to work between us and then we can locate it?
R. Yes, you can say that you're right.
28. S. (01:08:02) I also want to be in the right intention during the lesson with the friends, is it correct to say that the moment that I rise above my thoughts and desires and I pray to think about the Creator, is this already the right intention?
R. Yes.
29. S. (01:08:26) You explain now that matter of intention sorry envy, why is it that when I see for many years already good envy in the friends, I feel that there is something to be envious of and to be drawn to, I don't see that it becomes realized, I can't cling to it, I feel like I'm caught in the same place.
R. Probably you are not working on it enough. both in terms of the intensity itself and also the scrutiny.
S. I want to understand.
R. Let's put it this way, listen to this lesson several times and then ask but listen to it several times meticulously and really every time write down the new things that you hear and to hear it several times 3 or 4 times, suppose and even though it says that someone who listens to the lesson 101 times is not like someone who listens to the lesson 100 times. It's so much the difference.
30. S. (01:10:18) The intention to give contentment to the Creator is born out of the deficiency?
R. The intention to give contentment to the Creator comes from our meticulous work trying to connect as much as we can and then the Creator shines and gradually from that we start understanding what is upon us to do. What do we have to do.
31. S. (01:11:04) He writes here when Israel are bundled and united together they are as one what is complete unity, is there an end to the yearning it, can reach a complete state?
R. For now but yes of course.
S. What does it mean to be complete?
R. It means we build the 10 Sefirot according to the records that are revealed.
S. This means the entire 10 is already one we are all.
R. For now according to the records that are revealed, according to the records that were not revealed, we don't know. Accordingly, maybe to the last month we will feel that we are all together. you know what kind of connection we have.
Excerpt 6 (01:11:59) twice
32. R. WSQ: How do we summarize what we learned in the lesson so far?