Afternoon Lesson September 16, 2023 Transcription
Transcription is made from simultaneous translation which leaves a possibility for differences in the audio
Part 1: Lesson on the topic of “Rosh Hashanah”
Rav Introduction: (From Prep. Recording {He started early}:
1. S. (00:32) What is to seek the Creator between us, where is that between us?
R. Between us, between each one and the others. I should not feel any distance between myself and the friends. As much as I'll try to close this distance I'll have a greater chance of feeling the Creator.
2. S. (01:06) Is part of this effort where every opportunity for a meeting with the friends, I make efforts of seeing them more and more in love, more in connection. That is actually to discover a new Creator each time between us?
R. As much as I'd want to be more internal with the Creator with the friends, there will be no difference between us, between me and the Creator, between me and the friends. Then accordingly, I have an opportunity to reveal him and to feel him, in all of the desires, all the longings, in all my organs. The Creator cannot be farther away than the friend. On the contrary, the closer I feel the friends to me, to such an extent that they touch my skin, my body, and my innermost qualities, accordingly, we’ll feel Him. I will discover Him.
3. S. (03:14) How do you close in on that distance between me and the friend?
R. I close the distance between myself and the friend both in my brain, in my heart, in all of my lusts, my desires. Everything I'm capable of using in order to be closer to them and in this way I'm looking for ways to locate him between us to close the distance.
S. What is that distance built from?
R. The distance is the inclination. I wish to feel Him with my heart and soul. It's not something physical where we have to be hugging, but rather a yearning to come closer to him in my inner inclination.
4 S. (04:52) Is a person capable of closing that distance between him and the friend alone or does he have to come to the point where he just understands that only the Creator can help?
R. No, the Creator can help only on the condition that a person is making efforts and first of all you have to have many efforts from a person towards the friends. it doesn't have to be a physical thing, you may not even see it as much through all kinds of tendencies, and movements, rather, it has to be the inclination of the heart.
5. S. (05:49) It's still not clear. What's the difference between me and the friend?
R. The difference?
S. Yes, you said there's a gap between me and the friends, it's not clear.
R. It's something that I can feel from the get-go, this difference between us, the distance between us. The lack of incompatibility between us, but the more I think about it the more I try to be closer to him so that we truly connect as one man in one heart and I can imagine the Creator more and more in the connection between us.
S. Does it matter in relation?
R. As it's written, “you have made me," in what you have made me, by bringing ourselves closer to one another to such a degree that from all the yearnings, desires, and inclinations we come to a state where we feel the Creator is indeed present between us. When we come closer to one another we establish him between us.
S. Does it matter in relation to what I measure that closeness or distance with the friend or is it anything?
R. You have to try. This is the matter of the work.
S. Then when I make those steps, do I have to feel the friend or do we come to some common feeling of ours?
R. The friend.
6. S. (07:54) This guidance of the work with a friend personally is understood you can also implement it will it truly come?
R. Why is it not clear? If we have now 200 people let's say, and you wish to close them together and feel them as one man and one body in one thought and one inclination. Embrace such a closeness that specifically from this effort you are making the Creator.
S. That's exactly what's not understood when it starts to be the many even if it's the concept of the personal ten of a person and not to talk of the collective of Bnei Baruch, 200 people, the whole world Kli, that's already there's no grip on that so much. When I think of one friend let's say for my ten, any single friend I can evoke a lot of emotion and feeling, even if there's a rejection or conflict no matter what I can come close. We've been together for a long time. We know one another. I know a few things without the years that have accumulated that I can awaken certain records towards the collective.
R. Not the collective, the ten.
S. Okay, so my personal ten.
R. The group, let's say 200 people.
S. What's closing that gap between me and everyone?
R. I embrace them, I feel them, I feel we're together in one body. We embrace and there are no words for it actually.
7. S. (10:01) I'm sitting and I'm smiling about what you're saying and all of a sudden, I don't know what's going on, but all of a sudden some sentence some bomb, some word you're saying and we will hug and we'll kiss and it starts to be some kind of clash that you don't where it comes from. How should I relate to a friend to continue caressing him to tell him how nice you are and that I'm kissing him? How am I supposed to respond?
R. Overcome such jumps you have from within from your evil inclination.
S. What, am I supposed to do, let them insult me? How am I supposed to respond when he's insulting me and it's supposed to be like that each time again?
R. He doesn't insult you, it's the Creator doing all kinds of exercises for you, so you will grow stronger with a connection with a friend.
S. That brings me close. By me, being quiet?
R. Yes it's not about keeping quiet it's about overcoming.
S. What should I do? I'm not there being silent.
R. You don't want to hear those words, those rejections, you're trying to position yourself against that.
S. That's not easy at all.
R. I don't want to hear if it's easier or difficult. I'm telling you what to do, and you will do it.
S. No, that's the difficulty in connection.
R. Okay.
8. S. (11:51) You talked about that interconnection. There's a feeling that there's an interconnection between the friends, a truly very powerful connection. How do you penetrate that connection? How do you enter into it?
R. I don't need to enter the connection between the friends because I might disturb it. I should simply adhere to them from the outside as much as possible.
S. What is that action to adhere to them as much as possible?
R. To be like them, not that I'm somehow between them I'm getting in between them.
9. S. (12:50) In the matter of overcoming, how to correctly do this deed and not attribute it to my calculations. You know like I overcame. It is like the worst thing that could be, that you kind of managed to overcome without the help of the Creator. May also build the gap between those who are succeeding and those who aren't successful. There's also the allegory of Baal HaSulam about the son of the King who was beaten from the right and the left and made a hero out of himself. Why? Here, I'm managing to battle against all my haters and enemies and he goes imagining he's getting beaten up, but he's proud of it.
R. You have to understand your examples.
S. It's not examples, I want to scrutinize with you this state of overcoming. That won't be…
R. I can see that my friends have a good connection between them. I look at it, I envy it, and I wish to be like them. I wish to be like them.
S. How can I come to the point where I overcome?
R. I try to be in contact with them, with this warm connection. The way that I see that they are between each other, that's it, not more than that, without philosophies, without anything. Clear?
10. S. (15:30) When do we know whether the Creator through the friend demands overcoming from me or that really the friend is bringing the left line and insulting and I need to put him in his place?
R. Those are matters of feeling when I see the friend relating nicely, kindly to me then I must return that kind and although it can invoke a sense of repulsion in me or some pride. Nevertheless, we have to understand that the moment I see that I can relate to someone warmly I must present this heat wave from me to him.
S. That's when someone relates to me with warmth. But if the friend is not in warmth, if he's insulting him, how do you know when the Creator demands some kind of work in overcoming or if the friend is truly insulting and not bringing the spirits and the mood and the greatness that we talk about?
R. Over time we learn to detect some friends. We try to reach a certain mutual understanding. That takes time, but now from this moment on we truly have to activate this heat wave, this wave of warmth and inner embrace towards one another and that's how we'll advance toward our goal.
S. Okay, if it's something that's repetitive and it's hard for a person to engage in this pattern of insulting behavior. So will it help us to read more articles of Rabash that talk about the obligation of raising the spirits and talking about the greatness of the friends and simply read it and let it have an impact on us? Or will time do its thing?
R. No, make efforts from ourselves and from the friends, and from the friends wait patiently until he's able to take those steps forward.
11. S. (19:03) Why is the Creator revealed in warm or heat waves?
R. That's his nature if he approaches when he approaches a person feels warmth and attraction that's his nature.
S. If I create a warm wave with my friend?
R. It's really the same thing. Gradually it will have an impact although the friend has an evil inclination and corruption and calculations, but gradually it works.
S. It's like we're supposed to create a network of heat waves?
R. Yes.
S. In this net what is the expectation? What will happen with it?
R. We will feel that we are in a sea of warmth of love, connection, mutual attraction, support and will come to a state where the Creator is revealed.
12. S. (20:44) What is in this building we just talked about this building that the friend asked you about. Earlier you said we have to wait for the friend. What is to wait for the friend?
R. I don't know what I said.
S. Earlier you said we have to wait for the friend, we have to make this network here, to feel that there's a friend who is not broadcasting that heat. What Is it like to wait for that friend?
R. I didn't speak of that.
13. S. (21:30) To continue the question, maybe I'll refine it a bit. The friend asked about these waves of heat and you said it's actually similar to the Creator. Like what we acquire here, your answer sounded like for the Creator to be revealed, there needs to be also mutual for there will be warmth also from the side of the friend?
R. Maybe.
S. The Creator kind of operates in a unidirectional way, right?
R. I don't know.
S. If he's bestowing?
R. Don't wait for an answer to keep going.
S. When I'm trying to examine what's not clear you answered the friend about the heat wave, if it's already similar to the Creator and he does an act of bestowal toward the other, why does the other also have to return to him for the Creator to be revealed? That's at least what I understood from the answer you gave to the friend.
R. I didn't mean that, but of course, if we relate with warmth to someone then we expect a similar reaction from him as well.
S. Doesn't that turn out to be egotistical? Is the Creator waiting for a response from us? For us to bestow?
R. Egoistical depends on the goal. Why do I need it? Maybe I want to feel good or maybe I want the friend to feel good or we wish to come closer to each other In order to come closer to the Creator together?
S. Because I can't measure whether it's egotistical or not, but I know if I've come to a state where I'm truly broadcasting a wave of heat towards the friend, is this mutuality obligatory?
R. Either yes or no, it depends on the states the friends are in. Let's keep going gradually.
14. S. (23:49) As to this feeling of warmth, if you could say that in this feeling there's also the knowledge of what to do onward with it, or does it just come and go? What do you do with it? Is there more information beyond that feeling?
R. No, simply continue and then we'll talk, we haven't even started.
S. I'm talking about the feeling itself, that feeling some inner feeling of knowledge that tells you what else you can do because you're kind of frozen. What do you do?
R. Why are you frozen? If you wish to come close to the friend and you invite such a similar warm reaction, why are you frozen?
S. Let's say we are now someplace outside at 70°, it's heat outside and everyone feels that warmth. I don't know what, we all feel that feeling. What's next?
R. The important thing for us is not to fight the heat, but fight the ice between us. What does that have to do with the external heat and the cold?
S. That's what I meant. I was just depicting it as an example we're trying to work on the connection while we're feeling. Do we continue the same?
R. Of course.
15. S. (25:34) From what I'm hearing here it comes to the feeling that we need to relate to everyone as if we are their parents, their father or mother.
R. Who's?
S. The friends, my feeling, if I want to constantly give warmth to someone and I don't want there to be some gap between us in my feeling it's like a mother to her child.
R. And?
S. And I don't have expectations for him to give love back, but I love him without the expectation of how he would respond?
R. Yes.
S. We have certain kinds of connections, there is the kind of connection we have to find in the ten, and now in the preparation for the lesson, you said to us, at least what I heard, that we are all here and supposed to be in this warm connection, without distances. I wanted to ask, only during the lessons are we supposed to come to that and aim to each, to all come like this to one big ten, to one big soul of ours and everyone wants this big warmth to encompass us in the Creator to come down to us this way?
R. Yes, that's exactly.
S. Okay, so that's our preparation for the lesson. That's how we have to prepare ourselves each time and guide ourselves?
R. Yes.
S. Now let's say most of the people are not sitting here in our ten, so we have a feeling also that we're kind of really one ten here in the lesson, in the morning lesson each one sits in his ten, whether it's in our Arvut system or here, and it's aimed towards his ten. Then how should the preparation for the morning lesson be?
R. We came to the morning lesson in order to uncover additional closeness between us in our hearts and we need to come closer to the Creator until we will discover him as filling all of our hearts.
S. Does it need to be first from connection in the ten and then as a ten we connect to the lesson with the whole world Kli?
R. More or less.
S. Let's say at the convention or any lesson we enter we always need to expect to pray, ask for the light to come, and adhere to us all because we are truly all one soul.
R. Yes.
Reading Excerpt #10 (28:35) The Judgment that the World is Judged, Rabash, Letter No. 29. Twice.
16. S. (32:08) Let's maybe continue what we talked about earlier, if we are now as a ten or group deciding from now on we are committing to reveal warmth and love between us, the true quality of the Creator of bestowal between us. That's it, we're committed, we're obligated.
R. It doesn't matter that it's a new calendar year or whatever. We decided.
S. If we decide it will be Rosh Hashanah, the new year.
R. Yes.
S. That's what will happen. That's the judgment that we will define?
R. Yes. Why do we do this? What are we studying here?
S. That's what we're learning here, how to do it.
R. Where's the help of the Creator? First to do something, decide that this is the Rosh Hashanah, the New Year for you, and you expect the Creator to come meet you halfway and you want to go and meet Him.
S. I mean us, it's not me alone?
R. That's clear.
17. S. (33:25) There's your guidance that instructs you how you listen. The question is whether there needs to be, on our behalf, some plan on how we operate. Let's say that in the upcoming year, do we need to build some plan that constantly adapts itself to how you're leading us? I'm trying to understand.
R. We need to activate ourselves towards our connection in general. Connection with our heart and soul as much as possible and start it from this moment on, from today, and to continue in this way.
S. It's as if we're putting our full acceleration.
R. Yes, and not let go. Constantly see ourselves making efforts to come closer to one another and in one embrace.
S. By that we use or are assisted by you maximally? Is that the best way we can..?
R. Maximum each and every moment, when we are approaching one another when we are warming ourselves next to each other and we expect the Creator to clothe in us and to be revealed to us. Is that clear?
18. S. (35:12) It's written in the excerpt that a person is his own judge, his own plaintiff, his own executor, etc. I wanted to ask what it means that he's his own executor?
R. It all depends on how much he's trying, how much he's trying to be in the action of connection with others in order to discover in him the Creator, that is the meaning of being the executioner.
19. S. (35:50) What does it mean that there's judgment below but there's no judgment above?
R. There is judgment above meaning there are laws operating on us, but through our work, we can mitigate those laws and change them for a higher need.
S. How to make self-judgment?
R. We'll learn about it, don't just jump in with questions.
20. S. (36:36) Rosh Hashanah is the time in which we judge the world favorably or to the contrary and is regarded as the root of the branches that emerge. We're according to the essence of his root a building that will be built. What is the connection between these two sentences that it's the time of the judgment of the world between good or to the contrary and he also puts me inside as if I'm the one who's continuing on and doing this, what's the connection between this and that?
R. Both directions, either to the good or to the bad, or all kinds of other forms, or goals. A person is the one who decides on one hand and on the other hand, the Creator also decides according to his plan.
S. Meaning I'm bestowing to the whole world actually?
R. Yes.
S. Sorry for saying this, but in the convention we're doing the whole world, we can bestow to the whole world? On us and you too?
R. Yes.
21. S. (37:55) It's written that we're actually in Rosh Hashanah and deciding the judgment and all that, and not too long ago you taught us about the prohibition of slander and it felt like somebody finally put a limit on us. Our ego grows and now there's a limit and it really advanced us and I'm asking now that we're in Rosh Hashanah how will we be able to continue that feeling that we learned about the prohibition of slander? I'm a little concerned it will disappear in time that it already happened in the past.
R. We can't learn something and then forget about it, learn and forget, we have to constantly try and renew that in us.
S. To learn it again?
R. No, we don't have time to learn it again. We have a lot to learn ahead of us and a lot to do. Rather, to continue.
22. S. (39:10) It turns out that according to the state of a person at the moment, a certain order of actions that happen in his future take place.
R. Yes.
S. How can we influence this order of actions?
R. By being together with the friends, men, and women, we're trying to rearrange ourselves toward connection and toward the Creator and ask Him to embrace us and to bring us closer and bring us closer to the complete construction.
23. S. (40:13) We decided that everything comes from the root and that the branch always follows the root. A person needs to judge himself and receive certain decisions. Each time we judge ourselves and try to make the right decisions we see that we're just distancing ourselves from them, on the other hand, we learn everything that happens the Creator does, not us. What is it that we are judging within ourselves?
R. How far we are from the root. That's it.
S. I feel that I am very far from the root, more distance, what is it that I need to do a calculation on?
R. Everything that you are judging about yourself. You wish to correct it, in this current year.
S. What I see, that's what I want to be careful of.
R. Yes, a judge has only what his eyes show him.
S. The decision to make, what's it found out upon? My longing to come closer to the goal, pride?
R. You have to take it into consideration and accept some of those things you discover as foreign, as things that are not good, and try to correct them. There's nothing else to do here.
24. S. (42:56) Does the journey to judge oneself with the intention that he's doing it, that he's doing it for himself or for others or for the Creator, is that considered to judge oneself?
R. The judge has to judge himself together with everyone. It's to see how he doesn't have integrity with the Creator.
S. His intention is for himself or for others?
R. It's included in that same judgment.
S. In such a way he corrects himself and he sees that he is different than everyone and then he has the Creator to help him?
R. Yes, that too.
25. S. (43:58) In fact, Rosh Hashanah, we and the entire world Kli are now in a state where the science of Kabbalah is spreading. And on the one hand, we say that we judge ourselves not by the calendar holiday, but by the state that we are going through. When can we say that we've done our half a Shekel? I see that friends are doing a lot, I see that friends are loving, I see where I wish I had a tenth of their capability of expressing heat, and warmth, so it's not clear to me how we can even come to a judgment that will have truth in it, that will have the Creator?
R. It will come under the condition that we will truly want to come to a connection between us, and the Creator. Then we will discover where we are. We are coming closer in a good way to the right sentence and we are no longer under some kind of illusions, and most of us understand that we're not okay. We must be connected between us above our nature, so I actually think that all the good is before us. All the good is before us.
S. What are we lacking in order to accelerate the times and to give contentment to the Creator, we feel that nevertheless the salvation is coming from here to the world, so we feel this my corrupt eyes reality, and that other people are suffering, so how can we hasten times? Maybe Rosh Hashana is the time to hasten times?
R. Certainly. Hastening times are only in the connection between us by which we draw the reforming light and that is what advances us.
S. What are we lacking, Rav? We've been learning this for decades. We all want it. Something is stuck there. Maybe I'm the one who's blocking everything, but something is blocked, stuck. We repeat every day twice a day and I feel as if it's not yet, not yet.
R. We need to activate our hearts through this and that we need to operate our heart and in your words and in your speaking do not attribute it to the Creator, but to your heart.
26. S. (48:18) Everything exists according to the thought of creation, 6,000 years, it means that everything is written already as it says everything is predetermined, pre-written, so everything that we're doing can we actually change what's written? Does anyone actually change what's written in the 6000 years that we have to go through until the end of correction?
R. It's all written, and it all depends on the decisions and our prayers. There's no clash between those two. We're not in the same system that can be both, in good and bad, and yes and no together. We don't understand that duality, that is happening. But it all depends on us. The year is starting as a very fruitful and good year, let's hope that we use it correctly. The main thing is to be closer in our hearts and to try and wish one another only good things.
S. It says that the Creator is the ‘Good Who Does Good’ and everything that’s written, it's all good, and everything that we do only to reveal the good that is already pre-written for us, right?
R. Yes.
27. S. (50:32) What should we ask of the Creator, so that we'll be able to annul before the friends, is this the power of faith?
R. Yes.
28. S. (50:58) If the Creator is revealing to us different impressions of the friends’ actions, we need to judge ourselves and only convey heat to the friends, warmth?
R. We need to sentence each friend only in the direction of the good and only after that turn to them.
29. S. (51:36) How not to judge the friends?
R. Love them.
S. We want to send you this heat wave from the ten.
R. I feel your heat and your hugs towards me.
30. S. (52:20) A few years ago I could feel the feeling of the Creator filling my heart. It was in the Congress and the Exhibition Garden in Tel Aviv. Then I started to measure my ego through the friends. Is it correct to be in the state of judging myself?
R. You simply need to continue together with us, and that's it. That's how things will calm down, okay?
31. S. (53:14) How can I rise above my ego and my desire to receive and throw myself into the sea of love, pure with my eyes closed?
R. Open the heart and close the eyes, and come closer to the friend that way and then you will succeed. It's very very important. Two simple actions, open the heart and shut the eyes.
32. S. (54:35) All of the friends are embracing you.
R. Me too.
S. In the connection is the interconnection in the root and has to support the external connection? Is it like a covenant we have to sign with the Creator above every state in order to ensure warmth and connection with the friends?
R. Exactly, we need to embrace everyone, together, without any differences and no calculations. Okay?
33. S. (55:47) Are we, gathered in dozens, from the same root or from different ones? And do the people of Israel belong to the same root?
R. Israel is not a nationality, it's not a people, it's a group of people who have gathered in order to aim themselves toward the Creator. Such that whoever wants to attain the Creator is called Israel. For them, there is this holiday, Rosh Hashanah, when they want to decide that from this moment onward they're aiming toward the Creator.
34. S. (57:03) It says here that according to the root, the entire order of life is extended, so how do we arrange things so that the branches will continue in the right way this year and bring us to love?
R. That's pretty simple. We simply need to all connect together, all the time, and find between us the place for the Creator.
S. How do we determine between us the place for the Creator?
R. We connect our hearts such that no room is left but to fill our hearts.
S. How do we create this place?
R. The place for the Creator is to find a place for our common heart. The Creator does not find a place, the connection between us where no other free room is remaining, that's what defines the place of the Creator.
35. S. (59:10) I'm talking about this wave of heat of warmth that we talked about, according to the laws of physics, if I wish to create a heat wave I have to take it from somewhere and the other place will remain instead of coldness. How not to harm or take heat from one place and send it to the other place? How to make sure there's heat everywhere?
R. You always have the source of warmth. It's the Creator and if you receive from him, it will be sufficient for the whole world to be able to immerse into this warmth.
36. S. (01:00:13) If someone that is not a friend, not in my ten, but is in Bnei Baruch, is in world Kli, should I consider him or her a friend, and if the answer is yes should I apply the same rules, the same principles as if he or she was in my ten?
R. Actually, yes.
37. S. (01:00:58) I understood from the quote that in Rosh Hashanah we need to have to turn ourselves properly, so it's like I'm raising something negative about me. How is this self-judgment different from this poor guy who is just eating his own flesh?
R. You don't need to cover yourself with the dust and curse and judge yourself, but rather you need to only aim yourself towards the love of others. That's it.
S. It speaks of a judgment of oneself.
R. That means that I judge myself to see how I can aim myself towards loving others, towards others.
38. S. (01:02:05) We say that the Rav is revealed in the connection between the friends between us, on the other hand we say that the Creator is revealed in me. Where should I expect this revelation?
R. The Creator is revealed between you, between you all together. He fills the whole space between you.
S. On the other hand, it says that it's revealed inside of me?
R. Yes.
39. S. (01:02:05) Do we only need to reveal the root that speaks in us from above or do we have to do it out of some criticism and judgment of what he's doing inside of us?
R. We need to only disclose the love among us. To just reveal the love between us, and our next stage will be the judgment that would judge the world. We judge the world, also only by the direction in which we can push it towards love, warmth, and connection.
S. Should we, in wishing a good year, is it a judgment or only to express love?
R. It's the expression of love mostly.
40. S. (01:04:25) When we are in the lesson now and we can look at and feel the question of the friends it's like this place where the friends influence each other and we can feel the color of their emotions of what the friends ask and we're exchanging like we're propagating. Can we influence that or trust completely that it's warm that propagates our emotions and the lessons? Should we just follow them or is there a way of organizing it?
R. We can both influence, bestow, and push them and demand of them, and intermingle with them. We can do many actions here since the connection between us is truly a connection that will bring us soon to a state in which we will truly feel the connection with the Creator.
Reading Excerpt #11: (01:05:54) RABASH, Letter No. 49
41. S. (01:08:35) What does it mean to choose the good because of his greatness?
R. As we try, attempt to be closer to the Creator and to his just sentences, we come to the decision that truly there is no greater justice, there is no other justice that is with him there is no other good unless it is with Him there's nothing more straight than to follow him, with their eyes shut. Then by that, we close in on all the sentences, all the judgments, and this is where he starts, a person is to judge and he must sentence and determine whether with whom is justice, with who is right.
42. S. (01:10:03) There are decisions that we've made over the years, and they're coming to life, purposeful decisions. For example, I don't waste my time on anything that's not related to the goal in my life, for example so many decisions over the years they come to be, and there are decisions about making concessions that simply are not coming to be. It doesn't matter how many times I ask, I've decided I'll make this Rosh Hashanah and this new year and ask of the ten and I feel nothing. There's no answer. Other things I can not judge by myself, I don't know, to the end of correction maybe, but how much can I wait until these disturbances will leave us? How many corrections, and how many concessions do you have to make?
R. What's the question?
S. Are there decisions that no matter how many times you make that decision, you use the ten, and then decisions purposeful for the Creator? Are there some decisions the Creator will not let you succeed in?
R. The Creator raises you to a certain height and then you decide differently.
S. I know this from other decisions, but there are some decisions that simply don't let go of you, don't change, it doesn't matter how many times you've asked, you've tried, nothing. You have the ten that supports you the most and gives you over everything, no the ego is not able to overcome.
R. The ego doesn't succeed in overcoming?
S. You decide that you, you ask and the Creator doesn't let you overcome.
R. The Creator is not letting you overcome your ego.
S. Yes.
R. Yes, well, and?
S. I don't know, I've tried everything from the bottom of my heart for years. What to do?
R. Sit and cry.
S. I've tried that also, I've said it with all my heart.
R. That didn't help either.
S. No, for years now. I'm sure it's for the benefit of the friends and the Creator, but it doesn't let me have it.
R. How do you know with certainty that it is for their benefit?
S. Because it takes my time, steals my time, my thoughts, from my work from my friends.
R. Meaning that it's an egoistic calculation, what's with my time, what's with my health, what's with my work, all those things. Okay, we will try this year to do it together.
43. S. (01:13:07) How can a person come to a state where he's truly willing to work for the sake of the Creator?
R. If he sees that with certainty that the Creator is just, is right, and I am the wicked.
S. How does he come to see it clearly?
R. He sees it.
S. Depends on his work?
R. Yes.
S. Because I heard you say in the morning that we have a lot of work and we are being lazy.
R. That's always right.
S. In what are we being lazy?
R. You don't know?
S. I have a general sense, but if I want to say that this year I'm going to improve regarding the areas where I'm being lazy and I'm not 100% sure if I know in what.
R. Try to see the whole world as being right and only you are to blame.
S. How will I have the power to do that?
R. From the Creator.
S. That's the point of laziness? That I need to see everyone is right and that I'm guilty?
R. Yes, yes why not.
S. How can I live with the feeling that I am constantly to blame?
R. That the Creator will help, but you're not coming down from that point. I am to blame for everything and then the Creator must help me hold on to that.
S. What am I to blame?
R. For everything.
S. External things, internal things, things that have to do with spiritual work?
R. Everything.
S. Okay I will try. I want to ask something else about laziness. I am trying to understand since the morning; what did you mean about that, the only thing that I think that I got is that you need to look inside instead of outside as if the work is some inner concentration rather than being distracted by these external things that suck on my energy.
R. Nice, it's already a good result.
S. Now, where do I get the energy to stay internal when the world is constantly pulling me outside?
R. Come closer to the Creator.
S. By being guilty? That's how I come close to Him?
R. Yes, specifically, but by you being guilty, you are adhering to Him and He receives you.
S. This feeling of guilt, can it grow deeper discernment's about the work?
R. Yes. Actually, there is before you a good stage.
44. S. (01:16:42) When I participated in things through the internet, I felt like I closed my eyes and opened my heart and here I understood that if you don't close your eyes the heart will not open. How to close the eyes?
R. You need to try not to see the friends through your eyes, men, and women, to see only the feeling, to the extent to which they yearn together with you for the Creator, and through this, you will connect together with them, between them and with the Creator. That's the beginning in you already and that's good.
S. Other than shame is there anything else that helps you close your eyes?
R. What helps is that feeling of joy that you're in the right direction.
S. Thank you for the opportunity to be together.
R. Okay.
45. S. (01:18:41) Today we hosted some family members and I opened my eyes and I said okay and not only are they okay, but I'm also really feeling shame here, not only are they okay each and everyone, we ask them to help with our path, one to another everybody joined in and I discovered over the years all these years that I have been studying Kabbalah, my heart is closed for them, I try to be a good sister, a good aunt. I'm still a good aunt, but everything's external, it's not internal. Before you said open the heart, now in the work in our ten we learn that we are connecting the points in the heart. The whole ten is created like a lab where we can rub against one another and feel our common hearts, so it would be a home for the Creator. What does it mean to open the heart in our path? That's the question.
R. Talk to the friends. They will tell you. It's better than me. I have talked about it many times, but I can see that it has no impact. Talk with the friends.
46. S. (01:20:28) I want to ask if the blows that we experience repeatedly are intended to soften our hearts?
R. Yes, well ask.
S. The reason I ask is because there are some blows that I get all the time, especially from family members, and I reached a point where I began to ask why is this happening all the time, and I felt that the Creator was trying to say something. I can be very, very stubborn, and I'm beginning to wonder if it's my stubbornness that I have to give up on?
R. We will learn. Now the lesson is about to end and let's ask more. A few more people that really want to get answers. They've been waiting on a question for quite some time now.
47. S. (01:21:57) The Creator gives us a heart of stone instead of the heart of flesh. Instead of a heart of stone do we start feeling the pain from the descents?
R. Yes, yes, yes nice.
48. S. (01:22:22) A friend asked earlier, beautifully, and I want to continue his question. We are following, we're going through the path of the Creator, the path of love in order to overcome our nature.
R. Yes.
S. I can see that the friend tried to hone me like a politician, very slightly, how to overcome this?
R. Try to distance yourself from him for the time being and then you'll see if you are coming closer, maybe it operates for the good. That's it.
49. S. (01:23:59) About judgment, what kind of conditions do there need to be, how to reach this judgment, is there an exercise of shorts?
R. Yes it's an exercise. We'll talk about it, it's not simple. Okay, our lesson is about to end, if someone has something that's burning.
50. S. (01:24:53) About the question of my friend from the ten, about the more I get close to the wisdom of Kabbalah and participate and do everything, my family resists and moves away from it, and it hurts my soul, what is your advice?
R. My advice is that I don't give advice. I can't give advice on such things. If the family is against it, you need to decide what to do.
S. I decided to stay here with you.
R. Then don't ask me.
S. I will ask you.
R. No, I won't give an answer, for our women, I don't give answers to that. Men must continue and search for the Creator. That's according to the judgment of the Torah.
S It's not my husband, it's the kids.
R. Your children? Whatever you accept as your family.
S. I decide?
R. Yes, you decide.
51. S. (01:26:18) Does it please the Creator that we're doing the right thing, that we connect?
R. Of course.
S. What does it mean that he's pleased? That he's happy?
R. That is happy? Do you want to feel that he's happy?
S. Yes.
R. Come close to Him and you will feel his joy.
52. S. (01:26:44) I hear that we're starting the year with a desire for connection with everyone and embrace with everyone this warmth between everyone as if up to now we focus only in our ten. Seemingly what's revealed in the ten after we connect in the ten will connect between the tens until we connect all of Bnei Baruch and the whole world. Are we working on two levels or the whole work in the ten or maybe between the ten or I don't know everything has to be toward the connection to the world Kli, a strong one.
R. In stages.
S. But in the preparation for the lesson we said that our intention is for all of us to be collected and connected as one, men, women, it doesn’t matter. We close our eyes and open our hearts.
R. Yes.
S. Seemingly in the work outside the lesson we connect strongly between us and the ten?
R. Yes.
S. When we're not in the lesson, do we connect strongly between us in the ten and pray that all of Bnei Baruch will connect strongly?
R. Yes, there's no change.
S. There's no change in us, bottom line?
R. No change.
S. The fact that I feel guilty, like you said to a friend, that she feels guilty about everything?
R. That's for sure I agree with you.
S. My guilt goes over me throughout the day and I'm thinking how to behave and I'm not okay and I know that I'm running it for the whole world Kli.
R. Yes.
S. My judgment is not only relative to my ten but a problem with the general soul.
R. Your judgment is the judgment of the whole world.
S. The whole world?
R. You're responsible for the whole world.
S. The corrections don't start from a ten also from everyone?
R, From your heart, the correction begins from your heart.
S. How do we do it now, so that the Creator will be a guarantor that this will correct our hearts this year completely? All of us? My heart depends on everyone’s heart. If I don't want everyone’s hearts to be corrected?
R. I don't know what to tell you. Pray for it. It will truly be something immense, huge, global. I am with you.
S. The correction for each and every one of us is to pray for the heart of each and every one?
R. For everyone.
S. Thank you.
R. Thank you very much, it was very pleasant and we will do many more such meetings, and certainly, we will embrace. We will embrace.