Morning Lesson August 27, 2021 Transcription
Part 1:
Annulling Before the Upper One - Selected Excerpts From the Sources, #50
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1. Rav’s Introduction: Yes, we nevertheless have to locate our point of adhesion with the higher force, the Creator. This is the matter of annulling before the upper one at a single point and then enlarging the adhesion, the annulment to him more and more until we reach a state where we will become like him. In this annulment to the Creator there are all kinds of degrees, the whole of creation is arranged according to these degrees, still, vegetative and animate and in those there is no feeling that they are annulling before the Creator, meaning there is no intention. They do not understand that their annulment before nature before the Creator is the same thing. That they annulment before nature out of the fact that they keep the commandments of nature that awaken in them. This is their life. Either they feel a bit better or less good, this does not matter but without any agreement, without any understanding, without any scrutiny or any criticism over what they are keeping but rather this is what nature wants from them, this is how it is leading them. As we see especially with animals, the way they operate towards the babies and their little offspring without knowing what is leading them, what is moving them, and this is how they act. This is how people also operate, it says about them, they all seemed like beasts.
That they are operating according to their lacks, the commandments that nature reveals in them. There are other people in whom there is an anti-Creator force, opposite to the Creator, they do not want, they are not capable of keeping the commandments of nature that awaken in them. Those commandments that wake up in them do not seem to them as though they are theirs but rather it is some kind of pressure from outside, some for control therefore specifically that point which is the opposite of the will to receive that exists in the still, vegetative, and animate and also people who belong to the animate level. That is the opposite of that which we call the ‘point in the heart’ which is the Godly point from above. Then those people exist in a situation, where they cannot be like others. There are not that many such people, thousands altogether. Let's say in our time, that they are being revealed and surely more and more will be revealed because we are in the process of the last generation and later on the end of correction. Nevertheless, it is a minority. What is special about those people? That they have an impulse to keep to some extent nature's commandments and those things that do not truly belong to or have to do with nature they feel them as the drive, as a foreign control and they do not want to keep them.
On all different kinds of levels this exists. From them came all kinds of people who were drawn to revolutions in culture, education, science in human society. Most important are people who cannot be like everybody related to religion, how to accept the upper force, the upper governance. And how we can arrange our relations with it. Here we need to understand how to do it. Usually, specifically those people who have on the one hand a passion towards godliness, god Elokim in Gematria numerology is HaTeva, nature. They want to understand how nature operates, how it accompanies us, and where it is pulling up to, what is happening to us within this life and above this life. We need to understand mostly this inner engine that exists in nature. Here we have many questions, but the most important to our topic is the matter of Lishma ‘for her sake is the matter of bestow, the matter of faith as the Kabbalists mean those people who are on the fourth degree of man's development. In them there are also the degrees of Shoresh, Aleph, Gimmel, Daled, 0, 1, 2, 3, 4 and this is why we need to see how we develop on those levels. What is the most interesting is what happens in this development.
The more we want to advance in reaching the understanding of the Creator, adhesion with Him, we feel how much we do not want it. We reject it. How much we are not capable of accepting Him. We have some kind of inner resistance to Him. We disagree with this this control that it exists, and here we will have to reach states of despair, helplessness, inability to come closer and to understand that it is possible to do so only on the condition that we surrender and the annulment, the submission is in that we accept the greatness of the Creator more than one's own greatness of the person. That each person tries to depict the greatness of the Creator in such a way above his own greatness. We could say here that all people can say this. Everyone on the face of the earth can say that if the Creator exists that say so, of course he is greater than the people because he arranges everything, he turns everything, his glory fills the world as we say, so who is the one who turns the sun and the moon and the entire universe and each and every one of us. Of course the one who does that is the Creator and if so then he is great and wise and strong and in general He is above everything. He is a degree that is higher than everyone. It is true on the one hand, but on the other hand how can we determine that he is great?
Here we were given the issue of our ego. I have created the evil inclination, says the Creator. That He created the ego deliberately so that we do not just surrender before the upper force so that He without our reason is turning us and pulling us, managing us but we with our own forces even though we have for this no force that is compelling us perhaps we make ourselves lesser than Him. We accept His authority, we accept His control and we begin to do that in practice. This is how we build the greatness of the Creator by ourselves 'as you have me'. We, upon all of the states that we go through, we build above ourselves the image of the Creator. This is where the greatness of the Creator depends entirely on the environment and we have many articles about this. We have already gone through them and we can go through them again. As much as the person is incorporated into the environment he can depict to himself more and more through his impression from the friends that the Creator is great. When the Creator seems great, when the person depicts him in such a way this is called 'you have made me' and that person can subjugate himself before the Creator and perform actions which are not what his ego is doing but what the Creator seemingly demands. In that way we can already begin to detect, to build our relation to our reason and what is above our reason and what is above our reason we call it faith. This is how we build the degree of faith above reason and this is how we advance.
I do not want to elaborate on this more today, this is enough every day we get a certain portion and later through the day we need to chew this and to swallow it to digest it. What we need to do now is to go over all of the verses we selected. This is called the entrance into faith above reason. The most important thing is it works in a very special way you can establish this, I have a desire and I live inside this desire and according to this desire I do not feel like doing anything besides what I want and I reach a state when I am entirely incapable of doing something that I do not want. If once I was able to depict that I am studying, I am working, I am performing certain actions above my desire seemingly against my desire when I was younger now more and more I realize that I am willing to do only what I want and if I do not want it, that I am not capable of forcing myself to do something I will go through hoops in the air. I will do anything only not to do actions that I do not want. If I want to do something which earlier I did not want to do, then I do that. Meaning everything works according to the desire inside the desire only. Here there is a question: if in such a state where I see that I am operating only inside of the desire and I do something above the desire. Above the desire I can do something for someone if I respect Him above my desire to want something but I discover such importance, let's say of the importance of the Creator. Then I do something that it is clear to me, that it is He who is doing it and it is not me. Then I have my reason that I want and think and what I am capable of doing and then there is His reason that He is capable of proposing to me and I need to do it.
Then I have a problem with that. Maybe I will get such examples of how to perform actions that I don't even want to do but because I suddenly feel that it is coming from him. These commands, they come from him, they come from the Creator that's on one hand and on the other hand, it could be that I myself depict this such a way that I get in spite of my desire some revelation of the Creator's desire. I can run away from this maybe but I depict them in a different way. That He exists above me in importance, in my appreciation that is not like that he is threatening me with punishment. Instead he simply is greater, more whole, more understanding, more feeling, he is more dignified in the end in my eyes and then his greatness and this actually obligates me to carry out actions that he appreciates and not that my will to receive appreciates if I can do this in such a way on these two levels where there is my importance regarding what to do in my life and what the Creator thinks but the Creator prefers what I do in life. If I respect the Creator more it is considered that I am going with faith above reason. In such a way I can develop this approach and grow more and more. There is a lot more to say about this. Do I request a reward for this or the fact that I go along with the Creator’s will is already a reward? That I am getting the force to carry out these actions above my reason. This is already a reward. There is a lot more to scrutinize here but actually let us try to establish this thing inside us. Let's see the next writing
Excerpt 50 (20:45)
2. S. (23:01) In the discussion in the 10 we came to the conclusion that it is not each before oneself but also for the Rav we are not succeeding at annulling? What should we do?
R. Make Him a force of ascent, to connect together and realize that what you feel is a feeling of a correct state from above and are being shown where you are and then ask for an ascent.
3. S. (23:53) Do we have to be vigilant because many times we separate ourselves from the desire that is controlled by the Creator and make a decision to go above it, how do we do this?
R. I don't quite understand the state you are portraying. The most important thing for us is to understand that rising above my will to receive, I can do by executing the general desire of the group. This is the simple solution.
4. S. (24:54) What's the difference between singular authority and the authority of the Creator and how to get to the authority of the Creator?
R. About this the Kabbalists tell us in the articles what we are supposed to do in the group. This is called that all kinds of actions of bestowal that you want to carry out from you to the environment. These are actually the same actions that are desirable in the eyes of the Creator and the Kabbalists are telling you about it so you try to do it. See to what extent you are capable or not capable to do this. How much you are doing this because of necessity, because of shame or because you do want to perform these actions because they are good in the eyes of the group and in the eyes of the Creator so try to sort them out in such a way.
5. S. (26:21) Why does a person feel weaker the more he advances on the path?
R. Our desire always shows us how much greater it is and how much it is only for itself because one who is greater than his friend his evil is greater and this is how it is going to be on the path more and more until you start to get to meet along that path with the Klipot, the shells that are truly the opposite of the Creator. They are against the Creator, against everything. These are really great spiritual forces. This is natural because the more we advance the more the corrupted will to receive is revealed more.
6. S. (27:26) Personally I find it very difficult to work above reason, the only way I manage to work is only if I received a very strong strengthening from the group from them and is this normal this way?
R. This is normal and it is very good for the time being please keep going like that.
7. S. (28:00) If a person works for the greatness of the Creator and receives the greatness of the Creator, is that not already working with a reason doesn't it cancel his reason, above reason?
R. It depends on what style of the greatness of the Creator he is working with. You can say that greatness of the Creator belongs to all the people who believe in all kinds of forms they are depicting to themselves; they are also in the greatness of the Creator. This is referring to the greatness of the Creator that is revealed above and against my egoistic will to receive that is not allowing me to work with the greatness of the Creator and I do have to establish for myself the greatness of the Creator to give me the possibility to rise above my own nature.
S. Is it something I build on the way?
R. Of course it is something I build.
8. S. (29:34) On the same points, it turns out that there is no such thing as the above reason, only the calculation where I benefit more if I take a greater reason than myself. I do not understand how this calculation is above reason?
R. Keep poking into this and you will see what it is but don't stop exploring
9. S. (30:06) How to feel what the creator wants to prefer his desire?
R. The Creator wants you to rise above your ego and to perform acts of bestowal, love, connection about your ego. This is what the Creator wants for you and to reach to some extent to resemble him.
Excerpt 51 (30:49)
10. R. (33:56) Here there is a question, how can we establish the Masach, the screen? How can we envision the screen? We need the will to receive, Aviut coarseness. This we have, it was given to us. Maybe we have to direct it more correctly to the Creator, to spirituality, to the worlds who knows, but nevertheless we have to understand what Aviut, coarseness is. The second condition for us to have a spiritual vessel is to have coarseness and the screen. What is this screen, where do we get this from? How can we begin to develop this? This is the question. Indeed in the process of developing the screen, we are in this point called Ibur, impregnation. When we become impregnated in the upper one we start to annul before the upper one and then the upper one begins according to our annulment to take care of us, to develop us. Then what he does is that he builds a screen in us. This is the ability to receive from the upper one only according to what we decide in contrast to the upper one. Therefore, we might say that we exist in the Creator right now however entirely without being separated from him as if we were just like the still, vegetative and animate, meaning we are not something that is in contrast to him. When we start to grow in the Ibur impregnation, we have to become separated from the upper one, meaning to start receiving our own desire, our own yearning, our own qualities, our own form and shape. As it says that 'He makes a form within a form' and so this is what we need to get inside the Ibur, that on one hand we are opposite to the upper one. This is even though we exist inside the Creator on one hand, on the other hand we are opposite to him, we are independent of him and this way we can grow. He says here that the second condition is to have a Masach screen that is not to receive according to one’s great desire, not according to what we want and think and are attracted to but instead one craves to get pleasure and delight according to what the Creator will get pleasure from. I am willing to work with myself even with my own pleasure but only with the condition that by this I give contentment to the Creator which is called 'receiving in order to give contentment to one's maker".
11. S. (37:53) What is an action about my ego and how to perform such an operation for the benefit of the 10?
R. The actions above my ego I can do even on the corporeal level. Let's say I don't want to come to the lesson, I don't want to come to the environment to the 10 and all kinds of other actions but I do that nevertheless even though I do not want to. Here comes the question, either I do this because maybe I am ashamed, how can I not come or that I make a calculation with my spiritual work where it says that I have to take into consideration the 10 and what they are doing or maybe I have to feel on my own that all my advancement depends on the 10. These are the calculations or I do the calculations that by me being connected to the 10 we come to such states between us that we annul all of the earthly calculations that I need to support them and they support me in some way that we are a 10 and that we exist only in order above that earthly connection between us to give contentment to the Creator. Therefore you see that there are a lot to do here with these connections in the 10. Try to check each time where you are, what attracts you accordingly you will advance.
12. S. (40:25) How can we exist in two states, one state is that we annul before the Creator trying to accept his authority, his control and on the other hand we have to be independent?
R. Well, the fact that we want to nullify our ego towards the Creator that we do because this ego we do not feel as our own instead it was given to us so above it we can define our relationship to the Creator and then as I rise above my ego and I want to ascribe myself to the Creator. I do not feel that by doing so I lose something of my own because all in all that ego was given, I created the evil information as the Creator says, in order to work above it and we would be able to establish above it, above the ego. Meaning to disconnect from the ego and above it start the contact with the Creator.
13. S. (42:05) What are these two states when we work in the 10?
R. When I feel my Aviut to the extent that my Aviut is a big and son the other hand to the extent I can work against this Aviut coarseness rising above it and as if I have some force that can raise me above the ground. That is the force that works against the Aviut which works against the Masach, the screen.
14. S. (42:57) The first condition of having coarseness, what is this coarseness and how to aim this correctly?
R. This is not my problem. I yearn for the Creator even though I do not know who he is. What it is within the group as it is written in the books and the way it is revealed I do not know. I do not do my work in place of the Creator
15. S. (43:40) You said that first we are born inside of the Creator and then he develops as and gives as a screen, what does it mean to be born formed inside the Creator?
R. We always exist inside the Creator and from that we grow until we disconnect from him. We want to be independent, we want to be responsible. I start to differentiate within me two forces. This is my will to receive and I rise above it and do something which is opposite it in order to bring contentment to the Creator and rise above the will to receive with the measure of importance of the Creator in my eyes.
S. The way in me rising above the will to receive, does it mean that I do the opposite to the Creator?
R. I don't know what you are talking about. I have the will to receive, I want to absorb whatever it was as usual in life but I try to assemble within me the importance of the Creator and to do something in me that is important for him and not for me. This is how I rise above my will to receive and this is how I adhere to the Creator.
S. What does it mean the importance of the Creator? Can you explain, is this a feeling of being immersed in him or being dependent on him? What is the importance of the Creator?
R. The importance of the Creator means that I see him as one unique and individual force that operates in the whole of reality except me where he is fulfilling the whole world and I am in this same world. I have some bubble that I am in and I can be independent of him and continue to exist that way until I start to want to destroy this Klipot. The shell of that bubble I am in and to start being a drop of semen that does not enter into development in the womb but instead I want to enter into the development in the upper one and then I tear this bubble that I am in and I emerge out of it and I begin more and more to incorporate into the Creator. Independency
16. S. (47:33) Earlier you said that we need to grow the Masach (screen) within us. What does it mean to grow the screen, you've always said whether you have it or you don’t have it?
R. If I am in my will to receive and from it I want to observe only that which I want, and in order to stop this process and begin a more spiritual process, I must take into account the greatness of the Creator more than the greatness of myself. And I work on that as much as possible and even beyond that, and to the extent to which I can depict to myself the greatness of the Creator above my greatness, that He is more superior, upper, meaning higher up, greater, then I can do actions that He demands of me, acts of bestowal and connection, and love. Then it’s considered that I rise or ask for the Creator to raise me to Him, that’s how it works.
S. What does it mean to grow, to develop the screen? What does it mean that the screen grows? If I understand correctly, the main issue here is that we start to develop, to grow something?
R. Yes. From time to time, we are more and more concerned and care for our desire so that we would be able to rise to the state of in order to bestow, to the upper one, to bestowal, to faith above reason. This all describes for us the power, the intensity of the Masach (screen).
17. S. (50:25) What is the abundance of the light and pleasure in spirituality?
R. It’s where I receive within me the feeling of the Creator, the upper force, the force of bestowal and love, and this is what begins to fill me. That’s it. It’s not understood? Imagine to yourself that you're a guy and you love some gal and then you have such feelings about her that you do not want to eat, and you don’t want anything, you just want to be next to her, to hear her, for that will fill you. Say that it’s not realistic, it is realistic, many people feel this. So there is a corporeal pleasure and there’s a spiritual pleasure, so there is this and that. So we need to long for spiritual pleasure, for us to be filled with the greatness of the Creator with His essence which is bestowal that fills us and gives us fulfilment to all our vessels. Because really, our vessels, other than food, sex, family, we can’t fill them anymore but with the greatness of the Creator.
18. S. (52:44) It is written that the first condition for the Kli (vessel) to receive the abundance is to grow the Aviut (coarseness)? Do we need to do special things to grow this Aviut? Because in the beginning years of study, it was very recognizable that you have resistance to go to the group, to friends. But after many years of study, like this habit becomes second nature and the downside of it is that the habit wears off. Do we need to search for this Aviut or is it all arranged from above, are there certain things we can do about this?
R. What coarseness (Aviut) are you talking about, what do you mean? Which one, rejection?
S. Yes, rejection or even the real coarseness, real rejection, resistance.
R. The true resistance, the true rejection will grow, and each time we need to rise above it until we will be similar to the students of Rabbi Shimon who wanted to burn and kill each other because they were on very high spiritual degrees and when they fell, they fell to the depths of the abyss truly. That's the development, that’s how development is.
S. There is a fear that is like to remain on the parking lot, that there is not enough growth. And when we read these excerpts, that the main condition for the Kli (vessel) to receive abundance is to grow this Aviut (coarseness), do we need to do it more actively to become like the men in the cave of Rabbi Shimon?
R. No, we need not to be concerned with raising the coarseness. It will grow to the extent to which we will want to rise and be more connected between us, and to the Creator. According to that, the coarseness will be added to us, we don’t need to be concerned with the left line. That the Creator, each time, where He says “I have created the evil inclination’’, He adds more to us. That’s clear?
19. S. (55:40) Is the Masach (screen), I am wondering this Masach, is it the Kli (vessel) of bestowal, let’s say the Masach itself or does the Masach form the Kli of bestowal by the Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light)?
R. The Masach is a vessel of bestowal. Yes, because it's the Masach and the coarseness, the screen is connected to the coarseness and together the screen and the Aviut (coarseness) build together the vessel of bestowal, where to begin with are not in the creature but only in such a way in the combination of the restriction, the Masach upon the Aviut that’s what makes it a vessel of bestowal because it’s operating against its own will. That’s clear.
S. What is the Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light), then? Because, actually, if you have the screen, you can make Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light) and Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light) also builds a Kli (vessel) of bestowal? You need to have a screen to have Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light) or is it the other way round?
R. Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light) is the result of the reality of the screen (Masach). He doesn't exist without the Masach (screen), it’s a result of the existence of the Masach (screen).
S. What forms the Kli (vessel) of bestowal, it’s Ohr Hozer (reflected/returning light), isn't it?
R. The reflected light is a result, it’s the result.
20. S. (57:53) Where is the pleasure for the creature because reception is not pleasure? My experience is its pain? But if the reflected light, the screen (Masach) is bestowal, is the pleasure for the creature in similarity of form with the Creator?
R. Yes, that is the true pleasure. Because altogether we attain the Creator, the degree of the Creator and from that we attain the wholeness, the perfection of creation, and that’s exactly what we are built for. Our will to receive is filled and enjoys, and comes down, and receives satisfaction, complete satisfaction only in the attainment of the Creator because it was built by Him. Clear?
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21. S. (59:05) What helps us in the 10 to strengthen the greatness of the Creator? Should would be a common feeling or an individual feeling?
R. That needs to be in mutual support of all of the friends towards one another. If we don't have that, no one will be able to attain any spiritual attainment, any spiritual discernment.
22. S. (59:42) I heard you say that actually, even now, we exist in the Creator but we are entirely not separated from Him. So, when we start growing in the Ibur (impregnation), we should become separated from the upper one as it says ‘’makes a form within a form’’, it seems to be the opposite? What does it mean that we need to become separated from the upper one, I thought we need to annul within Him?
R. Look, there are many depictions of how we can depict our state. I said today that we are like in some bubble, yes, and in it we can exist. When we are in this bubble, we are in the Creator, but each in his bubble, in his egoistic bubble just like he describes to us from the allegory with the radish. And then, it turns out that we need to somehow, if we emerge from our bubble, each and every one of us, that way starts to feel that we are in the upper general force, the great force which is the Creator, the upper light. If we don't emerge from that bubble then we continue to exist just like each and every one, every person, lives inside himself, and that’s it. Now, still, vegetative and animal, cannot get out of their bubbles even though they all exist that way and they do it only in accordance with man, to the extent man needs them for his spiritual advancement. So, what we need to do is to exit our egoistic bubble. And that’s what we’re doing now, how to breach, to emerge from the egoistic shell that is closing us in.
S. Why is that considered making a form within a form?
R. Here we can't quite do that yet, meaning without showing ourselves in this, but the Creator does this, He forms the form of bestowal within the form of reception.
23. S. (01:02:50) We should help each other and if not, it will be impossible to reach this annulment and all of the consecutive steps that we now have to do. Should we ask the 10 to talk about this and this should be our main worry in the 10? Because sometimes we fail like the Creator, we don't want to speak about this, I mean, really, it feels so hard to speak with the friends, ‘friends let’s talk about this, please, Rav said’. How can we do this, Rav? How to support, wait for the friends to wake up that don’t want to talk about how we can help each other?
R. Only through the support that we talked about, I don’t quite understand you. You are with us for dozens of years, so I don’t understand the question.
S. Sometimes we ask the friends that we should talk about how we can help each other. But it seems that nobody says ‘yes, OK, let’s do this and that’. Should we, in this case, think that the Creator is the one I have to annul myself even more?
R. What he’s asking, is it clear to anyone?
S. He is saying that we need to talk about the greatness of the Creator and the importance of the Creator but sometimes in the 10 it doesn't happen, we run sideways. So, should we annul before that we’re running sideways, people are running on different sideways and still remain connected, how to relate to it?
R. It is best to always establish the greatness of the Creator and measure ourselves against that, all the time. It is like in all measurements, when we are building something there is some measuring point from which we start, a mark from which we measure everything else. So, that’s what we need to do. The Creator is the center, He’s the foundation, the source, and we can't get to know His absolute form. But if we build Him, as much as possible, and locate Him for the time being, for us then by that we establish ourselves each time in a new, more supreme, more upper state.
S. This particular advice, Rav, you are giving us, you have to help each other. So, how can we start with the friends discussing this? How can we bend the friends to less work, less think, let’s do something to help each other?
R. Yes, you can talk about that, not about the inner feelings of each and every one but about how you can depict the Creator and the connection between you. About that, certainly you can talk, just like Rabash writes here, only in several cases, he goes and opens for us their hearts. Just like he talks about the long distance that there is between the friends and the feet are dancing, and there too, he does this in order to awaken them. But actually, he was very closed, he was very closed.
S. Sometimes you give us an advice that we have to discuss something and the 10 doesn't really discuss it. So, to what extent can we come there and push the friends to discuss Rav’s advice because the friends, seemingly, the advice just dissolved and we don’t do anything? To what extent is it possible to pull the friends, to obligate him, to pressure them? What should we do out of this excitement?
R. I understand him, he’s a very serious man. I would say that we need to discuss, but write down exactly what Rav said, and scrutinize what he said so it will be clear to all the friends in the group. And then, discuss it to the extent to which each and every one understands it differently, from his style, according to his state that he is in right now, and as much as we can establish in all times and in all states that what Rav said. Meaning for us to see the dynamics of the group around that condition that the Rav said. That really helps the advancement in the group because it connects us in many more connections, it lets us build between us many lines of connections, strings of connections that later become the Masach (screen). Roberto, whenever you want to ask, please, I will be happy to help.
24. S. (01:09:57) Do we build the screen through our prayers for the friends and for the connection?
R. Yes, of course.
S. Does the prayer change all the time and accordingly the screen changes?
R. No, this screen (Masach) collects all of those prayers, joins them together and it's built from that. The Masach (screen) is a certain integral force which we establish all together between us to the Creator. As much as we can cancel ourselves, each nullifies and concedes before the other, build the common force between us, by it we raise to the Creator and from that we beget a Masach (screen).
25. S. (01:11:17) How within us is born the desire to work in spirituality? Where does it come from?
R. It’s a miracle, a miracle. That I, let’s say for many years, feel that I want just to receive, then I am willing to even connect with others, and it takes years. Well, in our times, it could be months but nevertheless it’s a long time. Then, I suddenly start to feel that there are two floors, two levels, from which I need to be, included in, incorporated in, operating in. Those two floors are my desire, as usual, which I live in and in it I was constantly yearning to receive influences from above and to advance this way. Meaning, I constantly think that my spirituality needs to come into my corporeal desire and I get annoyed and angry, and ask and pray, expect for the Creator to clothe in me, in that same desire that I'm in. I couldn’t imagine that there could be in me some other desire. And later, I started to feel that desire within which the Creator can enter and appear me somewhat. To the start, that's the desire that is not mine with which I was born and developed, and my feeling and my intellect, but rather it’s a different desire. It’s a desire that is built above my desire which I build in resistance, in a clash with my desire, to the extent in which I begin now to build the Creator above myself, where the greatness of the Creator is greater than the importance of myself, than my will to receive. How is that possible? That’s how it comes and that’s how I start to feel that this is how I can build in me another state, another special relation towards the Creator where I have my importance and I want something in this, and above that I erect, I arrange the importance in the degree of the Creator. In our corporeal life we can depict it as if a mother and a child, let's say the mother is very tired and she falls to bed at the end of the day, completely exhausted, and the baby starts crying and demanding something, and she can feel according to his voice that he wants, that he is demanding. And, she is incapable of getting up, she’s truly incapable, but she rises, she gets up and does what he wants with great patience. That’s nature, we understand that nature obliges her to do so. We call this not nature in us, but rather the greatness of the Creator where I don't want to do anything except for what I want but I decided that if I do something against my desire because the Creator, His desire is greater in me than my desire. Then, I have for sure two desires, two degrees; my desire, one degree and the desire of the Creator, degree two. And I do what He wants upon my desire. This force that I want to do what the Creator wants and not what I want, is called faith above reason. This is how we build two levels, two floors. From this, the spiritual Kli (vessel) is built, in the feeling of the Aviut (coarseness), the restriction, the Masach (screen), the reflected light, and this is how we build ourselves.
26. S. (01:17:14) The coarseness is when I collect the deficiencies of the friends or build the greatness?
R. Both. When I am incorporated in the deficiencies of the others, I am doing this by appreciating them. I don't only hear and appreciate myself but instead of feeling myself I want to feel them and I want to work with their deficiency. My deficiency I lower it and place it as an infrastructure over which I can work with their deficiency. Above them I will reach the Creators deficiency. And if I do it, then as it is written make your desires His desire, and then the Creator bestows back to me.
27. S. (01:18:49) How to feel the screen of the 10 that each one needs to pay attention to the intention?
R. As much as you try to implement what I was speaking about earlier you will feel that you are able to establish above your incorporation a common screen.
S. Is there a way to check that we are bringing contentment to the Creator with our actions?
R. If you will come to a stage where you can delight the Creator. In practice, of course you are already delighting Him, but like a baby who doesn't know that he is delighting his mother with everything, just by his existence, she is getting pleasure from that. But if you want to know that you are giving the Creator pleasure, you need to activate yourself in a more directed and intentional way to try and cause Him pleasure, and then you will feel the reaction from Him, that he enjoys your intentional action towards Him. This is done through the connection in the group and by aiming everything at the Creator. With the first act of mutual guarantee you will begin to feel it.
28. S. (01:20:54) The Creator gave us the mind to aim our desires and work in the wisdom of Kabbalah and we thank the Creator for the mind that he gave us, so that we can learn. The importance of the Creator appears when I resist my desires?
R. Yes exactly. As much as I can see that I would have liked to have done such and such action, but according to the desire to the upper one to bestow I need to do something else, that one on top of the other, as much as I can do through small actions, by that I come to raising the Creator, making Him greater. It can be through tiny actions where my will to receive is aiming me to do one thing or another and I do it so that from all of these small actions I will be able to delight the Creator. Each and every action I am doing, even those mechanical actions I do them either from my ego or because I can aim those actions in order to give contentment to the Creator. If I can perform corporeal actions it doesn't even matter which kind, and I intend to use them to give contentment to the Creator, those actions also fall under the actions of bestowal. But we mainly need to do it in a relationship between the friends, the friends and the Creator where my will to receive is working especially hard.
29. S. (01:23:57) What is the difference between deep devotion and annulment?
R. I don't think there is a difference, you should check it and let me know.
30. S. (01:24:23) What does it mean to determine to come in contact with the Creator about the ego in the work with the 10?
R. We just spent two hours talking about it and now you're asking? I'm not certain what to tell you.
31. S. (01:24:46) In our state where we try to nullify but still can't, can we feel joy already or it comes only on the condition that we succeeded?
R. I am not sure you are making efforts to annul yourself and you can't. You need to arrange for yourself a certain situation where you have to rise above it and do something against your desire along with the group's desire or along with the Creator's desire, if you understand what it is, and then you need to decide what you do. Either you are working according to your desire called your ego or you are working according to the Creator's desire which is called the force of faith, the force of Bina. In this way each time, to try to imagine yourself that you are moving from fulfilling, from carrying out your desire, to carrying out His desires. Not in every state that you see in the world but rather especially in the connection between the friends. There it will become very clear whether you're keeping your desire or the Creator's desire because the Creator’s desire is love and your desire from the outset is rejection, repulsion, hate and control.
S. What is the sign that I make action for Him and not for me?
R. The sign should be the joy that you discover.
32. S. (01:26:55) How do we know we are depicting the true image of the Creator?
R. You should begin to work and it will become clear to us that we are working correctly or working in the imagination. We are not letting go of this matter although we just went through one or two verses, we are not coming down from it. We are merely opening and developing this topic more and more. So don't worry. We will scrutinize it through the many states that will come to us and God willing, advance us.